June 17, 2016

I bet some of you guys were starting to wonder if Bittersweet even existed 😉 Here’s your proof. I’ve posted Chapter One, with the caveat that I may miss next or the week after due to scheduling issues. But I’d rather post at least the first chapter because I promised a June posting and I didn’t want to miss another deadline. I hope you guys enjoy it! I have to go get my hair done, get a mani and a pedi because my best friend is getting married tomorrow and I have a ton of stuff to do.

 

This entry is part 1 of 35 in the Bittersweet

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
‘Cause they don’t get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we’ll walk from this dark room for the last time

Open Your Eyes, Snow Patrol


Sunday, April 14, 2002

Vista Point

After a long shift at Club 101, there was nothing Carly Corinthos loved more than taking her brand-new convertible racing along the high hills that bordered the north side of Port Charles. She’d shake off the frustrations of her day, letting them dissipate into the cold night air.

Spring had come early to upstate New York that year—the days were warm and sunny, the cherry blossom trees lining her mother’s street had bloomed nearly a week ago, but the nights still held the bitter chill of winter.

But Carly wasn’t thinking about the ice in the wind as she whipped around another corner. Everything in her life was finally just as it should be. She had her beautiful son, a great relationship with her mother, a cordial relationship with her ex-husband, a satisfying career—

She was even considering moving into her own house, but Michael loved the Brownstone and the quiet neighborhood with the park nearby. He liked being around his grandmother, around his uncle Lucas, and he liked when Elizabeth looked after him or picked him up from school. Her son was thriving for the first time in months, and Carly wasn’t ready to rock the boat.

But soon, maybe. Or perhaps she’d ask her mother to rent the last empty apartment, even though it was across the hall from Marcus Taggert. It would give her some privacy, some space to herself and keep Michael in the same environment, with the same people.

She whipped around another corner and began to slowly decelerate, easing up on the gas and slowly tapping the breaks. Her brief free time was over, and it was time to get some sleep before having Sunday morning breakfast with Michael.

This was going to be year of Carly Corinthos and—

She took the last corner—the final one before she began the descent from the cliffs towards downtown Port Charles—but a flash of headlights blinded her vision. She jerked to the side, her car grinding against the guardrail that separated the road from the edge of the cliff.

There wasn’t time to scream, wasn’t time to think—There was a loud screech of metal, a grinding as a car slid past her.

Then her car was through the rail, teetering over the edge. Her hands shaking, she slowly reached for the car door—

Then everything went black.

Brownstone: Elizabeth and Gia’s Apartment, Kitchen

Elizabeth raised the carafe of coffee to her nose, wrinkling as she looked at her scowling roommate. “Did you stay up all night again, Gia?”

“Finals,” came the mutter from the dining table that had never seen a plate of food. The last four months had seen it put into use as a double desk—Gia for her political science and psychology classes and Elizabeth, who was struggling with art history and business.

“I know, but you could have at least cleaned out the coffee pot for me.” Elizabeth rinsed the carafe before setting it back on the pot. “I could make the argument that if you hadn’t spent the majority of the semester flirting with your classmates, you wouldn’t have to put in so much effort now—”

“But you value your life, so you won’t.” Gia Campbell lifted her head from her studies and frowned. “Why are you up at—” She blinked blearily, trying to focus on the wristwatch on her arm. “Shit. Five o’clock?”

“Morning shift at Kelly’s. I have to open.” She stifled a yawn. “But I was up late working on a paper about Monet’s use of color.”

“None of that means anything to me—” Gia broke off her smart remark as a cell phone rang shrilly. “Ugh. It is too early for that nonsense. You need to change that ring tone—”

“I’ll get right on that—” Elizabeth fished in the pocket of her robe and blinked at the caller screen. “Why is Lucas calling me—” But she had flipped it open before finishing her question. “Lucas—”

“Can you come downstairs? Right now?”

“Is Bobbie okay? What’s wrong?” Elizabeth asked, already heading to her bedroom. The phone cradled between her ear and neck, she slid out of her pajama shorts and found a pair of jeans.

“Carly—she had an accident. Mom’s freaking out. She wants to go to the station, but she’s in no position to drive. We need you to come downstairs and watch Michael. Can you?”

“Ah, yeah. I’ll be right down.” Elizabeth closed her phone and dragged over a pair of sandals to slide her feet into. “Gia, can you call Courtney and ask her to open this morning? Carly had a car accident, Bobbie’s freaking out—”

“How bad?” Gia asked. “Elizabeth—”

“I don’t know, but it must—” And then Elizabeth stopped, her face pale. “Bobbie wants to go to the police station. Not the hospital.”

“And Carly should have been home from the club hours ago. This is bad, isn’t it?”

“And it’s about to be worse,” Elizabeth sighed. “Because Courtney—”

“Is married to AJ, which means the Quartermaines—”

“God, I hope she’s okay,” Elizabeth murmured, grabbing her keys, her purse and the phone. “Can you call her?”

“Yeah, yeah.”

AJ and Courtney’s Apartment: Bedroom

The shrill ring of their land line was a harsh wake-up call.  Courtney Quartermaine jerked out of a deep sleep, blinking at the offending plastic piece of junk at her bedside.

“What the hell?” her husband AJ demanded at her side, his words slurred. “I had the second shift—”

And she’d closed the night before and hadn’t been able to fall asleep until nearly one. Still, phone calls at—she looked at the clock—five-ten in the morning were never a good sign.

“Hello?” she all but yawned into the phone.

“Hey, sorry to call so early,” Gia said, “but there’s some kind of emergency. Carly was in a car accident of some sort, so Bobbie needs Elizabeth to look after—”

“Oh, no. Come on, Gia. I just closed—” Then the implications slid into Courtney’s sleep-fuzzed mind. “How bad was the accident?”

“What accident?” AJ asked. “Was it Elizabeth? Is that why you have to go in?”

“I don’t know how bad, Courtney, but Bobbie’s going to the police station, not the hospital, and they waited to call her until now when Carly should have been home almost three hours ago.” Gia sighed. “Elizabeth wouldn’t ask, but Penny is still being trained, and—”

“I’m the only one who’s trained for the opening shift, yeah.” Courtney sighed. “I’ll be there, but I might be a bit late.”

“I highly doubt Bobbie is going to care if Kelly’s opens at all, so it’s not going to matter.”

Courtney hung up and looked at her husband. God, this was the last thing she wanted to tell him because she knew the devastating implications if Carly didn’t survive. “Carly didn’t come home from the club last night apparently, and the cops called Bobbie this morning.”

“They waited—” AJ closed his eyes and took a deep breath. “That’s not a good sign.”

“Gia didn’t think so. Bobbie’s going to the station to get more information, I guess she’s too upset to drive, so Lucas is taking her, and Elizabeth is going to watch Michael—”

“So, you need to open.” AJ swung his legs over the side of the bed. “I should get to the mansion—”

“Do you really need to?” Courtney asked, shoving the comforter back. “It’s so early, and maybe they won’t know yet—”

“When Grandfather finds out that Carly has been in a bad car accident, the first thing he’ll do is find a lawyer to challenge Bobbie for custody. I have to head him off.” He hesitated. “Because we don’t know anything yet. If we go after Michael now before Carly’s condition is clear, then we risk alienating the family court judge.”

“And if it’s the worst-case scenario?” Courtney asked softly. “AJ—”

“I don’t know what’ll happen,” he admitted. “But I have to head off my family from making this situation worse.”

Harborview Towers: Corinthos Penthouse, Living Room

The news trickled to Sonny almost two hours later, when Max knocked on the door to the penthouse.  Sonny paused at the foot of the stairs, two steaming cups of coffee in his hands. “Yeah?”

“Uh, Boss?” Max stepped over the threshold, his face hesitant. “Benny’s here. And there’s—there’s some news.”

If his business manager was here this early, this couldn’t be good. Maybe it was fortuitous that his lawyer was currently warming the sheets upstairs—though Alexis would be mortified if he fetched her now.

“Benny, what’s up?” Sonny crossed the room, setting the coffee on the table as he met the older man at the desk, his hangdog expression so much more pronounced. “Benny?”

“There was a car accident around three this morning,” Benny said. He set his briefcase on the desk. “We’ve spent the last few hours piecing together what the police know.”

“Man, not one of our guys—” He stopped. “Three this morning,” he finished.

“A witness called in a report—he saw a car swerve off the road, crash through the guardrail, and go over the side. He was on the phone with 911, calling in the make and model and the license plate when the car went over.”

“God.” Sonny closed his eyes. “Not the stupid red Porsche she bought with the divorce settlement—”

“By the time the authorities made it to the scene, by the time the Coast Guard was called in—” Benny stopped, exchanged a glance with Max, who stood solemn and silent. “Sonny, it’s the same part of the road—I mean, it’s where—”

“Where Brenda died,” Sonny murmured, remembering the reports back then. “Jax saw the car go over the cliff, but the currents there are so strong that the car was swept away. The depths of the lake in that region—”

“The Coast Guard is still searching,” Benny reported. “Mac decided to wait until morning, until he had something definite to tell Bobbie before waking her. When the Coast Guard realized the search would be extensive, and that it was unlikely she survived—he called her about five.”

“Damn it,” Sonny murmured. A pit formed in his stomach. “Ah, tell our source at the PCPD to keep us informed. I wanna know if it’s—if it was an accident. Find Cody and Milo. I want them over at the Brownstone. Um—” He stopped. There were steps to take, things to be done, but he couldn’t—

He couldn’t think.

“Cody and Milo are already on their way. Bobbie and Lucas were at the station for a while, but Felicia drove them both home about thirty minutes ago. Elizabeth was with Michael. She’s staying with them until around noon. Courtney’s been stuck at Kelly’s with Penny and Don by herself.” Benny looked at Max. “Everything is good here?”

“Ah, yeah, yeah it is. We got it under control, Mr. C,” Max told him.

“Thanks.” He dismissed them both and returned to the coffee mugs, only lukewarm now. He stared at them for a moment, wondering if he ought to dispose of them.

Alexis Davis stepped around the landing, dressed in the business suit he’d peeled off her the night before. “I heard.” She cleared her throat and came down the second flight of stairs. “I’m sorry, Sonny.”

“Ah, yeah.” Sonny looked at her, blinking. “I—”

“I think we should just chalk last night up to a mistake.” Her cheeks flushed as she refused to meet his eyes. “It didn’t—it never happened.”

“Alexis—” he began, but she rushed past him and out the door. He thought about going after her, but he didn’t have the time.

He crossed back to the desk, reached for the phone, and started to dial. It was time to track down Jason and bring him home.

Oasis Strip Club: Back Office

“You’ll like the Paradise,” Dominic Savarolli—Nico to his friends and intimates—told his protege. “It’s not as refined as things here at the Oasis, but you won’t have to complete with Coleman for the girls.”

Zander Smith leaned back, a bottle of Rolling Rock clasped in his hands. “I’m not much interested in the girls who work here,” he told his boss. “But I like the idea of being in charge.”

Nico grinned. “Yeah, I’ll bet you do. I’ll talk to Sonny, but he’s a rubber stamp at this point. He don’t care who runs the crews as long as we make them money. He wants me to expand to Las Vegas, he’s gonna have to let me put who I want in charge of the bookies and games here.”

“Sonny’s never cared much for me,” Zander admitted. “After I dealt drugs for Sorel, he only let me live because I was useful.”

“True, true,” Nico replied. “But he put you to work with me instead of removing you permanently. You’ve done good work for me. And Sonny trusts me. I’ve been in the business through four bosses, I know talent when I see it.”

And Zander was banking on Sonny deferring to Nico under those circumstances. His boss was in his early forties and had been running the Oasis and several clubs of its kind as fronts for gambling casinos for the better part of two decades. He’d started as a runner under Frank Smith and had managed to survive the rough transition between Moreno and Sorel.

When Sorel had been offed by his own kid, Nico had elected to toss his support behind a merger with Sonny rather than backing the upstart Mickey Roscoe.

