January 5, 2015

This entry is part 6 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don’t they know know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye
Don’t they know know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye

— Vonda Shepard, The End of the World

———————————-

Carly only drank the one glass of vodka. She’d calmly thanked for Luke for his time (which only served to worry her uncle more) and returned to the penthouse.

She fed Mandy, Drew and Michael and then asked her eldest son to take the twins to a movie. Michael could tell something was up with his mother, so he didn’t question it. He took Mandy and Drew out, leaving Carly by herself in the penthouse.

She sat on the couch and waited.

It was nearly midnight when Sonny finally got home. The kids had long returned from the movies and gone to bed. Having seen his mother’s demeanor when they got back, he ushered his younger brother and sister to bed and decided to leave his mother alone.

Carly was napping on the couch when the sound of the penthouse door creeping on startled her awake. She opened her eyes sleepily. “Sonny?”

He closed the door behind him, cloaking the downstairs in darkness again. “What are you still doing up?”

She sat up and pulled the light weight blanked around her waist. “I was waiting for you. You’re late.”

He sat on the couch next to her and turned so he was facing her. She couldn’t make out his facial features–but from the tense set of his shoulders, Carly knew Alexis had told him.

“Yeah…sorry.”

She bit her lip and leaned forward. “Bad day?” she asked cautiously.

He scratched his temple with his forefinger. “You could say that.”

She took a deep breath. You’re doing good so far. You can do this. “Can you talk about it?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know what to think anymore, Carly. Things…things are just…” He stopped and shook his head. “I feel like I’m walking around in a fog–like it’s a dream, y’know?”

“Sonny…what happened?” Carly asked softly, for once thankful for the darkness that swallowed the penthouse. Darkness that would hide her expression should she be unable to hide her knowledge.

“Alexis stopped by the warehouse today.”

“Why?” Carly demanded, injecting an edge into her voice.

“To tell me her daughter is sick,” Sonny replied quietly. “Christina–the eldest.”

Carly frowned. “What does that have to do with you?” she asked.

“Eddie and Alexis aren’t matches,” Sonny continued, as if she hadn’t spoken. “And Alexis tells me that Brooke and Ned won’t match either.” She felt his eyes on her. “And the reason they won’t match is that Christina is not Ned’s daughter.”

Carly did her best to tense her body. “What?” she asked.

“It appears that Alexis has kept the truth from me for ten years.”

“What truth?” Carly demanded. She straightened her back. “Sonny, you can’t mean–”

“Christina is my daughter.”

Carly couldn’t speak for a minute–didn’t know where else to go in her performance. She could rant and rave, but she didn’t think she could pull it off.

“I’m not sure what to think, Carly. I should be consumed with hatred for Alexis for keeping the secret from me, but do you know what I keep thinking of?”

“What?” Carly asked softly.

“Christina is going to die unless they find a match.”

Carly felt her body relax. Sonny was going to concentrate on Christina’s illness and not on the actual secret. “Well, then I guess we should get the twins tested as soon as possible.”

“Yeah,” Sonny agreed. He watched his wife pushed the blanket off her lap and stand. “Carly?”

She turned to him. “Hmm?” she asked, while in the process of folding the blanket.

“You want to tell me what’s going on?”

She froze–she knew it was a bad thing to do–that if there were a light on, he’d be able to read the guilt on her face. “What do you mean?” she asked, forcing herself to continue folding.

“You’re calm about this. You would be normally screaming at the top of your lungs.”

“True,” Carly agreed. “But you said it yourself. Christina will die if they don’t find a match. Don’t you think that’s more important?”

Sonny stood and wrapped his hands around her wrists. “I know you, Carly. I know you better than anyone else in the world. And I know when you’re up to something. Please–tell me.”

She forced a smile onto her face. “I’m not up to anything, Sonny. You’ve had a long day–”

“Don’t lie to me!” he said, raising his voice and tightening his grip.

“Sonny,” Carly began in a calm voice. “Let me go. I haven’t done anything, and you’re not thinking straight.”

Sonny took a deep breath and let her go. “I’m sorry. I just–” he stopped and rubbed a hand over his face. “I’m going to bed.”

Carly watched him climb the stairs and she sighed.

She’d just dodged a very big bullet.

And she didn’t know how much longer she’d able to do it.

—-

Jason knocked briefly on Elizabeth’s hospital door before pushing it open. He stopped dead in his tracks.

The bed was made.

The room was empty.

He turned around, letting the door shut behind him as he headed to the nurse’s desk.

“Elizabeth Morgan,” he barked to the nurse behind the desk. The brunette looked up at him and blinked at the rude tone.

“Excuse me?” she asked.

“Elizabeth Morgan,” Jason repeated. “She’s not in her room.”

The nurse leisurely typed in Elizabeth’s name into the computer and took her time scrolling through things until she finally said, “Miss Morgan checked out about an hour ago.”

Jason frowned. “What do you mean she checked out?”

The nurse raised a perfectly plucked eyebrow. “She checked out, sir. Dr. Quartermaine had her discharged.” She frowned. “If I can remember right, he was arguing with her here by the elevators. Told her she should wait until her husband got here, but Miss Morgan was adamant. She was leaving.” She looked up at him, as if seeing him for the first time. “Are you her husband?”

“Yes,” Jason snapped, trying to figure out what Elizabeth could have gone. She wasn’t at the house–Lu was watching the kids until he got back and she would have called if Elizabeth had been there.”

“Oh, well, Dr. Quartermaine wanted me to tell you that he needed to see you.” The nurse reached towards the phone. “Do you want me to page him?”

Jason hesitated. Alan never did things like this–unless it was important. Alan had kept his distance, and if he’d left a message for Jason like this, he must have meant business. “Yeah. Tell him I’m waiting over here.” He indicated the seating area.

While Jason waited for Alan, he was making calls. Lu hadn’t heard from her and neither had Emily or Luke and Laura. He was calling Carly and Sonny when Alan finally showed up. He shut the phone off and stood. “Alan.”

“Jason.” Alan stuck his clipboard under his arm. “I tried to keep her here until you got here, but she wouldn’t listen. She, um, she seemed upset. She wanted to check out the earliest she could.” He studied his son carefully. “She’s taking the miscarriage very hard, isn’t she?”

