November 16, 2014

I posted a preview of Chapter 12, but forgot to link it. I wanted an excuse to use the new banner for The Best Thing, but then I realized I don’t like the new featured banner I created for it. Then my computer turned off so I wasn’t able to change the font. Story of my life. Anyway. That was posted.

I didn’t get back to Fiction Graveyard mostly because I was writing all weekend. For NaNoWriMo, I wanted to hit 30,000 by the end of the week and I managed it tonight, so I’m not only caught up, but gave myself some padding for the next two weeks. Yay 😛

Also, Chapter 13 for TBT came together and I’m working on TBT 14. I’m also thinking of trying to make a go at the marriage of convenience to try for a Christmas story. I can fiddle with it and move up the timeline to make it more holidayish. It’s still untitled, so we’ll see. I’ll make a final decision by the end of the week.

Anyway. I also posted a spoiler on the Facebook page with the song that I plan to use in TBT 14 to give you an idea where things are that point. I often post little bits and asides there as I write if you’re interested.

November 14, 2014

bestthing2

“Emily Paige Bowen-Quartermaine,” Elizabeth began, “if you think I am sitting on the chair and letting Jason feel me up in front of a hundred people—”

“Wait, what?” Jason interrupted. “Em—”

“Relax.” Emily waved a dismissive hand. “I have the sense God gave a mule—”

“I’ve seen no indication of this—” Elizabeth shot back.

“I have decided to alter that particular tradition,” Emily sniffed. “Instead, I just ask that you join the rest of the world on the dance floor for one dance.”

“Em, can we talk for minute—”

Emily cut her off with another wave of the hand. “Listen, I’ve decided to bow out of my position as opportunity creator for you guys since you don’t need me—”

“—never needed—”

“Opportunity creator?” Jason repeated at the same time.

But Emily ignored them both. “You don’t need to thank me, just…enjoy what I’ve given you.” She flashed a smile. “Now, it’s my wedding day, I’m the bride, and you do what I say. Dance.” She took the garter and bouquet from them. “I’ll make sure you get these back, but—”

Elizabeth narrowed her eyes, but rather than give into the desire to poke her best friend, she merely sniffed and turned to Jason. “If she’s really going to retire from constantly butting in—”

“Ha!”

“—then we might as well do this.”

Jason sighed and looked at his sister. “Emily.”

She stared at him, blandly. “It’s my wedding day,” she repeated. She pointed at herself. “Bride.”

He held out a hand to Elizabeth. “She’s right.”

November 13, 2014

If there are Christmas commercials on television, I get to listen to Christmas music. That’s the contract I have with the society at large, so I decided to go throuh and tag the stories that either take place during the holidays or feature a Christmas celebration. There aren’t a lot, as it’s never been something I do often, but there are some.

I’m also toying with doing a Christmas story this year. I’m not sure whether I’d do something set in a few years ago, something set this year or an alternate universe story. I was considering doing one for this year but I don’t know if I’m ready to write the new Jason.  The new marriage of convenience story I’m playing around with begins October 2006 and has a Christmas celebration, so maybe that’s something to think about. (Or maybe I’ll do both. I don’t know where my brain ends up.)

Anyway.  Working on both the novella ebook and the Fiction Graveyard stuff, but I keep getting distracted by writing, which I am sure no one is arguing with. Here’s your Christmas selection:

Christmas Stories (including one Thanksgiving story)

The current featured stories expire 11/30, so I’ll be replacing them with Noel and Lizzie Does Thanksgiving (or I might do that earlier, depends on my life, haha.)

November 12, 2014

Hey. I know I promised an update to Fiction Graveyard, but I’m getting a late start to the day so I figure you guys would rather I spend my time writing than formatting old, abandoned chapters, haha.  So If I can finish my planned writing (3000 words for NaNoWriMo and two scenes for TBT), I’ll be back with more updates.

In the mean time, The Best Thing – Chapter Ten is available.

This entry is part 10 of 34 in the The Best Thing

I’m not the one who broke you
I’m not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin’
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all
Here Is Gone, Goo Goo Dolls


Friday, April 29, 2005

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

Carly handed Michael a napkin as he wolfed down his waffles. “Try and breathe between bites,” she instructed her eldest child before turning her attention to Morgan who had recently been upgraded to a booster seat and was spooning yogurt awkwardly into his mouth. “Try not…to wear it all this morning.”

Across the table, Sonny sat silently, sipping his coffee and reading the morning edition of the Port Charles Herald. She wished this felt as domestic as it might have looked to an outsider, but he was silent because they had argued that morning.

She wanted to try in-vitro fertilization and he had refused.

She wanted to go away for a weekend to the island or even to New York City — to leave the boys with her mother and just escape the constant pressure of being Carly Corinthos.

Of not knowing what to do next.

But he had refused.

“I gotta get to school,” Michael chirped, dropping his fork to his plate with a clatter that caused Sonny to flinch. He launched himself out of the chair, stopped for his book bag on the sofa before throwing open the door. “C’mon, Rocco! I’ll be late and today we’re getting a new guinea pig—”

His bright chatter faded as the door closed behind them. Carly turned to Sonny. “He seems to be…better,” she offered.

“Mmm,” Sonny murmured, and Carly scowled, looking back at Morgan. Even his wide yogurt-stained grin couldn’t boost her spirits. Her argument with Courtney earlier that month weighed on her shoulders.

Of course she knew that simply walking into Jason’s penthouse and trying to hint that perhaps the custody arrangement needed to be revisited would never work. Jason was committed to protecting Michael and Morgan. He would never admit the truth of Evie’s paternity if he still thought it might cost the boys their stability.

But Carly was out of options. Having their own child was not going to work. As long as Sonny felt he had abandoned his daughter, the guilt was going to eat at him and push him closer to the edge – a place that Carly had truly only seen once.

And she feared this crash may make that seem like a day at a carnival.

And the only way to eliminate that guilt would be to bring Evie into their family, but Courtney was absolutely right. To have Jason give up another child…how could she ever ask it of him?

But in the last month, she had begun to see a way out. Jason had barely survived the loss of Michael, but Carly knew it was because he’d been alone. Robin had dropped the bomb and fled to Paris, Carly had slept with Sonny, and Jason had had no one to turn to.

Except Elizabeth Webber.

She had seen the two together recently, had heard the rumors.

And Elizabeth had a son.

Maybe…just maybe…if she could be sure Jason would be okay somehow. If she could…lessen the damage, this might work.

And wouldn’t it be in Jason’s long-term best interests to protect Sonny and his peace of mind? Surely Jason was exhausted from the tight rope they had all been walking, wasn’t he?

“Sonny, I’ve been…thinking about Jason.”

Sonny lifted his head from his newspaper and peered at her. “What…about Jason?” he asked, cautiously.

“I don’t like what happened when we saw Elizabeth a few weeks ago at the doctor’s office.” Carly tapped her fingers restlessly on the table, absently pushing her glass of orange juice out of Morgan’s reaching hands. “She and I may have…had our differences, but I think…maybe she could be good for Jason.”

Sonny squinted, and she knew he was thinking her words through, considering them and looking for the catch. “How so?” he asked, finally folding the newspaper and setting it next to him.

“Well,” Carly drawled. “I know the last…God, the last year has been rough for all of us, what with…” She swallowed hard. “Sam and everything. But Elizabeth…and her son…could be just the distraction Jason needs.”

He tilted his head, still squinting. “I’m not following you.”

God. Connect the dots, you imbecile. Carly swallowed the huff of exasperation that crawled up in her throat and smiled hesitantly. “Well, things are tense between you and Jason, because you know how he hurt Courtney with Sam. And sometimes I think Evie’s…as adorable as she may be…is just a reminder of everything that went wrong in your friendship.”

The corner of his mouth twisted into a grimace and Sonny looked out the large picture window that overlooked the park. “You’re not wrong there,” he said quietly.

“But if Jason moves on with someone who isn’t… connected to you. Not your sister, not your…” She wiggled her fingers. “Whatever. Elizabeth is different. And God knows, you…used to like her. I mean, Ric not withstanding.” Her stomach pitched at the mention of the man who had pretended to be her friend only to kidnap her and hold her hostage.

She looked at Morgan, her miracle baby, and took a deep breath. Everything she did to save her marriage was for her boys in the end. Michael and Morgan deserved the best life she could give them. The power, the prestige, the wealth that came with being Sonny’s children. Everything she had never had.

“She did divorce him in the end,” Carly told him. “And from what I can see, has cut all ties with him, so maybe she’s not the moron I always thought she was.” She shrugged. “Anyway, she’s got a ready-made family for Jason. He could be happy with her. Just what you and I want for him, right?”

“Right.” Sonny cleared his throat. “Maybe…maybe Elizabeth is the answer to the problems. She…and her son.” He reached for his newspaper. “We’ll…have to see how it plays out.”

“I guess we will.” Carly sipped her juice, hoping Sonny had seen the connection she’d tried to paint.

If Jason had another child waiting for him, surely…it had to assuage some of the pain she knew he would feel when Evie came to live with them.

And Carly would honor his sacrifice by loving Evie the best she could. She would be the reason their lives got back on track, not just a reminder of that whore and Sonny’s lies.

It could still be okay. Carly just…had to have patience. They were limping along for the moment, and surely, if she held out just a little longer, continued to drop hints in Sonny’s ears about Jason securing his own future…

They could emerge from this dark period without Sonny falling off the ledge.

General Hospital: Cafeteria

Emily set her tray down across from her fiancé and smiled. “So did you confirm with the staff in Greece about our honeymoon?” she asked.

Nikolas sipped his espresso and nodded. “Yes, they’ll be expecting us for three weeks. I’m even…having some rooms redone.”

She nodded sagely. “De-Cassadined,” Emily remarked, tearing the wrapper from her sandwich. “I’ll never understand the preoccupation with dark and gloom.”