Zander had briefly considered going to Roscoe. Mickey liked him better—they had worked the rave scene together for a few months, Mickey as the supplier and Zander as the guy on the scene. But Mickey didn’t have the balls or head for this game, and now, all these months later, only accounted for a handful of bookies and a single holding company on Pier 52. He didn’t have the juice to take on Corinthos, so Zander—ever the opportunist—had stuck with what he knew.

And now Nico was prepared to hand over the lucrative Port Charles gambling trade, so he could concentrate on the casinos in Atlantic City, the Caribbean, and a new one in Las Vegas. It was exactly the opportunity Zander had been counting on.

The door opened, and Nico’s long-time right hand entered. Lenny Hauptmann’s thin face looked drawn. “We got ourselves a situation, Nicky.”

Nico grimaced, but Lenny had almost two decades on him and had watched him rise up in the ranks. Lenny liked the money and the girls—occasionally dipped in the product Nico still ran in the clubs under Sonny’s nose—but he didn’t want the power. He was happy to see his Nicky enjoy the fruits of their combined labor.

“What’s up, Len?” Nico rose from his desk. “Ollie didn’t report in? He’s got his boys tracking down the last the money owed from the Super Bowl—”

“It’s not business, Nicky. The boss’s ex drove herself over the cliff last night. Or something. No one knows exactly what’s going on, but her car is somewhere in the lake.”

“Carly?” Zander asked. “She’s dead?”

“They don’t know that yet,” Lenny reported. “But word on the street is they’re not holding out much hope, what with the currents this time of year and the location of the crash. You know what this means, Nicky.”

“Yeah.” Nico rubbed his eyes. “Call the boys. Start flushing out the product.”

“What’s going on?” Zander asked. “Nico—”

“Carly’s dead, her boy is up for grabs. Jason Morgan is gonna come back, and he ain’t gonna let us get away with dealing the product. Sonny don’t care as long as the books balance. Jason? He’s funny about this kind of thing.”

“Jason Morgan? No way. He hasn’t been around for a year. He didn’t even come home when his sister was in the accident.” Zander felt the usual twinge when Emily entered his thoughts, but he’d put her out of his life.

He’d been a different man for her, but she hadn’t wanted him. Fine. He had his own life to lead.

“Nicky’s right, Smith. Morgan’s gonna come back, even if it’s to settle the estate. No way that dumb bitch didn’t leave the kid to him. I remember when Moreno almost blew the kid up. Pure accident, of course,” Nico murmured. “But Morgan nearly took him apart. And then walked away. He loves that boy like a son. He’ll be home.”

“Ah, Morgan doesn’t really…” Zander coughed in his hand. “He doesn’t care for me much after everything that happened with his sister.”

Nico shrugged. “He knows you’re working for Sonny. Morgan ain’t never involved himself in low-level decisions. I’ll get Sonny to sign off on it without Morgan in the room. Don’t worry, Zander. Sonny wants me to go make money in Vegas, he’s gonna have to let me do it my way.”

Zander wished he could have the confidence of the man behind the desk, but he had a sinking feeling that if Jason Morgan did return to Port Charles, any chance of his rising higher than bone-cracking thug had died along with Carly Corinthos.

Quartermaine Estate: Family Room

AJ was convinced that the best decision he’d ever made was to walk away from this family two months ago. He’d had moments in the ensuing weeks as he and Courtney had struggled to pay bills on her tips until he’d completed training as a forklift operator and started working at the waterfront.

It was backbreaking work and he often fell into his bed at night, exhausted from the manual labor. But he knew he was making it on his own, and he hadn’t had the urge to drink in in weeks.

He had one now as he stood in the estate’s family room, just steps from the mini bar. His mother was at work, but his father and grandfather were debating the merits of one family law attorney over another. Alan wanted to stay local, while Edward wanted to bring in the best in the state. If not the world.

“They haven’t even declared her dead yet,” AJ muttered as he sat in the sofa and put his head in his hands. “Jesus, Grandmother.”

“I’ll talk to your grandfather, my love, but you know how he can be,” Lila Quartermaine said in her soft, gentle voice. “I agree with you.”

“How can you?” he demanded. “They haven’t even asked me what I think yet.”

“Because I know your heart, AJ.” Lila reached for his hand and squeezed it once he placed it in her palm. Her grasp was not as strong as it had once been, but the comfort was there. Here was a woman who, even at the depths of her disappointment in him, believed he could do better.

“If she is dead—” And there was a surprising swell of grief for the thought that his nemesis and one-time friend had departed this world. “If she is dead,” AJ began again, “I can only imagine what Bobbie’s going through. I can’t—how can we tell her now that she might have lost a second daughter, we want to take her grandson?”

“They’re not considering Bobbie. They only see a chance to have Michael in their lives—”

“To shape him, to make him into the kind of Quartermaine they think he should be,” AJ muttered, the resentment all but swallowing him whole. “Their chance at a new generation.”

“I suppose that is one way to consider it.” Lila said. “But I think they’re attempting to get ahead of the situation.”

“Because Jason will be coming home,” AJ said, leaning back. “Sonny never adopted Michael, and I would bet anything Carly left Jason guardianship. It’s not Bobbie we’ll have to deal with. Carly would never leave this up to her. She’s too close to the family.”

“And if they can file a suit before Jason arrives, they hope to fast-track and present a fait accompli.” Lila focused her soft blue eyes on her grandson. “But you would prefer to wait. To give Michael time to adjust. To allow Bobbie space to grieve.” She smiled at him, pride shining in her gaze. “And that’s exactly what we’ll do. You leave it to me.”

Mumbai, India

Hotel: Jason’s Room

It was two days after the accident by the time Sonny’s myriad of phone calls finally tracked Jason to a hotel in Mumbai, India, where he’d been spending the last few weeks.

Jason had taken in the news—including the fact that there had been no update and Carly was all but declared dead—and promised to be home as soon as possible.

Neither of them had spoken of the complications created by Carly’s death or his return—that custody of Michael would be a pitched battle, that Sonny would have to create space for Jason to come back to his job—because his rivals would assume Jason would be back at Sonny’s side whether he was or not.

They spoke of none of these things—only that Jason would catch the next flight out of India. He threw his things into a duffel bag, checked out, and headed home.

May 30, 2016

In October, Joanna, a reader from The Canvas, got in touch with me about having some of my older missing stories. She had No One Else Sees Me (set 2002) and The Ends of the Earth (set 2001). Both were written in 2002, when I was a shiny new writer in the fandom and a mere eighteen years old. I didn’t have a chance to clean either of them up until recently, and today, when my inspiration dried up, I decided to pull them out.

No One Else Sees Me is not a good story, haha, but it’s a fun read and another example of how much I’ve grown since I started writing fanfiction fourteen years ago.  While I used to hide these old stories away, now I recognize how much I learned from writing all of them and I look forward to seeing your reactions to these older stories.

I’ll be back later this week with the other older story, and soon with Bittersweet!

May 26, 2016

This entry is part 1 of 2 in the Workshop: Collision

Years ago, I had planned to write my own version of GH based on 2006. I plotted it out to the craziest insane detail, but never got around to writing it before my hiatus, and now that so much time has passed, I don’t plan on using the majority of this.

But since I actually wrote a prologue and the first chapter, I thought you guys might enjoy seeing it. So here’s your setup:

The General Hospital universe stops about January 2006, so before the virus storyline. I had heard Courtney was going to leave, and I thought about how she might leave the canvas. I vastly prefer watching her die on screen because I still celebrate February 20, 2006 like a national holiday (that’s right, I remember the date).  It picks up again on New Year’s Eve. I had no idea GH would actually spend most of 2006 reuniting Jason and Liz, or I wouldn’t have skipped it 😛  In my universe, the virus happened, but not to the extent it did on the show.

I also have tons of slideshows dedicated to this story, ha. I spent way too much time planning.


Prologue: Auld Lang Syne

December 31, 2006

Metro Court Hotel: Restaurant

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?

Caroline Corinthos was a blur of red as she flitted from guest to guest at her second annual New Year’s Eve bash. Her honey blonde hair spilled down her back in a wild array of curls and flew around her face as she mingled.

She was a full fledged business success and she’d done it all without Sonny Corinthos–a fact that she rarely let anyone forget.

She was having the time of her life with her new career as a hotel manager and her life as a mother–if she ignored some of the peskier details such as her best friend’s misery, the disappearance of her ex-sister-in-law and the rebellious behavior of her eldest child–oh and the whirlwind relationships her ex-husband seemed to be addicted to.

But as long as she ignored those details, life was grand.

As Carly’s mind drifted to her ex, she spotted him across the room with his lady of the moment–a short brunette she didn’t recognize. She ignored him and searched the crowd for her best friend, whom she’d blackmailed into attending. She spotted him near the refreshment table and made a beeline for him.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?

Jason Morgan stood in the corner of the room, sipping a warm beer and waiting for midnight so that he could go home. If he hadn’t let Carly talk him into this, he’d be there now. But as usual, the feisty blonde had talked circles around him until he’d almost thought he’d volunteered to attend.

The room was littered with people he didn’t care to talk to–people would just want to check on him–see that he was doing all right. He was tired of people asking that question. He was fine. It’d been a year after all, and six months since he’d given up the search. He’d long accepted ago that for whatever reason, Samantha McCall had abandoned her life here, abandoned him and their future. He wished he knew why but he was done worrying about her and done thinking about what might have been.

He was going back to the basics. He’d moved out of his penthouse–a place that had always felt too large to him anyway and had rented rooms above Jake’s. He was back to riding his bike, playing pool and doing all the things that had always distracted him before.

Carly stepped up to him and planted her hands on her hips. “Why are you hiding here?” she demanded. “You should be over with Sonny or something.”

“I’m only here because you asked me to be,” Jason said patiently. He took Carly’s wrist and turned to glance at the slim gold watch wrapped around it. “I have an hour and forty minutes left–can I spend it how I choose?”

Carly pursed her lips. “Fine, but I don’t have to like it. Are you going to be by this week to see Morgan and Michael?”

“I’ll come by,” Jason assured her. “You should go see to your other guests.”

“If you want me to go away, you don’t have to be polite about it,” Carly replied.

“Fine. Go away.”

And days of auld lang syne, my dear,
And days of auld lang syne.

She found her next target at the bar, loading up a tray to take back to his table. “Where’s Princess Purity?” Carly asked. “She’s usually glued to your side.”

Patrick Drake glanced at her from the corner of his eye as he shifted the tray of drinks to his other hand. “She’s with her family, I’m just getting some drinks–”

“Let a waiter take care of that.” Carly signaled to someone and a young man appeared at Patrick’s side. “Take that tray to the table where the twin sourpusses are seated,” she directed.

The waiter hesitated and Patrick took pity on him. “Commissioner Scorpio’s table,” he clarified. When the waiter left, he looked to Carly. “Thanks. Did you need something?”

“Just wanted to check in with my favorite doctor,” Carly said with a little smirk. She reached out to touch his hand but Patrick stepped back. “Worried that your little guard dog will see?”

“I’m worried that Commissioner Scorpio will tear my head off,” Patrick clarified. “He doesn’t like me.”

“Well, there’s an easy way solve that,” Carly remarked.

“Happy New Year, Carly,” Patrick cut off her next remarks and turned to rejoin Robin Scorpio, her parents and Mac and Felicia Scorpio.

Carly frowned but shook it off. He wasn’t anything more than someone to flirt with and even then, he’d been hard to track down the last few months. It was Princess Purity’s influence she decided as she spied her mother and Patrick’s father leaving the dance floor and started towards them.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And days of auld lang syne?

“You don’t even have to speak to that woman to know that she’s a twit,” Anna Devane remarked as she sipped her martini.

Robin Scorpio sighed and looked away from where Patrick had been waylaid by some colleagues from the hospital–he never missed a chance to do a little sucking up.

“If it weren’t for her flair in giving parties, I wouldn’t be here at all,” Felicia Jones-Scorpio said. She reached for Mac’s glass of champagne in lieu of her requested margarita. “Stop watching them,” she chastised her husband, kicking him under the table.

