April 10, 2014

This entry is part 7 of 19 in the Adventures of Lucky and Lizzie

“I think I did something wrong.”

“You think? Honey, you’re a man. You did something wrong. You ate the apple.”

“That’s not–Brenda, I’m serious here.”

“Oh. Serious. Okay, how did you piss her off this week?”

“How’d you know I was talking about Elizabeth?”

“Because she’s the only subject you get serious about. Well…serious with me. Anyway, so what did you do? Let Courtney lick you? Not call off Carly? Did you reject her advances?”

“She said I love you and I said that’s nice.”

“Wow.”

“Brenda–”

“I mean, wow. That’s…that’s…wow.”

“Can you stop wow’ing and help me out here?”

“I think you’re beyond help. I sincerely hope she smacked the shit out of you and walked away.”

“She said okay and I walked her home. This was the same night her apartment was ransacked so maybe she forgot–”

“A woman does not forget telling her boyfriend the three words and getting that’s nice back! Stupid male!”

“Ow! Damn it, Brenda that hurts! Don’t throw books with hard covers.”

“You idiot. You love her. You’ve been in love with her for like a year and you finally get to tell her and you choke?”

“Damn it, Brenda, stop hitting me!”

“Well, stop being an idiot!”

“Just tell me how to fix this. Can I just…explain it to her?”

“Okay, first of all, you can’t explain this. Because you still ruined the moment.”

“Brenda–”

“You cannot walk up to her and say, hey sorry about my being a freaking moron but I love you.”

“Why not?”

“Because the first time you do the love thing, it’s supposed to be special and you fucked it up. So now you have to make it special!”

“Well, how am I supposed to do that? I suck at this relationship thing!”

“I’ll say. It’s been eight months, you haven’t taken her to bed, you haven’t moved in together–”

“I’m taking it slow. I want this to work.”

“Slow sucks. She needs something from you. So, here’s what you’re going to do. You’re going to ask her to move in with you.”

“I’m not ready for that.”

“Oh…for fuck’s sake.”

“She’s a virgin, Brenda. I think that should matter. I want to make sure it’s right for both of us.”

“Okay, okay, be a freak. Tell her to move in to the guest bedroom. If she’s half the woman I think she is, that won’t last long anyway.”

“What’s this?”

“Never mind. It’s a girl thing. Okay, and then, we plan something…Valentine’s Day is in a few months. If she can stick it out with you that long, we’ll plan a whole production and you can make a heartfelt love thing then.”

“What if she doesn’t stick it out that long?”

“A good desperate confession of love as she walks out the door will work too.”

“Okay. You’re sure about this?”

“Have I ever steered you wrong?”

“Well–”

“Okay, okay, no need to go into details. Get to work. We’ll see if we can salvage this.”

pastI intend to sleep in tomorrow and then work on my paper, so I’m doing my posting before I pass out for the night. A large update for you if you like that sort of thing. I decided to go ahead and post the lost fic, Surviving the Past, with a heavy background note regarding the history of the story and a caveat about story quality. There are very few stories from 2002 that don’t end up in my Fiction Graveyard, but this isn’t one of them. So, of that story, I posted the first four chapters.

toomanyI also posted Chapter Six of A Few Words Too Many. I’m really happy about the response to this story so far, and I can’t wait for you guys to read the rest of the story. I’ve written up to and including Chapter Fifteen, so my plan is to be finished it before I run out of chapters to post and have to work on a deadline 😛

daughtersI also posted Chapters Four & Five of Daughters. I have thirteen more chapters to repost before you get the final three chapters. Much of the later revisions are few typos and organizational details, so they’ll be coming a lot faster now, probably one or two a day.

 

 

A Note: Please remember that I live in London, which means I’m five hours ahead of EST time, so for me this is Thursday 😛

This entry is part 6 of 24 in the A Few Words Too Many

And I claw for solid ground
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of Grace, Sarah McLachlan

Monday, May 19, 2003

 General Hospital: Kelly Lee’s Office

After a month of pretending to be carrying Jason Morgan’s child, Elizabeth wished that she could have some of the benefits that title ought to bring. Like having Jason at a doctor’s appointments. She’d had one shortly after starting this debacle, but she’d gone alone and had had to struggle to fill out forms with the father’s medical history.

She’d had to deal with Monica and Alan cornering her outside the appointment, and asking questions about her child, wondering if Jason would allow them to be part of his child’s life. She’d had to deal with Emily’s angry stares as the medical student passed her during her rounds.

She’d had to deal with the whispers of people wondering if she’d tricked Jason Morgan into believing this was his child because he had more money than Ric Lansing, who had slunk out of town and disappeared. He was off the radar, and tension was building in Elizabeth’s world, because this was exactly what she was afraid of. Ric was gone, and the world believed she was having Jason’s baby. This ridiculous plan had no exit strategy.

And here she was again. For her first ultrasound, now that she had money to pay for such things. She was nervous about seeing her child on the screen for the first time, hoping that she could actually understand what she was looking at, and praying she would feel connected to this child that had changed her life, and caused her jeans feel slightly more snug than they had just two weeks ago.

She was doing this alone, and knew the world would pity her. Jason may have claimed her baby, and people might believe it, but other than checking in with her guards and having someone set up an account so that she could pay her hospital bills, she had barely seen the alleged father. He told her he was chasing down leads on Ric, but Elizabeth thought he might be regretting even getting involved.

“It’s you and me, kid, against the world,” she murmured, her hand on her abdomen. “I won’t promise to be an amazing mother, but I’ll do my best.”

The door popped open and a perky blonde entered, wearing some sort of stuffed animals fastened at her wrist. “Hello! I’m Nadine Crowell.” She thrust her hand out. “Kelly’s running late, and she asked me to get you set up.”

“Okay.” Elizabeth leaned back on the table and sighed. “Are you new? You weren’t here last time.”

“I just started two weeks ago. I moved here from Manhattan.” Nadine smiled and reached for the blood pressure cup. “I was glancing at your chart before I came in. Your first baby, you must be so excited!”

Elizabeth looked at this friendly woman, with her bright smiles and enthusiastic eyes and she felt tears burning in her eyes. “I guess you haven’t lived here long enough yet to know the answer to that.”

Nadine frowned and fitted the cup on her arm. “Oh, you mean the hospital gossip about you being knocked up by the local alleged mob enforcer while you were dating other people.” When Elizabeth just blinked at her, Nadine shrugged. “I don’t see what that has to do with being excited. Sure it’s a crazy situation, but does that mean you can’t be happy about your baby? My Aunt Rayleen always said that a baby is sunshine and moonbeams and bits of stardust blown by the hand of God.” When Elizabeth said nothing, Nadine bit her lip, looking embarrassed. “I’m probably overstepping—”

“No, no.” Elizabeth exhaled slowly and winced as the pressure began to build on her arm. “You’re absolutely right, Nadine. Just because I managed to get myself into a massive disaster, I get to feel how I want about becoming a mother.”

“Oh, good. You’re not mad.” Nadine smiled, but it dimmed when she read the print out. “Hmm…140/90.” She frowned, letting the cup deflate.

“Is that bad?” Elizabeth asked. “Is too high?”

“It’s not good.” Nadine made a note in the chart. “But I guess you’ve been more stressed since your last visit. It was slightly elevated then, but it’s even higher now.” She bit her lip. “We’ll let Kelly know.”

After Nadine took Elizabeth’s blood, and reluctantly convinced her to step on a scale, Kelly Lee bustled in. She was a pretty Asian woman who had immediately put Elizabeth at ease the month before with her brisk and friendly manner. These were the only two women in the world who didn’t look at Elizabeth like she was gum on their shoe.

She wanted to hug them.

“Good morning, Elizabeth.” Kelly sat on the stool next the ultrasound machine and took the chart from Nadine. “How are you feeling? You’re not as nauseous as you were last month, I hope?”

“No.” Elizabeth sat up a little. “I’m tired still, but not as much as I was a few weeks ago. I’m only throwing up like twice a week and not twice an hour.”

“Good, good.” Kelly clucked her tongue. “Your blood pressure is still up. I need you to relax more, honey, before it becomes a serious issue. If I see these numbers again at your next appointment, I may have to suggest bed rest.”

Great. Bed rest. Just what she needed working to save money for a new apartment and for the essentials. “I’ll try, Dr. Lee, but you know…my situation hasn’t been ideal.”

“I know.” Kelly reached over and squeezed her hand. “But hopefully, all the people who want to yell and scream at you have finished and they’ll let you get back to your most important job for the next six and a half months—growing your beautiful baby.” She hesitated. “I see you turned in a more complete medical report from Mr. Morgan. That’s good. I don’t expect any complications, but it’s always good to have a full picture.”

It had been the most mortifying experience of her life taking those papers to Jason’s penthouse and being forced to leave them with Sonny because Jason hadn’t returned her phone calls, but it was a necessary fiction. Jason’s parents worked at this hospital and they were Quartermaines, so they were likely checking records.

Kelly glanced around. “And I see we’re on our own again.” Sympathy shone in her dark eyes for a moment before she turned to switch on the machines. “Well, maybe when we do the ultrasound and find out gender next month. That sometimes kicks fathers into gear.” She smiled at Nadine. “Sometimes it’s not real to them otherwise.”

“Maybe,” Elizabeth murmured. But she knew better. Jason might have promised her he wouldn’t resent her for putting him in this situation, but a lousy four weeks into this ruse and she felt as alone as she had in that penthouse last fall.

She was never going to learn.

“We’ll how about we look at this kid and see a heartbeat,” Kelly said. “You up for it, Elizabeth?”

“Absolutely.” Elizabeth wanted to feel connected to her child, to see it on screen and make it real in her head, because it was clear that they were going to be on their own.

Corinthos Penthouse: Master Bedroom

Carly hummed as she flipped through her brand-new maternity clothing. She rarely needed an excuse to go shopping, but pregnancy was proving to be a great excuse to keep Sonny from snarking at her when she made Rocco carry bags inside.

Sonny was downstairs even now, planning a nutritious dinner that made Carly’s stomach revolt. No sugar. No chocolate. Nothing sweet. Nothing fun.

“Hey, Carly.” Courtney entered and flopped down on the bed. “You’re going to have to turn the other guest room into a closet pretty soon.”

Carly smirked and hung another summer dress. “I’m saving that for the middle of the summer when I’m driving Sonny crazy.” She looked at sister-in-law. “How are you doing? You haven’t been over here for a while.”

“I called Sonny before I came,” Courtney replied, reaching for one of Carly’s bags. “To make sure Jason was out for the day and Elizabeth wasn’t around.” She grimaced. “I’m trying really hard to be okay with this, Carly, but it’s so hard. I have to work with her twice a week, sometimes three. Bobbie could only do so much with our schedules.”

“Must be tense.” Carly reached for an old dress to toss it on the giveaway pile. It was on the tip of her tongue to tell Courtney that she needn’t have worried about seeing Elizabeth. Carly hadn’t seen her at the penthouse once. In fact, she wasn’t aware that Jason had even seen the mother of his child all that often. “Have you two talked about what’s going on?”

“No.” Courtney sighed. “I mean, maybe we should but I can’t really think of what I’d say.” She pulled out a tank top from the bag and stacked it on the bed with some others. “I’ve been trying to figure out how it happened, and I guess I initially assumed it meant they still loved one another.”

Carly turned and looked at her. “Why?”

“Well…” Courtney hesitated and blinked at her. “Jason won’t tell me how it happened. I ran into him on the docks last week, and I didn’t mean to, but I started yelling at him. And then I begged him to tell me it was a mistake, that it was never going to happen again, but he refused. And you know, he almost defended her the day we found out.” She jerked a shoulder. “I thought that meant that Elizabeth was going to be in his life, but you know…I only see her with guards. He never drops her off at work or picks her up. I thought he was trying to avoid shoving my face in it, which I appreciated, but Penny told me he never shows up on her shifts either.” She bit her lip. “Carly, you know people are talking about Ric.”

“What about Ric?” Carly’s hands tightened on the sweater she was going to donate.

“Well…” Courtney paused. “That maybe Elizabeth doesn’t know who the father is and she told Jason it was his because she wanted it to be—”

“No.” Carly spun around, her heart racing. “No. I know that would make everything easier, and I am so sorry, Courtney. But it’s not true. Jason is the father.”

Courtney stared at her. “You sound…” She swallowed hard. “You sound really convinced.”

Carly cleared her throat. “Yeah…well… I had my suspicions, and I badgered Jason quite relentlessly until he told me that he had no doubts. He wouldn’t give me details, but I gathered from that and some…arguments I may have had with Elizabeth that she and Ric were only together once or twice and it was not in the right time frame.” She smoothed out the wrinkles in the sweater she had twisted in her hands. This rumor had be squelched. It simply had to be. “I’m sorry, Courtney, I really am.”

“Well, I guess it make sense.” Courtney sighed. “I mean, once Elizabeth thought she had a chance with Jason again, she probably wouldn’t have screwed it up by sleeping with Ric again.”

“Exactly.” Carly nodded and took the stack of tank tops from the bed and shoved them into a drawer. “If Jason had any doubts, that’d be different. But he’s convinced.”

“Okay,” Courtney drawled. She stood and folded her arms across her chest. “Then why doesn’t he at least act like he’s going to be a father?”

Carly frowned and looked at her. “What do you mean? She has guards on her. Jason’s paying for her medical bills. I think she’s being stubborn about anything else.”

“I guess.” Courtney pursed her lips. “Though if I were pregnant, I guess I might want the father of my child to pay some attention to me.” She sighed. “I think I just want to believe that he did this because he loved her and wanted to be with her. He hasn’t even asked me to forgive him, so it means that he’s sorry he hurt me, but he’s not interested in getting back together. Why not if he’s not going to be with her?” A tear slid down her cheek. “If he didn’t want me anymore, why didn’t he break up with me before he slept with her?”

“I’m sorry,” Carly said. “I just… I don’t know the answer to that.”

General Hospital: Cafeteria

Nadine sipped her iced tea and smiled across the table at Elizabeth. “Thanks for asking me to coffee.” She wrinkled her nose. “Though neither of us seem to be drinking that.”

Elizabeth laughed and stirred her hot chocolate. “I just had a craving for hot chocolate. I know it’s getting warm out, but I just…” She shrugged. “I love my chocolate.”

“I hear ya.” Nadine set her tea down. “I haven’t had a chance to meet a lot of people yet with my work schedule. I decided to move up here on a whim, really, a few months ago and had to wait for an opening.” She played with the wrapper of her straw.

“You may have noticed from my appointment,” Elizabeth began, “that I don’t have a strong support system right now.” She tucked her hair behind her ear. “I burned a lot of bridges getting pregnant with…” She hesitated, still finding it difficult to say. “With my ex-boyfriend’s baby, and most of the people I might have confided in are out of town or are angry with me. So I hope you don’t mind that I saw a friendly face and hoped to have someone talk to.”

“Oh, absolutely.” Nadine wiggled in her chair. “It totally sucks to be basically alone in the world. My dad took off ages ago, my mom died and my Aunt Rayleen raised me and my sister until Jolene—that’s my sister—killed a patient in a mercy killing and then injected herself with a drug that left her in a vegetative state. Then Aunt Rayleen died, and my ex-boyfriend turned out to be total jerk I wanted to throw out the window, so I decided I need to get the hell out of New York.” She finished this dialogue with a sip of iced tea.

Elizabeth blinked and couldn’t fight a smile. “It’s brave to pick up leave. To start a new life.” She twisted her fingers together. “I thought about it when I found out I was pregnant. I thought maybe everyone would be better off if I never told anyone and just headed out.” She pursed her lips. “But as you can see, that didn’t work out for me.”

“Well, maybe the father of your kid will get more involved after the next visit.” Nadine hesitated. “Is there a chance he might come to this one?”

“Unlikely,” Elizabeth admitted. She looked across the cafeteria where Monica and Alan were sipping coffee and studiously trying not to look at her. “I think he’s regretting his decision to get involved.”

“Oh.” Nadine frowned. “Well, that sucks large.” She squared her shoulders. “Well, then you know what? I’ll be your other person in the room. You should have someone with you when you find out the gender. Someone who will smile and be happy with you.”