Jason rubbed the back of his neck. “Yeah. She is. Thanks for trying, Alan. Do you know where I can find her?”

Alan shook his head. “No. But Amy Vining was at the desk when she called the taxi.” Alan smiled. “You can bet Amy heard something.”

—-

Lucky was going through some contact sheets at the Port Charles Grille while waiting for Emily to meet him for lunch. She’d sounded strange on the phone–had absolutely insisted they meet today. He’d suggested grabbing some take-out at Kelly’s and meeting her at the office, but she’d been adamant.

Somewhere public.

He was absorbed in the sheets and didn’t hear or see Emily’s approach. She stopped just before the table and stared at him for a moment. How did it come to this? She’d been so in love with him–how had she missed that he didn’t feel the same? How had she managed to convince herself that Lucky was over Elizabeth?

Steeling herself for the confrontation, she pulled out the chair across from and sat down. “Hi.”

Lucky looked up then, a smile crossing his face. “Hey, babe. How you feeling?”

“I’m fine.” Emily took a sip of the water and signaled for the waiter. “You ready to order?”

He frowned. “Is everything okay, babe?”

“It’s fine,” Emily said, pasting a smile on her face. She was craving lobster and she needed to satisfy that urge before breaking things off.

Her kid had spoken.

They talked about nonsensical things most of the meal–Emily avoiding the subject of the impending birth and their relationship. Lucky kept trying to bring the conversation around to it, but she kept putting him off.

Finally Lucky pushed his plate back. “Em, what’s going on?”

Having finished her meal, Emily took another sip of the milkshake she’d begged for. This kid was strange–milkshakes and lobster were the sanest cravings she’d had. Others included pistachio ice cream in the middle of the night, and pickle and peanut butter sandwiches.

“We need to talk, Lucky,” Emily began.

Lucky shook his head. “This doesn’t sound good.”

“Please, let me talk, okay?” she said. She sat back in her chair. “Lucky, you’re my best friend. You’ve always been my best friend. But this isn’t going to work. You know that, right?”

Lucky frowned. “What are you talking about? Em, I love you–”

“Don’t,” Emily said, shaking her head. “Please don’t say that. Lucky, I’m not going to marry you. It’s not going to happen.”

“Why?” Lucky demanded. “We’re in love–”

“No.” Emily sighed. “We’re not. You’re still in–”

“Emily, how many times are we going to have this conversation?” Lucky demanded angrily. “I am completely over Elizabeth Webber.”

“Morgan,” Emily corrected softly. “Her name is Elizabeth Morgan.” She met Lucky’s eyes and smiled sadly. “You think I’m stupid, Lucky? I’m the one you confided in when Liz broke up with you. I talked you out of stopping the wedding. You’re still in love with her and I’m been blind to it.” She rubbed her abdomen. “But I can’t stay with you because I’m pregnant. I still want you to be this baby’s father, but you’re not in love with me and I won’t settle.”

“Emily, you’re pregnant. The hormones–”

“Do not blame this on my hormones!” Emily snapped. “I am thinking very clearly. It is not fair to blame this on my pregnancy. I can’t continue ignoring the way your eyes light up when her name is mentioned or how excited you get when you think she and Jason are having problems. Not now. We’re bringing a new life into this world and damn it, I deserve better. This child deserves better.” She tossed her napkin on the table and stood. “I’m sorry it has to be this way, Lucky.”

“Em, we can work this out–” Lucky started, rising out of his chair. But Emily had turned her back and walked away.

Without giving him a second look.

—-

“Why are we at the hospital, Mom?” Amanda asked as Carly led her and her brother off the elevator.

“I told you, sweetie. You and Drew are going to have a few tests run,” Carly replied. “And then you’re going to meet someone.”

“Who?” Drew asked, peering at his mother.

“Her name’s Christina,” Carly said, leading the children towards the oncology ward. Once there, she set them up with the doctor and left the room, unable to watch them get the test taken. She hated seeing them in pain.

She found Ned waiting for her outside. “Hi, Ned.”

“Hello, Carly.” Ned jerked his head towards the door Carly had just exited. “Are they being tested?”

Carly nodded. “Yeah. I’d like for them to meet Christina.” At Ned’s glare, she hurried to explain, “I don’t think they should know the truth or anything, but I thought they should just meet her. You know, in case one of them is a match, they might be more inclined to help if they know who it is.”

Ned hesitated. “I want to run this by Alexis.”

Carly nodded. “Of course.”

“I don’t know if this means anything to you, but thank you for bringing them so soon,” Ned said, shifting his feet. “I know it means a lot to Alexis.”

“I told Alexis and I’ll tell you–I’m not doing this for you. I’m not doing this for Alexis and I’m not doing it for Sonny. I’m doing this for Christina.”

“Fine,” Ned said coldly. “As long as we’ve got that straight.” He was about turn away when he thought twice and turned back to her. “Sonny doesn’t know does he?”

“Know what?” Carly demanded, tired of having this conversation with him.

“That you knew,” Ned said. “You didn’t tell him did you?”

“No!” Carly said, immediately. “As long as you and Alexis keep your mouths shut, he never will.”

“Never will what?”

Carly shut her eyes and counted to ten, desperately hoping that when she looked to her left, her husband would not be there glaring at her.

—-

Jason had never been so thankful for Amy Vining’s eavesdropping. He parked his bike at the parking lot of Vista Point and walked towards the observation deck.

She was standing there, her arms tightly crossed, staring out at the view of Port Charles.

“Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth slowly turned. “How did you find me?”

He stared at her, confused. “Why did you leave the hospital?” he asked, walking towards her.

She gave a little shrug and turned back towards the view. “I just wanted some time.”

He stopped just behind her. “You still thinking about what Dee said?”

She sighed. “A little.”

He brought his hands up to the sides of her shoulders and just rubbed them a little. “She didn’t mean it the way it came out–”

“I know. She’s just a little girl–she didn’t know any better,” Elizabeth replied softly. “But it doesn’t change how I feel.”

“Elizabeth, this wasn’t your fault,” Jason said, forcefully.