“I can’t,” Mac muttered, his eyes glued to the dance floor where his daughter Maxie was slow dancing with Kyle Radcliffe. “I thought he was gone. She was dating a cop. She was doing so well.”

“And now she’s dating a Yale law student,” Robert Scorpio interjected. “At least she’ll be a little safer.”

“He’s not objecting to the boy he is now,” Robin said with a polite smile towards the father she still hadn’t completely forgiven. “To the boy he used to be…”

“Who’s that?” Patrick asked as he rejoined them.

“Maxie’s boyfriend, Kyle. Uncle Mac does not approve,” Robin said in a dramatic voice.

“Does he ever?” Felicia sighed mournfully. “No one’s ever going to be good enough for his girls.”

“Damn straight,” Mac muttered, sending a glare in Patrick’s direction before turning his gaze back to his daughters.

“Couldn’t have asked for a more overprotective father,” Robin said fondly. “Of course, the more he tried to protect me, the more I wanted to rebel so possibly it backfired but I appreciated the sentiment.”

We twa hae run aboot the braes
And pu’d the gowans fine

“You know, Mom, no one who sees you in that dress would ever believe you’re my mother,” Carly proclaimed as she draped an arm around Bobbie Spencer’s shoulders. “Doesn’t she look fantastic tonight, Noah?”

Noah Drake nodded and sipped his water–he’d been sober for ten months and twenty days. “I’ve told her that about half dozen times.”

“Carly, I’m glad you came over here,” Bobbie twisted out of her daughter’s grip and stood next to Noah, keeping Carly’s hand in hers. “I have something to tell you.”

“Oh, this is something out of a bad movie,” Carly sighed, sensing what was coming. “Mom, don’t be ridiculous. You can’t possibly be thinking of getting married.”

Bobbie frowned. “You sure know how to take the surprise out of an announcement. Carly, I’m not sure what the problem is now but–”

“Bobbie,” Noah cut in softly. He held a hand up in front of his fiancĂŠe before looking to her daughter. “Carly, you know that I love your mother and we’ve been seeing each other for the better part of a year. I’m too old for this dating crap and so is she. We want your blessing but the lack of it is not going to stop us from going forward.”

Carly bristled. “I already have one useless father figure in my life; I certainly don’t need a second.”

“And I already have one angry child, I certainly don’t need a second,” Noah retorted. He looked to Bobbie. “It’ll be midnight soon, let’s go find Patrick and Robin.”

Carly watched them going, a horrifying thought occurring to her. If this abomination were allowed to proceed, Patrick would end up being her stepbrother and God forbid, if he ever lost his mind and proposed marriage, Robin Scorpio would be her stepsister-in-law.

“I need a drink,” she muttered.

We’ve wandered mony a weary foot
Sin’ auld lang syne

“Okay, Lucas has stepped on my foot for the last time,” Lulu Spencer declared, stepping up to Dillon and Georgie Quartermaine. The young married couple stepped apart and Lulu smirked. “It’s so your turn, Maxie and I can’t feel our feet anymore.”

Georgie sighed and kissed Dillon’s cheek. “If I’m not back in ten minutes, come find me. I’ll be the one sprawled out on the dance floor in pain.”

When she’d gone off in search of her cousin, Lulu stepped up to her ex-stepbrother. “So, Dillon, your first anniversary is coming up. Doesn’t it scare the crap out of you to be saying that before you turn twenty?”

Dillon rolled his eyes and put his hands around her waist to start dancing. “Not at all. Except for the part where my mother won’t let us live at the mansion so we’re stuck in a dorm room with no room to breathe, things have been perfect.”

“It would have been a lot more romantic if you’d died,” Lulu said decisively. “I mean, the last gesture of undying love and then the actual death–it would have been a good ending for a movie. This whole being married young thing screams Molly Ringwold.”

“You saw that one, too, huh?” Dillon mused. “Yeah, it’s definitely the plot of an eighties teen movie but hey, that had a happy ending.”

“Yeah, ’cause it’s a movie,” Lulu replied cheerfully. “Since when do people get happy endings?”

“All the time,” Dillon argued. “Look at your parents. Laura’s home, Luke’s happy.”

“My parents are the exception to every rule that ever lived but they also had like sixteen different movie plots before they got to have the good ending. And you know it,” Lulu countered. “Name one other couple in here with a happy ending.”

Dillon frowned and scanned the room. “Robin and Patrick,” he said with conviction. “They’re still together after like eight months.”

“Patrick is still friends with Carly, which drives Robin insane. Also, they’ve broken up three times and he’s a dog that can’t stop flirting with the entire female gender. That’s a crappy pick.”

“Well, Lucky and Elizabeth are out, I don’t think I’ve seen her smile all night,” Dillon continued. “Mac and Felicia are good picks.”

“I’ll give you that,” Lulu conceded. “But that’s one out of like a hundred people, Dillon. Happy endings are the exception, they’re flukes. They don’t exist in reality.”

“You’re just full of sunshine and cheer, aren’t you?” Dillon asked. “Haven’t you ever heard of a turning over a new leaf, celebrating a new year?”

“Sure,” Lulu said easily. “But it’s been my experience that people tend to break their resolutions before the first hour of the new year is out.”

Sin’ auld lang syne, my dear
Sin’ auld lang syne

“At least we’re not freezing this year,” Elizabeth Spencer offered to her sullen husband Lucky.

“We’re some place we can’t afford to be,” Lucky muttered. “We can’t afford the tickets, the drinks, the dinner–”

“Hey, knock if off,” Elizabeth hissed with a worried glance to her in-laws. “I told you that my second job took care of these expenses. That’s why I took it–to give us some breathing room.”

“It ought to,” Lucky replied shortly, “You’re never home.”

Elizabeth rubbed her temple. “Can we not have this argument tonight?” she asked.

“It looks like my favorite nurse needs a drink,” Luke stepped up to the married couple and handed his daughter-in-law a margarita. “Have one on me.”

“Thanks, Luke,” Elizabeth sipped the drink gratefully. She’d thought a night out among friends would be a good idea but apparently, it just drove home to Lucky all the things they didn’t have. But a few more months at her second job would change that, she promised herself. And then things would be okay again.

“Hello, there, cousin dear,” Carly said, sidling up to the trio, “where’s my darling aunt?”

“Please don’t say that too loudly,” Laura Spencer sighed joining them. “I don’t want to remind people of our familial connection.”

“I hear you,” Carly sighed. “If my luck doesn’t turn soon, I might be related to the princess over there and I just can’t handle that prospect.” She shook her head. “Everyone having a good time? Enough to drink?”

“You don’t have to play nice,” Lucky remarked. “No one here actually cares if you get along with every single guest.” He set his drink on a nearby table, some of the liquid sloshing from the rim. “And everyone knows that we’re only here to–”

“Lucky,” Laura said softly, “that’s enough. Carly, we’re fine, here. Thanks for checking in.”

“I can’t even play nice hostess for one evening,” Carly muttered as she disappeared into the crowd.

“Lucky, I think you’ve had enough to drink for the night,” Laura reached for Lucky’s drink but he blocked her and picked the cup up to take another gulp.

“And I think I need another one,” he muttered. He took off towards the bar.

Elizabeth flushed and buried her embarrassment by focusing on her feet.

We’ve wandered mony a weary foot
Sin’ auld ang syne

“The party’s looking like a success,” Jax remarked as he caught Carly going towards Robin’s table. He pulled her out onto the dance floor.

“Did you ever doubt it?” Carly replied with a grin. She looked up at the ceiling. “The balloons and confetti will definitely come down right? I don’t want a repeat of the test run.”

“We certainly paid them enough,” Jax reported. He twirled her and did a dip. “Relax, no one thinks of you as Sonny’s ornament anymore. You’ve proved yourself.”

“That’s not what I’m worried about,” Carly said, bristling. She cast her eyes toward Commissioner Scorpio’s table and frowned at her mother showing off her ring to a enthusiastic Robin. “My mother’s engaged to Noah Drake.”

“That could put a crimp in your fling with Junior Drake.” Jax grinned. “Which was already on life support after he fell head over heels for Robin.”

“It’s an aberration,” Carly muttered. “He’s blinded by…I don’t know what exactly, but he’s got to be blind to date her for ten months.” She focused on Jax. “Not that I care. I don’t want him anyway, but he was a nice distraction.”

“You know, if Noah and Bobbie get married, you and Robin will practically be related,” Jax observed.

Carly glared at him. “That thought has occurred to me and I wish that you would never bring it up again. Besides, it’s not a remote possibility. I know men and that man is not the marrying type. Eventually, he’ll make that known to her and the precious princess will run crying in the other direction.”

Jax frowned. “I dislike admitting it, but you have a point. He doesn’t seem to be the faithful type.”

“Exactly,” Carly smacked his shoulder to emphasize her point. “Someone else sees it! I’m amazed he’s lasted this long, you know? I mean, they’ve been off and on but I bet it’s just a matter of time. I wouldn’t even need to meddle.” She grinned. “Not that that’s ever stopped me.”

“Carly, the last time you tried to meddle in their relationship, you ended up carrying on Lucy’s tradition at the Nurses’ Ball,” Jax reminded her. “Don’t you think you’ve learned your lesson?”

“That was a fluke,” Carly waved it off. “Besides, I either stop my mother’s wedding or…make Princess Purity see the light. The second way is easier and I have less guilt attached because Robin means nothing to me.”

“If she means nothing to you, why does it matter if you’re related to her through marriage?” Jax asked. “Which isn’t likely to happen.”

“Would you want to be related to Sonny through marriage?” Carly asked and then winced. “Right. Yeah. Never mind.”

“No, no, it’s okay.” Jax exhaled slowly. “I’m okay with Courtney not being here. And you’ve got a point. Before I met Courtney, I wouldn’t have wanted to be related to him for all the money in the world. Why not let it run its natural course, Carly?”

“Now, where would the fun be in that?”

We twa hae sported i’ the burn
From morning sun till dine

“Hey, partner,” Sonny Corinthos greeted Luke. “How’s the new year going so far?”

“Well, it actually hasn’t started yet, so it’s going pretty well,” Luke said absently, his eyes on his son and his wife as Elizabeth tried to take Lucky’s drink from him. “Yours?”

“Same as usual, I guess. I gotta say, it’s still good to see Laura around.” Sonny watched as Dillon Quartermaine swung Laura around the dance floor. “You look a thousand times better.”

“I’d feel even better if that weren’t happening,” Luke nodded towards Lucky and Elizabeth, whose arguing was rapidly spinning out of control. “I’d go break it up but I’m not sure how to do that without making it worse.”

“A situation like this calls for charm, something that you lack,” Sonny remarked. He ambled over to the duo. “Elizabeth, you’re looking lovely tonight.”

Elizabeth shut her mouth abruptly and smiled thinly at her old friend. “Sonny, I could say the same for you. Except that…well lovely isn’t right.”

“What do you want?” Lucky demanded rudely.

“A dance with the lovely Mrs. Spencer.” Sonny held out a hand and Elizabeth accepted it without a backwards glance to her fuming husband.

“You should be smiling tonight,” Sonny said softly once they were out on the dance floor.

“And you shouldn’t be with your newest flavor of the month, either,” Elizabeth replied with a soft sigh. She rested her forehead on his shoulder. “When did life get so complicated Sonny? We were happy once.”

“Sure, when you were kids and the future was bright and all the possibilities were at your fingertips,” Sonny replied.

Elizabeth leaned back a little frowned. “We were happy this time last year,” she argued.

“Were you?” Sonny asked. “I mean, really really happy?”

She sighed and put her head back on his shoulder. “Well, no. But we could have been. If not for the money. They knew what they were talking about when they said money is the root of all evil.”

“Well, not all evil.” Sonny sighed. “If you would just let me help–”

“No,” Elizabeth shook her head. “Absolutely not. It’s bad enough I’m hiding the job with you at the warehouse from Lucky. I could never explain where I got the money–”

“You shouldn’t have to hide either,” Sonny chastised.