Elizabeth looked down, her throat tight. “That would be…” She swallowed. “I would really like that, Nadine. Thank you.” She hesitated. “You know…until you asked me if I was excited about the baby, no one else had. It was just…everyone looking at this baby like she was a disaster that just needed to fixed or taken care of.” She swallowed again. “No one…no one’s asked me about being a mother, or if I was happy.”

Nadine reached across the table. “I’ve known you all of an hour, Elizabeth Webber, but I promise you, I will be your person. I think we’re both in need of a friend, and I’m taking applications if you are.”

Elizabeth squeezed it, and felt the tears sliding down her cheeks. “I’m not only taking them, I’m accepting them on the spot. And to celebrate our new friendship, I want you to be the first to know that although the circumstances are less than ideal, I am ridiculously excited about my child.” She took the sonogram photo out of her pocket and smiled down at it, feeling like a mother for the first time. “And I cannot wait to hold her for the first time.”

Nadine grinned. “You’re having your mommy senses tingle. You think she’ll be a girl?”

“I do.” Elizabeth’s breath hitched, but she continued to smile, feeling lighter than she had in months. “I do. I’m going to have a little girl, and you’re going to be my person.”

“Fantastic.” Nadine sipped her iced tea. “Does your person get to go shopping for baby stuff? Because I love shopping for baby stuff.”

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

Sonny looked up as Jason entered. “Hey…thanks for waiting until Courtney left.” He rubbed the back of his neck, as if exhausted from the worry of the last month.

Jason nodded. “It’s just easier if we avoid each other,” he said. “We had a fight on the docks last week and I just…” He rubbed a hand over his face. “I’m not in a hurry to hurt her again.”

“Yeah, I hear that.” Sonny reached for a file. “I heard from Stan and Benny. Ric’s still in the wind. He and Faith are just…gone.”

Jason scowled. “Any chance the Families took care of things and are just keeping it quiet?” He shifted. “I want him out of our lives, Sonny. I’ve spent almost every waking hour tracking him this last month, but I’m coming up as empty as Stan and Benny.” He shook his head. “He shouldn’t be able to disappear like this.”

“I know, I know.” Sonny sighed and poured himself a whiskey. “I have a meeting with the Families in a few days to confirm the rumors about your kid and ask to them to step up their search.” He sipped his drink and Jason became wary, as a familiar light entered his eyes. “Jason, we gotta talk.”

“We’re not having this conversation again—” Jason stopped when Sonny held up his hand.

“I have Francis, Cody and Marco reporting to me as well,” Sonny told him and Jason frowned at this, wondering why Sonny would force Elizabeth’s security detail to report to both of them. “Because I’m concerned…” He hesitated. “I’m concerned that you’re not doing your part.”

He knew he wasn’t, and he was painfully aware of it the few times Elizabeth had contacted him and he’d responded through her guards. He didn’t need Sonny lecturing him. “I’m tracking Ric to keep her safe—”

“I get that, and it’s important.” Sonny nodded, and pressed his hand to his chest. “But we gotta keep up appearances. You know that. You don’t ask the guards for anything other than to confirm she’s still breathing.”

Jason frowned. “They’re not there to spy—”

“I’m not…” Sonny rolled his eyes. “You’re not talking to her about her condition, and her guards are painfully aware of this since they’re herding her to work and the hospital without you being there. Jason, we’re asking them to protect Elizabeth with their lives because she’s carrying your child, but the guards just see you not giving a damn.”

His hand fisted at his side. “Are they not paying attention?” Jason demanded. “Because if they’re screwing around with her protection because they don’t think I’m involved—”

“No,” Sonny cut in swiftly. “But you’re not earning any points with these men, and they need to believe they can respect you. They see this woman going through a tough pregnancy alone, coming close to being the town pariah and…” He shrugged. “You know. It’s not helping. They don’t say anything to me, but I can see it in their faces. Cody’s with her when she’s working most of the time, and it’s painful when he tells me the things people are saying. He’s not spying, he just wants me to be aware of the trouble Elizabeth is having, and he tells me because you don’t ask.”

His chest tight, Jason swallowed. “What…what trouble is she having?”

Sonny sipped his whiskey. “Alan and Monica always know when she’s at the hospital. She had an appointment earlier today and they cornered her outside, according to Francis. He came by after the shift change. They want to know if Lila will be able to see the baby, if maybe Elizabeth will come by once in a while, so they can get to know her as the mother of their grandchild. Emily gives her hard time, always sits in her section at Kelly’s and then has some rude comments. Cody used to stand outside, but the first time Elizabeth came out in tears, he asked Bobbie if he could set up shop inside while she was working.”

Jason exhaled. “I’m sure there’s more,” he said. “What else aren’t you telling me?”

“You may not listen to rumors, but Carly told me that Courtney is wondering if what people saying is true. That Elizabeth didn’t know which one was the father, and picked you because you have more money. There are too many people speculating about this baby, and you’re not around to cement this notion in people’s heads.”

“Courtney told Carly…” Jason repeated. “What did Carly tell her?”

“I told her that you and I had argued about it.” Carly stepped off the stairs. “That I hadn’t gotten much from you, but during one of my arguments with Elizabeth that I’ve never had, she led me to believe the time frame doesn’t work. I assured her that you had not a single doubt.”

Sonny and Jason stared at her. She raised an eyebrow. “What, I should tell her the truth?”

“Carly,” Jason growled. “You know the truth. I told you the truth.”

“Yeah…” Carly planted one hand on her hip. “Yeah, you did. Which is why I told Courtney no doubts exist.” She flicked her eyes to Sonny. “I thought about talking to Mama where I know Amy Vining would overhear, so my convictions would be on record with the rest of the town.”

“Carly,” Jason began, pinching the bridge of his nose. Christ, if Carly knew the truth, this plan was doomed.

“Relax, Jase.” Carly patted his shoulder. “I’m not plotting, I’m not planning. I don’t even want you guys to tell me the truth, because then I can honestly say I only know what I’m told.” She shrugged. “You’re the father. Message received. I’m just saying that we need to take measures to make sure everyone else knows that.” She eyed him with annoyance. “Especially if you’re going to continue ignoring her and making Sonny chase you down with medical forms.”

“I didn’t know she needed me to fill out anything,” Jason retorted, wondering why he was letting Carly bait him like this. God, she was so frustrating sometimes.

“Well, no doubt since you always pawn her off on guards,” Carly said, her eyes wide. “You think I don’t notice? Elizabeth was upset and embarrassed when she came to the penthouse because you weren’t home. Again. And she told Sonny that she’d tried to call you, and that you told Francis you were going to be unavailable all week.”

You weren’t in the room when Elizabeth was here,” Sonny remarked, putting his whiskey down. “What have I told you about eavesdropping?”

Carly dismissed him with a wave. “Unimportant. I’m not telling you what to do, Jase, because you won’t listen to me anyway, but I am the only person in this room who’s ever been pregnant, so let me give you the inside information she won’t.” She glared at Jason.

“Pregnancy is god damned stressful enough without being treated like the town whore. There is a person growing inside and it’s our responsibility to give the kid nourishment and a safe environment. Having to be looked like nothing better than dirt every time you leave your home is not conducive to safe pregnancy.” She folded her arms under breasts. “I went through that with Michael. I dealt with that before I lost our first child, Sonny. And now every time I go to Kelly’s, Elizabeth is fielding whispers and looks from everyone, including your annoying twit of a sister, Jase.”

“What’s your point?” Jason said spreading his hands out. “What do you want me to do? I can’t change what people say or do.”

“You could yell at your holier-than-thou sister,” Carly retorted. “You could maybe drop in Kelly’s once in a while and pretend you don’t see the mother of your child as an obligation, a burden, or worse, a horrible mistake. You could go to a damned doctor’s appointment. You’re the one who keeps telling me this is your kid, Jason Morgan.” She narrowed her eyes. “So act like it.”

This entry is part 5 of 19 in the Daughters

You left something undone, it’s now your rerun
It’s the one you can’t erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn’t have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
Fall Away, The Fray

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Haunted Star: Upper Deck

Robin hesitantly stepped out onto the enclosed deck—Luke had spared no expense for his floating casino—and cleared her throat. “I just want to say something and I promise that I’ll—that’ll I never bring it up again okay?”

Patrick turned from his position staring moodily out over the water and stared at her with an unreadable expression. She felt no encouragement to continue but didn’t see any visible scorn so Robin decided to just continue with it. She would never feel at peace unless she had finished this.

“I’m just going to apologize for the way I left,” Robin said after a moment of silence. “Hindsight being what it is, I could have found a better way to do it or I could have stuck it out for a few more months, I don’t know. But my timing was awful and I can’t blame you or Ellie if you can’t forgive me for leaving the way I did—when I did.” She hesitated. “But I can also say that I did what I thought was best at the time. I wasn’t making anything better and every time I tried to draw you out, you just—you just got more angry with me so I figured that maybe I was just making things worse so I’m sorry—”

“Robin—” Patrick held up a hand and she stopped her clumsy ramble in mid-stream. “I appreciate your apology but really—you have nothing to be sorry for.” He was silent for a moment. “Did Ellie ever tell you that I moved out of our apartment after you did?”

Robin silently shook her head and he laughed a little, a bitter and angry sound. “I left my sister alone in that apartment, not four months after our mother had died. The building went co-op and Ellie couldn’t put any money down to buy it, my dad was completely useless at that point so she asked me if she could use the guest room in my new apartment for a few weeks, until she had enough saved for a new place.”

He blinked and turned back to the water, tracing his hand over the railing. “I told her no. That I was tired of living with my sister, that she’d cramp my style. I basically left my only family to rot in the streets—”

“Patrick—” Robin began, her heart aching for the both of them.

“She cried, Robin, you know that? She was never much of a crier, you know Ellie, always looking on the bright side, always trying to find the silver lining but when I told her that she had to be on her own and figure out her life without my help, she cried. And I changed my mind—I told her she could use it for a few nights, but that was it.”

“But she still lives there,” Robin said hesitantly. “So things got better.”

“My father sold our house when Mom died,” Patrick continued as if she hadn’t spoken. “And he moved into a one bedroom apartment. He stopped going to work, he stopped smiling, he stopped living and I think, if he had had the courage, he’d have stopped breathing. All he did was drink and I just—” he shook his head. “I couldn’t stand to be around him and remember how things used to be. And Ellie, I couldn’t look at her and not see Mom. I mean, she looks just like her. I think that’s why Dad stopped calling her, stopped letting her into the apartment.”

Her chest felt so heavy and her cheeks were stained with tears as Robin again berated herself for not staying for Elizabeth’s sake. The hell with Patrick, Elizabeth had been her friend, her sister and she’d had no business abandoning her. “But things are better now.”

“I didn’t let myself think about anything but me,” he remarked caustically. “Ellie’s pain, my father’s pain, I just blocked it all out. I kept dropping hints that she should look for other places to live, other people to depend on because as soon as I graduated from med school, I was getting an internship at a hospital as far away as I could and I was never going to look back.” His voice was rough now, sliding towards hoarse and Robin only wished she could wrap her arms around him and take away some the pain.

“But right before I graduated, Dad was in the car accident. I don’t if you know how bad it was, but he nearly died. And I sat in the ER, waiting to hear if I was going to lose another parent and Ellie came in and I realized that if my father died, she’d be alone. Not that she wasn’t alone already, but if Dad died, and I moved away, she’d have no one but Uncle Liam and Aunt Cheryl to depend on and I can remember thinking that she’d hate that because she didn’t really get along with either of them. And she started to cry when Monica Quartermaine told us how close Dad had come to dying—that he’d been drinking and he’d slammed into a guard rail and had nearly gone over an embankment. And I couldn’t watch her cry anymore so I told her that she could live with me for as long as she wanted because I wasn’t going to leave her after all.”

“Well, that’s good then,” Robin said uncertainly, hoping he didn’t have anything left to the story that would make her feel even worse about abandoning them. “Noah went into rehab afterwards, right?”

“He’s been sober for a year,” Patrick nodded. “And he and I…we’ll be okay again if he doesn’t pick up the bottle, and I thought, until tonight, that I’d fixed everything. But tonight, Ellie let me have it. She just—she exploded and all that anger and the hurt came rushing out, like she’d been bottling it up for a really long time. And I realized that I never told her I was sorry. And that I’d never seen her cry for what we’d done to her. She’d cried about what was happening, but not for the hell Dad and I put her through. She never once called us on cutting her out of our lives or at least trying to but tonight she did and I just—” He met Robin’s eyes. “I wasn’t a very good person to be around three years ago. You wouldn’t have liked me much so I don’t blame you for breaking up with me and taking off. I’m sorry that you weren’t here for Ellie, but you’ll have to take that up with her, not me.”

“Ellie loves you,” Robin said softly. “And she loves Noah. If she didn’t, she would have cut her losses a long time ago. You guys—because of you, I wanted a brother, so that I could have what you and Ellie have. So you had a rough patch and you were an ass to her.” A smile hovered at the edges of her lips. “I seem to remember a particularly annoying fourteen year old that sent me a Valentine lollipop with a cheesy awful poem attached because she wanted to torture her brother.”

A small grin spread across his face. “Well, it got me the girl so I didn’t hold a grudge for very long.”

Robin smacked his arm. “It did not get you girl—that happened two years later. However—” she smiled wickedly. “It did get me the sneezing story that I have used against you—”

He slapped a hand over her mouth but it did nothing to stave off the giggles that escaped from her lips. “Okay, okay, Scorpio, I think it’s time we laid that to rest. It was eleven years ago, for Christ’s sake.”

“You’re right, which is why it’s a shame you’re still so sensitive about it,” Robin sighed dramatically, dancing away from him. “Come on, Patrick, it makes you unique. How many other guys sneeze into the girl’s mouth during their first kiss?”

Patrick glared at her. “It was your awful perfume I’ll have you know, so it’s really all your fault.”

Robin let out an outraged gasp and whacked him in the arm. “You toad, I can’t believe you’d blame that on me. What a gentleman you are!”

“All’s fair in love and sneezing,” Patrick drawled. He curled an arm around her waist in a familiar move that he’d used their entire relationship. They’d spent a good portion of their six years together teasing each other and torturing the other with embarrassing stories of their childhood and after each session, he’d draw her close to him and kiss her until they forgot what they’d been bantering about.

He’d realized that he’d slid into the old routine about halfway into it and changed course, drawing her to his side and steering her towards the door. “Let’s go back in and I’ll give you the real low down on what you’ve missed since you left.”

Robin decided not to comment on the incident and grinned up at him. “All the dirty details Ellie was too nice to mention?”

“Of course.” They stepped back into the main casino floor and Patrick stalled when he saw the group that had just entered. Not that he drew anyone’s eyes to him—everyone had pretty much stopped into their tracks when Sonny and Brenda Corinthos had entered. Not so much for Sonny and Brenda but the couple behind them. Their friendship had been rumored but not since his accident had Jason been out and about in the social scene and no one had expected shy Elizabeth Drake to be on his arm when he did make an appearance.

Patrick glanced across the room where his father was standing with the rest of the Quartermaine family and quickly took Robin’s hand, leading her to the door. “I’d better head this off before Dad’s head explodes.”

Sonny and Brenda had broken away from Jason and Elizabeth to speak with Lois Cerullo-Ashton and her reluctant husband Ned. Patrick waited until his sister and Jason were alone before stepping up to them. “Ellie,” he said warmly, kissing his sister on the cheek. “You look beautiful.”

“Thanks,” Elizabeth said warily, wearing the universal expression that all sisters wore when their brothers were acting in an uncharacteristic manner. “I’m surprised to see you here with Robin.”

“We ran into each other outside,” Patrick explained. He hesitated for a moment but then extended his hand to Jason. “Jason, it’s good to see you.”

Elizabeth blinked but Jason shook Patrick’s hand. “Dr. Drake,” the other man said evenly. It was surreal to see his best friend’s face and hear his voice but realize that his best friend was, for all intents and purposes, dead.

Elizabeth recovered and turned to Jason. “You haven’t met Robin, yet right?” She looked back at Robin. “Robin, this is Jason Morgan.”

“Ellie has told me tons of about you,” Robin joked, shaking Jason’s hand.

“Robin,” Elizabeth hissed.

“She’s mentioned you quite a few times too,” Jason responded, somewhat amused that Elizabeth had gone to the trouble of introducing him to someone he was pretty sure he’d been friends with before the accident.