“I should have been more careful,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. “I shouldn’t have been so active–”

“Active? Elizabeth, you did the same things when you pregnant with Dee and Davie–you couldn’t have known–”

“But I should have!” Elizabeth cried suddenly. She jerked away from him and turned around. She spread her arms out at her sides. “I should have known something was wrong and I didn’t! What kind of mother does that make me?”

“Elizabeth, you know you’re a good mother. Things happen for a reason–”

“How can there be a reason in the world for why this happened?” she demanded, glaring at him. “How can there be a legitimate reason for losing my baby?” Her eyes were filled with tears and she clutched her hands to her head, squeezing her eyes shut to keep the tears from spilling onto her cheeks. “God, Jason, we had ultrasounds…I felt this baby kick–it was a real, living and breathing baby! How can there be a reason for having a miscarriage?”

“I don’t know–”

She pushed past him then and gripped the bar by the stairs that led to the second level of the deck. “Do you know what I see when I come up here?”

Thrown by the change in topics, Jason blinked. “What?”

“I see you and me, ten years ago.” Her voice was calmer now–a little hoarse. “I see us sitting on that bench and you telling me you couldn’t be the friend I thought you were.”

“Elizabeth–” He came forward and tried to put a hand on her shoulder. She shrugged away from him.

“I don’t see the time we kissed, or even when you yelled at me for warning you about Alcazar. I just see you breaking my heart again.”

“We both made mistakes,” Jason said, not sure why they were having this conversation. “I should have known I couldn’t push you away–”

She turned around and leaned against the railing. “I couldn’t change your mind then. And you can’t change my mind now.”

“You did change my mind, Elizabeth,” he reminded her gently. “Remember?”

“No, not really,” Elizabeth replied quietly. “Because despite everything, after all these years, I know you still think I’d be better off with someone else and away from you and this life. I haven’t been able to change your mind–I just worked around it.”

“Elizabeth–”

“Can you take me home?” she asked.

Knowing he wasn’t going to be able to get through to her–not today anyway–he just nodded. She walked ahead of him towards the parking lot.

—-

Emily pushed open her office door, ignoring her assistant calling after her. She was worn out from the confrontation with Lucky and just needed a few minutes to herself.

“Miss Quartermaine!”

At the sound of her assistant’s urgent voice, Emily turned and sighed. “What is it, Calla?”

“You have messages,” she said, handing the sheaf of papers towards her. “They sounded important.”

“Thanks,” Emily said, taking them and entering her office. She closed the door behind her. As she walked towards her desk, she leafed through them. A contact in Jakarta, one in Japan…Emily frowned. Nikolas had called. She shoved all other thoughts aside in order to call her friend.

She checked her watch, and decided that while it was late in Greece, she didn’t want to wait. She dialed his number and leaned against the side of the desk.

“Hello?”

“Nik? It’s Emily.”

Nikolas Cassadine leaned back in his chair in his ornately decorated office and breathed a sigh of relief. “I was hoping you’d call tonight.”

“Well, it’s been a while since I’ve heard from you. Is anything wrong?” she asked.

“Actually, yeah.” Nikolas sighed again and scratched at his temple. “I need your help.”

“What’s wrong?” Emily asked, concerned. She straightened and crossed around the desk to sit down.

“It’s Gia.”

Emily frowned at the mention of her former nemesis. Gia and Nikolas had moved to Greece only a year after Emily returned to Port Charles, but they’d been in the same town long enough to annoy each other. “What’s wrong with Gia?”

“Well, she’s…she’s sick.”

“Oh.” Emily felt bad for thinking badly of her friend’s wife. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s, ah, breast cancer. We were going to have doctors flown in, but the best one is at the Sloan-Kettering Center in New York. We’re coming to Port Charles to stay on Spoon Island while she’s there for treatment.”

“Nikolas, I’m sorry. What can I do?”

“Well, I just wanted to know if you could help get Wyndemere open. Just hire an agency to get it cleaned and everything. I know you’re pregnant and if it’s too much–”

“No, no,” Emily insisted. “It’s fine. I’ll make a few calls.” She laughed a little. “I’m actually glad to have a distraction.”

“Still having problems with Lucky?” Nikolas asked.

“Yeah. Actually, we broke up today,” Emily said.

“Oh. I’m sorry, Em.”

“It’s been a long time in coming,” Emily said. “Is there anything else I can do?”

“No. Thanks so much, Em. I’d better call my mother.”

“All right. I’ll see you when you get into town.”

This entry is part 5 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

You see time, time is our friend
For you and me there is no end
And all you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your strength is enough
So have a little faith in me 

— Jewel, Have Little Faith In Me 

——————–

It was early afternoon when Carly pushed open the door to Luke’s Club. She knew she’d find her wayward uncle somewhere in here. She wasn’t sure why she was here—other than knowing Alexis would be paying Sonny a visit today and the urge to get good and drunk was more overwhelming than ever.

“Luke?” she called. Hearing nothing, she raised her voice. “LUKE!”

Luke emerged from the back of the club, wiping his hands on a dish towel. “You bellowed my dear?”

“Yeah.” Carly shifted, uncomfortably. “I need to get drunk and I don’t want it getting back to Sonny.”

Luke grinned. “Pull up a stool, Caroline and we’ll see what we can do.”

—-

Ned watched as Alexis sipped her coffee in the hospital cafeteria. “Are you going to do it?”

She glared at him over the brim of the Styrofoam cup. “You can’t let me have five seconds of peace, can you?”

“Alexis.”

She sighed and set the cup down. “I’m going to do it. I told Carly I was going to do it today. I can’t put it off anymore—Christie can’t afford it.”

“Are you going to the warehouse or the penthouse?” Ned asked.

Alexis pursed her lips. “Warehouse. I don’t want the kids to overhear the conversation.”

“Good.”

They sat in silence for a few minutes. Ned leaned forward. “Alexis, you might want to go before he leaves for the day.”

Alexis shoved her chair back and stood. She took a deep breath and picked up her purse. “I can do this. I can do this.”

“Honey, just remember to breathe, all right?”

She shot him a nasty look before leaving the table and heading for the double doors.

—-

Elizabeth was lying in the dark room, trying to bore herself to sleep when a streak of light appeared in the room. She blinked and raised herself up in the bed.

“I think Mama’s sleepin,” she heard a girl’s voice whisper.