“Lucky has his pride,” Elizabeth said. “I can’t take that from him. I don’t want to talk about this anymore–let’s talk about something else.”

“Okay…” Sonny let his eyes linger on the crowd where he knew Jason was lurking. “Would you do me a favor?”

“Anything,” she promised.

“Go over and say hi to Jason. He’s been hiding from Carly most of the night and I think he needs a friendly face. ”

“Done.”

Metro Court Hotel: Terrace

But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin’ auld lang syne.

Skye Quartermaine braced a hand on her back and stared out over the elaborate gardens her ex-husband had planted behind the hotel. She had come only at his urging this year and wished she’d ignored him. After being all but abandoned by Lorenzo Alcazar, the last thing she needed was to see the happiness of Luke and Laura Spencer, even though Skye was naturally thrilled for Luke.

This had been a nightmare of a year but Skye was going to put that all behind her now. She had other responsibilities to worry about–to concentrate on and she would make the most of it.

Someone cleared their throat at the terrace doors and she turned to see who had intruded on her moment of privacy.

“Skye–” Lorenzo broke off in mid sentence as he took in her full figure–at nine months pregnant. “You’re pregnant.”

“Nothing gets by you,” Skye said dryly. She started towards the door. “Welcome back, Lorenzo,” she said flippantly as she went past him. He touched her elbow.

“Skye…you didn’t tell me before I left,” Lorenzo said quietly.

“I didn’t know and once you were gone…” Skye shrugged. “With no word for six months, I didn’t even know you’d care.”

“There were circumstances–” Lorenzo began.

“There always are,” Skye cut in. “Something is always more important than me. Well, not anymore. Happy New Year, Lorenzo.”

She disappeared inside.

Metro Court Hotel: Restaurant

Sin’ auld lang syne, my dear
Sin’ auld lang syne

10…

The countdown began just as Elizabeth joined Jason in the corner. “I wanted to wish you a Happy New Year,” she began.

Jason’s lips curved into a half smile. “Sonny didn’t want me to be alone, you mean.”

“He’s worried about you,” Elizabeth said quietly. “I am, too.”

But seas between us braid hae roared
Sin’ auld lang syne.

9, 8…

Lorenzo tracked Skye down at the doors to the restaurant. “That’s all you’re going to say?” he demanded. “You’re pregnant, Skye!”

“Yes, I am. It never supposed to be possible,” Skye spat at him, “but it is and you left me. What else is there to say?”

Port Charles Airport

And ther’s a hand, my trusty friend,
And gie’s a hand o’ thine;

7, 6…

A man stepped out of the gate and his driver. It was hell trying to get a cab at the airport these days, especially on a holiday and he was in a mood to avoid it altogether.

He spotted his driver standing near the luggage claim and hoisted his carry on over his shoulder and strode towards the card bearing his name.

Jerry Jacks.

Metro Court Hotel: Restaurant

We’ll tak’ a cup o’ kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.

5, 4…

“I can’t believe she left me for him,” Jesse Beaudry snarls in the general direction of Maxie and Kyle. He sips his drink and turns to his partner. “It just doesn’t make any sense. I’m a cop, I work with her dad–”

“All girls want bad boys,” Lucky muttered. He eyes fell on his wife, speaking to the worst of them all.

For auld lang syne, my dear,
For auld lang syne,

3, 2…

Carly was headed for Jason’s corner when Jax stepped in front of her. “We’re not off to begin our plan of mayhem are we?”

“No, I’m going to find Jason and make sure he’s not alone.” Carly tried to side step him but Jax blocked her again. “No one should be alone at midnight.”

“Precisely,” Jax grinned. He took her hand in his and kissed it. “So keep me company then.”

We’ll tak’ a cup o’ kindness yet

1…

“I’m fine,” Jason insisted. He glanced over the crowd, who were quickly counting down the last second of 2006. “Happy New Year, Elizabeth.”

She smiled wistfully and reached up to kiss his cheek. “It will be, because of you.”

“Happy New Year!”

For auld lang syne

 

Collision — Chapter One

Monday, January 1, 2007

General Hospital: Locker Room

“Just the way I want to start the new year,” Robin sighed as she spun the combination for the lock and pulled it open. “A shift in the ER.”

Elizabeth glanced over from her own locker. “It could be worse.”

“Yeah, I suppose.” Robin tugged her scrubs top on. “It could be a double shift.”

Elizabeth tied her hair up and closed the locker door. “Oh…it might as well be. I’m on until three and then I’m picking Cameron up from day care, dropping him at my grandmother’s so I can work until nine at my second job.”

“You’re going to work a thirteen hour day?” Robin asked. She clipped her pager to her waistband.

“I usually work sixteen, so this will be a bit of a break for me,” Elizabeth replied, “but they didn’t need me in this morning until eight.” She pinned her ID badge to her shirt. “Did you have fun at the party last night?”

“Most of it, yeah.” Robin put her white jacket on and followed Elizabeth into the hallway. “It was weird to be sharing a holiday with my entire family. With my parents. But Jax kept Carly away from the table all night so that helped. What about you?”

“It was fine. Better than I would have expected going to a party hosted by Carly Corinthos.” Elizabeth stepped into the nurse’s station and scanned her patient list for that shift. “It was nice to see everyone together.”

“Yeah, yeah, it was.” Robin took a chart from the stack and slid it under her arm. “I’ll catch you for some coffee later?”

“Sure.”

Robin disappeared down the hallway as the elevator doors slid open and Skye stepped out. She slowly made her way to the nurse’s station. “Hey, Elizabeth. I have an appointment with Dr. Lee.”

“Yeah, she’s running a little behind schedule. Do you want help sitting down?” Elizabeth asked.

Skye shifted uncomfortably. “Ah, no. It’d probably be better if I stayed standing.” She touched the small of her back. “Some party last night.”

“That’s what everyone’s saying,” Elizabeth murmured. “I’ve paged Dr. Lee for you, so she knows you’re waiting. If you need anything…”

“Elizabeth…” Skye bit her lip and leaned forward. “I couldn’t help but notice that Lucky was…well…he spent a lot of time at the bar. I just…if there’s anything you need…”

“It was a party, Skye. Everyone spent some time at the bar.” Elizabeth picked up a chart. “Dr. Lee will be with you shortly.”

Metro Court Hotel: Restaurant

“You’re up early,” Carly chirped. She sat in the seat across from Patrick without waiting for an invitation. “Whatever happened to sleeping in on New Year’s?” she wondered as she signaled for a waiter.

“I have a shift at the hospital,” Patrick said flatly. He took a sip of his coffee.

Carly ordered her own cup of coffee and a blueberry muffin. “So, I guess you’ve heard the news.”

“That we’re going to be step siblings?” he replied. “Yeah, sure.” He shrugged. “We’re too old for it to really matter to either of us so whatever keeps my dad sober.”

“Well, my mother doesn’t have the track record of successful marriages.” Carly thought for a moment. “She might still be married to Tony Jones if I hadn’t seduced him though.” She shook away that horrible memory. “Anyway, I just wanted to make sure you weren’t considering any insane and terrifying thoughts that end with me related to Saint Robin through marriage.”

Patrick’s coffee went down his windpipe and he started coughing. “What the hell?” he managed to say.

“I’m just making sure you’re not planning any permanent commitments,” Carly said innocently. “And from your reaction, that would be a no.”

Patrick coughed again and took a long sip of water. “Carly, I don’t know what gives you the right to ask questions like that–”

“You’re my friend and I want to make sure you don’t do anything you can’t take back. I’ve been trying to tell you for months that she’s poison–”

Patrick tossed his napkin onto the table. “You don’t know anything about Robin or our relationship.”

“It would be a mistake,” Carly said firmly. “Because she’s always going to want something you can’t give her.” She leaned forward and lowered her voice. “She’s a family girl, Patrick. Despite her disease, she wants a family, she wants children. I know that about her just like I know that’s the last thing you want.”

Patrick hesitated for a brief moment before standing. “Put the bill on my room tab,” he muttered.

As he left the restaurant, a man stepped by him and grinned when he saw the blonde still seated at Patrick’s table. She was sipping her coffee and smiling to herself. “Hello, Carly,” Jerry remarked. “Ruin someone’s life today?”

Carly leapt up from her chair, startled. “Jerry–you-you’re supposed to be in jail–or on the run–” Her eyes narrowed and she took a step towards him. “So help me God, if you’re here to bother my mother–”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Jerry held up a hand. “Bobbie’s settled in her life, I understand that. I’m here to see my brother. I know he lives in one of the penthouses but I’m not sure which one. I was hoping you could direct me towards it–”

“Top floor,” Carly said, irritated. “Stay away from my mother–she’s happy now.”

“Yes, ma’am.” Jerry saluted her and headed for the bank of elevators. She glared after him for a long moment before she brightened.

If she couldn’t finish off Robin and Patrick…Jerry would be a nice addition for the Bobbie and Noah side of the plan.

Jones-Scorpio House: Living Room

Bobbie wiggled her finger in Felicia’s face. “Isn’t it the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?” She sat next to her friend on the sofa. “And he asked in the most darling way.”

“It’s nice to see you so happy,” Felicia replied. She grabbed Bobbie’s hands and squeezed. “Since Tony died last winter, it’s only with Noah and Lucas that you’ve even smiled.”

“It was a tough year,” Bobbie said softly. “But Noah makes me happy and I know Carly will accept it in time.”

“Carly…” Felicia rolled her eyes. “She’s a harpy–do you know how she’s tortured my poor Robin this last year? It’s no wonder Mac doesn’t like Patrick, if he’s going to associate with that…” She sighed. “I know she’s your daughter, Bobbie, but she drives the rest of world crazy. I wouldn’t worry too much about her acceptance.”

“She’s my daughter, Felicia. I have to love her anyway.” Bobbie leaned back against the pillows and closed her eyes. “But she drives me crazy most of the time. I wish she would just back off Patrick–she only does it to annoy Robin.”

“That’s what I keep telling Mac.” Felicia smiled. “But no one’s good enough for his girls.” She twisted her hands together. “Which is I think we should adopt a boy. With three girls, Mac needs a boy, I think.”

Bobbie frowned. “Adopt? Boy? Did I miss a chapter somewhere? When did you two decide to adopt?”

“Before Christmas,” Felicia replied with a slow smile. “We want children but…I’m not exactly looking forward to the idea of pregnancy not to mention that neither one of us wants to wait nine months. We’ve been remarried for four months and trying just as long. I mean, if it happens, it happens but the girls are out of the house and they have their own lives…you don’t think it’s a bad idea, do you?”

“No, no–I think it’s fabulous and there’s no one that deserves children of his own more than Mac.” Bobbie bit her lip. “Not that he doesn’t think of Robin, Maxie and Georgie as his own but…well…you know what I mean…”

“No, I do know and I’ve been very lucky that my girls have had Mac in their life.” Felicia frowned. “Anyway, we’re just in the preliminary stages naturally. We contacted a lawyer who has an excellent reputation and we’re just waiting for the call now.”

“Well, I think that is going to a great year for both of us then.” Bobbie reached forward and hugged her best friend. “Just as long as nothing goes wrong.”

Felicia laughed. “Don’t tempt Fate.”

Metro Court Hotel: Jax’s Penthouse

The last person Jax expected to see when he opened his penthouse door that morning was his fugitive brother leaned against the door frame. “Hello there, little brother,” Jerry said cheerfully.

Jax frowned, glanced up and down the hallway before focusing on his brother. “You’re awfully nonchalant for someone who I last saw running from the authorities.”

“Oh, that.” Jerry grinned and ambled past his brother and headed for the table where Jax’s breakfast was set up. He seated himself and poured a glass of orange juice. “I made a deal of course. In exchange for some information and signing my life away to the WSB, the charges against me disappeared.”

“Right,” Jax drawled. He slid his hands into the pockets of his pants. “When did this deal get made?”

“Oh, going on seven years now,” Jerry replied. He pointed at Jax’s plate of scrambled eggs, sausage links and toast. “Are you going to eat that?” Without waiting for his brother to answer, he took the plate and set it across from him. “Sorry about not keeping in touch, part of the deal.”