“It’s dignified,” her prince said with a straight face. Then he grinned. “Things on track with your bachelorette party?”

“Yep. Elizabeth scheduled it for the week before the wedding. She wanted it to be a surprise but since most of the guests are doctors and nurses, that was out the window.” She eyed him. “And your party?”

“Lucky wanted strippers.” Nikolas paused. “I told him it wasn’t really my scene.”

“So he’ll probably only hire one.” She shrugged. “I’ve been working on the seating chart, but I just…don’t know where to put my brother.” She huffed. “If he and Elizabeth would just…” She wiggled her fingers. “You know, get it together already, I could shove him at her table without them snarking at me—”

“You could probably just put him there anyway,” Nikolas interrupted. “It’s not like Jason wants to sit with his actual family or any of the other doctors. I don’t know why he’s even bothering to come to the reception.”

Emily blinked. “I…may have intimated that you had many single friends coming from around the world. Dark, mysterious men with accents. I suggested introducing Elizabeth to one of them if Jason was sure he wasn’t interested.”

“How is that not meddling?” Nikolas asked, exasperated. “Emily, you promised you weren’t going to nag either of them. Elizabeth all but took my head off last week when I saw her. She seems to think we’re in league together.”

“We are, but mostly because I gave you no choice.” Emily rolled her eyes. “I would not have to…step up my participation if they would just stop dancing around and just admit what the rest of the damn world saw weeks ago—”

“Emily.” Nikolas’s calm voice broke into her rant and she glared at him. “Do you want them to start dating because they were once interested in one another? The way you came home and threw yourself into a relationship with Zander? The way Elizabeth tried so hard with Lucky when he came home?”

She scowled. “No. No, but they’re clearly in love—”

“I don’t know about that,” Nikolas said, slowly, “but maybe they’re creating something new. What they had before? It was there, but it clearly wasn’t strong enough to survive what life threw at them.”

Emily pursed your lips. “So what you’re saying is that if they acted on their attraction now, it might just fizzle like it did before.”

“Or maybe it would work, but Em, you have to trust them to know what’s right—”

“I…” Emily leaned back. “Look, I know you’re right. I just…I get frustrated. I want them to be happy now. Not in five years. If I have to wait that long to be Elizabeth’s maid of honor, I’ll…just wither away—”

Nikolas held up a hand. “First, I get your frustration. But we’re not inside their heads. What the rest of the world sees? It’s just superficial. It’s attraction. I see they enjoy each other’s company. That they have a good friendship, but we don’t know what holds them back. It may be something insurmountable at the moment. Emily, you complained that Carly pushed him at Courtney—”

“Oh, fine. I’ll butt out for a while.” She pointed a finger at him. “But if it we get married and there’s still no change, I make no promises, you understand?”

Nikolas arched an eyebrow. “Fair enough I suppose.”

“But you’re right about the seating. Jason is probably only going to see Elizabeth, they’re friends anyway. Audrey tolerates him now, and Steve doesn’t have a problem with him, so…” She took out a notepad and made a notation. “I’ll do it that way.” She sighed at him. “I just…I want everyone to be as happy as we are.”

He reached across the table, and took her hand in his. “But our road wasn’t easy,” he reminded her. “You were married, I was accused of murder, then I had lost my memory, and we had to deal with Mary…” He trailed off and dipped his head. He raised it and sighed. “Emily, we’re stronger because we got through all of that. We’re going to stand the test of time because I know there will never be anyone I love the way I love you. Don’t you want your brother and our best friend to reach the same realization?”

“God, I hate when you’re logical. Yes, of course, I do.” She grimaced. “You bastard with your sense-making.”

Corinthos & Morgan Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

Jason leaned forward and set a folder on Sonny’s desk. “We found Mickey.”

His partner lifted his eyebrows. “And since he’s not in front of me explaining himself, he’s not available to do so.” He nodded and pursed his lips. “Who’s responsible for his…scheduling difficulty?”

Relieved that today Sonny seemed mostly himself, Jason answered him. “Not us. Johnny and his men found him in the bushes off the interstate. He’d been recently shot in the head.”

“So they kept him alive for two months or he turned on us and they shot him anyway.” Sonny stroked his chin. “We don’t know anything more yet?”

“No…not yet, but I got Johnny and Francis on it. I don’t know if we’ll find out more unless something else happens,” Jason admitted. “We don’t have the same resources the authorities do when it comes to crime scenes and it’s not like they left a calling card.”

“Fuckers never do.” Sonny sighed and leaned back in his chair, perusing the ceiling. “I don’t like sitting back, I don’t like being on the defense.”

“Neither do I,” Jason admitted. He rubbed the back of his neck. “I’ve got Stan looking into the Ruiz and Zaccharas, but nothing’s popping at the moment.”

“Security still heightened?” Sonny asked. “I know Carly’s guards are doubled, I’ve seen the extra men in the lobby…” He hesitated. “Is…Elizabeth being looked after?”

Jason waited a moment, but decided to trust this stability for however long it would last. “I’m seeing her later today,” he admitted. “I’m going to ask her if she would consider someone more full time, and I’ve organized a man on her house for now, but I don’t want to…there’s been no direct threat against anyone.”

“Right, right. And extra security just draws attention to the people who aren’t fucking with us at the moment.” He rubbed his eyes. “I get we don’t know much about who’s behind this, but, Christ, Jase, there’s got to be something we can do. Some…” His hand clenched in a fist, Sonny dropped it on the desk. “Tell me we can do something.”

“I told Stan to step up, he’s bringing on some extra fire power behind the scenes to cover all the bases. I pulled Jimmy and Roscoe from the warehouse. I put Jimmy on Anthony and Roscoe on the Ruiz brothers. If nothing else, it might help to rule them out.”

Sonny waited a moment. “What about Johnny?”

Jason exhaled slowly. “Like I said, I don’t…consider Johnny part of his father’s business. I don’t see a point in wasting man power. I’d rather pull a third man to cover Javier and Manny more effectively. I don’t think Hector would be involved, but if he is, it’s through his sons.”

“That’s true,” Sonny allowed, “but I think it’s a mistake to exclude Johnny Zacchara from surveillance. He’s in Port Charles often enough. Maybe you’re giving the kid more credit than he’s due. Maybe he’s using the nurse as a shield.”

It hadn’t felt that way then. Nadine had been too green, and Johnny had looked chagrined when Jason had taken him to task for putting her in that situation. Could that have been an act? Would it really hurt to eliminate Johnny Zacchara once and for all from suspicion?

“We can’t rule that out, I guess. I’ll talk to Johnny, see who he recommends—”

“Don’t do it just to placate me.”

Sonny’s tone was low, almost dangerous. His dark eyes snapped to Jason’s and the man he’d been speaking to for the past half hour had vanished. Swallowing, Jason leaned forward. “That’s not what I’m doing—”

“What do you take me for?” Sonny bit out, rising from his chair. “You’ve been telling me for months Johnny ain’t the guy, and now you’re just willing to investigate? What, you think I’m stupid? I don’t see what you’re doin’?”

Slowly, Jason pushed himself to his feet. “No, Sonny. I’m just agreeing with you. Maybe I don’t want to think I’m wrong. I let him near Elizabeth, I allowed him to engage her in small talk, to stay at her showing. If he is involved, he’s aware of her. You think I like knowing that?”

His chest heaving, his eyes blazing, Sonny all but snarled, “Don’t play, Jason. Who the hell do you think you are? You work for me! This is my territory!” He planted a hand flat against his chest. “You fucking taking orders from me!”

“I know. You want Johnny investigated more fully, that’s what I’m gonna do.” Keeping his voice even and hoping like hell his expression was as blank as he intended, Jason continued, “I told you I’m not taking chances with the people who are important to us. I’ve always…made the security decisions. Taken the lead when looking into a threat.”

Sonny stared at him for another long moment before nodding. “Fine. Just so long as you get it.” He dropped back into his seat and something on his desk caught his notice. He stared at it for a moment before raising his eyes. And…there he was again. His partner. His friend.

“I-I’m sorry.” Roughly, Sonny continued. “I just…I don’t want to take any chances.”

That was true, but he and Jason both knew that while the last few weeks had been stable, Sonny’s temper always simmered under the surface. Jason was going to have to tread even more lightly to keep it from being triggered. Too much was at stake.

Old Bridge

As soon as the bike drew to a stop on the bridge, Jason switched off the engine, hit the kickstand, climbed off and stood looking over the side, his hands clenched in fists on the stone ledge.

Elizabeth slowly drew off her helmet and shook out her hair. He’d been pensive since he’d picked her up almost an hour ago, and had taken the cliff road faster than she could remember.

She drew her leg over the side of the bike and joined him. “Can you talk about it?” she asked.

He exhaled slowly and turned to face her, resting a hip against the stone. “Not really,” he admitted. “I’m sorry—I should have canceled but—”

“It’s fine.” She lifted one shoulder in a casual shrug. “I was already free since Steven came over to have dinner and offered to watch Cam. Get some guy time in, he told me.” Looking down at the helmet she still held in her hands. “I guess it’s about Sonny.”

Jason dipped his head, and for a moment, she wish she hadn’t pushed. But he shook his head slightly. “He’s been good for a while. In control. I almost thought…”

“You had your friend back,” Elizabeth finished softly when he trailed off. “I’m so sorry, Jason.”

“It’s getting worse.” He scrubbed a hand over his face. “The slide doesn’t usually last this long—he’s holding back the crash, but now he’s switching back and forth. One second, he’s there and the next…it’s like we’re not having the same conversation.”

“I know what it’s like to watch someone change in front of you like that,” Elizabeth said. “I mean, it’s not…really the same, except I suppose it was kind of a mental illness.” When Jason just tilted his head towards her in question, she clarified. “When Lucky was brainwashed. Remember? I told you back then that we’d have these conversations where it felt like we were connecting like we used to, but then he’d just go blank and turn into this other person. This stranger who kept telling me to be with Nikolas. It was…not scary, but just…” She shrugged. “Unnerving.”