“Well, it’s a known fact that if there’s oxygen to be breathed, Ellie will be using it for talking,” Patrick sighed. “Would you mind letting me borrow my sister for a few moments? Because if we don’t go see our father, he’ll come over here…” he gave them a half-smile. “I don’t think anyone wants that.”

“That’s fine,” Robin said. “Jason and I will get caught up—” she hesitated, “we’ll get to know one other,” she corrected.

Elizabeth bit her lip but finally released Jason’s arm. Patrick wrapped an arm around her shoulders and they started across the room. “Are you high?” she demanded under her breath as they drew closer to her father and his irritated expression.

“Now why would you ask something like that?” Patrick asked idly.

“Because you’re acting like—” she waved her hand. “You’re acting weird. You’re being nice and you’re standing next to Robin and you called Jason by his first name and you’re…” she huffed. “You’re freaking me out.”

“It is a brother’s prerogative to annoy the crap out of his sister,” Patrick nodded. “And the best way I can do that is act the opposite of how you expect me to. Now, let’s go make sure our father’s head doesn’t explode, okay?”

“You’re such a brat,” Elizabeth muttered.

Noah had crossed his arms and was taping his fingers against the dark fabric of his tuxedo when his children finally reached them. “Elizabeth Imogene Drake, I expect an explanation—”

“Ellie doesn’t have to explain her behavior to you,” Patrick cut in. “She’s a grown woman and she’s been taking care of herself for a long time.”

Elizabeth’s mouth dropped open. “What the hell?” she demanded, frustrated. “Why are you defending me?”

Noah stared at his son with a mixture of irritation and amusement. “Are you trying to drive your sister crazy? You know nothing does it better than agreeing with her.” He shook his head. “It doesn’t matter—Elizabeth, you’re not acting rationally—”

“Dad, seriously,” Patrick broke in again. “It’s just a party. It’s not like they’re setting the date and sending out invitations, okay? So let’s just be cool about it.”

Elizabeth glared at him. “Okay, seriously, you’re freaking me out.” She raised a hand to his forehead. “Are you feeling all right?”

“I’m feeling fine,” Patrick batted her hand away. “Look, Ellie, Dad and I have put you through hell and I figure if you want to get back at us by hanging out with Jason Morgan and Sonny Corinthos, well it’s the least we deserve.”

“I’m not doing this to get back at you,” Elizabeth said, frustrated. “Is it so hard to comprehend that I enjoy spending time with Jason?”

“Yes,” Noah said plainly.

“Okay, Ellie,come on, you’ve made your point,” Patrick remarked. “I get it, Dad gets it—you can drop it now.”

“You are such a jackass,” Elizabeth said scathingly. She shoved him and stalked back to her date.

“I really thought I’d figured it out,” Patrick said, a little confused. He looked to his father. “I mean, it makes sense to me.”

“Me, too,” Noah shrugged, “but since when has your sister done anything that makes sense to either of us?”

Haunted Star: Main Casino Floor

 

Robin watched the Drake siblings cross the floor to deal with their father and smiled faintly. It was clear that Elizabeth held no long-lasting grudge towards her twin and she hoped Patrick could forgive himself one day for grieving in the only way he’d been able to.

“So, I’m guessing you knew Jason Quartermaine.”

Jason’s familiar, yet completely strange, voice broke into Robin’s thoughts and she turned her attention back to him. “Yes,” she admitted. “We all grew up together, actually. Jason, Patrick and Lucky were all best friends and Ellie and I were like sisters. We were all very close.”

Jason nodded and looked back towards the Drakes, where Elizabeth was feeling Patrick’s forehead. “I didn’t know—I didn’t know that Patrick had been friends with Jason Quartermaine.”

“Best friends,” Robin corrected quietly. “They were friends before I met either of them and had been since pre-school. You—” she cleared her throat. “Jason actually set Patrick and me up on our first date—sort of.” A smile flitted across her lips as the memory returned to her. “He’d gotten so tired of us dancing around each other, but never doing anything about it so he invited Patrick over to the pool house on the Quartermaine estate and invited me over as well. He locked the door and told us that he’d put food in there but neither of us were coming out until we figured out what the hell we were doing.”

“Elizabeth—” Jason hesitated. “She doesn’t tell me much about him, I think because she knows how the Quartermaines kept drilling me on how it used to be, how I wanted to be a doctor and what a good son I’d been and she knew how much I hated that.” He looked in her direction. “She’s very careful to separate the two.”

“Because, to her, they are separate people,” Robin told her. “In fact, after the accident, after you were out of the hospital, she would call me on the phone and tell me about the bike rides but she’d never say that it was Jason Quartermaine or even Jay—which was his nickname. From the start, you were always Jason Morgan to her.” She paused. “Do you ever wish you remembered?”

“Sometimes,” Jason admitted. “Monica—she looks at me sometimes and I can see how sad she is that I don’t. I think if I remembered even a little, it would hurt the people who loved him less.”

“I swear to God, that my brother sucks,” Elizabeth grumbled, rejoining them. She slipped her hand through Jason’s elbow. “His life’s mission is to drive me crazy and he knows nothing does it more than agreeing with me.”

“He’s diabolical,” Robin agreed, grinning.

“He’s a crack head,” Elizabeth corrected. She looked up at Jason. “He is not going to ruin my night. Let’s go gamble and you can help me win some money. Ellie needs a new car.” She tugged him in the direction of the blackjack table and Jason let her lead him away.

“Nothing’s more satisfying than confusing my baby sister,” Patrick said, returning to Robin’s side. “Reverse psychology, you know. If I pretend to accept him, she won’t need to use him to rebel.”

“Oh…you are so thick,” Robin sighed. “She’s not using him to rebel. She’s crazy about him—”

“No, no—” Patrick shook his head. “That’s just—it’s not a possibility. I won’t stand for it.”

“She’s right, you are a crack head,” Robin rolled her eyes. “Patrick, do you want things to be better between you and Ellie?”

Sensing where this was going, Patrick sighed, resigned. “Yes. And I suppose that means accepting and supporting all her choices, no matter how asinine.”

Robin patted his arm. “Good boy.” She let her eyes drift over the crowd and frowned when she saw a slightly familiar form stumble onto the floor from the room where the underage kids were playing poker. “Patrick, that’s not—” she squinted. “That can’t be Will, can it?”

Patrick followed her eyes and swore under his breath. His younger cousin was plastered again. He couldn’t even begin to count the times Will had called him from a party to pick him up or even how many times he’d gone to the police station to talk Robert out of pressing charges for trespassing or fighting. “Yeah, it’s Will.” He set his half-empty glass of champagne on a passing tray. “I’m going to have to take a rain check for the catching up, Rob, but I should get him out of here before your father the commissioner realizes that he’s drunk again.”

“I’ll help,” Robin said immediately, setting her own drink on another tray. She followed him across the room.

“Hey, Will, why don’t we call it a night?” Patrick suggested, slinging an arm around the slightly shorter boy in a thinly-disguised attempt to keep him on his feet.

Will peered at him blearily. “Lu?” he slurred.

“If I look like a tiny blonde than you really have had too much to drink,” Patrick sighed, starting to steer him towards the door.

“No, need to find—I have to see her—”

“The only thing you have to do sober up, pal.” Patrick saw Robert Scorpio’s eyes on them and tensed. “Robin, be a pal. Go head off your dad.”

“We’re almost out of here and you’re going to need help loading him in the car,” Robin refused as she helped Patrick maneuver the teen up the steps and towards the door.

After making it off the yacht and folding Will into his car, Patrick shut the door and sighed. “Home to Aunt Cheryl, it is.” He met Robin’s concerned gaze. “Thanks for your help.”

“What’s wrong with him?” she asked softly. “He was an honors student, he was so clean cut—”

“My uncle moved out last year,” Patrick said flatly. “And apparently, alcoholism runs in the family. Aunt Cheryl started drinking a lot and I guess the only way Will could cope was to get in trouble. He’s only been drinking the last few months though. Since he started dating Lu Spencer.”

“Lu drinks?” Robin’s eyes bulged. “That’s just—”

“No, I think Lu drives him to drink,” Patrick said dryly. “Look, I should get him home, make sure my aunt doesn’t…” he shrugged. “I’m glad we had a chance to clear the air.”

Feeling dismissed, Robin smiled hesitantly. “Ah, me too. I’ll just go in now. Good luck with him.”

Patrick waited until Robin was back inside before sliding in the driver’s seat and glancing at his cousin. “Thanks, Will. You just ruined any chance I had at getting some tonight.”

Will snorted. “Robin Scorpio was not going to sleep with you tonight. Or any other night.”

Though Patrick knew the first part was true, he was a little surprised Will added the second. He’d only admitted to himself that night that he wanted Robin back, that he wanted to be with her again, to have that part of his life make sense again. He knew it was going to take time but he’d thought it was a no-brainer. Robin was the only woman he’d ever loved. Of course, she was still in love with him. Right?

Perturbed now, Patrick started the car. “Why wouldn’t she sleep with me?” he demanded, somewhat irritated.

“Because once women leave us Drakes, they never come back,” Will muttered moodily. “I bet it’s written somewhere.”

“Look, if Lu ties you up this bad, then maybe you’re better off without her—” Patrick began.

“You don’t know a damn thing about it,” Will retorted. “I love Lu. And she loves me, I know she does. I just have to make her understand that I’m not like—” he broke off. “I just have to make her see that I love her, that we belong together.”

“That’s usually what the guy says before he goes all stalker, Will,” Patrick replied, now firmly concerned. “Have you mentioned Lu to your mom? Or to your dad?”

“No,” Will muttered darkly. “I can’t remember the last time Mom was sober and Dad hasn’t been around, hasn’t called.”

Feeling guilty that he hadn’t been there for his cousin, Patrick decided it was time for a change. He’d start hanging out with the kid more, making sure he drank less and instead of just dumping him off with his aunt after bailing him out of trouble, he’d stick around and make sure Will straightened out. “Look, tomorrow, we’ll go to the park, we’ll shoot some hoops and you can tell me about Lulu, okay?”

He pulled into the drive way and shut off the ignition. “Look, I know what it’s like to be in love with someone who walks away. Who makes it look easy to walk away. But you can’t know what’s in someone else’s head, okay?”

“Spare me the lectures,” Will muttered. “I don’t want to hear them right now. You had Robin for six years. I had Lu for two months, okay?” He glared up at the split level home that up until a year ago, had housed a pretty decent family. “Home, sweet home,” he muttered, pushing his door open.

Haunted Star: Casino Foyer

Robin was rubbing her chilled arms as she stepped back into the casino. This was not how she’d expected her night to go and though she wished Will were in a better place, she was somewhat grateful for the interruption. She had been falling into old habits with Patrick and in another hour or so, it would have felt like they’d never been apart.

She wanted to make her peace with him, but she could never go back to that life and she had to be careful that he didn’t get the wrong idea.

Lulu stepped out of a shadowy corner and grabbed Robin’s arm. “Hey—” she swallowed. “I saw you and Patrick take Will outside. Is—is he okay?”

“Yeah…” Robin paused and tilted her head. “Lu, is everything okay between you guys?”

Lulu waved a hand and shrugged. “Oh…well, we sort of broke up last week. Will’s not—” she paused. “He’s not taking it well but I don’t think that’s really surprising. He hasn’t been taking anything well. I just—I wanted to make sure he was okay. Is he?” she demanded.

The teen looked so agitated that Robin slid an arm around her shoulders and led her to a sofa. “Sit down, Lu. Tell me what’s wrong.”

“Nothing,” Lulu denied. “It’s all fine—I just…” she stared at her hands. “I did something really stupid and I dragged Dillon into it like always and I think I really—I really screwed up with Will.”

“Hey, there’s nothing so bad that we can’t fix it,” Robin assured her. “Why don’t you tell me what’s wrong and we’ll see what we can do about it?”

“You’re just going to say what Emily said,” Lu huffed. “You’re going to tell me to be honest and to tell Will and then it from there, but c’mon, Robin, you saw him! He’s in no shape to be getting this kind of news—”

“Lulu,” Robin interrupted, feeling the strain of a headache coming on. “What news?”

“I’m pregnant,” Lulu announced. “And it’s Will’s and I broke up with him because he’s a lush and he’s self-destructive and I asked Dillon to say he was the father because I panicked, but you know, that’s just making this whole thing worse because my father would literally kill him—”

“Okay, okay, deep breath—” Robin held up a hand to ward off more of Lulu’s ramblings. “You said that Emily knew, right? And I take it that Dillon knows.” When Lulu nodded, Robin continued, “So, we’ll get together after Christmas, and we’ll figure this out.” She squeezed the blonde’s hands. “You’re not alone, Lu. You know that right?”

Lu smiled weakly. “Sure feels like it sometimes.”

Casino: Main Floor

“Should I put it on red or black?” Elizabeth asked, glancing over her shoulder at Jason. But he was looking at Sonny across the room. She exhaled slowly and looked back at the table before putting half her money on black twenty-nine. “Black it is,” she muttered.

Jason touched her shoulder. “Hey, I’ll be right back, okay?” he told her. Elizabeth shrugged—not like he was paying any attention to her anyway. As first dates went, this was a bust. Which wasn’t entirely surprising considering it wasn’t supposed to be a date.

She smiled weakly when she won and raked her winnings in while watching Jason join Sonny at a table with a man she vaguely recognized from the newspapers as Hector Ruiz. It looked like a planned meeting and suddenly she felt nauseous. She quietly cashed out her winnings and exited out to the upper deck.

She wasn’t sure how long she stood there, staring out over the bay and damning herself for seeing things that were never there to begin with. Jason was a friend, he clearly had no interest in being more and she was only making herself look like an idiot by thinking he did.

“Elizabeth?”

She turned and leveled a cool stare in Jason’s direction. “Is your meeting finished?” she asked.

He frowned and glanced over his shoulder. “How did you—” he hesitated. “Yeah, it’s done. Did you want to go gamble some more?”

“Don’t worry about me,” Elizabeth replied stiffly. “I can get a ride home from Lucky or Robin. You can go now.”

Jason stepped out onto the deck and shook his head. “Elizabeth, I’m not exactly sure but I think you’re angry with me and I really don’t know why—”

“I’m angry with myself, I’m only irritated with you,” she muttered. She turned back to the water and leaned her elbows on the railing. “You could have just told me that you had a meeting here tonight. You didn’t have to make me twist your arm to come. And here’s a little piece of advice for the future, Jason. I don’t like being used.”

“Used?” he repeated, completely lost. “I wasn’t—I don’t understand what the problem is. I had a meeting, I was already going to be here—”

“Since when do warehouse workers take meetings with Sonny Corinthos and Hector Ruiz?” Elizabeth demanded. He fell silent, not realizing that in trying to defend himself against an unknown charge that he’d given away his role in Sonny’s organization. She swiped at her eyes, furious with herself for feeling hurt that he hadn’t confided in her about his changing job. But that wasn’t surprising, not really. She’d usually been the one doing the talking. She saw that now.

“So I guess you’re not even a courier now.” She hated that her voice sounded thick and she was sure he could see the tears in her eyes. “The problem is, Jason, that you invited me to dinner with your boss and his wife. And you agreed to come with me tonight. Stupid me, I thought it was because you wanted to spend time with me. If I’d known it was a means to an end…” she shook her head. “Never mind. It’s my own fault—”

“Elizabeth—” Jason began, still not completely following the thread of the conversation. She was angry, and she was hurt and he wanted to make that go away but he’d caused it and he didn’t know how. “I can take you home now if you want—”

“Don’t bother,” Elizabeth said. She pushed past him. “I’ll find my own ride home. I don’t want to inconvenience you any further.”

Jason followed her back inside and tried to catch up with her but someone stepped between them and by the time he could see her again, she was going out into the lobby.

“Your date just ran out on you,” Brenda observed, sidling up to him. She sipped her champagne. “Care to explain how you scared her off?”

Jason drove his fingers his hair and glared at her. “I would if I knew what I did wrong. She said something about being a means to an end and not wanting to inconvenience me anymore. And I think it has to do with the meeting I had to take here tonight.”

“Oh…” Brenda patted his shoulder. “Jason, you have so much to learn about women.”