“Well, I always like wondering if my brother is dead or alive.” Jax shifted. “You heard about Dad, right?”

Jerry sobered for a moment, “Yeah,” he said quietly. “I was up to see Mum before coming here. As soon as I was able to, Jasper, I came to see my family. I hope you believe that.”

“Okay, I’ll accept that.” Jax finally relaxed and sat across from his brother. “So what brings you to Port Charles?”

“Well, unofficially to let you know that I’m still alive and officially to recruit an old member of the organization to help me out on a case. I’ve tracked a girl wanted for questioning in a smuggling ring from Greece. She’s holed up here in PC and I’m looking up the old recruit to get his help. Plus, the WSB likes to remind people that even if they are retired, you never get out.” Jerry raised his glass to his brother. “Cheers, mate.”

Jax sighed and sat back. “Well, at any rate, it’s nice to see you’re alive. Have you stopped by Bobbie’s?”

“God no,” Jerry said, sounding horrified. “She would kill me. I’m staying clear of that particular redhead, believe you me.”

Spencer House: Lulu’s Room

Nik,

So big brother, are you finished sulking in Greece yet? Because we could really use the big bad Cassadine branch of the family back in PC.

Life is getting kind of crazy. Mom’s her usual overbearing self–trying to make up for four years of absence. I keep telling her it’s all good but she insists on joining every parent club at school and having mother-daughter nights. I like to humor her and besides, she’s still one of the coolest moms.

Lucky is insane and I wish I meant that in a fun way. We were at this totally awesome party at the Metro Court and he got seriously wasted. I felt so bad for poor Liz, I mean, she had to go home with them. Dad and Mom argued again about them again last night. Mom wants to give them money and Dad says Lucky would never accept it which is totally right because Lucky’s got that annoying Spencer pride going for him and it makes me want to scream because he’s so unhappy and Liz is totally miserable. She works way too hard and the only time she sees anyone is when we stop by the hospital. She’s also got this mysterious second job that she’s tight lipped about.

So Dillon got a letter from Emily last week and not that I’m trying to you know make a point or anything but Em’s doing okay. I know you’d never ask, but whatever, it has to be said. Dillon thinks she’s lonely in NYC all by herself but if you ask me, that girl makes herself miserable. It’s like a train ride away and she could totally visits but she’s probably super embarrassed at the way her relationship with the big bad mobster crashed and burned.

School’s okay. It’s not tons of fun or anything, but it’s so lonely now that Georgie’s all graduated and in college. I’m the only one left and I can’t wait to graduate. Every time I bring it up, Mom gets all teary eyed like she can’t believe her baby’s all grown up. Very sickening.

So, listen, it would be tre fab if you would just come home. If Courtney wanted to be found, she would be. And she’s an idiot if she chose to run instead of choosing between you and Jax. I mean, he’s way old but he’s like a millionaire and not that I’m biased, but you’re all kinds of cute. She’s a twit and you deserve better.

So…come home already!

Always,

 Lu

Lulu pressed send on her email screen and then scanned her incoming messages. She clicked on one from Georgie.

Lu,

We have got to talk! Don’t call me, Dillon’s here and he’ll hear us. So, reply when you get this so we can set up a time and place.

Georgie

Lulu rolled her eyes and replied to Georgie. One day the girl would have to learn that she was only Georgie’s friend because Lulu was friends with Dillon. They were not long lost soul sisters, they were not close. Honestly, Georgie grated on her nerves at times with her eternal naivety. Life was not perfect and after they’d been cut off by the Quartermaines, they’d both been forced to take jobs. If not for Georgie’s scholarships, she wouldn’t even be in college.

It was all well and good to get married when they thought Dillon would die but they should have had it annulled after he got well. So what if they would have decided to tie the knot eventually? That didn’t mean they were ready at eighteen.

But she was still Dillon’s wife and Lulu respected that for the most part so she played nice and was now privy to a very annoying secret. She hated the fact that her parents had drilled into her the idea when you swear to keep a secret, you keep it.

No matter who it hurts.

Lansing Apartment: Bedroom

“Can I please…can I please just hold her a little longer?” Alexis Davidovitch asked the nurse softly. She touched the soft hair on her daughter’s head and wondered if it would turn darker like her own hair or stay the light brown like her father’s.

“You’re really not supposed to,” the nurse replied sympathetically. “But I suppose it wouldn’t hurt…” She touched Alexis on the shoulder and gestured towards the hallway. “I’ll wait outside.”

“I wish I could keep you,” Alexis whispered to her daughter. “But I can’t. I hope you’ll be given to parents who can love you without reservations, with conditions. I hope that they will love and encourage you to be whoever you want to be.”

She shifted the small bundle and grasped one of her daughter’s hands with her pinky. “I wonder what your new family will name you. I’m not allowed to do it officially but I think I’ll always think of you as Kristen, for my mother.”

There was a soft knock on the door and the nurse smiled sadly. “I’m sorry, but it’s time.”

Alexis jerked away and sat up, rubbing sleep out of her eyes. She wasn’t in a home for unwed mothers but in her bedroom, in the apartment that she shared with her husband. She looked at her daughters, Kristina and Molly curled up in the bed next to her as they napped and she bit her lip, remembering her daughter that she had loved so fiercely and so briefly all those years ago.

She had put Kristen out of her head for years, successfully pretending that she had never been a mother, never carried a child but the dreams about holding Kristen had begun haunting her when Kristina had needed a bone marrow transplant. Alexis had contemplated finding her daughter at that point–had even called a lawyer but then Sam’s baby had presented an opportunity that would allow Alexis’s secret to be kept and she had put Kristen out of her mind again.

And since the virus, when Ric had had that awful hallucination about his mother giving him up and Alexis had briefly flashed back to the moment she’d given her own child away, she’d never been able to put Kristen out of her mind again.

Alexis sighed and rubbed her eyes again. Kristen would be almost twenty-seven now. Far too old to look up and present herself as her mother. It would be ridiculous and once again, Alexis put the thought out of her head once.

PCU: Georgie and Dillon’s Dorm Apartment

“It’s a good thing you got a scholarship.”

Georgie looked up from her letter, a guilty expression on her face. “What?”

Dillon never glanced up from his computer where he was balancing their budget. “My tuition for this semester nearly put us in the red so it’s good that you had your scholarship,” he repeated.

“Oh…” Georgie sighed and looked back at the letter she was writing to Diego, congratulating him on his upcoming early release and repeating her promise not to tell his father or any of her friends. She’d been unable to keep the information to herself and since Lulu Spencer had once become privy to her letter writing, she had seemed to be the right person to tell.

Georgie had become a lot more careful about hiding her correspondence with Diego Alcazar since Lulu had accidentally found a letter on her desk when she’d been visiting their apartment last semester. She kept them under lock and key and each time she set another letter on the growing pile, she promised herself that she would tell Dillon when the time was right.

Not that the time had ever been right. After the virus and their hasty marriage, they’d been thrown into early adulthood when Tracy had cut her son off financially. Dillon had gotten a full-time job that summer and Georgie had worked, too and together they had scraped enough money together to live on this academic year but she knew she had another summer of work to look forward to.

It was worth it, she told herself every morning when she had to make a choice between paying for gas in their car or eating breakfast with her sister. Being married to Dillon made it all worth it.

She hoped that the more she repeated it, the more she would believe it.

The door to their tiny apartment swung open and an annoyed Maxie entered, dropping her purse on the floor by the door and flung herself on their couch. “I had another run in with Jesse,” she sighed.

“He’s still giving you a hard time?” Dillon asked as he saved their meager budget plan and shut the lid of his laptop. “I honestly would have thought that he’d be over that.” He tilted his head as if considering the situation again. “Then again, you did dump him for Kyle Radcliffe, so it’s understandable he’s somewhat miffed.”

“Come on, all of that crap was four years ago,” Maxie complained. “Kyle’s at Yale, you know. He’s going to law school, he’s a great guy and he makes me happy.”

“Well, Jesse thought he was a great guy and that he made you happy,” Georgie pointed out. “Can you blame him for being upset that you dumped him for someone else?”

“No,” Maxie admitted. “But it was six months ago.” She sighed impatiently. “I just want him to get over it and move on. We weren’t even together all that long, you know?”

“Nine months might not seem long to you, but it’s long to guys. It’s practically a lifetime commitment,” Dillon told her. “Just be patient, Max. Eventually, he’s gotta realize he’s mooning over you and want to smack himself.”

Maxie glared at him. “Bite me.”

Port Charles Police Department: Squad Room

Lucky dropped his coat on his chair and slumped into his chair, yawning and rubbing his face. Jesse leaned across his adjoining desk. “You’re late, you know.”

“No, I couldn’t tell,” Lucky muttered. He shook his head and reached a file on the top of pile of pending investigations. Before he could even flip it open, his named was bellowed from the commissioner’s office.

“Spencer, get in here!”

Lucky sighed and ambled his way towards Mac’s office, not in the mood to hear any litany of his behavior for the last few months. So what if he’d been late a few times? He’d done his work, he’d made his shifts. What was Mac always harping about anyway?

“You were late again,” Mac said as soon as Lucky closed the door behind him. “This is the fifth time in the last four weeks.”

Lucky shrugged. “I overslept. I’m sorry.” He clasped his hands behind his back and assumed his usual defensive stance. “What do you want from me?”

“I want you to do your damn job. You’re late, your paperwork is sloppy and I’m concerned about how much drinking you’ve been doing–”

Lucky bristled. “I don’t drink on duty.”

“Maybe not but you barely walked away from the bar last night,” Mac pointed out.

“What I do in my off hours is none of your business,” Lucky snarled. Mac’s eyes narrowed at the tone.

“No,” Mac drawled, “but when you’re too hung over to do your job, that makes it my business. Shape up, Lucky. You’re on probation as of right now. Get your act together or find yourself suspended and facing the review board, you got that?”

“Fine,” Lucky muttered. He stalked out of the office and back to his desk where he grabbed his jacket. “Let’s go,” he barked at Jesse before heading out of the squad room.

Corinthos-Morgan Warehouse: Office

Elizabeth switched her on her computer and then dialed in for the messages. As each message played, she jotted down the name of the caller, their return number and the general gist of the call. It was safe, boring work and it allowed her to wind down a bit after the difficult shift she’d just gone through.

Robin had been in a bad mood when they’d taken their coffee break that morning–she and Patrick had had one of their customary arguments though Robin seemed mystified about this particular one. She’d merely asked him what he wanted to do that night and he flew off the handle at the idea of making any plans whatsoever and Robin taking him for granted.

Elizabeth usually got the urge to smack Patrick upside the head after one of these occasions. If he’d just stop being such a man, maybe the two of them wouldn’t break up every few weeks or so.

She started to sort the mail that had come in during her last few days off and glanced up when Sonny entered. “Hey–I didn’t think you’d be in today.”

“Carly has the boys for the afternoon. I didn’t think you’d be in today,” Sonny turned it around. “It is a holiday, you know.” He sat in the chair across from her desk.

She smiled faintly. “Lucky had work and it just seemed like a good time to pick up some extra hours here. Besides, it’s nice and quiet here–I definitely need the silence after today.”

“Busy day saving lives?” Sonny quipped. He stood and went to the coffee machine to pour himself a cup.

“Busy day playing best friend to a pair of idiots,” Elizabeth replied. She slit another letter open and stamped it received. “Patrick is getting his monthly dose of cold feet and Robin’s being snarky about it. Nothing puts her in a bad mood more than remembering she’s dating the definition of a ladies man.”

Sonny scowled and sipped his coffee. “She deserves better than Patrick Drake,” he muttered. “She deserves someone who will give her the family and the attention she deserves.”

“Oh, he’s in love with her,” Elizabeth assured him. “He won’t admit it to himself or anyone else, but you’d have to be deaf, dumb or blind not to see it.” She considered it. “Or you’d have to be Robin. Anyway, he’s mostly a good guy. I was actually surprised to hear he was up to old behavior. They’ve been doing so well.” She shrugged. “Have you been to the club today?”