“Yeah, I guess that’s the word for it.” Jason was quiet for a moment, the rushing water of the creek running towards the lake the only sound. “I used to be able to keep him steady, to bring him back, but I can’t this time. Nothing I do is making it better, only worse.”

Elizabeth drew her bottom lip between her teeth. “Because you’re part of the reason it’s happening,” she said quietly. She set the helmet on the ledge and stepped towards him. “Jason—”

“I didn’t start this slide,” Jason said, cutting her off. “That was Carly’s shooting and all that crap with Alcazar last year. But…I aggravated it. With…faking the paternity results. And then custody—”

“You didn’t ask for custody of Evie,” Elizabeth reminded him. “If on the day she was born and Sam died, if Sonny had asked you to sign over guardianship, you would have done it.”

“Yeah,” he admitted. “I would…I would have hated it. I would have been breaking my promise, but he…didn’t know what Sam did. He never would have agreed willingly. But…things with Carly and the boys were up in the air and he wanted to keep his family together.”

“But he sees keeping her as a betrayal.” She twisted her fingers together to prevent herself from reaching out toward him. “Jason—”

“It’s nothing new,” he said, interrupting her again. “I wanted to ask you about Milo.”

Elizabeth blinked at the swift change in subject to her part-time guard. “Sure, what about him?”

“I…know he’s only around some of the time. He’s not taking you places or…following you directly.” Jason faced her more fully, and she could read the exhaustion, the misery and the nerves in his eyes. “But I…want him to be more…full-time. For a while. I…assigned another guard to sit outside your house at night, but in his car so Audrey or your neighbors won’t see—”

Security was part of being in Jason’s life and she knew he had enough on his plate. “Whatever you think is good,” she said. “I know you wouldn’t ask if you didn’t think it was necessary. Just let me know what to expect and I’ll do it.”

Jason closed his mouth, the explanations and justifications stopping mid-stream. “Thank you,” he said. “I appreciate it.”

“In return,” Elizabeth said, holding up one finger. “I’d like you to bring Evie—and yourself—to Cameron’s birthday party next week.”

Jason grimaced slightly, which she didn’t take personally as she knew how he loathed gatherings of any kind. “Elizabeth—”

“Hear me out.” She held up a hand. “It’s not a big gathering. We’re going to be here in the park. Emily and Nikolas, my grandmother and my brother, Bobbie, Lucas, Felicia and her girls. I invited Alexis and Kristina, but you know…her husband is staying home.”

He muttered something under his breath, but she couldn’t quite catch it. “Anyway, Jason, it’s important to me that Cameron’s first birthday be filled with the people who are important to us.” This time, she did reach forward and grasped his hand. “You are important to me. I want you to be important to Cameron, too.”

Jason looked down at their hands before raising his eyes to meet hers. There was something in them she could not quite describe. “I want that, too,” he said, his voice dropping slightly. “I-I’ll be there.”

“Great.” Elizabeth squeezed his hands and smiled. “I’m really glad we did this. Tonight, I mean.” Her cheeks heating, she glanced away. “Sometimes I feel like we run into each other accidentally, but…I want to make the effort…to see you more.” Her heart in her throat, she risked a look at him.

Jason looked slightly surprised, but not horrified. He cleared his throat. “That’s…okay.” He was quiet for a moment. “Thank you for listening tonight.”

“Anytime.”

November 10, 2014

So someone asked if I would adopt out a story from the Graveyard section since they are, for the most part, unfinished and abandoned. I replied to the comment, but in case the author doesn’t see it or someone else is curious, the answer is maybe. It would depend on the story. Several of the stories have already been rewritten or are in the process and some are sequels to previously completed stories. Those that are left are either abandoned for good or under consideration for being revised or rewritten.

For example, Silent Reverie is probably a good candidate for at least portions of the concept to find its way into a new story. I’m toying with wrapping pieces of it up into Mad World, which is still being outlined, but Bring Me to Life is as good as dead to me, haha.

So if you’re interested in a story from the Graveyard, just drop me a note or comment on the page to ask for sure. Any story that would be adopted, I’d have to ask you to use the concept rather than my own writing with credit to me for the idea.

Silent Reverie is updated through Chapter Three, which constitutes what I had written for it.

Poisonous Dreams #1 has the Prologue and Chapter One posted. I had competely forgotten the existence of this story as well as a song used in the first chapter, “Fiction” by Nik Kershaw which is fantastic 😛

Tomorrow, I’ll continue with PD and probably start one onf the versions of Burn in Heaven, if not both of them.  I actually forgot to list one of the stories that I’m rewriting, Inside Your Fear, which will I’ll get to it eventually.

This entry is part 2 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Poisonous Dreams #1

Carly sighed and rubbed her abdomen in slow circles. Being six months pregnant was uncomfortable in any circumstances, but adding to the stress she’d been under planning this farce of a wedding and all she wanted to do was sleep for the next month.

“I don’t see why we had to have a reception,” she complained, pushing her broccoli around her plate. “Everyone knows this is fake.”

Sonny sighed and stared across the room at the head table where Jason and Elizabeth were seated. Emily and Luke were on one side, Michael and Lulu on the other. Elizabeth was talking with Emily, but she looked positively miserable. And Jason seemed to be drinking more than usual.

“We had to invite the families, Carly,” Sonny reminded her. “As a sign of respect.”

“But they know it’s fake, too,” Carly pointed out. “Just face it, Sonny. You wanted this wedding. You wanted this reception. Hell, Jason and Elizabeth are the ones getting married and they haven’t even looked at each other the entire day.”

“Carly, I just want Elizabeth to be safe,” Sonny said quietly.

“Is it Elizabeth you want safe or her baby?” Carly asked pointedly.

Lucky twirled Summer again and brought her close. “Thanks for inviting me,” she said, smiling.

Lucky shrugged. “No problem. I needed some allies here.”

“She’s a beautiful bride,” Summer said, eying Elizabeth. “I feel so bad for her. Marrying someone just to keep your baby safe.”

“As much as I hate it, she’s doing the right thing,” Lucky admitted. “Being Jason’s wife will keep her safer than being his ex-girlfriend. I just hate this. I hate that Ric Lansing put the sparkle back in her eyes and then stole it right back. It makes me so angry.”

“They’ll find him,” Summer said, softly. “They’ll find him and then this will all be over. Elizabeth will get this marriage annulled and she’ll have her baby and things will be okay again.”

“You knowyou’re too optimistic to live in this town,” Lucky murmured.

“Possibly,” Summer allowed. “Nowgo ask the beautiful bride to dance while I take the little ring bearer out for a spin, okay? If we’re all going to pretend we’re at a wedding reception, we might as well make it look good.”

—-

If you wrote a book with a page for
Each memory
And put it in hardback for people to buy
The critics would laugh, yeah they’d call
It ridiculous
And sit around waiting for Porky to fly

Emily took Elizabeth’s vacated seat and eyed her brother and the three empty beer bottles. “Don’t you think you should slow down?” she asked softly.

Jason shrugged. “Why?”

Emily sighed and directed her eyes to the dance floor where Lucky was twirling Elizabeth around. She had a smile on her face but anyone could see she was pretending. “You two are making this more difficult than it has to be, you know that right?”

“Emily, don’t” Jason shook his head. “Don’t start.”

“You know I don’t like this anymore than the rest of you,” Emily said quietly. “Courtney is my friend, too. And I didn’t want to see her hurt. But Elizabeth is like my sister and watching the two of you make each other miserable is so painful.”

“It’s not easy for me either, Emily,” Jason replied, irritated. He lifted the beer bottle to his lips again and was startled when Emily took it from him. “Em”

“You two used to have so much fun together,” Emily said fervently. “It used to be that the only time she used to be alive and laugh and smile was when she was with you. And youshe used to make you just as happy. And the two of you were only friends at that point. Why is it so hard now?”

The truth is stranger than fiction
And I must believe what I see
But the truth is stranger than fiction to me

“Because we stopped being only friends,” Jason answered quietly. “We became more and I don’t think either one us are prepared to go back.”

“She’s trusting you to protect her,” Emily said quietly. “To protect her and protect her child. She trusts you Jason. I don’t think she ever stopped.”

“She trusts my ability to do my job,” Jason replied, bitterly. He took the bottle from his sister grasp and finished it with one long swallow. “And that’s where it ends.”

“You” Emily shook her head and studied her brother in surprise. “You still love her, don’t you?”

“Don’t Emily” Jason signaled to the waiter for another beer.

“You think that she doesn’t feel the same way?” Emily asked.

“Emily, stop it,” Jason replied. He flicked the top off and took a long swallow. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

Emily sighed and moved back to her seat next to Luke. “How’s Morgan? Drunk as a skunk?” Luke asked, sipping his wine and making a nasty face. “I hate wine.”

“He’s on his way,” Emily reported sadly. “I don’t think either one of them realizes what’s going on.”

If they made a film of the book of the memory
With Bobby DeNiro and Demi De Moore
You’d sit in your seat with your popcorn
And chocolate
And wonder aloud at the point of it all

“What, that they’re still in love with one another?” Luke asked. He fished in his suit jacket for a flask. He twisted the top off and offered it to the brunette first. She shook her head.

“How do you know that?” Emily asked, intrigued.

Luke swallowed the liquor and returned the flask to its hiding place. “Hell, anyone who knows them knows it. Elizabeth is independent and she knows that she could come to me for protection. I’d get her out of town and no one would ever find her. And Morgan over there could probably think of a dozen ways to protect her and keep her in town without getting hitched. But neither of them went that route. They chose to take Sonny’s suggestion and get married. Why do that if there aren’t some feelings there?”

Emily smiled for the first time that day and leaned over to kiss Luke on the cheek fondly. “Dance with me, Luke. You just made my day.”