Drake House: Living Room

Cheryl Harris Drake had been a pretty woman once, with strawberry blonde hair and a peaches and cream complexion. Sixteen years of marriage to a functioning alcoholic had given her a hard look in those pretty green eyes and a chip on her shoulder the size of Colorado.

She was in the living room, watching a movie when Patrick pushed open the door and started to steer Will towards the stairs. She sprang to her feet and crossed to them. “What the hell is this?” she demanded.

“Will wasn’t feeling well so I brought him home,” Patrick replied. “I’m just going to help him to bed—”

He broke off when his aunt reached forward and roughly grabbed her son’s chin. “Sick, huh?” She smiled nastily. “Drunk as a skunk.” She let go abruptly and Will stumbled a bit. Patrick braced a hand on his back to keep him standing. “You’re just as useless as your father, you lousy bastard—”

“Hey, his girlfriend just broke up with him,” Patrick began.

“Don’t defend him to me,” Cheryl spat. “You’re no better than your father or his brother. All the Drake men are useless piles of shit. You just haven’t fallen into a bottle yet. You will, you all do—”

“Well, being married to you, I can’t imagine why Dad would stay sober,” Will remarked with a sardonic grin. Cheryl answered that with a vicious slap that sent Will sprawling in his weakened state.

“Okay, that’s enough—” Patrick stepped between them. “I’m sorry Uncle Liam sucks, okay? He was never much use to me anyway. But don’t take it out on Will—he lost his father too—”

“Oh, don’t come in here acting all high and mighty just because your daddy went to rehab!” Cheryl retorted and she was close enough to him that Patrick could smell the whiskey on her breath. “He’ll fail just like Liam failed and Will over here ain’t no better—”

“That’s it,” Patrick snapped. “I’ve never hit a woman in my life, but man, you’re coming close.” He hauled Will to his feet. “C’mon, I’m taking you back to my place. And I’m not letting him back here until you clean up your act,” he told his aunt. He yanked the front door open and all but shoved Will down the front step. “This family is falling apart,” he muttered.

Will started to laugh. “Falling apart? Christ, Patty, when did we ever have it together?”

This entry is part 4 of 19 in the Daughters

I’m not angry it’s never been enough
It gets inside and it tears you up
I’m not angry but I’ve never been above it
You see through me don’t you
Angry, Matchbox 20

 Saturday, December 24, 2005

 Elizabeth & Patrick’s Apartment: Living Room

 Elizabeth tapped her foot nervously and watched her brother read the morning newspaper. It was already five o’clock—Jason would be picking her up in an hour but her annoying brother didn’t seem to be making any movement to get ready for the party that night. She did not want Patrick to be here when Jason came to the door.

“So which nurse are you harassing tonight?” Elizabeth asked brightly.

Patrick didn’t even spare her a glance as he flipped to the sports pages. “I’m going solo. Easier to pick the ladies up that way.”

Elizabeth sighed and slumped back on the sofa. Shortly after Patrick moved out of the apartment that he had shared with her and Robin for four years, the lease had expired and their building had gone co-op. She’d been unable to buy it, hadn’t saved enough to swing the rent on another place and her father was useless at that point, so Patrick had offered her the guest room—more correctly, Elizabeth had pleaded, she remembered with some bitterness since he’d been trying to cut ties with anyone who mattered.

She had jumped at the chance to keep her brother in her life because she’d been worried that if she didn’t, he’d graduate from medical school, take a job in another state and she’d barely see him. For all his drawbacks and irritating habits, he was her brother and had been her best friend all her life.

“Have you reconsidered going with that thug?” Patrick asked idly. Elizabeth glared at him, and thought about annoying him further by telling him her dinner plans with Sonny Corinthos and his wife.

She cleared her throat. “Patrick, I don’t want to have this argument anymore.”

Her brother finally lowered the newspaper and glared at her. “I thought we agreed that you weren’t going to do that anymore. You know it drives us crazy—are you trying to put Dad in an early grave?”

“That’s funny…Dad used the same phrase just the other day,” Elizabeth said, irritated. Why did this have to be the one thing her father and brother bonded over? “You know, Jason might not have the same memories and a lot about him is different, but some of Jason Quartermaine’s best qualities are still there—”

“I don’t want to hear it,” Patrick muttered. He slapped the newspaper on the coffee table and flicked the television on, surfing through the channels restlessly. “I can’t believe you’re just ignoring our concerns—”

Elizabeth sighed impatiently and started to apply nail polish to her toes—at least she could try to be ready on time. “I’m not ignoring your concerns, but you’re not being fair. Jason and I just go for rides together or sometimes we get something to eat. Or he teaches me to play pool. It’s not like we hang out in the warehouse at night on the docks.”

“You’re just being stupid about it,” Patrick muttered, finally finding a basketball game to watch. “I hear the rumors, you know. Morgan’s a courier for Sonny Corinthos, and you know that’s just going to lead to worse things.”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “If I believed everything I heard, I’d think you’d had private time in the every single supply closet with most of the nursing staff.”

Patrick arched an eyebrow. “And do you know I haven’t?” he asked smugly.

“Because half of the nursing staff went to college with you and remember Robin,” Elizabeth remarked primly. “Also…they have taste.” She blew gently on her left foot to speed along the drying. “Are you and Robin going to spend the rest of your lives sniping at each other?” she asked glad to have successfully changed the subject from her plans for the evening.

“If I have my way,” Patrick remarked, “we won’t speak it at all.” His eyes were focused on the game but she could tell his mind was elsewhere.

“That’s just stupid,” Elizabeth muttered, wishing she could throttle the both of them. They’d been friends longer than they’d been a couple. Why did things have to change so much? “Anyway, something’s up with her but I can’t figure out what.”

“Guilt,” Patrick muttered. “She actually had the nerve to apologize to me for not knowing about Dad’s drinking. Serves her right for walking out on me.”

Elizabeth set her nail polish down and reminded herself to count to ten before she said anything. She reminded herself that she wanted to keep things as they were—to not stir up problems. Bust for some reason, with culmination of the past few days, she just couldn’t keep quiet anymore. “You’re a real asshole, Patrick.” She glared at him. “A self-centered son of a bitch. What the hell did Robin have to stick around for?”

Startled, Patrick swung his gaze to his sister and took in her almost murderous expression. “Ellie—”

“I am sick of you badmouthing Robin like you were blameless,” Elizabeth seethed. “You drove her away, Patrick. Maybe she ended things, but you were the one that spent the six months that Mom was sick in a funk and then the three after she died not speaking to anyone. And the only time you bothered to talk to anyone was to bitch at them and be a bastard, so you know, what exactly should Robin have stuck around for?”

“My mother had just died,” Patrick snarled. “I expected her to give me some damn time—”

“She was my mother too!” Elizabeth surprised them both by crying. “I am so sick of you acting like you were the only one who lost her! You and Dad have been nothing but selfish bastards since the moment Mom died and you not only shut Robin out but you shut me out.” She lunged to her feet, all the bitterness and resentment finally pouring out her mouth, too fast for her to think, to pull back. “You moved out of the apartment and left me alone to pay for the rent—rent you knew I couldn’t afford and then I practically had to beg to use your guest room—beg, Patrick, you made me beg you to give me a helping hand! And then you make me feel bad for having someone in my life that doesn’t make me feel like shit—”

“Ellie, come on—” Patrick got to his feet but Elizabeth had finally let loose and nothing was going to stop her now.

“You and Dad walk around like you were the only ones affected by Mom’s death,” Elizabeth continued, tears streaming down her cheeks. “But I’m the one that lost everything. I lost my brother, my parents, my best friends—I lost my home! But I’ve snuck around and I’ve hidden my friendship with Jason from you and from Dad because I didn’t want to screw things up but I can’t do it anymore. I won’t lie and I won’t let you make me feel like I have to be ashamed.” She raised her chin and met her brother’s stunned eyes with determination. “I’ll be late for the party, I’m going to Sonny and Brenda’s for dinner with Jason.”

Whatever else had been in Patrick’s expression disappeared at that announcement—his eyes narrowed and he pressed his lips together. “Ellie, I swear to God—”

“Drop dead,” she muttered, pushing past him and slamming her bedroom door shut.

When she cracked the door open forty-five minutes later, the room was empty and Patrick’s car keys were gone from the table. She stepped into the living room and waited for the guilt to wash over her. After all, things had been going well for her family. Her brother and father were closer to being a family again, Patrick was starting to loosen up a bit and the last thing she had wanted to do was ruin that.

But the guilt never came and Elizabeth realized that she didn’t feel guilty, didn’t regret it. She had a right to her feelings and more importantly, she had a right to her own life. And she wanted her life to include Jason.

She checked her makeup in the mirror, tugged nervously at the top of her black strapless dress, wondering if she should wear something else—anything else. She was over thinking this, analyzing it. This was just dinner, just Jason doing her a favor.

Just as she had convinced herself to exchange the black dress for a more staid blue one, there was a knock on the door and she sighed. She pulled open the front door and all illusions of coherent thought disappeared as she got her first look at Jason Morgan in a tuxedo. Any ideas of pretending that the only feelings she had for him were those of friendship were laid to rest.

She dragged her gaze from his chest—he really filled out that shirt well—and met his eyes. “Ah, hey.”

“Hey—” Jason frowned and tilted her chin up. “You were crying.”

Elizabeth bit her lip and stepped back. “So much for makeup,” she sighed. “Patrick and I had a fight, it’s no big deal. We should go—”

“Are you sure?” Jason cut in. “I mean, we can just skip the dinner if you’re not up to it—”

“No,” Elizabeth shook her head and smiled faintly. “I’m not going to skip dinner. I’m just—there were some things that I said to Patrick that I should have a long time ago. I’m really fine, Jason.” She reached for her coat and purse. “Should we go?”

“Wait—” Jason took her coat from her and stepped around to help her slide her arms through the sleeves. “I’m not doing this right. I’m supposed to tell you how nice you look or something.”

Elizabeth was torn between being irritated and amused. Jason was never one to worry about doing something right—he’d make a decision and go with it, and to hell with anyone who disagreed with him. “Jason—”

Jason cleared his throat. “You do look nice, you know. I mean you always look nice but—” he dragged a hand through his hair. “You look pretty,” he finally blurted out. “Sonny said I should bring you flowers but I didn’t know why because you already have a bunch here but—”

“Thank you,” Elizabeth said, her cheeks flushing. “Flowers are not necessary, but it was nice of Sonny to suggest it.”

He stared at her for another long moment and she smiled nervously, breaking eye contact to glance past him. “We should probably go then.”

“Right,” Jason nodded. He stepped back and she stepped into the hallway, locking the apartment behind her.

Quartermaine Mansion: Foyer

Emily loved her adopted family. She had prepared herself, at first, to despise them. And she had for a long time. She had grown up in lower middle class suburbia and to suddenly be the granddaughter of one of the wealthiest families in the state—well, it had been an adjustment to say the least.

She had rebelled in every way that she could think of—she had refused to eat, she had refused to go to school, she had refused to come out of her room. She was sure they would send her away but they never had and gradually, they had grown on her, this bunch of eccentric people.

Her adopted parents, Alan and Monica, who were so busy with their careers that they often forgot to eat but they were never too busy to see her in a high school play or attend a graduation or help her study for medical school.

Her adopted brothers, AJ and Jason. Jason, who had cut off most of the family after his accident but who had found a place in his heart for his little sister anyway and no matter how drunk AJ was, he had never spoken to her in the cutting tone he’d used for the rest of the family.

Her cousins, Ned and Dillon, whom she loved as brothers. She looked out for Dillon, took care of him and had bailed him and Lulu Spencer out of trouble more than once. And Ned, the stereotypical overprotective older brother who had grilled all her boyfriends. And of course, her cousin Justus, who had teamed up with Ned more than once to talk her out of dating Zander Smith in high school.

Her aunt Tracy, who drove everyone else mad but Emily secretly admired because Tracy didn’t take bullshit from anyone. She was her own woman and she lived by her own rules and Emily wanted to be her when she grew up—albeit with a little more compassion.

Her grandmother, Lila—the sweetest woman that had ever lived. She had a heart that forgave all those who sinned and she had a smile that melted even the toughest of men. She was the heart, she was the soul of the Quartermaine family.

And then there was Edward.

Overbearing, overprotective, arrogant, irritating and a pain in the ass. Edward, who had actually had more time for Emily than anyone else in the family after he’d let Ned take over as CEO of the family investment firm, ELQ. Edward, who had been more than just her grandfather since she’d walked into the house. He was endlessly frustrating because he was always sure he knew how people should live their lives better than they did and what made it worse is that he had an infuriating tendency to be right.

He had told her bedtime stories when she’d moved in the house, and had shared milk and cookies with her in the kitchen when she’d stayed up late to study for exams. He was her favorite family member.

But tonight, Emily was sure she was going to murder him.

“You are being ridiculous,” she sighed, straightening her grandfather’s bow tie. “As always. If Grandmother heard you talking about AJ like that, she’d tell you stuff a sock in it.”

“Lila was always a soft touch,” Edward blustered. “Mark my words, young lady, he will never recover unless he is forced to.”

“I agree that he needs to go to rehab but no one—including you, Grandfather, is going to kidnap him and take him in there in the middle of the night. AJ has to want to get better or else it’ll never work.” Emily stepped back and admired her handy work. “You look presentable enough.”

“I’ll never understand why we go to this thing every year,” Edward muttered. He crossed to the stairs. “Will the rest of you get down here so we can get this over with?”

“We go to the Haunted Star on Christmas Eve because we throw the New Year’s Eve party at the hotel—” she threw up her hands. “I don’t know why I’m explaining something you already know. You just want to complain.”

The doorbell rang and Emily sighed in relief. “That must be Nikolas.”

Edward’s face flushed with anger. “You invited that scoundrel to my home?”

“It’s my house and my daughter can invite whoever she likes,” Monica Quartermaine retorted, gliding down the stairs in her pale green silk dress. She placed a hand on Emily’s shoulder in support.

“Well, I gave it to you,” her husband Alan snarked as he joined his father at the bottom the stairs in a matching tuxedo. “And I don’t want him here either.”

“For the love of God…” Emily muttered. The butler, Reginald, pulled the door open and Nikolas stepped in. “Thank God you’re here. They’re having the house argument again.”

“Ah, this would make the one thousandth, six hundred and seventy first time I’ve heard it then,” Nikolas said with a straight look on his face. He said it so seriously that Emily almost believed him—would have if not for the wink he sent her way.

“Nikolas and I are getting married whether any of you accepts it or not,” Emily declared. “So either get used to it or—”

“We’re having this discussion again?” Dillon sighed as he ambled down the stairs. He sank onto the bottom step and pulled his shoes on before standing to adjust his cuff links. “I’ve heard this spiel almost as many times as I’ve heard the house argument.”

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

Brenda Corinthos had once been a supermodel; her classic face sprawled across billboards nationally and even a few international spots. She’d sold lipstick, perfume, lingerie and on one memorable early photo shoot, a Ferrari. She’d been destined for a long career in the industry as she grew more ravishing as she aged.

But, instead, she’d shocked her friends and family when she’d retired at the age of twenty-seven—at the height of her fame. And when she announced that she’d done so to marry reputed mob kingpin Sonny Corinthos…well, there were rumors that her family still didn’t speak to her.

Brenda Barrett Corinthos was old gossip in Port Charles and Elizabeth had heard about her for years before she’d actually met her. Everyone always spoke of her beauty, of her generosity but they never mentioned her lighting quick wit or the fact that her husband was so completely gaga over her that Elizabeth forgot to be intimidated by Sonny Corinthos the first time he looked at his wife with puppy dog eyes and a dimpled grin.

“So, Elizabeth, you’ve grown up in Port Charles?” Brenda asked, accepting a glass of wine from her husband.

“All my life,” Elizabeth answered. “My parents, too. Kind of a family tradition to stick in one place.”

“The Drakes have been doctors at General Hospital almost longer than ELQ’s been around,” Sonny remarked.

“Well, my brother and my father are the doctors,” Elizabeth smiled. “My mother and I—well, she was a nurse. As sexist as it may be, the women tend to go into the nursing in my family and the men tend to be the doctors.”

Brenda wrinkled her nose. “You never wanted to be a doctor—or anything else?”