“Nah, she’s just resting her eyes.”

The light flicked on and Elizabeth was confronted with the sight of her husband and two children.

“Mama!” Delilah said, letting go of Jason’s hands and rushing forward. She was too small to climb on the bed by herself, but it didn’t stop her from trying.

“Whoa there,” Jason laughed. He set Davie on the end of Elizabeth’s bed and lifted Dee up to her mother.

Dee immediately latched her tiny arms around Elizabeth’s neck and Davie was busy hugging her legs. Elizabeth wrapped her arms around her daughter’s small body and looked at Jason over Dee’s blonde hair.

“I missed you Mama,” Dee whispered into Elizabeth’s neck.

She closed her eyes and breathed in Dee’s powdery scent. “I missed you, too, baby.”

—-

Emily entered the Quartermaine mansion and breathed a sigh of relief when she realized that Lucky wasn’t waiting for her. She’d ducked his calls all day, but she wouldn’t put it past him to just show up at the house.

“Emily?”

Emily closed her eyes briefly before turning around. “Hi, Mom.”

Monica Quartermaine finished coming down the steps. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m fine,” Emily replied. “Really,” she added when she realized her mother didn’t believe her.

“Is everything all right?” Monica asked, concerned.

“Everything’s fine,” Emily lied. She set her briefcase down next to a table in the entry and made an attempt to pass her mother. Emily wanted nothing more than to lie down and put her feet up.

Monica caught her arm as Emily passed her. “Darling, please. Something’s wrong.”

Emily sighed. The urge to confide in her mother was becoming overwhelming. She needed someone who would tell her what she should do—she couldn’t keep dumping her problems on AJ, it wasn’t fair.

Monica could sense Emily’s will to keep her out was weakening and pushed a little further. “I love you so much. I wish we were closer.”

Emily rubbed her eyes and gave her mother a weary smile. Things were difficult in the Quartermaine house these days. What had once been a home filled with people who loved each other enough to fight over every detail had been reduced to a house with three people and a few servants. She missed the days when she thought Monica and Alan could solve her problems. “Tell you what,” Emily began. “You bring me a carton of ice cream, two spoons and we’ll talk in my room. I need to put my feet up—they’re killing me.”

Monica smiled and nodded. “I’ll be right up.”

—-

Carly stared at her shot of vodka. “It sucks.”

Luke sighed in relief. His niece had been staring at the untouched shot for ten minutes without speaking and he was about ready to shake her. Something had happened and he felt duty bound as the only relation that acknowledged Carly to try and help.

“You know, Caroline,” Luke began, “Me and you…we’re not close but we’re still family. You can talk to me.”

Carly rested her elbow on the bar and rested her head in her hand. “Have you ever made a decision to protect someone you loved—but it wasn’t exactly your decision and in retrospect, you should have stayed the hell out of it?”

Luke eyed her. “When I told Barbara Jean you were dead.”

Carly’s head shot up. “What?”

Luke shifted and poured himself a drink. “Barbara had just found you in bed with the good doctor and I figured it wasn’t a good time to tell her that you were her daughter. She found out and it was a good long time before our relationship returned to normal.”

“I’m gonna lose Sonny,” Carly whispered, her eyes fixed on the shot glass. “I’m gonna lose him and it’s gonna be my fault.”

“Darlin’, what happened?” Luke asked, becoming concerned.

“I kept something from him and he’s gonna find out what it is and I just know he’s gonna find out I knew and you know Sonny and secrets—he’s gonna kick me out of his life.”

Luke nodded. “He’s got a bad habit, I’ll admit. What did you keep from him?”

Carly shook her head. “No, I can’t…I wouldn’t tell Liz and I’m not telling you. I don’t…I can’t trust anyone.”

Luke folded his arms on the bar and leaned forward. “You can trust me.”

“You hate me,” Carly said.

“Nah, you’re family. I can’t hate family. I can dislike them, but when it comes down to it, you were born a Spencer and I don’t care if your last name is Corinthos, you’re Barbara’s daughter.”

“You’d never know it,” Carly muttered. “She never calls. Never writes.”

Luke shrugged. “Mid-life crisis. Only explanation why she’d remarry the nut. Or maybe it’s because Felicia remarried her ex-husband and Barbara was feeling nostalgic. I don’t know.”

“Is it wrong to not want Sonny to know I knew?” Carly asked quietly, letting her finger slide around the rim of the glass. “I mean, I know I should probably tell him—preemptive damage control. But there’s really only three people in the world who know that I know, and I’m one of them.”

“Darlin’, you’re makin’ my head spin,” Luke said. “Why don’t you tell me what’s goin’ on and maybe I can help.”

Carly shook her head. “Wasn’t gonna tell Liz and I ain’t gonna tell you. Not before Sonny knows the truth.”

“Fair enough. So you just want a place to down your sorrows while…?”

“Sonny finds out the truth,” Carly supplied. “He’s gonna be told and I just don’t want to be there when he does. I don’t know if I could act shocked enough for him. I need time.” She snorted. “Not that I haven’t had ten years or anything.”

—-

Alexis had stopped on the docks—reluctant to go any further. Her irritation at Ned had spurred her this far—but shed’ stopped only a few feet from the warehouse. She was having her doubts again.

She wanted to be absolutely sure that there was no other way—that this secret could be avoided. If maybe there was a way Carly could sneak Mandy and Drew into the hospital to be tested. There was every indication that they wouldn’t match but the slim chance that they would wasn’t lost on Alexis.

Alexis felt so guilty—she had everything to gain from the revelation of this secret and Carly stood to lose everything.

Because Alexis knew exactly how Sonny would react if he ever found Carly had known all along.

And adding to the problem that Michael could potentially discover his own paternity—

Alexis was surprised Carly was so agreeable.

She took a deep breath and continued her trek to the warehouse. The time had come – and quite frankly, she was sick of the secret.

—-

Delilah was still attached to Elizabeth’s side, her arms still looped around her neck. Davie had moved up and was on her other side. Elizabeth’s hands were stroking each one of their heads—Dee’s blonde hair and Davie’s brown hair.

“Why are you here, Mama?” Dee asked, snuggling into her mother’s side. Elizabeth shot a look at Jason, who looked at her apologetically.