The truth is stranger than fiction
And I must believe what I see
But the truth is stranger than fiction to me

“Smile, gorgeous,” Lucky prompted, dipping the bride slightly. The movement caused a slight giggle from her. “This is your day and just because your husband doesn’t understand the concept of a smile, it doesn’t mean you can’t.”

Elizabeth sighed and peered up at Lucky through her lashes. “Husband. It sounds so strange when you say that.”

Lucky grimaced. “It does, doesn’t it?”

She rested her chin on his shoulder as they swayed to the music. “I can’t believe this is happening to me,” she murmured.

“Elizabeth, it’sit’s only temporary,” Lucky promised her. “It probably won’t take that long for Sonny and Jason to find Ric. Maybe a month at the most. The ink will be barely be dry on the wedding certificate before you file for the annulment. Hell, you won’t even have time to change your name.”

“I already filed those papers last week,” Elizabeth replied, mournfully. “As of the second I married, I am Elizabeth Imogene Morgan.” She pulled away a little. “Sonny thought it’d be a good idea for me to have the name as extra protection.” She sighed. “Normally, you know I’d spit in both their faces and tell them to go hell”

“I know. But this is best for the baby,” Lucky finished for her.

“The baby comes first.” Elizabeth closed her eyes. “Lucky, you have to promise me something.”

“Anything,” Lucky replied.

“If this lasts longer than we think” Elizabeth sighed. “If I get further into my pregnancy and it looks like Jasonmightbe getting attached to the idea of having a childtell me. I can’t do that to him.”

Lucky frowned and peered at her closely. “You still love him, don’t you?”

If it can happen it will happen it has
Happened already
If you don’t understand, no reason and
No rhyme
Don’t ask why

“Lucky” Elizabeth sighed. “I guess I never stopped. Promise me though.” She gripped his shoulder tightly. “Don’t let me let him get attached. It nearly killed him losing Michael. I won’t do it again.”

“I promise,” Lucky replied. He kissed her forehead. “Don’t worry. Whenever you need me, you know you can call me.”

“Now that sounds like some sappy love song from the eighties,” Elizabeth teased.

“There’s that beautiful smile,” Lucky grinned. He twirled her dramatically before enveloping her in a tight hug. “I love you, Elizabeth. You’re one of my very best friends.”

“I love you, too, Lucky,” Elizabeth replied. She kissed him on the cheek. “Thank you for coming today.”

“Babe, there’s no where else I’d rather be,” Lucky replied.

If someone had told you you’d be where
You are today
You’d of thought they were crazy and laughed
In their face
And I never thought I would long for the
Memory
I never thought I would get to this place

Luke stopped at Sonny’s table with Emily. “Corinthos, we got some things to work out,” he told the mobster.”

“Luke, does this have to happen today?” Emily asked softly.

“Why not?” Carly asked, irritated. “It’s like we were just at a real wedding or like we’re at a real wedding reception,” she sniped.

“Regardless, Carly,” Emily snapped. “We should at least pretend like we aren’t having this forced down our throats.”

“I believe that was a dig at me, huh?” Sonny said. “Emily, this was the best way”

“I dont feel like hearing it,” Emily replied. She looked at Luke. “Have your conversation. I’m going to go talk Zander into dancing.”

When Emily was gone, Luke pulled out a chair and sat. “Corinthos, we’ve had our bad times, but I’m trusting with a girl I love like a daughter. Give me your word that you’re protecting herand not just your niece or nephew over there.”

“Elizabeth is important to me,” Sonny told Luke seriously. He ignored Carly snort. “I know that I don’t always show it, but she’s been there for me when it counts and I’m going to do the same for her.”

“All right.” Luke nodded. “I know your sister agreed to this, but how does she really feel?”

“She hates it,” Carly jumped in. “She despises Elizabeth and thinks the marriage was really her idea.”

“I never did like Goldilocks,” Luke replied in irritation. “She’s about seven different kinds of stupid, ain’t she?”

“Watch it, Luke,” Sonny warned, ignoring the smirk on his wife’s face. “Courtney knows that this is the best idea. But to spare her feelings, we sent her to the island last week for the duration of the marriage. It’s the best thing. Besides, one of the terms of the deal with the families is that this marriage appear to be real. They don’t want Jason seeing anyone on the side.”

“If Morgan did that, he wouldn’t have to worry about your enemies,” Luke snarled. “I’d take him out myself. He better not be messing around on the side while he’s married to my Lizzie.”

“Jason’s not like that,” Carly jumped in and defended. “He has honor.”

“Right, so when he was in another fake marriage to Brenda and was seeing Courtney behind her back? Or when he was dating Liz last fall and was messing with Courtney?” Luke accused.

“Where the hell did you get that idea?” Sonny demanded.

Carly’s eyes flicked to the dance floor where Elizabeth and Lucky were dancing. “Oh my Godshe can’t possibly think Jason.”

“What’s going on?” Sonny asked her. “What?”

“Nothing, Sonny,” Carly murmured. “I’ll take care of it.” She looked at Luke. “Look, for reasons beyond my understanding, Jason has always cared about Elizabeth. He has never messed around behind her back and you have our word that he won’t during this marriage, okay?”

“Fine,” Luke replied. He stood. “I want to be kept apprised of the situation, is that understood?”

“We’ll see,” Sonny replied.

But
The truth is stranger than fiction
And I must believe what I see
But the truth is stranger than fiction to me
The truth is stranger than fiction to me

When the song drew to a close, Lucky escorted Elizabeth back to the head table and took Lulu for a spin on the dance floor.

Jason and Elizabeth sat in silence for a few moments. She picked at her food, he drank his fifth beer of the night.

“Elizabeth,” Jason finally said. “We can’t.we can’t act like this.”

She raised her dull eyes to him. “What?”

“We’re going to have to get alongfor the next few months at least,” Jason told her. “I don’t want it be in silence and feel like this.”

“I don’t either,” Elizabeth admitted softly. “But I don’t know what to say to you either.” She stared at her glass of ginger ale. “I don’t like feeling that way.”

He stood suddenly and held out his hand. “Come on.”

Elizabeth frowned. “What?”

“Dance with me,” Jason said. Her frown only deepened, registering the empty beer bottles scattered around his plate. He’d been drinking the entire reception and she suddenly wondered if he’d been drinking beforehand.

But stillshe wanted things to change. She placed her hand in his and he pulled her to her feet.

Emily saw her brother leading Elizabeth to the dance floor and tapped Zander’s shoulder, excitedly. “Look!”

“I guess Jason took his head out of his ass, huh?” Zander smirked. Emily rolled her eyes and drug him over to the DJ that she’d forced Sonny to hire. She whispered something to him.

The song playing abruptly ended and the DJ came over the speakers. “Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. The maid of honor has informed me that the lovely bride and her groom are ready for their dance. She’s requested something special just for her brother and best friend.”

Elizabeth tensed and looked at Emily across the dance floor. Emily gave her an encouraging smile.

Jason hadn’t moved since the DJ’s words either. He shifted and shoved his hands in his pockets. “I”

“We’d better dance,” Elizabeth said softly. “You wouldn’t want the families thinking that you hate me, would you?”

“No,” Jason replied. He took his hands out his pockets and slipped them around her still petite waist.

If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

Elizabeth wrapped her arms around his neck and they moved stiffly for a few minutes. Eventually and more than likely unconsciously, they fell into a rhythm and danced in silence.

She closed her eyes and rested her head against his chest and he pulled her more tightly against him. If she concentrated hard enough, she could almost imagine this was a night in December nearly four years ago and that they were still friends.

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

Emily sighed over Zander’s shoulders at the newlyweds. “They almost look happy, don’t they?”

Zander spun her so he could have a view of the couple. “Yeah,” he answered, frowning. “They do.”

“Is it wrong for me to wish this all has a happy ending?” Emily asked quietly. “All I want is for them both to be happy. What if that means they’re together and raising the baby together?”

“It’s not wrong to want them to be happy,” Zander said. “And if it turns out that this marriage works, then who does it really hurt?”

“Courtney,” Emily answered. “What about her?”

Zander shrugged. “She’s on the island. Why think about her at all?”

“What’s that supposed to mean? Out of sight, out of mind?” Emily asked, indignantly.

“Where Courtney’s concerned?” Zander shrugged. “Pretty much. She was married to AJ for months and months. Gave up everything to be with him and he gave up everything to be with her. He goes out of town, and she hooks up with Jason or at least starts to develop feelings for him. The next thing you know, AJ’s moved out, Courtney and Jason are together. I wouldn’t put any faith in her ability to develop long lasting love.”

Emily sighed. “Maybe you’re right.”

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Summer smiled. “Look at them. They almost look like they’re in love,” she told Nikolas.

Nikolas looked over her shoulder and scowled. “Not likely. Morgan can’t feel anything.”

“Don’t be stupid,” Summer replied. She shifted her position in his arms and rolled her eyes. “Look at her face. Look at how relaxed she is in his arms. Look how tightly he’s holding her. How can you tell me there’s nothing there?”

Nikolas eyed them for a few moments. “You might have a point,” he admitted grudgingly.

“You’re stubborn, you know that?” Summer said. “Stubborn as a jackass.”

“Cute,” Nikolas replied. “You know, I can see what Lucky sees in you. Such a charmer.”

“I only charm real men,” Summer teased.

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

“That should disturb me,” Sonny murmured. “Shouldn’t it?”

Carly glared at him. “You know what disturbs me? You haven’t ask me to dance. That disturbs me. What, am I too fat to dance with? Do you not think I’m beautiful anymore? You know, you made me this way”

“Carly, would you like to dance?” Sonny asked, smiling at his wife.

“Fine,” Carly huffed.

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

“You know those things will kill you don’t you?” Lucky told his father, sitting next to him in Emily’s empty seat.