“I thought about doing other things,” Elizabeth admitted. “But all of my friends were going into medicine. My brother, my best friend Robin, Emily and Jason Quartermaine—” she shrugged. “I was the only nurse though. I wanted to be like my mother.”

Brenda didn’t miss the fact that she’d mentioned Jason Quartermaine and had been specific to point out that it had been his old self and not Jason Morgan that had wanted to be a doctor. She’d been present for some of the Quartermaine family arguments regarding Jason’s choice of employment and was definitely pleased that Elizabeth seemed to understand that Jason Morgan was another person entirely. “Well, as long as you enjoy what you do, I say go for it.” She paused. “You do like it, right?”

“I love it,” Elizabeth nodded. “And it’s great to be able to work with my friends and family.” She bit her lip. “Most days. Others…not so much.”

“Yeah, I have a sister too,” Brenda said. “We do not get along. But I guess it’s different with twins.”

“Patrick, though he is thoroughly annoying and overbearing, is my best friend in the world,” Elizabeth admitted. “I wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world.” She wrinkled her nose. “But some days…”

“It’s good that you value family,” Sonny said, nodding. “There’s nothing more important than your family.” He grinned. “No matter how annoying, right?”

“Right.” Elizabeth sipped her wine and glanced at Jason, who had been silent for most of the meal and definitely the after dinner conversation. She’d enjoyed herself with Brenda and Sonny, liked to think that she had made a good impression but she wondered if Jason didn’t want to be here—if he’d been instructed to come tonight and to bring a date. The thought that she’d been asked to dinner out of obligation rather than an actual desire for her to meet one of the most important people in the world to him depressed her and she took a long gulp of her wine.

Haunted Star: Outside Lower Deck

The December air gave Lulu goose bumps down her arms but she didn’t really care. What was a little freezing air compared to the fact that within a week, her parents would be grounding her for life? She might as well enjoy the outside air while she could.

She was never quite sure how she got herself involved in these messes. One moment, everything would be going fine and the next, she’d have dropped herself right in the middle of an explosive situation—or more correctly, herself and Dillon. He was her right hand man, after all. The Sonny to her Cher, the Jack to her Jen, and most importantly, the Wallace to her Veronica.

But this was a situation that she should never have tried to drop him into and she was already annoyed with herself—as she usually was with most of her plans five minutes after she set them into action. So she was going to have to stop depending on Dillon and start standing up for herself and she’d start by apologizing to him.

“I thought you were barred from attending tonight,” Emily remarked from behind her. Lulu turned and sighed.

“Yeah, as punishment for sneaking into the principal’s office to find my permanent record and erase a few details.” Lulu frowned. “I would have gotten away with it if it hadn’t been for those security cameras.”

Emily laughed and leaned against the rail. “Well, thank you for not giving up Dillon as your accomplice.”

Lulu shrugged. “I’m sure they know—I never do anything stupid without Dillon by my side. He’s usually the one trying to talk me out of it. But I see no reason why he needs to join me in my out of school suspension.”

“Mmm…” Emily rubbed her hands up and down her arms, pulling her jacket more tightly over her dress. “So did you sneak in tonight?”

“No, Lucky pointed out that I could get into a lot more trouble if they left me home alone,” Lulu replied. “I’m just out here to avoid talking myself into another disaster, what about you?”

“Oh…” Emily wrinkled her nose. “Stefan and Edward crossed paths and there was another round of family warfare so I ducked out for a while.” She studied Lulu for a long moment. “Will was looking for you.”

“He usually is,” Lulu grumbled. Couldn’t a boy just take I don’t want to see you again as a final answer? Most would—and had—but Lulu had been trying to shake William Drake for the last week and now more than ever, she needed to cut ties and move on. “I broke up with him last week but he’s not exactly comprehending.”

“It’s a shame,” Emily mused. “Will was such a great kid but he was always kind of the odd one out, you know? Patrick and Ellie are almost a decade older than him and you and Dillon were so tight. And now with his parents…”

“I know he’s having a bad time,” Lulu replied. She tapped her fingers restlessly on the metal railing. “Everyone knows. He went from quiet and clean cut to like—rebel without a clue. He’s always getting into fights at school and he’s just…” she shook her head. “I dunno. It was fun at first, I was looking for a little bit of rebellion but I can’t—Will just started to take it all so seriously.”

Emily frowned at her. “What do you mean?” she asked curiously. “Take the divorce seriously?”

“No, me and him. I mean, he told me he loved me,” Lulu said, her voice rising a little. “And how glad he was that we found each other and how much fun we’re going to have in college next year.”

“Ah…well that’ll scare any seventeen-year-old.” Emily smiled. “Aunt Tracy was always terrified that you and Dillon would end up together but you guys just aren’t like that.”

Dillon? As a romantic possibility? Lulu raised her eyebrows. That had never occurred to her. And now that it had…she touched a hand to her abdomen. “I feel nauseous,” she joked. “I was just standing here, thinking about how much I need him—because you know, he’s my other half. But, dude…” she drew her eyebrows together and shook her head. “I just don’t…we’re not like that.”

“I know you’re not now but don’t be surprised if things end up differently. I mean, when I was your age, I had a few certainties in my life,” Emily told her. “Lucky and Elizabeth, Patrick and Robin—they were going to last forever. I never dreamed that I would look at Nikolas one day…” she smiled. “That I would look him at him and I would see the rest of my life. Things change, Lu, and usually before you’re ready for them.”

“Yeah, you’re not kidding,” Lu said crossly. “Em, have you ever made a really big mistake that just kept getting worse and worse?”

“Oh, God…” Emily sighed. “What did you and Dillon do now? Is it worse than the time you guys ended up in Minnesota? Because I’m telling you, I can’t think of many things that could be worse than the albino, the bus and St. Paul in February—”

“I found out a few days ago that I’m pregnant,” Lulu confessed. Her shoulders slumped. “And I panicked—”

“Jesus, Lu—” Emily’s eyes widened. “Have you told your parents? Have you told Will?”

“No, I only told Dillon,” Lulu replied. “But what makes you think Will’s the father?”

Emily stared at her with an expression of combined horror and exasperation. “Lulu, don’t make me hurt you.”

“Okay, yes, he’s the father but he absolutely can never be told,” Lulu said sternly. “Never. He would just—he would blow it all out of proportion and his parents—” she hesitated. “His mom would just hit the roof—”

“Lulu, if you think you can justify cutting Will out, you’re going to need a better excuse than that.” Emily sighed. “Well, I suppose some things are worse than Minnesota in the winter.”

Lulu blinked rapidly and looked back over the water. “I’m scared,” she confessed. “I thought I was making a point to my parents—that I was just having some fun but now it’s all blown up in my face and worse, I tried to convince Dillon to say he was the father and I think it’s just going to get worse—”

Emily covered her eyes with her hands. “Oh, my God,” she moaned. “You two are going to be the death of me.”

This entry is part 4 of 29 in the Surviving the Past

A few hours later, Elizabeth emerged from her bedroom. Her eyes were still red, but she looked better.

Emily was sitting on the couch, the Chinese food set up. “Hey.”

Elizabeth sat and picked up one of the cartons and a plastic fork. She didn’t care what she was eating – she needed to eat something. After a few minutes of silently eating, Elizabeth set the carton aside, took a sip of iced tea and cleared her throat. “I, uh, have a lot to tell you.”

Emily tucked her hair behind her ears. “We have all night and tomorrow if need be.”

Elizabeth nodded and put her feet on the couch. She hugged her knees to her chest and sighed. “I suppose I should start at the beginning.” Her voice was hoarse from crying for hours. “Do you remember that day when we broke that statue in Lila’s garden?”

Emily nodded. “Yeah, Jason was chasing you…”

“You can’t catch me!” Elizabeth laughed. She dashed through some bushes and ducked under a hedge.

“Yes I can!” Jason had longer legs and eventually tackled her. She fell back and knocked a status over. “Uh oh.”

Elizabeth’s eyes welled up with tears. “Oh, no. I broke it.”

AJ and Emily entered the clearing. “What happened?” Emily asked her voice low.

“I didn’t mean to,” Elizabeth cried.

“Lizzie!”

Elizabeth’s eyes widened. “Oh no! My dad’s here!” She looked around, alarmed. “He’s gonna be really mad!”

“Why? It was an accident,” Jason said.

Elizabeth shook her head. “No, I broke it. That’s all Daddy’s gonna say.”

“Elizabeth Webber-” Jeff Webber entered the clearing, Edward Quartermaine on his heels.

“What happened here?” Edward demanded. Jeff’s face darkened into a fiery red.

“Did you do this Lizzie?” he barked, approaching her. As he got closer, Elizabeth backed up until she backed into Jason. “Well?”

“I’m sorry, Daddy,” Elizabeth cried. Jeff grabbed her arm. “Ow!”

“We’re going home and-”

“She didn’t do it, Mr. Webber,” Jason spoke up. “It was me.”

“Yeah,” AJ agreed quickly. “Me and Jase were wrestlin’ and we knocked into the statue. We’re sorry, Grandfather.”

Edward looked at the two boys suspiciously. “Well…” he turned to Jeff. “There’s no harm done. Lila didn’t really like that particular statue.”

Jeff released Elizabeth’s arm. “All right.” He looked at Elizabeth. “You ready to go home?”

Elizabeth bit her lip. Emily spoke up then. “Grandfather, can Beth stay over tonight? Please!”

“If it’s all right with her father,” Edward replied, never able to deny Emily anything.

“It’s fine.” Jeff left the garden without another word.

“I’m really sorry, Mr. Quartermaine,” Elizabeth said softly.

“It’s all right, Lizzie,” Edward said, kindly. “You’ve done Lila a great service.” He patted her on the head and followed Jeff…

“I remember that,” Emily said. “Your dad really scared me. I thought he was gonna drag you out of the garden and we’d never see you again.”

Elizabeth sighed. “Yeah, I was scared for a different reason.” She looked down. “For as long as I could remember…my father hit me.”

Emily bit her lip. She didn’t know what to say. “Beth, I’m-”

“It wasn’t that bad when I was really young. He never did it unless I did something wrong. He’d smack me upside the head when I mouthed off.” Elizabeth took a deep breath, her voice shaky. “But, um, when I was seven, he started hitting me with a belt. That’s why I always wore sweaters and long pants – even in the summer.”

“Oh, Beth, why didn’t you tell anyone?” Emily asked, reaching her hand out and covering Elizabeth’s.

“I did,” Elizabeth whispered. “Jason found out when I was eleven. I didn’t want to tell anyone but Jason saw a bruise on my arm one day. It was middle of the summer and we were playing hide and seek in the garden. It was just the three of us because AJ had gotten too old remember?”

Emily nodded.

“Anyway, he asked me how I got it and I gave him the usual smart ass answer. None of his business and all that, you know?” Elizabeth bit her lip. “But Jason knew I was lying and he kept pushing until it just came out. After that, Jason and I were really close.”

“I remember around that time you started spending even more time at the mansion,” Emily said softly.

Elizabeth nodded. “It was getting worse. Knowing what I know now, I can see why I was the only one who got punished like that. Sarah and Steven…they were perfect. Because they were really my father’s children. I was just a reminder that my mother had been unfaithful.” Elizabeth blinked the tears back. “I know that didn’t give him the excuse to take his anger out on me, but it doesn’t change anything.”

“What happened?”

“Well, the nights I didn’t spend with you, I’d sit in my room terrified that my father would find a reason to come in.” She smiled a little. “Jason told me that if it got too bad that I couldn’t sleep, I could sneak out and knock on his window.”

“That sounds like something Jason would say,” Emily said. “Did you?”

Elizabeth nodded. “Yeah, after a while, I wasn’t sleeping at all. My grades were dropping and I was getting sick a lot. So one night, I snuck out of my room.” She shook her head. “I climbed down the trellis in my nightgown. It was nights like that I was glad you guys lived across the lake and not across town. I ran across the grounds and I knocked at Jason’s window. I must have been twelve or thirteen at the time. I felt really stupid doing it, but I just couldn’t do stay in my room anymore. Jason opened the window and he let me sleep in his room. He’d sleep on the floor.” The tears started streaming down her face. “I’d never felt so safe in my life,” she said in a hushed voice.

Emily sniffled. “Oh, god, Beth, I wish I’d known-”

Elizabeth shook her head. “It was my choice not to tell you. Jason always wanted me to say something to you or AJ. But anyway, it continued like that until I was about fifteen. It got to the point that I wasn’t even staying in my room any night. If I wasn’t spending the night with you, I was with Jason.” A little smile appeared on her face. “I even kept extra clothes in his room.” She frowned. “But then Jason had his accident.”

“You guys were always fighting, even during that time…I just can’t believe I didn’t notice how close you were,” Emily said, shaking her head.

Elizabeth shrugged. “I didn’t want anyone to know what was going on, so Jason and I kept teasing and arguing in public. I felt better, my grades went up, you know?” She sighed. “After the accident, when Jason didn’t remember…I thought my life was over. I tried to talk to him, but it’d been so long since we were just friends. Jason had become so much more, Em. I felt like he was the only person I could really trust and I felt so safe around him. I didn’t know how to relate to him anymore, so I tried to revert back to the teasing and arguing we’d always known. But, um, I guess Jason had changed too much.” Elizabeth wiped her eyes. “He wasn’t interested in that type of friendship.”

“What did you do when you didn’t have Jason?” Emily asked, almost afraid of the answer.

Elizabeth looked away. “I hid in the closet. I didn’t sleep for three years. And I barely graduated from high school.”

“Oh, Beth.” Emily sighed. “I wish I could have helped.”

Elizabeth shrugged. “I was afraid if I told anyone else, I’d lose them, too. Anyway, you know the rest. On my eighteenth birthday, they dropped the bomb and I moved out.” She sat back and let her head lean on the arm rest. “I still have nightmares some times, but it’s getting better and I’m sleeping more.”

“What happened today that set you off?” Emily asked cautiously. “I’d love to believe that this something you wanted to get off your chest, but I know something had to happen.”

“Well, you know I’m studying business administration at college,” Elizabeth said. “I’ve also been taking creative writing courses. I love writing and I’ve been writing for a long time. I’ve even written three novels.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Emily asked a little hurt.

“I was afraid that they weren’t any good. No one knew. Sonny didn’t know, and neither did Carly. I kept it from everyone.” Elizabeth tucked her hair behind her ears. “Anyway, the first novel was rejected from eight publishers. The second from six. And today, I got the twelfth rejection for the third novel.”

“Oh, God, Beth. I am so sorry.” Emily leaned forward and pulled Elizabeth into a tight hug. “I’m so sorry.”

Elizabeth hugged Emily back, grateful that she wasn’t mad at her for keeping so many secrets. After a few minutes, she pulled away and took another shaky breath. “It’s all right. I’m used to it. And I probably wouldn’t have cried for so long unless…” she trailed off. She grabbed the carton of Chinese food and began eating again. Emily waited patiently. Finally Elizabeth couldn’t avoid it. “I saw Jason in the hallway.”

Emily groaned, “So much for his promise to me.”

“Promise?” Elizabeth asked.

“Yeah, he said he was going to make an effort to be civil,” Emily said. “Oooh, just wait until I get my hands on him-”

“He did make an effort,” Elizabeth assured her.

“Oh.” Emily frowned. “Then what happened?”

Elizabeth sighed. “He asked me if I was all right, because I was crying on the elevator. And, God, Em, when he asked, all I could see was a fifteen year old Jason Quartermaine opening his window one night and asking me if I was all right. It sounded so much the same and I just wanted to scream because he doesn’t remember that he was the only reason I survived, that he was only saying it because he couldn’t just ignore me.” She angrily brushed away tears. “And God help me, I wanted to break down and tell him.”

“What happened, Beth?” Emily asked softly.

“I did what I used to do when Jason would ask me what was going on. I snapped at him. I don’t know why. I know he’s not the same and that he wouldn’t know it’s something I do to avoid talking about something. I know that the Jason that was my entire world is gone and that the Jason that’s here now will never come close to being that. But part of me…” Elizabeth sighed. “Part of me wanted him to try and get it out of me. I don’t know why.” She looked down. “Sometimes I just want to scream.”

Emily sighed. “Beth, I don’t know what I should say.”

Elizabeth looked away. “There’s nothing to say.”

“I think you should talk to Jason.”