“I didn’t know how to explain it.”

She frowned. Well, she didn’t particularly want to explain it. Sighing, she looked back down at the children. “Do you remember when we talked about you getting a little brother or sister?”

Dee raised her head and nodded solemnly. “And I tole you I wanted a brother so I could keep my room.”

Elizabeth gave her a small smile. “Right. Well, you’re not getting one anymore.”

Davie looked up then. “Why?” he asked.

“Well…” Elizabeth sighed. “The baby died.”

Dee’s blue eyes widened. “But I never seen the baby—how did it die?”

Jason and Elizabeth locked eyes. How to explain this to a four-year-old and a two-year-old was completely lost on them. Elizabeth briefly wondered how Carly had explained it to Michael all those years ago.

Elizabeth bit her lip and thought for a few minutes. “Well, the baby was inside me.”

“How did it get there?” Davie asked, his eyes wide with wonder.

“That’s a conversation for another day,” Jason said, unwilling to elaborate on that particular subject.

“Why did the baby die?” Dee asked.

Elizabeth twisted some strands of Dee’s silky blonde hair in her fingers. “I don’t know,” she said in a soft voice.

“Sometimes, things happen,” Jason said, not wanting to leave this part of the explanation on Elizabeth’s shoulder. “And we don’t know why.”

Dee met her mother’s eyes and said very seriously, “Did you do something wrong, Mama?”

—-

Monica watched Emily practically inhale the chocolate marshmallow ice cream and sighed. “I had no idea.”

Emily shrugged—trying to be casual. “Well it’s my fault. I let myself believe he loved me and not Liz. I never should have done that.”

“Honey, sometimes we can’t control things like that,” Monica said, patting her daughter’s hand. She shifted on Emily’s bed, trying to find a comfortable position. “And yes, sometimes we see what we want to see.”

“So do you understand why I can’t marry him?” Emily asked softly.

Monica nodded, a regretful smile on her face. “I understand. But I think the real question is…does he understand?”

Emily let the spoon drop into the carton and rested it on top of her abdomen. “No. I don’t think he sees it. He thinks he’s over her—I know it. But I can’t ignore the way his eyes lit up when I told him Elizabeth was pushing Jason away.”

“So you haven’t said anything to him about it?”

“I’ve tried,” Emily admitted. “But it’s a difficult subject to broach and he never wants to talk about it.” She snorted. “He thinks it’s my hormones, picking up on things that aren’t there.”

“I know people think you should marry him because you’re pregnant, but sweetheart, that’s never a reason to marry anyone,” Monica said.

Emily gave her mother a sudden smile. “Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For telling me exactly what I needed to hear.”

—-

“You really shouldn’t get yourself worked up over this,” Luke said. Carly had yet to touch her shot glass and he was getting worried. His niece had never been stable to begin with, but he was having serious doubts about her sanity.

“How am I not supposed to?” Carly asked, irritated. “Sonny is my husband—what the hell am I going to do when he kicks me out?”

“You don’t know that he will,” Luke said.

Carly gave him a humorless smile. “Come on, Luke. You know Sonny almost as much as I do. You know how he sees secrets.”

“You’re right, I do,” Luke nodded. “But you’re his wife. I’m sure that—” Luke stopped. “You know, darlin’, you’ll always have a place at my house.”

Carly smirked. “I’m sure Laura would love that offer.”

“Well, there are some rooms above the club,” Luke said. “Don’t worry about it. Let’s wait this out and see how everything plays out, all right?”

“Yeah, probably a good idea,” Carly replied.

“You gonna drink that or stare at it all day?” Luke said.

“I feel like I’m losing everything,” Carly said softly. “I’ve worked so hard to keep it all together and it’s all been one big fat lie.”

“Oh, now it’s not all lies,” Luke said. “You’ve got three beautiful children who adore you.”

“Do you know that somehow we’ve managed to keep Michael’s paternity a secret?” Carly asked him. “He has no idea he’s not Sonny’s biological son.”

Luke frowned. “You never told him?”

Carly shook her head. “No. And Michael’s going to find out one day—with everyone that knows the truth—it’s impossible.”

“Okay, well you’ve two beautiful children who adore you,” Luke replied.

Carly smiled and brought the shot glass to her lips. “You’re becoming soft in your old age,” she said and downed the shot.

—-

Elizabeth stared at her daughter in horror. “What?” she managed to choke out.

“Okay, I think Mama needs a rest,” Jason said, coming to her rescue. He lifted Delilah and put her on the floor. “Come on, Davie.”

“No!” Davie said, wrapping his arms around Elizabeth’s arm tightly. “I don’t wanna go!”

“Visiting hours are over anyway,” Jason said.

“I’ll be home tomorrow,” Elizabeth said, trying to her tone neutral. She kissed the top of his head. “Go home, sweetie.”

“I miss you, Mama,” Davie whispered.

“I miss you, too baby, but I’ll be home before you know it.” She started to pry Davie’s hands off. “Go with Daddy.”

“Come on,” Jason said. He lifted Davie up. “I’m going to leave them with Amy real quick and I’ll be back in.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No, go home, Jason. They…they need to eat.”

“I’ll be right back,” Jason repeated. “Come on, guys.”

Once they had left, Elizabeth rolled over in her bed and closed her eyes tightly to keep the tears in.

—-

“You know you need to speak with him,” Monica said.

“Yeah, I know,” Emily replied. She licked the tip of her spoon. “And I need to do it before the baby is born. I’m probably…” She sighed. “I’m probably going to have to break up with him, you know that right?”

“I know,” Monica said. “I’m sorry you have to go through this, honey.”

“I wish Grandmother were still here,” Emily said quietly. “I think we could all use her help, you know?” Her smile was wistful. “She had such a way of cutting through the bullshit.”

Monica nodded. “I think that’s where Jason gets it from.”

“Yeah, probably,” Emily replied. “I feel so bad for him, you know? And for Liz. We were both looking forward to having the babies together.” She rubbed her protruding abdomen. “She was going to have an Audrey and I was going to have a Lila and they were going to be best friends forever.”

“How is your friendship with Elizabeth?” Monica asked.