Luke shrugged and puffed on his cigar. “Yeah, well I’ve cheated death a few times. Might as well keeping on trying.”

“So, I saw the necklace,” Lucky said. “What’s in the locket?”

Luke sighed and studied Elizabeth and Jason. “Laura bought that locket while she was in Paris. Said something about it just spoke to her. She bought it for Elizabeth and planned to give it to her at the wedding.”

“Dad, what’s in the locket?” Lucky asked again, hoping to keep his father from thinking about his mother.

“I don’t know. She never told me,” Luke replied shrugging.

Lucky rolled his eyes. “You always have to make it difficult, don’t you?”

“I know you’re worried, Cowboy,” Luke said. “But she’s a strong girl and he’s not that big of an idiot. It’ll all work out in the end.”

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Carly tapped Elizabeth on the shoulder, rousing them both from their dance. Elizabeth blinked and lifted her head from Jason’s chest. She seemed a little disoriented. “Carly?”

“Let’s switch partners,” she suggested. “I want to dance with my best friend.”

Jason reluctantly loosened his grip on Elizabeth’s waist and let her go. Carly stepped in and twirled Jason away.

Elizabeth bit her lip and looked at Sonny. He smiled and she moved into his arms for the rest of the dance.

“I know this is hard Elizabeth, but”

“Sonny, just do me a favor and spare me the apology and pep talk,” Elizabeth replied stiffly. “You got what you want. We’re married.”

“Elizabeth”

“Don’t make this more difficult than it already is.”

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

“Looks like I came along just at the right time,” Carly mused.

“What do you mean?” Jason asked, frowning. Carly rolled her eyes, watching as Jason’s gaze drifted to where Elizabeth and Sonny were dancing.

“Don’t do this to yourself, Jason,” Carly advised. “Don’t let her suck you back in. It would be so easy to do it, I know. But you can’t do it.”

“Carly”

“Trust me on this,” she said. “Be her friend, take care of her. That’s fine. She needs it now, even I can see it. But don’t fall back in love with her.”

“I can take care of myself,” Jason replied. He kissed Carly on the cheek. “But thank you anyway.”

They were silent the rest of the song, her words hanging between them. He knew she was only looking for him and doing what she thought was right. And Jason could even agree with her. To fall back in love with Elizabeth would be a mistake.

It would have been good sound adviceif he’d fallen out of love with her in the first place.

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Songs: Fiction by Nik Kershaw
If You’re Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield

This entry is part 1 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Poisonous Dreams #1

July 21, 2003

Carly Corinthos sighed and shifted in her position in the pew. Her husband patted her knee. “Relax,” Sonny murmured in her ear. “The ceremony will be starting soon.”

“Relax,” Carly muttered. “Relax, he tells me. Our best friend is getting married, I look like a house and your sister is miserable. I’m supposed to relax under these conditions?”

“Carly, you know this is the best way to get this done,” Sonny murmured. “Even Courtney agreed.”

“I know it was the best way but that doesn’t mean I have to like it,” Carly grumbled.

Across the church, on the bride’s side, Lucky Spencer was fidgeting. “This stupid,” he told his brother. “This is the dumbest thing she’s ever done.”

“Lucky, she’s getting married,” Nikolas Cassadine sighed. “She’s not committing murder.”

“She’s practically committing suicide,” Lucky hissed. “You know this is just going to kill her in the end.”

“He’s not going to let anything happen to her,” Nikolas replied, rubbing his temple. “He gave us his word.”

“I don’t mean physically,” Lucky shot back. “I mean emotionally, mentally–being in a marriage with someone who doesn’t love you, she deserves better.”

“You know I agree, but we’ve been over this Lucky. She’s doing this to protect her family. If there was another way to do this, she’d do it.”

“I know. But that doesn’t mean I’ve got to be happy about it,” Lucky replied. He twisted in his seat. “When is this going to start?”

In the bridal room, the young brunette stared forlornly into the wall-length mirror. She smoothed her hands over her hips, ironing out a small wrinkle in the silk strapless wedding gown she wore. She tugged at the bodice, trying to pull it higher.

“You look beautiful darlin’.”

Luke Spencer’s voice rang out behind her, causing the first hint of a smile to cross her face.

He came up behind her, looking at her reflection over her shoulder. “Just a vision, sweetheart. You’ve never looked more beautiful.” He tucked a chocolate curl that had fallen free from her French twist behind her ear.

“Tell me again, Luke,” she said softly. “Tell me that I’m doing the right thing.”

“You are,” Luke replied. “It’s not the choice I wanted you to take, but it’s the safest bet.” He smiled then. “I have something for you.”

“Luke…” she couldn’t help but smile. “You didn’t have to–”

“Oh, I didn’t buy this,” Luke told her, pulling the long black velvet case from his pocket. “This is something Laura bought last summer. It was going to be her gift to you on your birthday, but–well, things were crazy.”

She turned and took it from him, flipping the lid. Inside was a long delicate silver necklace with a simple silver heart-shaped locket hanging from it. Her eyes misted over as she thought of the beautiful blonde woman who’d been like her own mother. “She bought this for me?”

“Laura adored you,” Luke told her, taking the box from her and unhooking the chain from it. He set the box aside and draped the necklace around her neck, fastening it. “She always thought of you as a daughter.”

She touched the locket with trembling fingers. “I don’t think I can do this, Luke,” she whispered. “I don’t think I can marry him and do this.”

“You can, darlin’,” Luke told her firmly. “Because you know it’s the best chance you have for you and your child to be safe without leaving town.”

Tears stung her sapphire eyes. “How can I exist in a marriage knowing every day that my husband doesn’t love me?”

“He loves you,” Luke replied, confidently. “He wouldn’t be doing this if he didn’t.”

“If only it were so easy,” she sighed. “But you know it’s not.”

“I know.” Luke smoothed his hands over her shoulders. “But look at it this way. Lulu is dying to walk down that aisle and throw rose petals. Do you want to deprive her of that opportunity?”

She blinked back the tears, leaving them hanging in her thick dark eyelashes. “No,” she whispered. “No, I don’t.” She turned back to the mirror. “Luke, when this baby is born.if it’s a girl, I’m naming her Laura Audrey. I thought you should know.”

A lump formed in Luke’s throat as he thought of his angel. “She’d be honored, darlin’, just honored.”

“And if it’s a boy, Lucas.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Lucas Steven. Because you and Laura were the best parents a girl could ask for.”

“All right, darlin’, that’s enough sweet stuff,” Luke said. “You know you’ve always got me and Lucky. And the Cassadine brat if you need us.”

“I know.” She touched the locket once more before reaching for her bouquet of lilies. “I suppose we should get this over with, huh?”

“Let’s get this show on the road then.” Luke offered his arm and she took it.

Fifteen minutes later, Elizabeth Webber and Jason Morgan were married. There was little fanfare. Emily Quartermaine was the maid of honor, Michael Corinthos the ring bearer with Lesley Lu Spencer rounding out the wedding party as the flower girl. The ceremony was short and simple, each party reciting their vows as if reading out of a book.

Not once during the ceremony did they meet the other’s eyes. When the priest instructed the groom to kiss his bride, Jason bent quickly and brushed a kiss at the corner of her mouth, barely letting his skin touch hers.

Everyone in attendance knew the reasons the former friends were suddenly tying the knot. It nothing to do with love and everything to do with Elizabeth having been impregnated by Ric Lansing, who had been revealed as Faith Roscoe’s silent partner and had dropped out of sight. But not before issuing veiled threats to his former girlfriend and the baby she was carrying, of course.

Sonny Corinthos, fresh from a mental breakdown, had gained a new lease on life and committed himself to protecting Elizabeth at all costs. Ric Lansing had been revealed as his half-brother, therefore making Elizabeth’s child his potential niece or nephew.

He’d moved Elizabeth into the penthouse, but before long, she’d been grabbed on her way home from work. The men had released her almost immediately, telling Sonny that it was a warning that they could get the petite waitress at any time.

Sonny had enlisted Jason’s help and every plan they’d concocted had come up short. Short of one of them being on her at every time–there was nothing to do to that would ensure Elizabeth’s complete safety.

Surprisingly, it’d been Carly who’d come up with the current plan of action. She’d suggested it only in jest, but the more Sonny considered it, the more a marriage between Jason and Elizabeth made sense. Elizabeth, as his wife, would have the loyalty of the entire organization. She’d be entitled to the same benefits and protection as Carly. If there were any rumors of someone hired to do something, it’d make it back to Jason before anything took place. The networked worked like that, ironically. The same men that Sonny and Jason fought with day after day would be the same to protect them in the end. They didn’t like Ric Lansing any more than Sonny or Jason. Thought going through women like he had was weak. Elizabeth would be as safe as they could make her.

It’d taken more convincing on Courtney’s part than Elizabeth’s surprisingly. Elizabeth would have refused all help normally, but her pregnancy had changed her. Had made her aware that her pride meant next to nothing if her child did not live. She was now attached to this child, loved it more than anything.

Eventually, all parties had agreed and the date was set.

And now, they were married. For better or worse, they had married and were going to live together until Ric Lansing had been smoked out and taken care of.

After that, Elizabeth had told herself, the marriage would be annulled. She’d make sure Jason would not get attached to her child should it take that long, but she’d be part of Sonny’s life since this child was his relative as well.

All in all, it seemed simple and expedient. In theory.

In reality, nothing ever goes to plan and things were about to get complicated.

This entry is part 4 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Silent Reverie

July 18, 2004

 General Hospital: Cameron’s Room

Later that night as some medicine eased Cameron’s pain long enough to let him sleep, Jason slipped out of the room and stood in the hallway, his eyes closed.

He wanted to tell his grandmother. He’d realized that earlier as he stood holding his son for the first time. He’d wanted to go straight to her and tell her that she had another great-grandchild. That he was finally a father for a real, a father for good.

She would have been so happy.