Elizabeth’s startled eyes met Emily’s. “No.”

Emily bit her lip. “I don’t mean you should tell him everything. I know what that would take.” She sighed. “But you need to sit down and at least tell him something. He’s walking around wondering why the hell you always jump down his throat. I’ve tried to tell Jason that it’s not that you really hate him or anything.” She chuckled. “I think it’s kind of weird. You are the only person that gets to him. That’s always been true, Beth.”

Elizabeth sighed. “You’re right. I need to tell him something. I can’t avoid him. He’s your brother. He’s AJ’s brother. Sonny and Carly adore him. He’s friends with everyone I am.” She took a deep breath. “I’ll talk to him.”

Emily smiled. “Good.”

Elizabeth stood. “I’m gonna wash my face and do it now.” She checked her watch. “Do you think he’ll still be up?”

Emily nodded, “Do it now before you lose your nerve.”

She nodded and disappeared into the bathroom. Emily leaned against the back of the couch and sighed. How had she missed what was going on? How had Elizabeth been in so much pain without her noticing? How self-absorbed did she have to be?

The phone broke her out of her bout of self-loathing. Sighing, she rubbed her eyes and leaned behind the couch to grab the phone.

“Hello?”

“Baby sis, what’s up?”

“AJ!” Emily squealed. “Hey! How are the kids?”

“Oh, they’re great. Kyle took his first steps the other day and we think Melanie’s going to start talking soon.”

“Oh, that’s great. How’s Courtney?”

“She’s good. We’re still happy, nutty girl, putting up with me for this long.”
He laughed. “So, listen, how are things in Port Charles?”

Emily sighed and twisted the phone cord around her finger, “Oh, AJ, Jason’s back in town and he and Beth are already at it.”

“Really? They’re still fighting? I’d figured they would have kissed and made up by now.”

“Hold on.” Emily pulled the phone away as Elizabeth reentered the room. “Good luck.”

“Thanks,” Elizabeth said. She gave her a tired smile and disappeared into the hallway.

“I’m back. If Jason were still Jason Quartermaine, I know they’d probably be together.” Emily sighed. “But he’s not and they’re not.”

“Yeah,”
AJ’s voice was quiet. “Well, there’s one mistake I can’t ever take back.”

“That’s not what I meant, AJ.”

“Yeah, I know. But that doesn’t make me regret it. Listen, kid, I think it’s time the fearsome foursome was back together. What do you say, I take that vacation Courtney’s been begging me to take and I come home for the summer?”

Emily grinned. “That would be amazing. I know that having the four of us in the same town again…I just know it would be what they need. I know Jason doesn’t remember, but when it comes to us, he’s always willing to listen about the past. And you have to admit, we still get along the same way.”

“Yeah. I’m glad I didn’t destroy everything.”
There was pause. “Listen, let me make the arrangements and I’ll get back to you with times. Don’t tell anyone until I know the exact details.”

“All right.”

“I gotta go. Good talking to you. Love ya.”

“Love ya.”

Emily hung up the phone and grinned. She knew she could probably enlist AJ in her campaign, which would bring the total of Jason and Beth supporters to…er, well four. But it was a start.

—-

Elizabeth took a deep breath and tucked her hair behind her ears. She knocked on the penthouse.

It opened a few seconds later. Jason rubbed his eyes. “What, did you forget an insult?”

She looked down. “I deserve that,” she said softly.

He sighed. Her eyes were still red and puffy. She’d been crying. “What’s wrong?”

“I need to talk to you.” She looked away for a moment and met his eyes. “I think we both need to talk.”

“All right.” He moved aside to let her enter. “I’m sorry about before-”

“No, I’m sorry.” Elizabeth took a shaky breath. “Um, I had no right to snap at you like that. You were just being nice.” She hugged herself and looked away. “The reason we don’t get along…it’s my fault. Not yours.”

“How do you figure?” He shrugged. “It’s not like I don’t fight back.”

“No, what I mean…” Elizabeth exhaled slowly, frustrated. “You know that we were friends before the accident. You, me, Emily and AJ?”

“Yeah. I know that even then we didn’t get along,” Jason replied.

“That’s not really true.” She started wandering around doing her best to avoid his eyes. “We were always teasing each other, but it was pretty good natured. People who didn’t really know us thought we hated each other, but we were actually close.” She cracked her knuckles. “After Emily, you were my best friend. Actually, um, for a few years, we were closer than I was to Emily. You helped me through a really difficult time.” She felt the tears again and blinked them back. “We used to communicate through sarcasm, but you don’t have the same sense of humor so that’s not really possible anymore.”

“Wait, wait.” Jason ran a hand through his hair. “We were good friends.”

Elizabeth nodded, “Yeah.”

“Why didn’t anyone tell me?”

She shrugged. “I don’t know. Does it matter? You wouldn’t have remembered it.” She sighed. “I’m sorry. That wasn’t fair.” She met his eyes. “I came here to apologize and I want to know if we can call a truce. We have to be able to trust each other, especially now that you’re working with Sonny and me.” She bit her lip. “I know that asking us to be friends is too presumptuous, especially since we can’t relate on the level that we used to, but I just think we need a cease fire.”

“Yeah, I think that it’s definitely called for,” Jason agreed.

“Good.” Elizabeth hesitated. “I suppose you want to know why I snapped at you today.”

“Hey, you’re right. It was your personal business,” Jason replied.

“No, what I mean…Jason Quartermaine used to know when something was wrong. He’d ask and I’d shoot off my mouth hoping to make him mad enough to go away. It never worked and he’d keep pushing until I confessed.” She ran a hand nervously through her hair. “I guess part of me still wanted that to be true.”

“I’m sorry,” Jason said. He didn’t know what else to say. He wished he could find out exactly what he’d done for her before. What difficult time he’d helped her through and why they’d been so close. But it obvious that Elizabeth wasn’t going to tell him any of those things any time soon.

“It’s not your fault. It’s mine. I thought I had let go of him, but I guess I still need work.” Elizabeth smiled a little. “Well, I’d better go. I have work tomorrow and I have to put extra time in on that research for Sonny.”

Jason opened the door. “Thanks for…thanks for coming,” he said, lamely.

“I just hope this is a turning point,” Elizabeth said quietly. She left the penthouse and headed for the elevator.

—-

“You’ve been bad, Lizzie.”

Elizabeth stared up from her bed as her father came closer. He was snapping the belt in his hands. Her terror grew as she realized that she was in her room back home.

“You’ve gone and told our little secret, Lizzie.” Jeff’s face came into view and Elizabeth whimpered.

“But Jason can’t help you now. And he doesn’t want to.” He raised the belt and she screamed….

Elizabeth sat straight up in bed, the gasps exploding from her throat. She tried to control her breathing, but it was impossible. She felt like her lungs were on fire. She couldn’t breathe, she couldn’t think. She began flailing on her bed.

Emily must have heard the struggle and the door flew open. “Oh my God, Beth!” She rushed to kneel beside Elizabeth’s bed. “What do you need?”

Elizabeth started to cry. She couldn’t get her breathing under control. It was coming in short little erratic breaths and now it felt like her lungs were clamping shut. She started gesturing with her hands.

“You can’t breathe?” Emily cried. She grabbed the phone next to the bed and called 911. She gave the necessary information and hung up. “They told me to keep you calm. Do you want me to call Sonny?”

Elizabeth finally felt the pressure lessening and she began to take some shallow breaths. She nodded her head anyway. Emily grabbed the phone again and dialed the penthouse.

This entry is part 3 of 29 in the Surviving the Past

Emily was sitting on the couch with her boyfriend of two years, Nikolas Cassadine. They were watching a rerun of Law and Order and arguing over it as usual. Emily was a pre-law student studying at Port Charles University and she intended to be a defense attorney once she graduated. Nikolas had just finished his first year of law school in New York City and had his heart set on being Port Charles’s district attorney one day.

“They never should have gotten rid of Stone,” Emily muttered. “He would have spotted that loophole in a second.”

“No way,” Nikolas argued. “McCoy is so much better. Didn’t you see the episode where he twisted the larceny law to convict that councilman…what was his name…he’s on Boston Public…”

“Anthony Heald,” Emily supplied helpfully. She took an Oreo out of the package and twisted it apart. “He’s the vice principal that went out with the hook lady.”

“Yeah, him, anyway, Stone never would have thought of that. He would have lost the rape case.”

Emily shrugged. “That’s because Stone had morals. You never saw an episode where he was reported to the ethics committee. McCoy doesn’t care if the witness is lying. Like that time he put Briscoe on the stand in the episode where that chick threw herself down the stairs. McCoy knew he was lying and did it anyway.” Emily licked the crème filling off both sides of the cookie.

“Don’t do that,” Nikolas groaned. “McCoy did what he had to do to get the guy convicted.”

Emily rolled her eyes. “Please tell me you’re not going to be that way. That’s how the last DA got fired.”

“That’s different. Scott didn’t twist the laws – he broke them.” Nikolas grinned. “And Luke still got off the hook.”

“Luke was also innocent,” Emily pointed out. She took out another cookie.

“Yeah, well, he had my aunt defending him.”

Emily rolled her eyes. “This is ridiculous. We’re college students on summer vacation and the only thing we can find to do is argue about Law and Order.”

“Well, we live in Port Charles. We don’t do drugs or drink. We’re law abiding citizens and we’ve already see all the movies playing. What else is left?”

“Just because there’s nothing to do doesn’t make it any less ridiculous.”

Nikolas raised an eyebrow. “I’m sure we can find something else to do.”

Emily giggled and reached for him. “That’s the best idea you’ve had all day.”

Before their kissing grew serious, Jason entered causing the couple to spring apart.

“Jason,” Emily said, her face flushed. She ran a hand nervously through her hair. “Um, this is Nikolas Cassadine. Nik, you remember my brother Jason?”

Nikolas straightened his shirt and stood. He stuck his hand out. “Em talks about you all the time.”

Jason shook it. “She talks about you, too.” He looked at the television screen. “You still watch this?”

“Oh, yeah,” Emily said, “It’s great practice.”

“Yeah. All we ever seem to do is argue about it.” Nikolas tossed Emily a look. “God help a judge who gets the two of us in the same courtroom.”

“Whatever.” Jason shrugged. “I just came to grab my bag.”

Emily’s face fell. “I thought you were taking that job!”

Jason smiled. “I am. Sonny offered me the penthouse.”

Emily grinned and clapped her hands. “So you’ll only be a few floors up?” she asked eagerly.

“Yes. You can bug me whenever you want.”

Emily rolled her eyes. “I do not bug you.” She frowned. “Does Beth know you’re working for Sonny?”

Jason frowned. “Yeah, she wasn’t happy.”

Nikolas looked at the siblings curiously, “Why not?”

Emily sighed. “Beth and Jason basically despise each other,” she explained.

“Why?”

Emily threw her brother an irritated look. “I have no idea.”

“Look,” Jason said, “I promised you last night that I’d make an effort to be civil.”

Emily shrugged. “There’s no use. I believe you’d try, but Beth can be…” she trailed off looking for the right way to describe her friend.

“Stubborn?” Jason suggested.

“Pig-headed, obstinate-” Nikolas cut his list off with one glare from Emily.

“Difficult,” Emily finished.

Nikolas snorted. “That’s the best you can do? Come on, you know I love Liz like a sister, but you have to admit that once she makes up her mind, that’s it.”

Emily sighed. “Well, yeah- but I happen to know Beth probably won’t make the first move.”

Nikolas nodded. “Which means for a civil conversation, you’d have to start it,” he said to Jason.

“I try but she jumps down my throat anyway. I could ask her how the weather is and she’d think I was insulting her.”

Emily shrugged. “Just pretend you’re talking to Taggart.”

Nikolas, having seen Taggart in action, eyed Emily skeptically. “That’s-”

“That’s not a bad idea,” Jason interrupted. “I just won’t answer her.”

“Good,” Emily said, pleased with the way the conversation had turned out.

“I’m just going to grab my bag,” Jason said. He reached behind the couch and grabbed the duffle bag. “See ya.” He left.

Once the door was shut, Nikolas turned to Emily. “Pretend she’s Taggart?”

Emily shrugged. “Taggart is always after him and Jason never gives in. If he doesn’t snap back at Beth, she won’t have a reason to keep going.”

Nikolas shook his head, exasperated. “How is he supposed to fall for her if the only thing he thinks about around her is a tall black guy with a bad attitude?”

Emily frowned. “You’ve got a point.”

Nikolas threw his hands up. “I don’t know why I let you and Carly talk me into this.”

Emily grinned and pulled him back on the couch. “You don’t remember?” she asked. “Chocolate sauce, whipped cream…”

Nikolas grinned. “I think I need a refresher course.”

Emily grasped the collar of his shirt and pulled him close. “I think that can be arranged.”

Jason hit the elevator button to open the doors. When they opened, Elizabeth was inside. Her hair was all over the place, her eyes were red and puffy and her face was tearstained. She was hugging herself, clutching an envelope in her right hand.

“Are you all right?” he asked.

She glared at him. “What do you care?” she snapped brushing past him.

‘I don’t,” he replied. She whirled around.

“That’s right. You don’t. No one does. No wants to know what’s wrong because it might stop them from living their happy little lives-” Elizabeth broke off and shook her head. “Never mind, you haven’t cared since the accident.”

He shot an arm out to hold her place. “That’s not fair. What’s your problem? All I did was ask if you were okay and you jumped down my throat!”

“Because you should butt out when it’s clearly none of your business!”

“I was just showing a little concern,” he snapped. “I guess I’ll think twice next time.”

She jerked her arm out of his grasp. “See that you do.” Shooting one last glare in his direction, she stalked towards her apartment.

Jason turned back to the elevator and stabbed the button viciously. So much for being civil.

Elizabeth slammed into the apartment and stormed past Emily and Nikolas who were in various stages of undress. She slammed her bedroom door shut.

Emily and Nikolas traded glances. “I’ll call you tonight,” he said. He kissed her cheek and pulled his shirt on. He left.

Emily buttoned her shirt and hurried to Elizabeth’s door. She gently knocked. “Beth?”

“Go away,” came the reply. Emily sighed. Elizabeth was clearly crying.

“Beth, please tell me what’s wrong.” She heard a sniffle. “Please.”

“Not right now. I just wanna be alone.”

Emily sighed again. “All right. Hey, I’ll go order some Chinese and when you’re ready we’ll talk.” She moved away from the door.

Inside, Elizabeth was curled up on her bed, clutching a pillow and the envelope. She didn’t need to read it again – she’d already memorized it.

Dear Ms. Webber—
We regret to inform you that we do not wish to publish your work at this time. After careful consideration, we’ve decided that this particular work is not appropriate for our image…

It was the third novel that had been rejected and this particular one was on its twelfth rejection.

It had been a bad day to begin with she’d been late for work at Deception, the research she was working on for Sonny was hitting dead end after dead end, she’d missed the bus twice and she’d gotten this latest rejection. To top it all off, she’d run into Jason and they’d argued.

She still couldn’t believe he’d been concerned. It was almost as though he cared. The way he’d asked reminded her so much of Jason Quartermaine she’d wanted to scream. How fair was it that she’d had to mourn her best friend and yet part of him was still alive? Jason had forged relationships with Emily and AJ, but why was it so difficult for the two of them to even be civil to one another?

She rolled over and stared at a picture on her nightstand. She wondered why it was still there. It’d been taken five years ago. The Christmas before AJ’s drinking had spiraled out of control, before the accident, before Emily broke ties with most of her family and before Elizabeth found out she was a bastard child that nobody wanted. It was of the four of them, standing in front of the Christmas tree at the Quartermaine mansion. Emily and Elizabeth were in front of the guys and had their arms around each other. They were both smiling brightly. AJ had his arm around Jason’s neck, pretending to choke him.

She and Emily had tons of pictures of all of them growing up at the mansion. Their grandmother, Lila, had followed them around with a camera as they played in the rose garden. After she broke her hip and was confined to a wheelchair, Reginald and Monica had taken over. Even after they were too old to play tag, they’d hung out in the garden, doing homework or just messing around.

She traced their faces in the picture. Jason and AJ had always looked out for her and Emily. Taking the blame when their schemes would go wrong, looking out for them at school and protecting them from…whatever came along.