“Nah, I’ll stop by tonight for the New Year’s Day party. Are you going?” Sonny asked.

“I can’t. Lucky’s on until midnight and I want to spend some time with Cameron. I feel like I’ve barely seen him.” Elizabeth gathered up the mail and the various messages before she stood.

“We’ve talked about this, Elizabeth,” Sonny said quietly. “Anytime you want to come here full time–I’d make it worth your while. Flexible schedule, excellent pay.”

“You shouldn’t tempt me on a day like today,” Elizabeth replied with a wry smile. “I love my job and eventually, I’ll have some room to breathe and I won’t have to work myself so hard.”

Sonny sighed and reached for his stack of mail and messages. “Is Jason in yet?”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No, I’m not sure when he’ll be in today but he said he’d be in. Do you want me to send him in when he gets here?”

Sonny nodded and disappeared into his office. Elizabeth set Jason’s mail and messages on his desk and then went back to the outer office to type some memos and made herself busy. She knew they didn’t really need a secretary when she’d began working but Sonny had been kind enough to create this job for her when he’d become aware of her financial difficulties.

Shortly after returning for his search for Sam, he’d been down on the docks and Elizabeth had been sitting on a bench staring at the latest of the collection notices. They’d cut her hours at work and Cameron’s medical bills had sent their debt soaring. She’d been on the verge of tears and really, it had only taken a kind word from Sonny before all the depression, desperation and bitterness had flown from her like an angry wave.

He’d handed her a handkerchief from his coat and told her to come over to the warehouse so they could work things out. She’d been at such a low point that she’d accepted a position that had been really no more than charity at that point but Sonny had sworn off romance and instead threw himself into the legitimate side of his business so by the beginning of the new year, the orders were pouring in and Elizabeth actually had something to do. It had helped her financially but with the longer hours away from home, it was slowly breaking down her marriage.

She put that out of her mind and focused on the task at hand. Jason came in, looking a little tired and got himself a cup of coffee. After some small talk–he always asked about Cameron–he disappeared into his office.

No more than ten minutes later, Jason exited with a thin manila envelope in his hand. Elizabeth knew that envelope–she set it on his desk every week without fail and hoping that for once, it would hold some good news. After he and Sonny had given up the personal search for Sam, Jason had hired a private investigator to keep up the effort and each week, he sent his progress report.

And each week, it held same words. No sign of Samantha McCall.

“I want you to throw this out,” Jason said. He set it back on her desk. “And I need you to contact Andrews to tell them that I no longer require their services.”

Elizabeth bit her lip. “Jason, are you sure? I mean, they could still find her–”

“It’s been a year,” Jason interrupted. “A year with no word. If something had happened to her, I would have…there would have been something to go on. But there’s been no sign of her. She doesn’t want to be found and I’m through caring about where she went.”

“Okay,” Elizabeth agreed. She took the envelope and set it aside her desk before reaching for her telephone book to find the number for Andrews Investigations. “You’re not even going to open this one?”

“No,” Jason said. “It’ll say the same thing the last fifty have said. There’s no word. Just toss it, okay?”

“Okay,” Elizabeth repeated. When he was back in his office, she set it inside a drawer in her desk. Just in case.

May 11, 2016

I have literally eaten, breathed, and slept school work for the last two weeks — when I wasn’t actually working. From sunup to sundown, I studied Macroeconomics, education, trade networks in the early modern period, and the U.S. military occupation of the Dominican Republic, 1916-1924.

I just emailed my last paper. This semester is done. I can’t even process that right now. I’m going to relax today, go to training tomorrow for my summer job, and then work on Friday.

And then next week, once my brain has relaxed and recharged, I’m going to write. So see you guys in June with the first chapters of Bittersweet and a better idea of what the summer is going to bring you at Crimson Glass. Thanks for your support. I can’t wait to get back to creative writing!

April 16, 2016

I finally finished editing the ebook for The Best Thing. It’s available in .epub, .mobi, and .pdf.   I apologize for the delay in getting that together. I’d like to offer more ebooks, but they take forever to format, so no promises on the next release.

Also, I posted Part One of Look After You, the sequel to Choose Your Moment. It’s new material to the site, but anyone who has a keen eye will recognize the chapter from the old site. I didn’t repost it before when I moved the site here because I wasn’t going to be posting the rest yet. I’m still not posting the rest, but there’s no reason I can’t put up something you guys had access to before.

Bittersweet has been delayed until June. I know I keep moving that back, and I’m sorry, but it’s just better if I stop promising dates I can’t deliver. Just when I got myself caught up from having the stomach virus, I caught the flu. Now I have to get caught up from that, and go into finals and plan my friend’s bridal shower — I’m not going to be free until around May 10. And then you know, the semester crash in which I sleep for a week.

That being said, I’m going to try to write a short story or two, but I want any creative energy funneled into Bittersweet and Damaged so that once I do start posting again, we don’t have these long breaks.

This entry is part 1 of 1 in the Look After You

August 17, 2006

Elm Street Pier

Georgie Jones was a big fan of pacing. It never accomplished anything, but it always made her feel like she was doing something. She crossed from the bottom of one set of stairs to the other, turned and made the trek back. Then repeated the process.

It was all she could do to keep from standing still and just releasing one long awful scream because, really that’s what she was doing on the inside. She’d thought they were smart, reasonably intelligent people with morals and some sort of compass for right and wrong. Clearly, she had overestimated and misjudged.

But of course, she couldn’t scream. That wouldn’t accomplish anything and all she’d do is hurt her throat. So instead, she paced. It felt like something constructive, even though all it was doing at the moment was making her feel hot. Rivulets of sweat dripped down her back, soaking her white camisole.

Footsteps clattered down the set of dock stairs that she was facing away from and Georgie whirled to find her ex-husband and sort of boyfriend standing there. “You’re finally here.”

“Yeah, sorry I’m late—” Dillon Quartermaine jerked a thumb over his shoulder. “There was this thing and I had—never mind.” He took a deep breath. “Georgie, look, there’s something I have to tell you. It’s gonna suck but it’s better if we get into the open now and deal with it—”

“Don’t bother,” Georgie sighed, “I already know.”

Dillon closed his mouth and stared at her for a long moment. “You do.”

“Yeah, I mean—practically everyone does,” Georgie huffed. “I just—it’s so awful to think about. I thought—well I’m not sure what I thought was going to happen but I didn’t think it as going to be this!”

“Well, neither did I,” Dillon said cautiously. “But you know, we can deal with it, Georgie.”

“I don’t know what it has to do with me,” Georgie continued, “but people keep coming up and telling me like I don’t already know.” She rolled her eyes. “It’s ridiculous and it’s stupid.”

“Well, I think it has something to do with you,” Dillon said, a little miffed. “I mean, Georgie, c’mon, we’re talking about—”

“I know who we’re talking about but it’s not my fault she’s an idiot.” Georgie tapped the wooden railing restlessly. “I just didn’t think she’d be capable of something like this—”

His brows snapped together. “Well, it’s not all her fault, Georgie. It does take two.”

“Oh, I know!” Georgie countered hotly. “Believe me, I know. When Uncle Mac finds out, he is going to raise hell.”

Dillon paled. “Well, why does he have to find out at all?” he asked weakly.

“How can he not?” Georgie demanded. “I mean, everyone already knows and you’d better believe Uncle Mac is going to have issues. I mean, God, what was Lucky thinking?”

“I can’t begin—” Dillon stopped abruptly. “What does Lucky have to do with this?” he asked suspiciously. He didn’t know yet, did he? He could have sworn Lu said…

“He’s got everything to do with this,” Georgie said incredulously. “I mean, I don’t care what his excuse is, he should have known better! She’s just a teenager! An idiot, but still—”

“What are you talking about?” Dillon asked, finally understanding that they were, indeed, having two separate conversations.

Georgie frowned. “Lucky and Maxie are having an affair.” She narrowed her eyes speculatively. “What are you talking about?”

“Lucky and Maxie are doing what?” Dillon repeated sharply. “But he’s—” He pushed a hand through his hair. “Christ, this like the crappiest summer for fidelity,” he muttered.

“Yeah, I just got into a huge fight with Elizabeth two days ago at the hospital. Apparently, she found Maxie and Lucky in her own apartment.” Georgie’s eyes were filled with misery. “I tried to make her stop, Dillon. I mean, Lucky’s married. And he’s married to Elizabeth, who’s never been anything but really sweet to the both of us. And they’ve got a little boy—” she shook her head. “I don’t understand how she could do this to Elizabeth and then be so…smug about it.”

“Well, she’s had a really rough time of it since Jesse died,” Dillon said lamely, because really that was no excuse.

“And I wish it was just the affair because then I can just pretend that Maxie’s confused and in a bad place but—” She fisted her hands together and kicked the stairs. “I overheard talking to Robin about it and she was trying to justify it because Elizabeth and Patrick were sleeping together—”

“Whoa, whoa!” Dillon held up his hands. “Time out. Elizabeth was having an affair with Patrick Drake? But I thought Robin—”

“That’s just it—they’re not. They never were and Robin kept trying to tell Maxie that, that she and Patrick were dating and he was only friends with Elizabeth but Maxie just kept telling Robin that Patrick was lying to her, that he was only using her for sex—” Georgie licked her lips. “She was purposely hurting Robin so that she could get what she wants. I just—I can’t wrap my head around that, Dillon. Robin’s like our sister, she’s family. You don’t hurt family—” Her misery swelled over and tears dotted her lashes. “I don’t understand how she can act like this.”

Clearly this was not the time to tell her about Lulu, Dillon decided. He stepped forward and wrapped his ex-wife in his arms, wondering when the whole world had gone crazy. “I feel so awful for Elizabeth,” Georgie sniffled, resting her head on Dillon’s shoulder. “She’s angry, you know, but I could just see pieces of her breaking off, like she was losing it just a little bit with every single second that passed.”

“Well it’s clear it can’t get much worse than this,” Dillon lied, because of course it could and it definitely would. Maxie’s descent into bitchery was only going to continue, and Lulu’s brother was obviously having issues and of course, that was going to affect Lulu and he was going to have to figure out how to be on both sides of this.

Georgie sniffled again and stepped back. “Thanks for letting me have a meltdown.” She swiped at her eyes. “What did you need to tell me?”

“Ah. Well.” Dillon scratched the back of his neck. “It’s not important anymore.”

“Of course it is, you told me it was important, that you had to see me immediately.” George stepped forward. “Is something wrong?”

Dillon exhaled slowly. “Well, no. And yes, and well, it’s wrong to say that what happened is bad, you know? Because it’s not bad. It’s not great, but it’s definitely not bad and I don’t want you to think for a second that this was something I planned because it wasn’t but I’m not sorry it happened, because you should never be sorry about something like this and—”

“Dillon,” Georgie said. “You’re rambling.”

“Right.” Dillon exhaled slowly. “Well, Lulu’s pregnant.”

Kelly’s: Courtyard

Carly Corinthos sipped an iced tea and watched with some pleasure as Ric Lansing dragged his suitcase into the diner. The Metro Court and every other hotel in the city had been conveniently booked when the lawyer had requested a room as soon as possible.

She didn’t have any qualms about making sure that Ric understood exactly what was going on. He was being reduced to living in a room above Kelly’s. Four years and he was back where he’d started. Sometimes, revenge was sweeter when you hadn’t planned it at all.

Her smiled dimmed slightly as she thought of what it must been like for Alexis to have to confront her husband, to tell him to get out, that she knew exactly what he’d done to her daughter. She wished she’d been a fly on the wall but she’d had to settle for being present when Ric woke the morning before and found Carly in his living room, helping Alexis and Viola pack up Molly and Kristina for an overnight visit with Carly’s boys.

His confusion and bewilderment had been so nice to see. She’d enjoyed every moment of it but she was sorry it’d had to happen at all.

She wasn’t sure where Sam was. She’d disappeared from her mother’s and no one had heard from her. Good riddance, Carly decided.