Emily looked away, feeling guilty. “It’s fine, but it’s hard keeping my irritation for Lucky’s feelings out of it.” She looked back to her mother. “I know that’s unfair, but I can’t help it. If she hadn’t led him on, let him believe—”

“Honey, that’s not really fair,” Monica cut in. She sighed. “You can’t place the blame on Elizabeth entirely.”

Emily smiled ruefully. “I know. But it takes a lot of it off of me.”

—-

Sonny barely looked up from the pile of paperwork when someone announced Alexis Davis-Ashton was there to see him. He mumbled a response and returned his attention to work. He’d told Jason that if he came near the warehouse at all this week, Sonny would fire him. Elizabeth and the kids needed him more.

Alexis entered and stood quietly for a few moments watching him work. Finally, Sonny realized she was there and looked up. A smirk crossed his face. “I sincerely hope you’re not here with an arrest warrant.”

“No. That’s not it at all,” Alexis said. She clasped her hands in front of her, nervously. “I’m not quite sure how to put this.”

“Well, just say what you have to say and go,” Sonny murmured, flipping a paper over. “I have a lot to do.”

“I suppose the best way to begin is tell you that my daughter has leukemia,” Alexis said.

Sonny looked up then and she could see sincere regret in his eyes. “I’m sorry to hear that, Alexis. I hope she’ll be okay.” He set the papers down and sat back in his chair. “But I don’t see what that has to do with me.”
Alexis looked over his head and to the window behind him. She could see the entire marina from here. Christina loved the boats and she loved swimming. She wondered if her daughter would ever be able to do the things she loved again.

“She needs bone marrow,” Alexis continued. “And Eddie and I don’t match.”

Sonny nodded. “That’s too bad, Alexis. Losing a child can be difficult. But like I said, I’m not sure—”

“She needs all of her siblings to be tested,” Alexis pressed on. Sonny frowned.

“I thought Eddie was her only sibling,” Sonny replied.

Alexis shook her head. “He’s not.”

“Oh…what about Brooke?” Sonny asked, remembering Ned’s other daughter.

“I know she won’t match,” Alexis said, breathlessly. “She’s not Christina’s sister.”

—–

Elizabeth felt Jason’s weight pressing into the mattress and she buried her head into the pillow.

“Hey, you okay?” he asked.

“I’m fine,” she said.

“You’re lying,” he replied, running a hand over her brown hair. “You know Dee didn’t mean anything by what she said. She loves you.”

“I know,” Elizabeth whispered.

“She’s young,” Jason went on. “She doesn’t really understand what’s going on—”

“I know,” Elizabeth repeated. “But it doesn’t change the truth.”

He frowned and leaned closer. “What do you mean?”

She rolled over and met his eyes. “That somehow, I know this is my fault.”

—-

“She’s not?” Sonny repeated. “I don’t understand. Brooke—”

“Because Christina’s not Ned’s daughter!” Alexis said in a rush.

Sonny clenched his fists. “What are you trying to tell to me, Alexis?”

“Christina’s your daughter.”

This entry is part 12 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

November 10, 2004

General Hospital: Sam McCall’s Room

Sonny paced and moved to the window. “How could he lie to me?” he muttered.

Sam glanced up from the cheesy talk show she was watching on the television. “Lie? What kind of crack are you on?”

“He has a son that was conceived while he was married to my sister,” Sonny said. He turned and looked at her. “He’s leaving his job to be with Elizabeth.”

“Mm…” Sam took a cup of water from the stand next to her and sipped through a straw. “They were engaged, you’ve said yourself that you didn’t think he was over Elizabeth, and he’s leaving his job because it doesn’t make him happy.”

“And what about him just dropping that on me yesterday and leaving?” Sonny continued, pretending to ignore her words. “Doesn’t he have any respect for me, for our friendship?” Sam arched an eyebrow. “Don’t look at me like that. This isn’t my fault.”

“You don’t pay a lot of attention to him so I’m going to let that slide.” Sam set aside her water. “Jason has respect for you. Too much, if you ask me. He kept this a secret because he didn’t want to hurt you. And in the end, he hurt Elizabeth. Now, if you ask me, his loyalties are screwed up.”

Sonny sighed. “He should have told me then. He should have avoided all of this. And I’m sorry he didn’t and hurt her. She’s the last person in the world that deserves something like this.” He grimaced. “After what Ric did to her.”

“Well, okay, then we’re on the same page. Look, just because Jason’s leaving the business it doesn’t mean you have to stop being friends. He’ll still be across the hall.” Sam hesitated. “Well, maybe not for long if he works things out with Elizabeth. But he’s still your best friend.”

Sonny frowned. “He hasn’t talked to you about the penthouse yet?”

“He said something stupid about deeding it to me but that’s just his guilt talking.” Sam waved her hand. “That’s his home. It’s not mine. I didn’t work for it and while it’s been nice to live there but I’m done with the handouts.” She let a hand rest on her belly. “It’s just me again. And I know how to take care of myself. I’m going to stay there for a little while longer until I get back on my feet.”

Sonny looked away. “Dr. Quartermaine says you can be released Monday, provided you promise to rest. I thought we could schedule Adella’s viewing for Tuesday.”

Sam bit her lip and stared at her blanket. “That sounds fine. I–I’m glad you don’t blame Jason anymore for this. I think he blames himself more than enough.”

“He shouldn’t.” Troubled, Sonny turned his gaze towards the windows with a view that overlooked the parking garage of General Hospital. “But it’s my fault he feels that way.”

Sam glared at the back of his head. “Between you and Jason, I don’t suppose there’s enough room in this situation for me to feel guilty.”

“Why would you need to feel guilty?” Sonny demanded. He turned. “No one could have prevented this. Monica said as much.”

“That’s true,” Sam allowed. “But you know I had the opportunity to induce the labor. What if I had done that? Would she have lived? Will I ever know for sure? What should I do with that information, huh?”

“This is not your fault,” he said forcefully. He strode towards the bed and jammed a finger in her direction. “I don’t want to hear you saying anything so ridiculous again, do you hear me?”

“Well then don’t let me hear you or Jason blaming yourself either because out of the three of us, I’m the only who had any opportunity to truly prevent this,” Sam said hotly.