Elizabeth sighed and looked at the ceiling. It was her fault she and Jason didn’t get along now. He didn’t understand that they hadn’t really fought in the past – just teasing. Everyone outside of their little foursome assumed that they couldn’t stand each other and Jason had gotten that idea after the accident. Jason Quartermaine had a sense of humor that Jason Morgan didn’t seem to possess. Elizabeth knew Jason Quartermaine was long gone and that she should just forget him and move on. He was never coming back – and Jason Morgan would never be what Jason Q had once been.

She’d wanted to tell him so badly today. He’d asked and all she wanted to do was throw her arms around him and cry. She’d used to do that, growing up. When things got too bad at home, she’d go the mansion and Jason would listen to her. He was the only one that knew what had gone on with her parents – Emily didn’t know. And after the accident, she’d lost the only support she’d had. She’d held some hope that maybe she and Jason could be friends again, but he’d moved out after high school and then left town a year later. Elizabeth spent three years with her parents and no one to turn to.

But instead of telling him, she’d put up her usual guard. She knew he wouldn’t understand why she was snapping out. When she was younger, Jason would have understood and kept pushing until she confessed. This Jason didn’t understand that. All he could see was an angry girl who appeared to loathe the ground he walked on.

She didn’t want to work with him. She didn’t want him to be a partner. When Jason was off traveling, she didn’t have to remember anything. So she’d made up a lie. She didn’t trust him and she hated him. Neither of which was really true. He might not be Jason Quartermaine anymore, but for some incredibly insane reason, she still trusted him and liked him.

Elizabeth sat up and brought her knees to her chest. She rested her chin on her knees and stared straight ahead. The past few years had been a roller coaster. She’d lost her family, gained a new one, lost her best friend, moved, started a new school…she wondered when the world would stop spinning.

April 9, 2014

This entry is part 2 of 29 in the Surviving the Past

Sonny Corinthos looked up as his body guard, Johnny, announced Jason. “You’re early.”

Jason shrugged. “Didn’t feel like waiting.”

Sonny gestured towards the breakfast table. “Feel free to grab something. Carly isn’t down yet.”

“I don’t do breakfast,” Jason replied.

Sonny paused. “Are you gonna tell me what you decided?”

“Yeah.” Jason stuck his hands on jean pockets. “I’ll take it.”

“Good.” Sonny grinned and sat down. “You don’t want any coffee? Alexis will be here shortly with the contracts.”

Jason sat and poured himself a cup of coffee. “Alexis, huh? You were pretty sure of yourself weren’t you?”

Sonny shrugged. “I like to be prepared.”

“So, why didn’t you tell me your sister was Elizabeth Webber?” Jason asked, sipping the coffee.

“Didn’t know it mattered,” Sonny served himself some scrambled eggs.

“She lives with Emily,” Jason pointed out.

“So?” Sonny shrugged and put two pieces off toast on his plate.

“Sonny, we can’t stand each other.”

Sonny looked at him skeptically. “You don’t like someone? You?” Sonny shook his head. “That’s impossible.”

“What are you talking about? I don’t like plenty of people,” Jason said defensively.

Sonny grinned. “No. You have two categories. People you like and people you don’t care about. Liz is the only person you’ve ever said you didn’t like.” He shrugged. “It’s just weird. Why don’t you like her?”

“She’s irritating and she’s a pain in the ass.”

“Watch it-” Sonny pointed his fork at him. “That’s my baby sister you’re talking about.”

“You asked.”

Sonny frowned. “True. Anyway, you’ve been in town less than a day. How irritating could she possibly be?”

Jason frowned. “I knew her before I left town. I’m told I knew her before the accident.”

Sonny nodded. “Right. Of course. I remember. You, Emily, Liz and your brother…you were close as kids, right?”

“Yeah. That’s what Emily tells me. I basically have the same relationships with them as I did before. AJ and I are friends – I saw him in New York before I came here, I love Emily and Elizabeth and I fight. I don’t know why everyone thinks it’s so different.”

“You know, it’s strange,” Sonny said thoughtfully. “You usually separate yourself from Jason Quartermaine unless you’re talking about of the three of them. And then it’s like…you’re sorry you can’t remember.”

Jason shrugged. “I am sorry. I’ve seen the photos and Emily and AJ are always talking about how much fun we used to have. I know they miss him.”

“They love you, too,” Sonny said.

“I know. But it’s hard to compete with a ten-year-old breaking statues in the gardens.”

“Breaking statues?” Sonny repeated.

“Jason!” Carly shrieked from the stairs.

“Was she always this loud?” Jason asked, wincing. Carly flew down the steps and hurtled herself in Jason’s arms.

“It’s so good to see you!” Carly said, pulling away. She sat down at the table and Jason resumed his seat. “Did Sonny tell you that I run my own company now?”

“With Laura,” Sonny reminded. “Carly runs Deception, the cosmetics company.”

“Oh, and I have this great secretary. She’d be good for you,” Carly said, helpfully.

“Carly-” Sonny tried to cut in.

“She’s gorgeous, she’s funny, she’s smart,” Carly said, ticking the traits off on her fingers, “and she doesn’t mind the job because Sonny’s-”

“Carly-” Sonny tried again.”

“-her brother!” Carly finished triumphantly.

“Thanks, but no thanks,” Jason said shortly. He stood. “I’ve got to go see if Jake’s got a room open.”

“Hey, wait for-” Sonny stopped as Jason left. “Good job.”

“What’s your problem? What’s his problem?” Carly asked irritated. She spread some jelly on a piece of toast.

“He already knows Liz,” Sonny said.

“How does he know Lizzie-” Carly broke. “Holy hell, Emily’s his sister? That’s the Jason she’s been complaining about the last week?”

“How many Jasons do you think there are in Port Charles?” Sonny asked.

Carly shrugged. “At least two. I never made the connection.” She grinned. “But this just makes it better.”

Sonny grimaced. “Carly, this is my sister you’re talking about.”

Carly grinned. “And Jase is like your brother. You know we want them both happy.”

“Carly, don’t get that look.” Sonny winced. “That’s your ‘I’m gonna help and nobody can stop me look.’ I don’t like that look, Carly.”

She shrugged. “Deal. I think Jason and Liz would be perfect for each other.”

“Carly-”

“Let’s see. I can enlist Emily—because I know she wants them to be happy. Oh, and I can have a party for Deception that way they can both get dressed up-”

Sonny buried his head in his hands. Carly was off and running. God help his sister and Jason.

—–

Elizabeth stepped off the bus and turned the corner, intent on heading for Sonny’s warehouse. Just as she reached the docks, she groaned.

“Well, well, if it isn’t the mafia princess.” Lt. Taggart crossed his arms and grinned. “Here to see your brother?”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “Taggart, in order for me to be a mafia princess, my brother would have to be in the mafia and I’d have to be his daughter. And since that’s illegal in most states, I guess you’re going to have to let me pass.”

“I hear your brother has a new partner,” Taggart said. Elizabeth brushed past him. “Word on the street says it’s his former enforcer.”

Elizabeth turned and smiled sweetly. “My brother’s business is none of my—or your—concern. If you’ll excuse me-”

“It’s a shame. Such a fine boy, corrupted by Corinthos.”

“What are you talking about?” Elizabeth asked. “Stop talking in circles and get to the point. I’m busy.”

“From a fine upstanding family…” Taggart shook his head sadly. “Jason Quartermaine could have gone places.”

Elizabeth froze. Sonny’s new partner? Jason? She took a deep breath. “Jason Quartermaine is dead. The sooner everyone realizes that, the happier everyone will be.”

“You never learn.” Sonny emerged from a car that had pulled up. “You want something Taggart?”

“Nope. Just informing the mafia princess what her former friend has been up to,” Taggart. He smirked at Jason who had gotten out of the passenger seat. “Morgan. No surprise there. Welcome back to town.” Taggart strode away, still smirking.

“Twisted little…” Elizabeth muttered. She shook her head. “Hey.”

“Was he bothering you?” Sonny asked.

“No.” Elizabeth crossed her arms. “Why didn’t you tell me Jason was your new partner?”

“Because I just found out this morning that he agreed.” Sonny motioned for Jason to join them. “Jason, I take it you know Liz.”

“Yeah,” Jason said shortly.

Sonny scratched his head. “Well, there’s something else you need to know about her.”

“Sonny!” Elizabeth shook her vehemently. “No.”

“Liz, sweetheart, he has to know.”

“What’s going on?” Jason demanded. He eyed the petite brunette suspiciously.

Elizabeth sighed. “Fine.”

“Liz isn’t just Carly’s secretary and Emily’s roommate.” Sonny hesitated. “You know that, uh, other partner…”

“Sonny, you’ve got to be kidding,” Jason said, stunned. “She’s just a kid.”

“Hey!” Elizabeth snapped. “You’re only two years older than I am!” She glared at Sonny. “You never told me that Jason worked for you.”

“Yes, I did,” Sonny reminded her. “I just never mentioned his last name. Seems everyone was under the impression that there are a lot of Jasons in Port Charles. It’s not my fault if you didn’t make the connection.”

“I can’t work with him,” Elizabeth fumed.

“Liz-” Sonny turned to Jason. “Listen, let’s take this inside. We can discuss it in my office.”

Elizabeth stalked in the office and fumed as Sonny and Jason entered.

“Liz, I trust Jason with my life-”

“Save it,” Elizabeth snapped. “You told me you had a perfect partner in mind and all you would tell me was his name was Jason. You knew I was living with his sister and you knew that we didn’t get along but you chose to offer him the position without even informing me that I already knew him.”

“Liz, I was hoping you’d give him a chance,” Sonny said. “You’re right. I should have told you but I was afraid you’d shoot the idea down.”

“Damn right,” Elizabeth said, glaring at her brother.

“Look, I haven’t signed anything-” Jason broke off. “I don’t have to take it.”

“No, Jason,” Sonny said. “This is just a family disagreement-”

“The hell it is,” Elizabeth hissed. “I have to be able to trust him. I don’t care if you do, but I don’t. I have to know that I’m not in danger and I can’t because I do not trust him-”

“Doesn’t my judgment mean anything?” Sonny demanded. “I’ve been in this business my whole life; you’ve only been involved for two years. I think I can make a judgment call. Jason has worked for me for five years. He is the only person qualified to take do this.”

Elizabeth took a deep breath. “You’re right. You have been in this business longer than I have. And you have more experience.” She sighed. “If you think you can trust him, then I’ll have to deal.”

“Liz-”

She shook her head, vehemently. “I don’t like it, but the problems between Jason and I … they don’t have to come to work with us.” She eyed him. “Right?”

Jason’s mind was still spinning. This petite brunette with the curly hair was the mafia princess Taggart called her. She was Sonny’s full and equal partner. He blinked. “Right. Strictly business.”

Elizabeth turned her eyes back to Sonny. “All right?”

“Thanks, Liz,” Sonny said, gratefully. “You won’t regret this.”

“Yeah, I better not,” Elizabeth muttered. She checked her watch. “I have to go. I’m meeting Em and Nik for lunch. I only came by to meet our new partner.” She kissed Sonny on the cheek. “Bye.”

“See ya kid.”

After she was gone, Sonny rolled his shoulders, trying to get rid of the tension that seemed to have knotted in his shoulders. “She’s a little-”

“Why didn’t you tell me this morning?” Jason demanded. He ran a hand through his hair and put his hands on his hips. “Jesus, Sonny. You knew we didn’t get along.”

“I didn’t tell you because Liz is a strictly silent partner. She comes in only when necessary. After she graduates college, she wants to take on a more active role. But I can’t wait another two years, so that’s where you come in.” Sonny shrugged. “Taggart doesn’t really think she’s involved, but he knows he can get a rise out of her.”

“I thought you hated women being involved,” Jason said.

Sonny rubbed his eyes. “Yeah, well, Liz isn’t a normal woman.” He grinned. “How did she put it…?”

Elizabeth flew past the secretary and straight into Sonny’s office. She closed the door behind her and crossed her arms.

Sonny grinned and stood. “Something I can do for you?”

“I found out you were my brother two weeks ago,” Elizabeth began, “and all I’ve done since then is think about that. You are the only family I’ve have in the world and I would really like to develop a relationship with you.”

“I want the same, Liz-”

“But I am completely terrified that I will lose you before that happens,” Elizabeth continued as if he hadn’t spoken. “I’m not stupid. I know what you do, and I know that it’s not limited to coffee or the hotel.” She strode forward and put her hands on his desk and leaned towards him. “I can’t lose you.”

Sonny sighed. “What do you want me to do about it?” he asked quietly. “I know how you feel and trust me, there’s not a day that goes by that Carly doesn’t hug me with all the strength in her body because she’s afraid that I might not come back. You have-”

“I want to be involved.”

Sonny blinked. “Excuse me?”

“I have a quick mind and good instincts,” Elizabeth said. “I want to help. I want to be a part of this.”

Sonny shook his head quickly. “No. No women.”

Elizabeth smirked. “I’m not just any woman. I’m your sister.”

“Liz, my answer is no.”

“And it’s the wrong answer,” she said glaring at him. “It doesn’t have to be an active role. I understand that. But I want to help. You get to take risks every day. You take the chance that you won’t come home. Why is that okay for you? Why don’t I get to make that same choice?”

“Liz, getting involved in this business…there’s no turning back. Once you’re in, you’re in. And choosing to get involved because you’re scared, that’s not a good enough reason.”

Elizabeth stood up and re-crossed her arms. She bit her lip and looked down. Her curly hair fell forward, hiding her face. After a few tense moments of silence, she looked up. She pulled her hair out of her face and took a deep breath. Her eyes were full of determination. “I want to protect the people I care about. And right now, the only people I care about are you, Em, AJ and Carly. I can’t lose you and if I think I can help, you know I will. It doesn’t matter whether you’ve given me that okay. I’ll do it anyway. Now wouldn’t you rather that you were guiding me and making sure I didn’t do the wrong things?”

He sighed and looked away. “Liz-”

“Don’t protect me because I’m a woman. Because that’s not fair. I’m just as good as any man, damn it. Just because I’m female does not mean I can’t handle this.”

He rubbed his eyes. “You know there’s no going back.”

“I’m aware of that.”

“All right. Here’s the deal.” Sonny looked up and clasped his hands under his chin. “You take a silent partnership. We’re equals, we make our decisions together. But no one knows you’re involved. The cover story is that you’re my sister and you visit me here from time to time. You do not get involved unless there is no other choice. You will limit it to research, but you will train just like any of the others. If, once you’ve graduated from college, you still want to do this, we can discuss a more active role.”

Elizabeth smiled. “That’s perfect.”

“Don’t make me regret this, Liz.”

She shook her head. “You’ll never have a reason,” she promised. She rounded the desk and threw her arms around him. “Thank you.”

He hugged her back. “You’re welcome.”

“Still can’t believe you gave in,” Jason muttered.

“She had a point. I might not like women being involved but I’ve also never had one waltz in here and ask. I’d like you to say no to Liz and get away with it.” Sonny smirked. “I can’t believe she agreed so quickly.”

“I don’t understand, Sonny. What do you need an active partner for?” Jason asked.

Sonny shrugged. “I have a kid named Zander who’d be next in line if something were to happen to me before Liz graduates. He’s a good kid with a lot of potential and he’s earned the position.” Sonny sighed. “But he’s not ready to take over. So, instead of replacing him, I’m bringing someone in who can take over.”

“So what happens when Elizabeth takes the active role in two years? You send me on my way?” Jason asked.

Sonny shook his head. “No. You stay on. If something happens to me even after the Liz graduates, I want you to take over my spot.”

“So Zander stays where he is?”

“Yeah. He’s expressed the opinion that he’s not really interested in running the territory. He likes where he is.” Sonny sat in his chair. “I know you’re the same way, which why you’ll be doing the same things you were doing before, only you’ll be in Port Charles. Liz might like to think she can handle this job as well as anyone and she probably can, but you know as well as I do that a woman in charge…she won’t get the same respect that you or I do.”

Jason nodded. “Makes sense. You think Elizabeth will take the active role?”

Sonny nodded. “Yeah. I had my doubts early on, but she’s proved herself. She’s as well trained as any of the men and she’s one of the most intelligent people on the staff. It’s like she was born to do this. She’ll definitely get more involved.”