Her blonde cousin slid into a seat across from her, her large hazel eyes filled with misery. “Carly.”

“Lulu, hey…” Carly straightened and set her tea down. “What’s up, babe?”

Lulu swallowed hard. “You heard about my brother, I guess.”

“I did,” Carly replied. “I’m sorry about that—”

“You know, why does all the bad stuff have to happen at once?” Lulu cut in sharply. “I mean, why does everyone’s lives have to go to shit at the same time?”

“I’m not sure—” Carly leaned forward. “What’s wrong, Lu? Did something happen?”

“Sort of,” Lulu sighed. “I’m pregnant.”

Audrey Hardy’s House: Elizabeth’s Bedroom

The institution of marriage was obviously an outdated concept that should be eliminated, Elizabeth Spencer decided. She tugged off her wedding ring and studied it, remembering the day that she’d received it. It had been her third wedding ceremony to her second husband.

And she was just shy of her twenty-fifth birthday. She could be a contestant on Jerry Springer in another few years.

She had returned home from her night with Jason feeling strong and resolute about her decision. She had ignored Lucky’s apologies, mostly because they’d been peppered with We’ve both cheated, can’t we get past it? and You slept with Patrick first.

She had never broken her vows to him until Jason and she didn’t consider that infidelity. Her marriage had been over. And she wanted—needed—to feel something other than pain and misery. Jason had given her a beautiful gift. It hadn’t been about comfort—though it might have started that way. And it hadn’t been about sex.

It’d been about the love that was always between them, whether it was platonic or romantic—and she’d really needed that. She’d needed to feel desired and wanted even it were for only a moment.

Now she was alone again, being forced to rebuild her life yet again. She was done with marriage. She was done with the concept of love and romance and soul mates. She tossed her wedding ring on her nightstand and ignored it when it twirled around twice before rolling to the carpet.

She would raise her son, she would work at the hospital and if she found some time, she’d paint. But she would do it all alone. It was safer that way—it was easier that way.

There was a knock on her slightly open door and Elizabeth looked up to see her grandmother standing there. “Hey, Gram.”

“Hello, darling.” Audrey entered the room and shut the door firmly behind her. “This house always feels empty when you leave it. I’m sorry that you’re unhappy, but I’m not sorry you came home.” She swept Elizabeth’s hair over her shoulders. “Are you ready to talk about it?”

Elizabeth shook her head. “Not yet, I’m just—I’m adjusting to the idea that this is my third marriage, my second husband.” She traced the flowered pattern on her bedspread. “Thank you for letting me stay here, Gram. I know it can’t be easy for me to run home every time I screw up my life.”

“Well…” Audrey sighed. “I think it takes courage to stand up for yourself. I believe in marriage, Elizabeth. I believe in doing everything you can to make it work. But I also believe in self-preservation. I know how much you love Lucky so I know it must have taken something truly awful for you to leave him and contemplate ending your marriage. But, my darling,” she touched Elizabeth’s cheek. “You will always have a home here.”

Kelly’s: Courtyard

Carly slid the sunglasses up and blinked at her young cousin. “Come again?”

“I’m pregnant,” Lulu muttered. She took a napkin from the dispenser and busied herself with the task of shredding it into small pieces. “And I don’t know what comes next.”

“God,” Carly sighed. “It’s like looking in a mirror sometimes.” Okay, so she’d have to instruct Lulu on what to do so that she didn’t end up like Carly—drugging people and dumping them into laundry carts. That should be avoided. She tugged on her ear and was silent for another moment. “Okay. Have you told Dillon?”

“Yes,” Lulu nodded. “And he took it—wow, he took it so much better than I expected.” She hesitated. “The only thing that we know so far is that we want the baby.”

“Well, that’s a good place to start, Lu.” Carly reached across the table and stopped Lulu from shredding the napkin. “A lot of people don’t start there.” She cleared her throat and sat back. “So, you need to schedule a doctor’s appointment—it’s a shame Dr. Meadows isn’t still practicing, I trusted her completely—but I hear good things about Dr. Lee. So we’ll get you scheduled and on those prenatal vitamins as soon as possible.”

“What about the Quartermaines?” Lulu asked with a sigh. “They’re going to be so…I don’t even know. I mean, Edward—I can handle him. He has a soft spot for me because he liked my mother. But Tracy—”

“Don’t you worry about the Quartermaines,” Carly advised. “Once they get past the idea of you been so young, they’re going to be over the moon about the next Quartermaine heir.”

Lulu’s eyes widened. “I hadn’t even thought about it that way. God, they’re never going to leave me alone. They can’t have Michael and they couldn’t make Dillon work in the business—but they’d want my baby—”

“That doesn’t mean they have to have the baby.” Great, now she’d terrified the girl. She was lousy at this supportive relative thing. “Lu, I’m just saying they’re not going to make you give it up or try to hide it, okay? As for them wanting to control you and the baby, it’s the Quartermaines. If they thought they could, they’d try to control the weather. But I’ll take care of that and if Dillon is half the guy I’ve always that he was, he’ll stand up for you.”

“It’s just…I haven’t told the rest of the family yet.” Lulu sniffled. “I mean, I told my mom but that doesn’t really count because she couldn’t hear me. But Aunt Bobbie, Grandma Lesley—I’m so scared to tell them because I know they’ll be disappointed. I tried to get a hold of my brothers but Nikolas is so busy with Spencer and Lucky—” Lulu rolled her eyes. “I don’t know what Lucky can do for me right now. I think he might be too busy getting high and screwing Maxie.”

Carly winced. The Spencers were not an illustrious bunch. “Well, we can worry about them later.” She hesitated. “What about Elizabeth?” she forced out. “She’s been in this situation before and I know you guys are close. For whatever reason.” And Elizabeth was usually more logical and less likely to plot a scheme that would blow up in her face, Carly remembered, a personality trait that shouldn’t be downplayed right now.

“She’s—with Lucky and all, I figured she wouldn’t really care but maybe…” Lulu shrugged. “I’m just—I’m worried about Dillon. He was just getting things together with Georgie and he deserves to be happy but this is going to ruin that—”

“Hey, I don’t think he’s really thinking about that right now,” Carly interrupted. She reached for her purse. “And he’s not going to take it out on you or the baby if things don’t work out for Georgie. Now, c’mon.” She stood. “Let’s get you to the hospital and set up an appointment.”

“Ah, Dillon said he wanted to go,” Lulu said, standing.  She pursed her lips. “Carly, don’t take this the wrong way because I really appreciate your help and your advice but I don’t need you to run my life either.”

Carly set her purse back down and bit back a laugh. “I was kind of taking charge there—I’m sorry. Because I know how much it sucks not to feel like you’ve got any control. So I’m sorry. What do you need me to do?”

“I just needed you to listen.” Lu laced her fingers together and cracked her knuckles. “Dillon’s telling Georgie now and I should probably get out of here before she comes to work. I feel like she’s gonna need some time to process this. And I want to go see Lucky.” She smiled. “But thank you. It’s nice to know there’s someone I can count on.”

Carly grasped Lulu’s arm. “I am the most selfish person you will ever meet—with the exception of Sonny, but I protect my family. So if you need me, all you have to do is let me know, okay?”

“Believe me, you’re going wish you hadn’t said that when this is over.”

Elm Street Pier

“Pregnant,” Georgie repeated. She blinked. “Are you kidding me?”

Dillon drove his fingers through his hair. “Ah, no. She told me during the blackout—or rather, I figured it out when I saw her getting sick and put it together with the way she’d been acting all night—she told me she had something to tell me but then she changed her mind—and anyway, Georgie…” he hesitated. “We don’t really know what’s gonna happen next. All we know is…” he paused and looked towards the water, his voice low. “We want the baby.”

Georgie opened her mouth and then closed it. “I wish that I had words to say right now that would make sense,” she said slowly. “But I—I don’t.” She stepped away from him, turned her back and stared at the dock steps. “It’s good—it’s good that you’re stepping up. I mean, of course you would. You’re like that, but it’s good. I mean, I don’t think Lu’s had a lot of support or anything in her life and I know she’s gotta be scared so it’s good that you—it’s just good.”

“Georgie—”

“And you know, Lulu and I are okay. I mean, part of me understands why she did what she did and if she needs anything, I’ll be there to help or—” She could hear the words pouring from her lips but she wasn’t sure what she was saying or if she even meant it. But words and noise were better than silence. Because silence gave her a chance to realize that this was all true.

“Georgie, I don’t know what this means for us—” Dillon hesitated and reminded himself of the promise he’d made that night of the roof, the promise he’d made to himself. “Georgie, I have to be honest with you. I have—what happened with Lulu that night, that week—I don’t consider it a mistake.”

And the hits just kept coming. Georgie closed her mouth and turned to stare at him. “But you said—”

“I know what I said. And I said it because part of me needed it to be true and you needed it to be true, too.” He shrugged and kicked at the ground. “But I can’t pretend I don’t care about Lulu. I do. And I slept with her because I wanted to. And because I was attracted to her.”

If he’d hit her, he couldn’t have hurt her more in that moment. Georgie inhaled sharply and something inside of broke at that moment. “Oh.” She bowed her head, touching her chin to her chest. “Oh. Well. I should—there are things—I have to go.”

“Georgie, wait, I didn’t mean to say it like that—” Dillon sighed, annoyed with himself as he watched his ex-wife and sort of girlfriend dash up the stairs and listened as her heels clacked away.

He’d had that conversation a thousand times in his head on his way to meet Georgie and he’d managed to screw it up even worse than he’d imagined possible.

Scorpio House: Front Porch

Mac Scorpio leaned back against the bench and closed his eyes. “I want you to tell me that this is a very long and elaborate joke you’re playing on me, Robin.”

His niece smiled sadly at him. “Believe me, I still think this is some kind of nightmare but I thought you should know what’s going in.” Robin sighed. “I don’t know what to do about her, Uncle Mac. I tried to talk to her but she just—” she pursed her lips. “Well, she tried to feed me the line about Elizabeth having the affair with Patrick and I can’t listen to her tell me that he’s using me for sex, I can’t.”

“I don’t think I could listen to that either,” Mac winced, still wanting to believe his girls didn’t have sex lives. He hesitated. “That’s not—I mean, it’s not a possibility right?”

Robin scowled. “Uncle Mac, Patrick is not having an affair with anyone. And don’t ask me if I’m sure because he’s spent every night with me for a month—”

“Okay, okay—” Mac held up a hand. “You don’t need to elaborate.” He was silent for a long moment. “I’m not entirely sure where I went wrong in this. I thought I did a pretty decent job with you. I mean, you didn’t turn out like I thought you would but you turned out better and Georgie—well, she’s not hanging around the sex offender anymore and she got out of that marriage so I guess her life is back on track. But you and Georgie are a cake walk compared to Maxie, you always were.” He shook his head. “I don’t know what to do about her. I can’t send her away to school and I don’t even think a convent would take her at this point.”

“I don’t know what to do either but I thought it was time I stopped protecting her and let you in on what’s happening. I’d tell Felicia but I guess she’s back in Texas again,” Robin replied, disappointed in her surrogate mother for disappearing yet again.

“Let’s leave Felicia out of this for now,” Mac replied. “Mariah’s terminal and I don’t want to stress her out more than I have to, which is why I haven’t told her what’s going on up here.” He grimaced. “I’ll have a talk with Maxie and—well, I’ll see about paying Lucky a visit. Maybe somewhere we can work this out.” He patted his niece’s hand. “Thank you for telling me.”

“I just hope we can find a way to keep this from getting worse,” Robin replied, “but honestly, Uncle Mac, I’m not sure if that’s possible.”

General Hospital: Nurse’s Station

Georgie was not having the best of days. In fact, one could venture to say she was not having the best of weeks either. Her sister had destroyed the marriage of a woman that Georgie had always admired and then she’d been deliberately cruel to their cousin—a cousin that had always been more like a sister and had never let them down.

As if that wasn’t enough for any girl to handle, her ex-husband had impregnated a girl that had been partially responsible for the deterioration of their marriage.