Monica Quartermaine pushed the door open and frowned. “Are you arguing with my patient?” she asked Sonny, with a teasing tone.

“He’s being stupid,” Sam muttered. She leaned back. “Hello, Dr. Quartermaine.”

“Sam.” Monica opened her chart. “I just wanted to let you know that your tests came back. I consulted with two other gynecologists and they both agree with me.”

Sam held her breath and glanced at Sonny–these tests would tell her if she would be able to conceive again. Sam had never thought herself the maternal type but the last few months had awakened a yearning inside to give love to another. To her own child. She wasn’t sure if she could handle the knowledge that it might never be possible.

“What do they say?” Sam asked softly.

“They see no reason you couldn’t conceive again and carry a baby to term,” Monica said with a smile. “You’re young, you’re relatively healthy, you had a good pregnancy.” Her eyes clouded. “The baby was perfectly formed.”

Her mouth dry, Sam blinked. “Is she still here? I haven’t seen her–I just–I want to hold her. Can…can that happen?”

“She’s scheduled to be–” Monica stopped abruptly. No one wanted to talk about services, funerals or anything of the sort in conjunction with a baby and she especially wanted to avoid this with Sam’s child. “Let me see what I can do. It won’t be like holding a…” she hesitated.

“A living baby,” Sam supplied softly. “She’ll be cold. Her eyes won’t be open, she won’t cry, she won’t even wrap her hand around one of my fingers.” Tears filled her eyes. “But I still want to hold my daughter once.”

“Of course,” Monica nodded. “I’ll arrange it and come to get you.”

“Thank you,” Sam said. When she was gone, she exhaled slowly. “I can conceive again. That’s good.”

“Are you sure you want to do this?” Sonny asked quietly. “I saw Adella after she was born. It was one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do, Sam.”

“She is my daughter and I have the right to say good bye in my own way,” Sam replied stiffly. Her shoulders were squared, a light of determination flickered in her brown eyes. “I have to do this, Sonny. I know you mean well but please don’t ask me not to do it.”

He nodded. “All right. I should go–make the arrangements for Tuesday.” He squeezed her hand and kissed her forehead before leaving the room.

Port Charles Courthouse: Court Room A

Brooke Lynn slid into a seat in the empty court room and looked around apprehensively. Brianne had told her that she would most likely not have to testify but she would need to be present. She would need to be in the same room as Diego Sanchez.

Part of her was unsure if she could handle it. Part of her wanted to go home, to go into her room and curl underneath the covers until ten years had past and this was all over. She knew from meeting with Elizabeth Webber that there was something worth reaching for, that there was a reason to keep living her life and striving for normalcy but Brooke didn’t think there was any shame in wishing she could get to the rest of her life and skip the recovery.

The door creaked open and footsteps entered the room. Lucas slid into the seat next to her. “Georgie, Dillon, Maxie and I skipped school today. We wanted to know if it would help if we were in here today.”

Brooke couldn’t turn and look at him. To let him see straight on the bruise that was just beginning to heal on her face. She wore a black turtleneck and a long black skirt to cover all her other bruises but no matter how much cover up she’d put on this morning, the purple and yellow pigments couldn’t be hidden. “If you want to be here, I can’t tell you not to.”

Lucas exhaled slowly and clasped his hands between his knees. He made sure to look at her, to hide the anger boiling just underneath the skin at the bruise covering the left side of her face. “I just wanted to make something clear between the two of us in case you thought otherwise. I have no intention of ending things between us.”

Brooke whipped her head to look at him, wariness cloaking her dark eyes. “What?”

“I mean, if you want to, that’s up to you. But I don’t want to. I care about you, Brooke and it has nothing to do with the physical side of it,” Lucas said quietly. “I can understand if you’d be more comfortable scaling things back so that we were just friends but I don’t want you to do it because you think I pity you. I don’t.”

“Of course you do,” Brooke replied stiffly. She swung her eyes to the defense table where in just a short hour, Diego would be seated. “I can see it in your eyes. In Georgie’s. Even in Dillon’s. And even though Maxie hasn’t gotten around to seeing me,” she said bitterly, “I know she would too. You pity me. All of you. My family. The police. Even the ADA. You all think I’m some poor little girl, some little victim.”

“Hey, it sucks what happened and whether you like it or not, you are a victim,” Lucas shot back.

Her eyes were burning with indignation. “I’m no one’s victim. He can’t make me afraid of him. I’m going to get on that stand and I’m going to tell the jury what he did to me. And I’m not going to ever let him forget it. Every parole hearing, I’ll be there until he’s served his full sentence. He’s not taking the rest of my life from me. I am not a victim, Lucas Jones, so don’t you dare sit there and cast me in that role.”

“Good,” Lucas said simply. He stood. “We were going to the vending machines out front. Dillon wants to try and experiment. Something about pouring water over the hot dogs you buy out there and seeing if they fizz. He says he saw it in New York City. Maxie bet him ten bucks it won’t happen. You want to come?”

Brooke hesitated for a moment but offered a hand. He pulled her to her feet and wrapped an arm around her shoulder. For the first time in a week, Brooke Lynn Ashton did not flinch when someone touched her.

Cottage: Living Room

“Look at Morgan,” Michael said to Cameron, who was sprawled out on a blanket in the middle of the floor. “He can walk.”

Cameron stared at his cousin with an unblinking stare. Michael sighed and pointed to his brother who was toddling around the room. “Look!” he directed. “You try it!”

Cameron just continued to stare. Michael grimaced. “You look just like Uncle Jason when you do that and he never does what I want him to do when he gets that look.”

Carly watched from the doorway and smiled to herself. Cameron did resemble his father at that moment, his beautiful blue eyes focused on her eager son. She turned and took the cup of coffee Elizabeth offered her. “Thanks for inviting us over today. Cam seems more open to playing.”

“Yeah, he seems to be mostly over his cold. The ear infection only seems to pain him when I need to sleep,” Elizabeth sighed with an indulging smile. “So you said Jason told Sonny yesterday.”

“Yep. Sonny called me after Jason left the hospital. Seems Jason dropped the bomb about both Cameron and his job and just left Sonny to deal with it. Sonny’s still processing it but I think part of him appreciated the way he was told. He said, and I quote, ‘It was like listening to him a few years ago. No excuses. No explanations. Just–here’s the situation. Now you deal with it.’ ” Carly laughed. “What I would have given to see his face when he found out.”