Soft footsteps sounded behind him and he turned to see Monica approaching him. “They called me in Admitting,” she told him. “Someone saw you checking in—are you all right?” she asked hesitantly.

“I wasn’t checking in,” Jason replied quietly. His voice was a little shaky. “I—someone’s here.”

Monica’s eyes sharpened. “Sam? Is she all right?”

He shook his head. “It’s not Sam.” He looked at her, her concern and anxiety vivid in her eyes. She thought he would turn her away.

And suddenly, he wanted to tell her.

“Elizabeth’s baby—Cameron.” Jason took a deep breath. “He’s my son, Monica.”

“Elizabeth’s…” Monica blinked and looked away. “He’s your son,” she repeated. “I can’t—why didn’t you tell anyone?”

“Because I didn’t know,” Jason admitted. “And neither did Elizabeth,” he told her quickly. He had seen the light in her eyes change to that fierce protectiveness. “She thought Zander was his father but the blood types—they don’t match. And mine do.”

Monica exhaled slowly. “I wouldn’t expect Elizabeth to keep that kind of truth from you. She’s…she’s not like that.” Her eyes were soft. “I’ve seen him, he’s a beautiful little boy.”

Jason nodded, the tightness in his chest expanding. “He has roseola. That’s…that’s why we’re here.” He looked away. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there today. I know—I know I got your hopes up the other day when I came by the house but…I just…I tried to go.”

“It’s all right. Today was more for us than it was for Lila.” Monica touched his arm. “It was enough that you came by. That you were with us at all.”

“I was just thinking about her. I wish I could tell her about Cameron,” Jason told Monica. “She would have loved him.”

“She would have been thrilled for you,” she said. “She knew how devastating it was for you to lose Michael.”

Jason nodded. “How—how is everyone?” he asked.

Monica sighed heavily. “In a daze. Tracy—despite her performance that first day, she’s still not speaking. And Edward—” she closed her eyes and shook her head. “You wouldn’t believe how much you miss his voice until it’s gone. He’s so lost, Jason. She was his world, his entire reason for breathing.”

Monica bit her lip and looked away. “Emily’s all right, I suppose. She’s had a lot to deal with in the last year but she was different when she came home earlier. Seemed distracted. Was she here at the hospital? Does she know?”

“She suspects. We haven’t told anyone,” Jason replied. “You were the first person I told.”

He saw just how much that meant to her, in the way the tears sprang to her eyes. “It’s starting to sink in for everyone,” Monica continued, her voice shaky. “I’ve been trying to convince AJ to stay a few more days but he’s going back to wherever he’s been staying. Maybe it’s better that way, I don’t even know. Justus has been spending his time with Edward, trying to draw him out. No one’s been able to even track down Skye to even tell her and Alan…” she bit down harder. “We haven’t fought since that first day, Jason. No one’s even raised their voice.”

And even Jason saw the problem in that. “No?”

“I never thought I’d miss it.” Her tears slid silently down her face. “I thought…I thought that if I ever had a day of peace and quiet, it would be bliss but after over twenty years of chaos…you get used to it.”

“I’m sorry.” Jason put a hand on her shoulder and awkwardly drew her into a hug. “We all loved her.”

“You’ll still come by the house?” Monica asked hopefully. “Even with Lila gone?”

“Yeah,” Jason nodded. “When Cameron gets out of the hospital…I’ll talk to Elizabeth about bringing him to meet the family.” He couldn’t believe that he’d said it and he blinked. The family. They were his family.

Despite how hard he’d tried to pretend that they weren’t.

Monica pulled away and kissed his cheek. “That’s a great idea. I should get back to the house. Would it be all right to tell Edward? I know how you feel about him but I just—I wonder if that kind of news would help.”

Jason sighed and looked away. “The one thing that I always admired in Edward was his love and devotion to Lila. No matter what kind of man he was, she loved him and he worshipped her. You can tell him.”

“Thank you.” She squeezed his hand and walked away. Jason exhaled deeply before reentering the room.

Elizabeth was curled up in a hospital chair, her head propped in her hand, her eyes closed. He didn’t know how she was comfortable sleeping like that but there really wasn’t any other option for her.

He crossed to stand over the crib. He didn’t need a paternity test to tell him this was his son. There was just something inside Jason that told him it was true. He almost couldn’t believe that he deserved this kind of miracle. To have a son. To have a son with Elizabeth.

He had thought about it once. That night at the penthouse—after they’d told each other how they felt—she’d come down the stairs and he’d pulled her into his arms. They’d stood in front of the window and he’d thought…this is what life with Elizabeth would be like. There would be the quiet moments when it was just the two of them.

And thinking about it being just the two of them had Jason wondering what it would be like to have a family with her. He’d never been one for picturing things but he’d tried so hard to imagine having a baby with her. A little girl with her hair or a boy with her smile.

And for a brief moment, he’d let himself see that, to wish for it.

After Elizabeth had left—after he was with Courtney, he had put those images away and he’d kept them away for a long time.

Until he’d heard she was pregnant with Ric’s baby and then again when she’d gotten pregnant with Cameron.

And now, he had that wish. He had a little boy with one of the people he’d always loved. If he could think of the best mother he’d want for his child, Elizabeth would be at the top of the list and he was so grateful to have this miracle.

There was a soft knock at the door and Jason quickly pulled it open and slipped back into the hall before the noise could wake either Elizabeth or Cameron.

Sam stood there, looking tired and worried. “Why didn’t you tell me you were staying the night with her and Cameron?” she asked, a little irritated. “I was sitting at home, worried and Carly kept coming over, ranting about how Elizabeth had trapped you again. What’s wrong with Cameron? Is he all right?”

“He has roseola.” Jason sighed. “He’s fine. But Elizabeth was going to stay the night and I—” He shook his head. “Sam, just go back to the penthouse and sleep. You need your rest and I don’t feel like getting into this right now. I’ll be home in the morning.”

Sam tilted her head to the side and frowned. “I didn’t even know you knew Elizabeth. Why are you staying all night with her and her son? Doesn’t she have another friend to do this?”

He glared at her. “I had a whole life before you came into it, Sam. Elizabeth and I—it’s just none of your business. Go home. I’ll talk to you in the morning.”

“Look, I’m sorry. I know I’m being a bitch and being demanding but I just—” Sam exhaled slowly. “Sonny told me today that he’s telling Carly the truth. That he can’t lie to her anymore and that he wants the baby.”

Jason inhaled sharply and felt like he’d been sucker punched. “No—he—he can’t.”

“I don’t know what to do, Jason—I promised you and Sonny promised you and I can’t take it from you but…” Sam closed her eyes. “Just tell me what to do and I’ll do it. I just want to do the right thing.”

“I can’t—I just can’t do this right now.” Jason shook his head. He was dazed again. He’d gained a child and lost another all in the same day.

“Jason—”

“Go home, Sam. We’ll talk then.”

He cut off another protest and went inside the room. Elizabeth was still curled up in the chair, her breathing deep and even. Cameron was wide-awake now though, silently staring at him.

Without thinking twice, Jason lifted his son into his arms and moved over to the window, mimicking a position he’d held with Michael so many times. “I know you’re not feeling well right now,” he began, his voice quiet and soothing. “And I wish there was something I could to make you feel better.”

Cameron’s tiny hand wrapped itself in Jason’s maroon T-shirt. “Your mother will probably hover around you for the next month or so because that’s just the kind of person Elizabeth is.”

He sighed heavily. “I’m not sorry that you’re my son but I am sorry about all the things you’re going to have to deal with as you get older.”

Cameron stirred at the change in his voice but Jason continued. “There’s my job, which isn’t safe enough for me on good days much less for you and your mother. And there’s Sonny and Carly.” He closed his eyes as he pictured his best friends’ reactions to this news. “And there’s the Quartermaines.”

“They’re good people,” he said after some hesitation. “I didn’t always believe that but I do now and if it’s all right with Elizabeth, you’ll get to meet some of them.”

Cameron yawned and rubbed his nose across Jason’s chest. “Yeah, you’re tired. Maybe you’ll sleep now.”

“He likes to be talked to,” Elizabeth murmured, joining them at the window. “I think it’s just the sound of someone’s voice. He often just…passes out afterwards.” She leaned over and kissed Cameron’s forehead, her hair tickling Jason’s chin. “We should put him in bed.”

“Yeah.” Jason swallowed hard. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”

“It’s okay—you should get some sleep too,” Elizabeth advised. She followed Jason to the crib where he gently laid Cameron back inside, covering him with a white hospital blanket.

“I just wanted to let you know that…I’m really glad he’s your son,” Elizabeth told him quietly. “I didn’t know—” she broke off and twisted her fingers together, looking at her feet.

“Didn’t know what?” Jason asked.

“I used to think about it,” Elizabeth admitted wistfully. “Before—before that night in the penthouse when I left…I used to think about what it would be like.” She took a deep breath. “To—have a family. With you.”

He blinked and opened his mouth to reply but she continued. “But I didn’t know how much I really wanted it…until I realized Cameron was yours.”

General Hospital: Nurse’s Station

“I cannot believe you’re taking this so seriously,” Brooke Lynn hissed as she and Dillon crept out of the stairwell.

Dillon glared at her and yanked his black baseball cap more firmly on his head. “I cannot believe all the noise your jewelry makes.”

“Let’s just get this over with.” Brooke Lynn rounded the corner of the nurse’s station. “You keep a look out,” she told him as she started to go through the stack of charts on the counter.

She found Cameron’s rather quickly but was very interested in seeing Jason Morgan’s chart right after it. She pulled both from the pile and flipped Cameron’s open first.

There were the basic information forms and Brooke Lynn sighed when she saw a Zander Smith listed as his father. She noted that and closed the folder. She set it aside and opened Jason’s.

Her eyebrows nearly shot off her forehead as she realized she was looking the results of a rushed paternity test. There in her hands, was the proof she wasn’t even sure why they were looking for it.