When you laid the scenario out like that, it sounded ludicrous, it sounded like it like it had happened to someone else.  Unfortunately, it was unlikely that she would wake up tomorrow morning to find out that it was still March, the Jesse was still alive, that Maxie hadn’t gone crazy and that Lulu hadn’t decided to lie to get what she wanted.

She stepped up to the nurse’s station and cleared her throat. “Ah, Dr. Drake?” she asked politely.  Her cousin’s boyfriend glanced up from his chart.

“Hey, Georgie,” Patrick greeted. He set the chart aside and braced hi hands on the edge of the counter. “What can I do for you?”

“Is Robin around?” Georgie asked. “I need to talk to her.”

“Ah…” Patrick hesitated. “She’s talking to Mac.” He paused. “About Maxie.”

“Oh.” Georgie flushed. “I’m sorry,” she offered weakly.

He frowned at her. “What do you have to be sorry about?” he questioned. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”

“She’s my sister,” Georgie replied. “I’m supposed to look after her and fix things. I should have stopped her.” She bit her lip. “I’m not sure how I would have accomplished it, but I should have been able to. I knew she was seeing a married man but I didn’t know it was Lucky. I mean, who would have thought he’d cheat on Elizabeth? If I had realized, I could have stopped it—” she stopped abruptly, realizing she’d begun to ramble. “I’m just…really sorry Maxie dragged you into her problems.”

A strange expression flitted across his face and Georgie wasn’t sure why he’d look so resigned. He came out from behind the counter and put a hand on her shoulder leading her towards the waiting area. “Let’s sit down a second.”

Once he was seated, he scrubbed a hand over his face. “Look, I don’t really know you all that well but I’m sure if Robin were here, she’d tell you that none of this is your fault.”

“Of course it is,” Georgie replied sharply. “She’s my sister. I’m supposed to look out for her and if I hadn’t been so selfish and worried about myself, I could have seen that she was crossing the line. I should have been able to stop this—”

“Your sister was hell bent on self-destruction,” Patrick interrupted. “I highly doubt anyone could have stopped her.”

“You don’t understand,” Georgie huffed. “You’re an only child, okay? You don’t know what it’s like to be the younger sibling and to still be the mature one, the responsible one. For your parents to constantly hold you up as an example to your sister. I’ve always protected Maxie and fixed stuff for her.”

“You’re right, I don’t get it,” he replied. “But you can’t always blame yourself when people do stupid things. You can’t control everything.”

“Well, duh,” Georgie rolled her eyes. “But you should be able to control some stuff, you know.” She stared miserably at her hands. “I can’t make anything go the way it’s supposed to. Lulu’s pregnant, okay? Dillon knocked her up.”

“Oh, for the love of…” Patrick muttered. “Freaking teenagers, you’re all going to drive me nuts.”

“You don’t have to pretend you care,” Georgie told him. “I mean, I appreciate the effort and all, but really—”

“I’m not pretending,” Patrick replied. “I’m just new at this. You’re important to Robin, okay? And she’s—” he paused. “Well, she’s Robin. So, if there’s anything I can do—”

“Unless you can turn back time and make it so that none of this happened,” Georgie grumbled, “then no.” She stood but hesitated a moment. “But really, thanks. I’m glad Robin didn’t believe what Maxie was saying about you.”

“That makes two of us,” Patrick said dryly. “I’ll let Robin know you need to talk to her. Just…don’t let the thing with your sister get you down. No one blames you.”

“Only me,” Georgie sighed. “Thanks, Patrick.”

Quartermaine Mansion: Foyer

There were very few constants in Emily Quartermaine’s life. Her family would always be a group of frustrating idiots who really meant well, she would probably be in love with Nikolas Cassadine for the rest of her life, Elizabeth Spencer was the closest she’d come to having a sister and Lucky Spencer would always be her best friend.

Lucky had always been her touchstone. He’d been her first friend, first real and solid connection in Port Charles and never let her down, even during the dark year when they’d thought he was dead because obviously that wasn’t his fault.

She sat on the bottom step and just sat in silence with her best friend, with her sister. Silence was all she could really offer because she wasn’t sure what to say. How does one respond to the news that your oldest friend had destroyed his marriage with sex and drugs?

“What did he say when you left?” Emily asked finally.

Elizabeth sighed and leaned back, resting her elbows on the step behind them. “He couldn’t understand why I couldn’t forgive him since he was willing to forgive me for sleeping with Patrick.”

Emily frowned. “But you didn’t sleep with Patrick. Everyone who knows anything knows he’s been chasing Robin.  And even if he hadn’t been, why would Lucky think that?”

“Because I was seen going into a hotel with Patrick on more than one occasion,” Elizabeth replied. “Back when I was doing that side job for him.”

“But it was the drugs, right?” Emily asked apprehensively. “If he hadn’t been on the drugs—”

“I can only blame so much of it on the drugs,” Elizabeth replied quietly. “For him to leap to the conclusion that I was having an affair so quickly, it’s just…I’m not comfortable with that.”

“And you shouldn’t have to be,” Emily replied loyally. “You know, I know better than anyone how drug addiction can ruin your life. I went through it, my dad went through it. AJ with the alcohol…” she sighed. “I’ve made mistakes like Lucky has so a really big part of me wants to tell you to hang in there and to give him another chance.” She held up a hand to ward off Elizabeth’s protesting answer. “But I’ve also been on the other side of the addiction and sometimes, you have to protect yourself. Sometimes, you have to put yourself first.”

“It’s more than just me,” Elizabeth replied. “It’s Cameron. He’s my whole world and I can’t—I can’t let him live like this. He needs a stable environment, he needs a mother who’s focused on him and not worrying about her addict husband. If it were just me, I’d be willing to consider counseling and maybe I could see my way to at least waiting until Lucky was out of rehab before making any decisions.”

“You have to do what’s right for you, Elizabeth,” Emily told her. “And what’s right for your son. I’ll support you.” She smiled faintly. “But I’m not abandoning Lucky either. I’m going to support him through this, too.”

“I hope he gets clean,” Elizabeth said. “I hope he puts his life back together, I really do. But I can’t sit around and wait for that day.”

April 5, 2016

I forgot to mention in yesterday’s post that I update little writing statuses on CG’s Facebook page. I’ll mention if I’m working on something, how things are going, etc. It’s a bit more informal than here, so make sure you like the page on Facebook.  You’ll see a bit more activity from me there than you might here between updates, so if you’re ever worried if I’ve, you know, died, haha, the Facebook page is probably the best way to keep up.

April 4, 2016

I’m not sure how this happened, but here we are in April. Nothing about this semester at school has worked out quite as I hoped.  When I went back full-time for my undergraduate degree in 2009, I pretty much disapeared from the fandom and fanfiction altogether. I managed to write during the year I was in graduate school because that program wasn’t very demanding and I only worked last year. I’m going to have to fight to keep that from happening again.

Since January, I’ve been sick with a stomach virus and a sinus infection. I’ve juggled two graduate reading seminars with online classes and Macroeconomics (which  I mostly had to teach to myself because the teacher wasn’t really effective). I’ve also worked three days a week, looked after my nieces and nephew, dealt with the general responsibilities of being the only single member of my family who can take care of everyone — and my best friend is getting married in a wedding in June where I’m the maid of honor.

Since the beginning of the year, since finishing The Best Thing, I’ve literally written maybe three full chapters of anything. I’ve edited, refined, reoutlined, but I haven’t really had a minute to write. It’s been…it’s just not been what I had hoped. I can’t even find time to read for fun anymore, much less write fanfiction.  I’m also about to enter the worst month of the semester — as a history student, I don’t just have finals, I have final papers. I have a 12-20 page paper, another 8-10, plus finals in all those classes–yeah, April is a pain. And my beta, Cora, is also a college student, so you can imagine the insanity of two college students trying to find time for this stuff

That being said, I do have nine chapters written of Bittersweet, five of which are with Cora. I’m hopeful to have the first chapter up either this week or next. I’ll be posting them Thursdays to keep room for Damaged (which is on my schedule, but talk about not having time…) I’ll finish the last scene for Chapter 10 in Bittersweet, and send those five to her, which should give me a decent buffer zone to get through the second week of May. Then…school ends. The wedding stuff takes a bit of a breather before the ceremony in June. I’ll be working, but I was able to write last year while that was going on.

I am going to get back on track. I have not disappeared. But as much as I would love to do nothing but sit at home and write fanfiction, no one’s paying me to do that, ha, and I have to do my real life stuff first. This is the worst part of being an adult.

In the mean time, I have more than a hundred stories on this website, with an archive that goes back thirteen years. Please please take the time to read, or even reread. I can’t think of many Liason authors still around from 2002 who are not only still (sort of) active, but also have their full backlist up for consumption and work as hard as I do to make them readable for you. I love you guys, believe me, I think about this site and my stories in all my spare times — but I just….I can’t get my schedule together yet. I will be posting soon. I’m excited for you guys to see what I’ve done with Bittersweet.

February 20, 2016

Happy Saturday! I hope you guys enjoyed the end of The Best Thing (and by the responses, you guys did, I’m so glad!). As promised, the pink has gone. We have new colors, I fixed some long standing color issues and design kinks.  Here’s a status update so you can see where my head this 🙂

Site Status

Looking back to the August status update, I only managed to check off one of the items on that list of things I hoped to accomplish, namely I added the By Length feature. As far as I know, all stories that need to be have been tagged, so if you’re looking for stories based on how long they are, that’s the feature for you.

I did, however, overhaul the layout of the site and add more functionality and decluttered the page. Hopefully things are easier to find now. Let me know if they’re not.

What I want to concentrate on this year is mostly the ebooks. I introduced the idea but I’ve never put the time or effort into releasing one every month, which shouldn’t be that difficult. So that’s my plan to get on that schedule, beginning with The Best Thing this weekend.

Fiction Graveyard has not return because the stories that are left require heavy editing and it’s pretty annoying to do it, ha. I do plan to finish that section, but I’m not going to pretend I know what it’ll happen. It’s not a priority.

Just for a bit of fun, Crimson Glass has 893 posts, 98 pages, and 1,253 comments. We average anywhere from 200-900 views a day, which is pretty awesome. I’m pretty happy with the traffic and community that’s built up over the last two years.

Story Status

I’m going to try to be as comprehensive as I possibly can about all the projects on the table.

Bittersweet has nine chapters written, but I’m working on handful of scenes before I email the chapters to Cora. Once I finish those scenes, I will immediately start writing the next chunk of chapters, with the plan in my head that by the time Cora returns the first nine, I can send her the next nine. And then, with sixteen-eighteen chapters actually completed, I’ll start posting. I want to have a huge buffer because I don’t want to have long periods of time without posting.  The March date is not going to work, but if I can finish those six scenes this week, April might work better.

Damaged is being pulled off the March schedule as well. While I have the overarching Season 3 stories planned, actually finding time to write them has been very difficult. However, like Season 2, once I get into writing it, it will go much faster. I’ve been studying the structure of episodes written for television. Grey’s Anatomy has a similar structure with season long stories, bigger and broader storylines told over several seasons, and then smaller stories broken up. I think modeling that structure will make the story feel more satisfying. I’ll keep you updated.

After that, my schedule is a bit more fluid. I plan to do Mad World, which is outlined and storyboarded. I just haven’t written it yet. I’ve taken Feels Like Home and Burn in Heaven back to the outline stages–there were some pieces that just didn’t work for me, so before I try to work on chapters, I want to make sure the flow works better.

These Small Hours, Counting Stars, Fallen From Grace, and For the Broken Girl remain in outline status. They haven’t moved up in priority, but every once in a while when I want to work on something fresh, I pull them out.

So where does that leave us? No stories until April at the earliest? Maybe. I hope not. I’m working on some smaller short stories. I had some ideas for a collection of alternate universe stories set in different historical periods. Some of those are closer to being written than others. I know I promised more content this year, and I still want to do it. I could start posting Bittersweet tomorrow, but it’s not ready and I’m not satisfied with it yet.

I’ll keep you guys posted and hopefully will have some great short stories for you soon!