“All right. Well, I’m gonna head over to Jake’s and see if she has a room I can use.”

“Use the other penthouse,” Sonny suggested. “It’s been empty for a few months since Alexis moved out. Which reminds me.” Sonny reached into his desk drawer. “Here’s those contracts.”

Jason took a pen from the desk and quickly signed and initialed his name in the right places. “Here.”

“I’ll drop them off at Alexis’s place.” Sonny grinned. “Any reason to annoy Jax.” He put the contracts aside and pulled some keys from his pocket. “Here’s the keys to the penthouse.”

“Thanks.”

—–

Emily knocked on Carly’s half open office door. “Hey. You called?”

Carly gestured for her to enter. “Come in.”

Emily entered and sat in the chair in front of Carly’s desk. “What’s up? What was so urgent it couldn’t wait?”

Carly grinned. “I’ve been thinking about Lizzie.”

“She hates that name and what about her?”

“I think I have the perfect guy for her.” Carly grinned. “And she already hates him.”

Emily grinned. “Jason right?” She squealed. “Oh, you are right!”

“I am?” Carly said, warily. “Because Sonny seemed to think it was a bad idea.”

“No, no, seriously. Before the accident, Jason had a big crush on Beth and he’d just worked up the courage to ask her to the senior prom. Of course, they both say they despise each other, but I think that they would be really good for each other.”

Carly nodded. “Definitely. So,” she said her eyes full of mischief. “How do we get them together?”

“Well, first we have to make them friends,” Emily pointed out. “And maybe once that happens, they can take the initiative.”

“Uh uh, this is Jason we’re talking about. He doesn’t know what that means,” Carly said.

Emily laughed. “Let’s not worry about that. We have our work cut out for us with keeping them from killing each other!”

This entry is part 1 of 29 in the Surviving the Past

Emily Quartermaine hung up the phone and leaned back on the couch, a wide smile spread on her face. She couldn’t wait to share her amazing news.

She didn’t have to wait long. Elizabeth Webber flung their apartment door open a few minutes later. Her blue eyes were sparkling, her cheeks flushed and her curly hair all over the place. “Em, I have the best news!”

“I’m so glad you’re back, Beth!” Emily jumped to her feet. “I have amazing news!”

Elizabeth grinned. “Let me go first!” She dropped her book bag and closed the door. “I’ve passed my finals!” She twirled in a circle. “My summer can officially begin!”

Emily hugged her room mate tightly. “That’s great! You even passed Calculus?”

Elizabeth pulled away and wrinkled her nose. “Please don’t remind me.” She grinned again. “So what’s your news?”

“My brother’s coming to visit!” Emily blurted.

“Which one?” Elizabeth asked warily. Emily had two brothers, AJ and Jason. AJ was the elder of the two—and in Elizabeth’s opinion, the more likable. He was living in New York City with his wife Courtney and their two kids. AJ and Elizabeth had always gotten along.

Jason was a different story. The last time Elizabeth had seen him was four years ago before she’d graduated from high school. He was perfect – nice to everyone, perfect behavior and never been in an ounce of trouble. He’d been in a car accident two years ago and Emily had told her Jason was a changed man, but Jason Morgan disliked her as much as Jason Quartermaine had. It seemed the only person that ever got on Jason Q’s nerves was Elizabeth. All they ever did was bicker and argue. He was always traveling somewhere and Elizabeth rarely saw him.

Emily’s face fell a bit. “Oh…it’s Jason.”

Elizabeth sighed. “Well, I suppose I can…always… avoid…” Elizabeth trailed off. “What’s that look for?”

Emily shifted her feet. “I sorta told him he could…stay…here.”

“Emily!” Elizabeth wailed. “You know we don’t get along!”

“Honestly, Beth, it’s been two years. You’re not nearly as annoying as you used to be and I’m sure Jason isn’t interested in picking up your rivalry where you left off.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “Em-”

“Come on! You know whenever Jason’s in town, I rarely see him. This way I get to spend time with him!” Emily pleaded. “Please!”

Elizabeth sighed. “Well, it’s your apartment too. Of course he can stay.” Her eyes hardened. “Just keep him away from me!”

Emily nodded eagerly. “Not a problem.” She flung her arms around her best friend. “Thank you, thank you!”

Elizabeth shook her head and smiled. “Don’t thank me yet. He’s not here, after all. You may regret this.”

—-

Emily settled on the couch late that night with a glass of soda and large photo album in her lap. Whenever she missed her brothers too much, she always dragged the album off the shelves. It happened more when she’d first moved out of the Quartermaine mansion last year but it had been almost two months since she’d looked at the pictures.

She opened the album and smiled. She and Elizabeth had been best friends since their first day of first grade. She grimaced remembering the first time Elizabeth had visited the mansion. She’d accidentally spilled an entire glass of red punch on Jason’s shirt. AJ had thought it was the funniest thing ever but the way Emily figured, Elizabeth and Jason had disliked each other ever since.

She giggled at the picture of the entire group on the first day of school. She and Elizabeth had been third-graders, Jason fifth grade and AJ had been starting seventh grade. Elizabeth’s sister Sarah had been in the same grade as AJ but she hadn’t been close to Elizabeth and therefore wasn’t in this picture. Elizabeth and Emily were hugging and laughing, AJ was scowling and Jason was glaring at the girls.

She sighed. Before Jason’s accident, the three Quartermaine siblings were closer than most families. AJ and Jason had been best friends and Emily hadn’t ever felt left out. Even though Elizabeth and Jason fought all the time, the four of them were still inseparable. She couldn’t begin to count the amount of times Edward had bellowed after them as they ran through the gardens.

AJ had begun drinking shortly after he graduated from high school and it had spiraled out of control quickly. Jason was seventeen when he’d tried to stop his brother from driving while drunk. They’d gotten into a car accident and Jason didn’t remember anything before the accident. He’d broken ties from the family and changed his name to Jason Morgan. The only people in the family he’d remained close to were Emily, their grandmother Lila and at times, Monica. The accident had forced AJ to see what was happening to him and he went into rehab. He’d been clean for five years and married for three to Courtney Matthews.

The only thing that had seemed to survive the accident was his apparent irritation for Emily’s best friend. Elizabeth and Jason were the most important people in her life and she knew there had to be a way for them to like one another. They weren’t the same people they’d been five years ago.

Emily was determined to make them friends.

—–

Elizabeth rolled over in her bed. She hated that the animosity between her and Emily’s brother brought on tension in her friendship with Emily. When she and Jason had been younger, it had always been teasing and pulling hair. She smiled as she remembered the way Lila Quartermaine had told her that the only reason Jason pulled her hair and called her names was that he liked her. Elizabeth had been eight at the time and didn’t really understand that. But as they’d grown older, the teasing had remained and she’d even developed a crush on him.

But it had changed after his accident. The teasing was gone and she believed it’d been replaced by genuine dislike. She’d tried to accept Jason as he was now and it hadn’t been going that badly. She’d been visiting him one day after school when it’d taken a turn for the worse.

“What was I like before?” Jason asked quietly. Elizabeth studied him for a few minutes. It’d been the first time he’d asked about the past. He’d been more concentrated on what was going on today– like he hadn’t wanted to remember.

“Well, most people think you walked on water,” Elizabeth said dryly. She hadn’t meant for it come out that way but she and Jason had always communicated using sarcasm.

“You didn’t?” Jason asked curiously.

She shrugged. “You always seemed a bit stuck-up, like you were too good for anyone.” She grinned. “Except me. I know what a jerk you were.” Usually Jason would have laughed with her but his jaw had just clenched and he looked away.

Since then they hadn’t spoken to each other unless the words were cutting or insulting. Thankfully, Jason had taken off from town shortly after high school graduation and Elizabeth hadn’t seen him in four years.

And now Jason was coming back and he was staying at their apartment. Elizabeth was planning on spending as much as possible with her sister-in-law, Carly Corinthos. If she could avoid Jason Morgan, maybe it would be that bad.

——

Carly Corinthos peered at herself in the mirror. “He can’t be that bad, Lizzie.”

Elizabeth grimaced and put the messages on Carly’s desk. “Don’t call me that and yes, he is. You hadn’t even moved here before Jason took off.”

Carly looked up. “You’re the best secretary I’ve ever had, but you also exaggerate more than normal people.”

Elizabeth plopped in the chair near Carly’s desk. “We can’t be in the same room with one another before someone tosses an insult. It’s like when he irritates me by just being in the same area.”

Carly wrinkled her nose. “Yeah, I know how that works. Had the same problem with this guy I know.” She jotted something on a pad. “He was an arrogant son of a bitch who thought he knew everything.”

“So what did you do?” Elizabeth asked curiously. Carly raised and met her eyes. She grinned.

“Well, Lizzie, I married him.”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “That’s not a lot of help. I’ll be the first to tell you my brother is an annoying and irritating son of a bitch.”

Carly shrugged. “Yeah, well, people who can’t do anything but fight generally end up attracted to each other.”

“Carly, you’re full of shit.”

Carly shrugged. “Don’t tell me I didn’t warn you.”

“Whatever. Your three o’clock will be here soon. I’m back to my desk before you try to give me more advice.” Elizabeth stood up and exited Carly’s office.

——-

“Em!” Elizabeth called entering their apartment. She dropped the folders and keys on the table in the entry. “Hey, I’m home!”

“She went out,” was the gruff answer she received. Elizabeth turned to see Jason Morgan leaving the kitchen. She paused. He looked completely different than he had four years ago. He seemed taller, his hair was short and spiky and he… definitely had a better body.

She blinked. “When did you get here?” she asked. She could be civil. After all, she’d known Jason since she was seven. Just because he didn’t remember didn’t mean Elizabeth had forgotten.

“About an hour ago. Emily went out with Nikolas.” Jason crossed his arms. “She told me not to fight with you.”

The corners of her mouth twitched. “She did, huh?” Elizabeth grinned. “Well, we’ve already made it five minutes.” She clasped her hands in front of her and they stood in silence for a few minutes. “Did Em mention when she’d be back?”

“No. I didn’t ask,” Jason replied, tersely.

Her eyes narrowed. “You don’t have say it like that. I was just asking a question,” she snapped.

“Still the same kid.”

“Kid?” Elizabeth raised an eyebrow and put her hands on her hips. “I’m twenty years old. I stopped being a kid when I was fourteen.”

His eyes swept up and down her body. “All right, still the same brat,” he drawled. She flushed and crossed her arms over her chest.

“And you’re still the same jerk,” Elizabeth bit out. She took a deep breath. “I’m going to my room. Let me know when you decide to remove that stick from your ass.” She grabbed the folders she’d just dropped and stalked towards her room.

Jason heard her door slam and winced. He really hadn’t meant to fight – he usually didn’t let anyone get to him. But put Elizabeth Webber in the same room with him for five minutes and he couldn’t help it. Something about her just grated his nerves.

His cell phone started to ring. Jason dug it out of his jeans pocket and flicked it on. “Morgan?”

“It’s Sonny. You in town?”

“Yeah.”

“Where you staying?”

“My sister’s apartment.”

“Good. Come by in the morning and we can discuss my offer.”

“Okay.” Jason hung up. He’d started working for Sonny Corinthos shortly before he’d left town and had quickly moved up the ranks. He’d spent a good part of the previous four years doing odd job for him. Now Sonny had called him to Port Charles. Wanted to offer him a partnership. Jason had come to town intending on turning him down—but after seeing his sister, he was thinking of taking Sonny up on it. He’d like to be around Emily more.

A few hours later, Emily entered the apartment. She noticed Jason sitting on the couch reading one of his travel books. Her eyes flew to the entry table where she saw Elizabeth’s keys. She groaned making Jason look up.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

She closed the door and put her hands on her hips. “You did it, didn’t you?”

“Did what?” Jason asked, immediately on the defensive.

“You fought with Beth.” Emily rolled her eyes. “Jesus, Jason. How long were the two of you in the same room before one you started it?”

“It wasn’t my fault,” Jason said.

“No, it never is.” Emily shook her head and sat next to him on the couch. “You know, Jase, sometimes I wonder about this whole dislike thing you have with her. You never let anyone else get to you. I’ve seen that police detective—what’s his name…? Anyway, he goads you and goads and you never give in. Beth makes one remark and you dive right in.” She pulled her boots off. “I will never understand you.”

Jason shrugged. “I don’t know. It comes naturally.”

Emily smiled sadly. “It always did,” she said softly. She looked away, tears suddenly springing to her eyes.

Jason caught the tone in her voice. “Hey, what’s the matter?”

Emily shook her head and wiped the tears from her eyes. “Nothing. Sometimes I just miss the way things used to be. We used to have so much fun, Jase. You, me, Beth and AJ.”

“I find it hard to believe that I ever got along with Elizabeth,” Jason replied.

“You didn’t. But…it wasn’t fighting,” Emily said. “It was teasing.” She sighed. “Jason Quartermaine liked her.”

“What?” Jason asked, startled. No had ever told him that.

“He was going to ask her to his senior prom,” Emily told him. “But the accident happened and…well…” she shrugged. “I’m sorry. I know you don’t like to talk about that.”

“He liked her?” Jason repeated. “I just can’t believe that.”

“I know.” Emily sighed. “He was working up the courage for months and I just know she would have said yes.” She shook her head. “I’m going to bed.”

Jason put a hand on her arm. “I swear, Em, I’ll make more of an effort.”

“Don’t worry about it,” Emily said, avoiding his eyes. “You won’t be in town long and Beth said she was going to spend time with her sister-in-law, Carly-”

“Who?” Jason said, dreading the answer.

Emily paused, confused. “Her sister-in-law, Carly Corinthos. Sonny’s Beth’s half-brother…” she trailed off. “I never mentioned this to you?”

Jason shook his head, speechless.

“About two years ago, Beth’s dad basically told her that now that she was eighteen, he wasn’t financially responsible for her anymore. She was just his wife’s bastard daughter.” Emily watched his jaw clench. “Her father was Mike Corbin, Sonny’s dad. Beth was depressed for weeks, but she and Sonny are close… oh my God,” Emily breathed. “You work for Sonny.”

Jason nodded. “He offered me a partnership in the coffee ware house.”

Emily shook her head. “Sonny never mentioned his sister?”

Jason shifted uncomfortably. “Well, he mentioned his sister, Liz. But I guess I never made the connection.”

“Are you going to take it?” Emily asked.

Jason nodded. “I’m going to be sticking around for a while. So really, I’m only staying with you long enough to find a place to stay.”

“I guess Beth won’t be able to avoid you after all,” Emily said, a small smile spreading on her face. “She doesn’t know you work for Sonny, I guess.”

Jason shrugged. “I guess it never came up.”

Emily giggled. “This is gonna be fun.”

siteSo a few things today. I have three or four chapters ready of Daughters, I’ll probably post them later tonight if I’m up to it when I get home from the pub. The next chapter of a Few Words Too Many will be posted tomorrow morning.

I’ve posted a preview chapter of the rewritten Mad World, which came into my head as I was rewatching Elizabeth’s original rape storyline from 1998, making me fall in love with my originial Liz & Lucky. My first love was Lucky Spencer, and I never thought anyone else could be as perfect for her as he was. Of course, then they recasted him with Jacob Young and killed everything I ever loved about him over the next decade, but even before JY came around, I had already seen the beauty of Jason and Elizabeth, and like Elizabeth, I was ready to move past my own first love 😛

So please read the preview and if you’d like to see Mad World sooner rather than later, let me know in the poll. You can still change your vote 🙂

An awesome reader (Carla) answered my prayers, and sent me a copy of Surviving the Past, a fic I wrote back in September of 2002. I was going through a lot of things, and that story was my answer to dealing with some tough issues a friend was dealing with. It was a darker story, about surviving child abuse, and while there are things I might do differently if I wrote it today, it’s one of my few early stories I don’t want to set on fire. So if you’re interested in having me repost it (it’s over 25 chapters and it’s complete), let me know by replying to this. It’s a dark, and not always happy fic, but it’s close to my heart and I’m relieved to have it back in my possession.

By about June of 2003, I had written almost a hundred stories, most of them short little episode tags and short stories, and nearly half of them were lost in a combination of computer crash, domain data loss, and board bannings. If you ever come a cross a story that is not posted here, but is by me, let me know. I have a folder full of lost fics I need to add from Liason Undergound.