She slid the charts back into the rightful places. “Dillon, let’s go,” she whispered.

They disappeared into the stairwell and Dillon yanked the cap from his head and ran his hands through the unruly strands. “Did you find it?”

“I found it all right. First, Cameron’s file lists Zander Smith as his father—who’s that?” Brooke Lynn asked.

Dillon sighed in relief. “Maxie will be glad to hear that. I don’t know why it’s so important to her but—well, Zander used to be Emily’s husband.” He frowned. “What do you mean, first?”

“Jason Morgan’s chart was underneath Cameron’s and in there—there was a paternity test results which say that Jason is the father. Those are dated today while Cameron’s medical records are dated last month.”

“So—wow. He is the father.” Dillon frowned. “I can’t imagine why Maxie is putting so much pressure on this one thing. She barely even knows Jason or Elizabeth.”

“Well—maybe something else is wrong.” Brooke Lynn shrugged. “Either way, we got what we came here for. We can work out the rest of the details later.”

He put a hand on her arm as she started down the steps. “Look—you don’t really know Maxie and you put yourself on the line for her. That’s really cool, you know?”

“For some reason, this is important to her.” Brooke Lynn sighed. “I just wish it was something she wanted to hear.”

Jones House: Maxie’s Bedroom

Maxie was studying the chipped paint on her toenails when Georgie set down her magazine. “Maxie, I wish I knew what was bothering you.”

“Nothing.” Maxie frowned at the nail polish and wondered if she should reapply tonight or tomorrow.

“Why are Dillon and Brooke Lynn breaking into the hospital’s records to find out the paternity of a little kid we’re not related to, who’s the kid of a woman we’re—once again—not related to and possibly the son of someone else—watch this—we’re not related to?” Georgie asked, planting her hands on her hips. “And you barely know Jason or Elizabeth. Why does any of it mean so much to you?”

“It’s not them,” Maxie said, impatiently. “It’s Mom. It’s the way she gets sucked into and I just—” Maxie looked away. “You’re not old enough to remember Dad. You don’t know what they were like together.”

“Okay—now you’re confusing me. Maxie, you’re my sister and I love you. I’ll do whatever you need me to do but I need to understand what’s going on in your mind. Are you mad that Dad doesn’t pay much attention to us?”

“I’m mad that people don’t keep their promises. That Mom always promises to put us first and never does. That Dad said he’d always love me and that he lied.” Maxie sighed heavily. “It’s not about Elizabeth or her baby but I guess I just—you know Aunt Bobbie’s always going on and on about her. How strong she is, how admirable she is and all that stuff.”

“Uh huh.” Georgie bit her thumbnail. “So?”

“Well, I guess—it’s like, where does it end? What kind of person does it take to actually keep the promises that they make?” Maxie asked. “Aunt Bobbie thinks so highly of Elizabeth and I always thought she was really cool. I mean, you know all the stuff she’s been through. I just—I’ve always looked up to her,” Maxie admitted.

“Like a role model,” Georgie clarified.

“I guess.” Maxie’s cheeks flushed. “I know it’s stupid and you guys must think I’m going nuts but…I’m just tired of people turning out to be who they’re not. Mom—she’s great when she wants to be but being a mother is like something that comes and goes. Mac’s great. He really is. But even he’s more into his job than us. Lucas was away and only really wrote to you. And Kyle—” Maxie sighed, frustrated. “I just want someone to be who I think they are.”

“So if Dillon and Brooke Lynn come back and tell you that Elizabeth’s baby was fathered by Ric Lansing, that’s the answer you’re looking for,” Georgie stated.

“Yes,” Maxie nodded. “He’s her husband.”

“What if they come back and say that Jason’s the father or someone else altogether?” Georgie asked. “Does Elizabeth having a baby with someone else while she was separated from her husband—does that change everything else that she’s been through? Negate it?”

“I guess not.” Maxie frowned. “But—”

“People make mistakes, Maxie. Elizabeth is someone we barely even know and it’s so not cool of us to be poking into her business even if it is kind of fun and a distraction from Dillon’s grandmother. So whatever we find out—we have to keep it to ourselves.”

Maxie nodded. “I know.”

Dillon knocked at their window then and Georgie hurried to open it. He and Brooke Lynn crawled through. “Well that’s the first time I’ve committed a crime and not gotten caught,” he remarked cheerfully.

“So glad I didn’t know that until we were done.” Brooke Lynn sighed. “Well, mission accomplished. Information gained.”

“And?” Maxie prompted.

“Zander Smith is listed as the father on Cameron’s medical records but Brooke Lynn found a paternity test that says Jason is the father,” Dillon stated.

“Zander?” Maxie squeaked. “Wait—a paternity test?”

“Dated today. Big rush was put on it,” Brooke Lynn nodded. “And the kid’s records are from last month so I figure the test is more current. So—he’s the dad. Now what?”

Maxie’s shoulders sank and she sighed. “Nothing. You guys better get home before the Quartermaines notice you’re gone.”

Dillon snorted. “Yeah, whatever. They wouldn’t notice Jason riding through the halls on his bike.”

This entry is part 3 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Silent Reverie

July 17, 2004

General Hospital: Emergency Room

Audrey Hardy stared at the young doctor in stunned silence. “Could you—would you mind repeating that please?”

“Zander Smith had Type O blood, as does your granddaughter.” Chris took a deep breath. “Cameron is Type B. Mrs. Hardy, you do understand what that means, right?”

“Y-Yes,” Audrey murmured. She narrowed her eyes and cast her gaze towards the waiting room where Elizabeth was surrounded by her friends.

And Jason Morgan.

“When they first came in, I didn’t realize she was your granddaughter,” Chris continued following her gaze. “She was clinging to him and I assumed they were married. Mrs. Hardy, he has Type AB. Which is compatible with Elizabeth’s to create Type B.”

“I see exactly what you’re saying,” Audrey told him. “But I’m going to ask you to keep it to yourself. There has to be a reason Elizabeth didn’t tell anyone and I want to honor it, whatever it may be.”

“Of course.” Chris nodded. “But you can tell her we’re keeping Cameron a few days. He does have roseola and we just like monitor high tempers in babies so young.”

“Yes, thank you.”

Across The Room

Elizabeth stood on shaky legs. “I’m fine. Really. I haven’t eaten all day a-and there’s just been a lot happening.” She locked eyes with Jason. “We have to talk. Now.”

She turned on her heel and started to walk away. After a moment, Jason followed her.

Lucky cleared his throat. “Em, do you think—”

“I don’t know what to think,” Emily replied softly.

“This may sound like a really crazy question but it really needs to be asked.” Elizabeth took a deep breath. “Did we ever sleep together?”

His eyes widened and he looked incredulous. “You don’t remember?”

She whimpered. “I think I need to sit down.” Elizabeth took a deep breath. “Refresh my memory.”

“After the chapel,” Jason told her. “You didn’t want to go home. I took you to Jake’s. You…you really don’t remember?”

“Chapel. Jake’s.” Elizabeth hesitated. “Jake’s sounds familiar. We—we played pool right?”

He nodded. “You wanted to be distracted. You were drinking and after a while I joined you. And it sort of happened.” He looked away. “When you didn’t mention it, I thought you wanted to forget it happened so I didn’t mention it either.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “When I woke at Jake’s the next morning, I was dressed. You were dressed. I thought—I thought you had slept in the chair or something. You never—I didn’t remember at all.”

“We didn’t exactly…stop to take them off,” Jason admitted. He shoved his hands in his pockets. “I can’t believe that you didn’t remember.” A thought occurred to him. “I-I was drunk, Elizabeth. I never would have taken advantage of you like that if I wasn’t.”

“Taken advantage?” Elizabeth repeated, baffled. “I’m just as much to blame as you are. When you found out I was pregnant, why didn’t you ever…ask?”

“Because I knew if Cameron were mine that you would have told me,” Jason said simply. “And you didn’t. So I knew—” He stopped. “He’s mine?”

“I—I think so,” Elizabeth whispered tremulously. “He can’t be Zander’s.”

“Now I think I need to sit down.”

Bishop House

Mary stepped back from Lorenzo with some apprehension. “What could you possibly want with me?” she asked.

He chuckled. “Why does everyone assume that I mean them harm?” he asked.

“Maybe it’s the creepy way you show up everywhere,” Mary retorted. “Now tell me what you want and leave.”

“I don’t want you to give up on Nikolas,” Lorenzo told her. “I told you—its nothing sinister. Nikolas being with you suits my purpose more than he does being alone or with Emily Quartermaine.”

“What is your purpose?” Mary asked. “You must have dozens of people eager to work for you. Why do you have to do this to him?”

“Because whether he remembers or not, he is a Cassadine and that is something important.”

“And what does any of that have to do with me? Why should you care who Nikolas loves?”

“Because he’s sulking right now,” Lorenzo explained impatiently. “He’s angry because he doesn’t remember, because he knows he should love Emily and angry because he can’t stop loving you.”

“He doesn’t love me,” Mary said faintly. “He hates me.”

“He can only hate you if you mean something to him,” Lorenzo told her. “I made your debts disappear, Mary. You can do this small favor for me.”

“Chase after a man who doesn’t love me? Doesn’t want me? Can’t stand the sight me? Some small favor.”

“Do it, Mary, and you won’t regret it,” Lorenzo promised her.

“I’ll tell him you’re putting me up to it,” Mary threatened. “He won’t like you messing in his life and I won’t lie to him.”

“Good,” he nodded. “Lying won’t get him back.”

She frowned as he passed her. What an odd man.

Kelly’s

“Step One,” Maxie began. “Make her life a living hell.” They had escaped the viewing and gone to Kelly’s to grab some real food and work on their master plan.

Dillon frowned. “That’s not really very specific there, Maximiliana.”

“Don’t call me that,” Maxie scowled.

Brooke Lynn hooted. “Your name is Maximiliana? And I thought my parents were cruel.”

“It’s actually Maria Maximiliana,” Georgie supplied, helpfully.

“Bite me, Georgiana,” Maxie muttered. “Can we concentrate on ridding the world of Amy Vining?”

“Perhaps we should redefine our focus,” Dillon remarked. “My motive here is to help a friend of Emily’s.”

“I thought it was the whipped cream and feather,” Brooke Lynn teased.

“Details,” Dillon sniffed. “So before we decide Amy’s wrong, we should be sure.”

“She’s wrong,” Maxie said flatly. “Elizabeth and Jason were married to other people.”

“So?” Brooke Lynn asked. “Look, I don’t know anything about these people. Never met them, never heard of them so fill me in on who they are.”

“Elizabeth is Emily’s best friend,” Georgie reported. “And you know how close Dillon and Emily are.”

“Plus, Emily is Jason’s sister,” Dillon said, waving a French fry around to emphasize. “So I’m really just looking out for the family here.”

“And the whipped cream and feather,” Brooke Lynn reminded.

Anyway,” Maxie remarked pointedly, “they’ve been friends for ages. Since they thought her boyfriend died in a fire. It’s all very romantic actually.”

“Except for that whole they were married to other people thing,” Georgie said.

“Yeah, except for that. They were together for a while but then they weren’t. Elizabeth married Ric Lansing—”

“He’s an ass,” Brooke Lynn interjected.

“And Jason married Brenda Barrett first—”

“Dude, I so knew about that,” Brooke Lynn interrupted. “Mom was like—off the wall for days saying she knew there was an underlying sexual tension between them.”

“You wanna do this or not?” Maxie asked.

“Sorry, continue. This is all very fascinating.” Brooke Lynn nodded as to emphasize her point.

“And then they got divorced and he married Courtney last fall—Sonny’s sister.”

“Gorilla woman, check.”

“And then they both got divorced. But Elizabeth was pregnant and everyone figures it happened last fall while she was separated from her husband and Jason hadn’t married Courtney yet so if it is his kid, then technically they didn’t do anything wrong,” Georgie reported.

“He was still engaged and her divorce wasn’t final,” Maxie said stubbornly.

“Well it’s quite clear what has to be done.” Dillon shoved his plate away and folded his arms on the table. “Break into the kid’s hospital records and see what his files say.”

Georgie glared at him. “Oh, it’s so simple. Let’s just break the law,” she mocked. “And what if they say he’s not the father? That doesn’t prove anything.”

“But it would give us a place to start,” Brooke Lynn told her. “And if they say he is, the search is done.”

“It won’t,” Maxie said stubbornly. “Some people believe in their marital vows.”

“Maxie—” Georgie began.

“Marriage shouldn’t be something you do for fun,” Maxie told them. “Or to prove a point or on a whim. It’s a serious commitment and it’s supposed to be for the rest of your life.” She stood abruptly and left.

“She’s a little high strung,” Brooke Lynn observed.

“She’s just upset. Our father called last night and didn’t even ask to speak to us,” Georgie admitted. “It doesn’t bother me so much because I never really knew him but Maxie did.”

“I’m sorry,” Dillon murmured, squeezing her hand.

“Hey, I’ve got Mac, I think I got the better end of the deal,” Georgie said with a weak smile.

General Hospital: Lobby

Sara Evans approached the trio. “Hey—I’m Cam’s baby-sitter,” she began in a shaky voice, “and I was just wondering if he’s okay.”

“Of course, darling.” Audrey smiled at her and touched her arm. “Just a common childhood illness. He’ll be just fine.”

Sara exhaled slowly. “Thank God,” she breathed. “I was so scared. He’s such a good baby, Mrs. Hardy. He doesn’t cry a lot and he doesn’t fuss. He’s sincerely the sweetest baby I’ve ever looked after.”

“All right, sweetheart,” Audrey said soothingly. “Lucky, will you drive Sara home? Take her by the house to get her things. Sara—Elizabeth pays you at the end of the week right?”

“Right,” Sara said faintly. She followed Lucky onto the elevator and then Audrey looked to Emily with some suspicion.

“Did you know?” she demanded.

“Did I know what?” Emily asked innocently.

“That Jason is Cameron’s father,” Audrey said impatiently. “It’s the only explanation. Zander’s blood type doesn’t match and that baby looks too much like Elizabeth not to be her son. So who else with AB or B blood could it be?”

“Well, we shouldn’t automatically assume—” Emily began.

“Emily,” Audrey interrupted. “I’m not judging. I just want to know why she said nothing. Not to me, certainly not to Jason because if he had known, he would have done something.”

“I don’t think she knew either,” Emily admitted. “She fainted when she realized it.”

“How could she not know?” Audrey sighed. “This isn’t like not knowing who took your shoes, Emily. This is the father of her child.”

“Elizabeth would not have kept this from him,” Emily said fervently. “She’s better than that. She knows better than that.”

“Well, then how can you explain what’s going on?”

Across the room, Elizabeth and Jason weren’t having much better luck. Elizabeth was still reeling from Cameron’s illness and now…adding the knowledge of not only having slept with Jason Morgan, she’d carried his child, she wasn’t sure if up was down anymore.

He hadn’t spoken in a few more moments—too busy trying to wrap his mind around a few facts. One, that Elizabeth hadn’t been pretending that it never happened and two, he had a son.

He had a son. A biological child that was his. His blood. No one could ever take him away with the truth about his parentage.

“I—I need to see him,” Jason said finally, his throat thick. “Can…I see him?”

She blinked, trying to clear her head. “Of course you can.” She searched the emergency room for the doctor. “Dr. Ramsey,” she called, spotting him at the nurse’s station.

“Miss Webber?” Chris remarked. He approached them. “Cameron’s fever has come down almost a full degree. We’re still going to keep him for a few days.”

“That’s fine—when is he being moved to a room?” Elizabeth asked.

Chris blinked. “We generally don’t move infants to a room. They stay in the nursery but if you’d like a private room, I’m sure we can arrange something.”

“And I can stay with him?” Elizabeth questioned. “All night?”

“Sure. We generally encourage parents to do so.” Chris rubbed his jaw and slid his eyes towards Jason speculatively. “Will your friend be joining you?”

Elizabeth glanced at Jason, who still looked a little dazed. “Yes,” she decided. She motioned Chris closer. “I need…I need to arrange a paternity test,” she said softly.

Jason seemed to focus at that point. “Why do we need that?” he asked her. “There’s no other explanation.”

“I know but—I need to know for myself. I need—” she took a deep breath. “And I think you need it too.” She glanced at Chris and then pulled Jason a few feet away. “You’ll accept him without proof and that means a lot Jason, but I know you and you won’t feel safe until you have those test results in your hand.” She touched his arm. “And we’ll change all of Cameron’s records, I promise. I’ll never take him from you.”

He nodded and Elizabeth looked to Chris. “You already have Jason’s blood right?”

The doctor nodded. “And we have Cameron’s. I’ll put a rush on it,” he promised, “and arrange to move Cameron to a room. But for now—let me take you to him.”

He led them into the back, behind the curtains to one of the cribs. Cameron was lying on his back, crying so hard his little face was red. “He’s just irritated from the rash,” Chris told them. “He’s crying because he can’t scratch. But we’ve got some ointment to put on him that ought to soothe pain.”

Elizabeth made a small sound of protest and stepped up to the crib. “Can I hold him?” she asked.

Chris nodded. “Yeah, sure—you both can. You want me to tell your grandmother you’re back here?”

“Gram.” Elizabeth closed her eyes and sighed. “Tell her to go on home and take Emily if she can. I’ll talk to them both tomorrow.”

Chris nodded and left them alone. Elizabeth reached out to take Cameron into her arms but stopped and turned back to Jason. “He looks like he could use his father,” she said in a soft voice.

Swallowing hard, Jason moved next to the crib and gingerly lifted the small boy into his arms. Cameron’s crying continued but it seemed to quiet a little as he regarded this new stranger in with some interest.

“Hey, Cameron,” Jason said softly. “You don’t me and I don’t really know you but I hope that will change.” He shifted the baby to one arm and smoothed his hand over Cameron’s soft downy hair. “You have your mother’s nose,” he told his son.

Elizabeth’s breath caught in her throat and she looked at the two of them, wondering how she’d ever missed this. Cameron had Jason’s eyes.

The baby had stopped crying and was staring at Jason with a little bit of bafflement. He waved his tiny arms towards Jason’s face and his father smiled at the action. “If Monica were here, she’d probably say something about how you looked like me as a baby.”

Cameron yawned and turned his small head into his father’s chest as if burrowing in. His eyes were closed and he was completely calm. “I don’t know how to explain it,” Jason began and this time he was talking to her. He still hadn’t taken his eyes off Cameron and that melted her heart.

“Explain what?” Elizabeth asked, taking a step towards the two men in her life.

“I don’t—I don’t need a test to tell me what I already know,” Jason finally raised his eyes to meet her watery ones. “I can just feel it.”

“I can too,” she whispered. The tears spilled over her lashes and she wiped at them absently. “I’ll call Alexis tomorrow.”

“Alexis?” Jason repeated, frowning. “I don’t—”

“I need to know how to go about changing his birth certificate. Zander’s listed there. And Cam’s medical records, he’s my beneficiary in my will and my life insurance. I have to change his name on all those things,” Elizabeth explained. “As well as legally.”

“You’re going to change his name,” Jason said slowly.

“He’s your son, he should have your name,” she replied. “I don’t need a paternity test to tell me that.” She exhaled slowly. “And if you want, we can have her draw up a custody agreement. If that would make you feel better-”

He shook his head and looked back at Cameron. “I don’t need a custody agreement. I trust you.”

“Well, then.” She took a deep breath and kissed Cam’s forehead. “Welcome to the family.”