Elizabeth sipped her hot chocolate. “When do you think he’ll tell Courtney?” she asked reluctantly.

“Soon,” Carly said after considering it. “People know. Steven and I know, Sonny knows, I’m assuming he told Sam at some point. You mentioned Emily knows, which means Nikolas either does or will and that means the rest of the Spencers will. It’s only a matter of time. I just wonder how she’s going to take it.”

“I’m sorry if it hurts her,” Elizabeth admits. “But it’s really for the best if Jason tells her himself.”

“Yeah…well she brought it on herself,” Carly decided. “Michael, Cameron’s only a few months old. He’s not ready to tackle walking,” she called when Michael stood and attempted to pull Cam to his feet. “Crawling,” she suggested. “Show him how to crawl.”

“What do you mean, she brought it on herself?” Elizabeth asked. “It’s not like she shoved Jason in a room with me and stripped us both.”

“Well…she kissed him two weeks after you walked out on him. Even I had my doubts in the beginning if this was something that should be happening.” Carly shrugged. “But he seemed okay and she was thrilled so I encouraged it.” Her lips twisted into a grimaced smile. “It was nice to have some pull with one of Jason’s women for a change. Robin and you just were not controllable.”

Elizabeth laughed then and looked at the trio of boys on the floor. Michael was slivering on his belly and Cameron was just giggling. “No. I guess that should have been a clue.”

“Yep. The second I have any control in Jason’s life, something must not be right.” Carly sipped her coffee. “I haven’t spoken to Courtney since I moved out of the penthouse. She’s going through her own thing now and didn’t agree with me leaving and serving Sonny with divorce papers, so it seems like you’re my last female option.”

“Option?” Elizabeth said skeptically. “What does that mean?”

“It means I need some to vent about men with and Jason just does not fit that bill,” Carly remarked. “Though I will refrain from speaking about your brother with you.”

“My brother?” Elizabeth repeated. “I didn’t realize you and Steven were all that close.”

“We’re not. But he seems nice and he doesn’t treat me like I’m a five year old so he’s step above my husband and he doesn’t treat me like a disaster waiting to happen which is a step above Jason.”

“At least Jason’s right,” Elizabeth pointed out with a smirk.

“Bite me, Shorty,” Carly grumbled.

General Hospital: Morgue

Monica wheeled Sam into the cold room and stopped in front of a smaller table. “Are you sure about this?” she asked.

Sam nodded. “I think it’s something I need to do–to accept it.”

Monica sighed and lifted the sheet back to reveal a tiny baby laying on the table. She lifted her and set her in Sam’s arms.

“Oh…” Sam breathed, the tears slipping unnoticed down her cheeks. She was so cold, so still. But so perfect. Her little nose, her little lips. She touched her hand. Such small fingers and minuscule finger nails. Ten fingers, ten toes. Two eyes. She was so beautiful. “She would have been such a good little girl,” she murmured, raising her wet eyes to Monica, whose own eyes were watering.

“Her name is Adella Leigh and I think I would have called her Addy. She would have been so sweet and she would have given hugs to anyone who wanted them. She would have grown up safe, with a mother and father who loved her. She never for one moment would have doubted her worth, her future, her goals. I would have done anything to make her happy.” She leaned down and kissed her daughter for the first and last time on the forehead. “I’m so sorry I never got the chance to know you, Addy. Sweet princess.”

She lifted Adella out to Monica, who cradled her for a moment before setting her back on the table. She raised the sheet to cover her once more. “You would have been a good mother,” Monica murmured. “It’s the people who never expected to have such capacity for love that make the best parents. Jason didn’t know he could love like that either.”

“Well, he got a second chance.” Sam wiped her eyes and smiled up at her. “With the woman he really loves. I can only hope I have that sort of luck.”

Monica’s smile faltered and she shook her head. “I don’t understand.”

“You will.” Sam reached up and squeezed Monica’s hand. “Thank you for being here, Dr. Quartermaine. I think it’s better I had another woman present who understood what I was going through. Because…you lost Jason too.”

“I was luckier,” Monica said after a moment. “I had twenty-two years of memories and you have but a few months.”

“I felt her kick inside me,” Sam said softly. “I felt her move, I felt her living inside of me. That’s enough. It’s more than some get.”

Port Charles Courthouse: Court Room A

Brianne set her bag on the table to the left of the judge and took a deep breath, surveying the empty courtroom. This would be her first preliminary hearing on a felony charge. Until this point, she had prosecuted misdemeanors and pleaded cases down. She had never first chaired a trial.

“You ready for today?”

Ric’s voice at her shoulder startled her and she jumped. “DA Lansing, ” she pressed a hand to her chest. “I didn’t see you there.”

“It’s Ric,” he corrected. “And you didn’t answer my question.”

“I’m as ready as possible,” Brianne replied. “Sanchez has a public defender but I assume that will change by trial since I found out that Lorenzo Alcazar is his father.”

“I don’t know about that,” Ric replied, slipping his hands into his pants pockets. “Alcazar didn’t bail him out and visited him only once. Perhaps there is a limit to fatherly love.”

“Anyhow, it’ll be bound over for trial,” Brianne said confidently. “We have a solid case on medical evidence and Brooke Lynn’s statement not to mention Mike Corbin’s. And for the trial, well–” she hesitated. “As long as Brooke testifies, we’ll be fine.”

Ric nodded. “Well, I wanted to speak to you now because I have an appointment with a realtor after the hearing so I’ll have to duck out. Ned Ashton called the office yesterday after you and Sergeant Spencer left.”

Brianne tensed. “He did,” she said slowly, stating it rather than asking.

“He was very impressed with your handling of a delicate situation yesterday–of which he did not go into–and wanted to let me know that it was nice that I appeared to have some common sense after all.”

“I merely prevented his ex-wife from taking Brooke Lynn out of the room during an important moment of her statement,” Brianne said. She shifted some folders around and pretended to be reading the medical report.

Spectators began to filter in, the Quartermaines first and then the Jones sisters along with their cousin Lucas. When Ned Ashton, his ex-wife and his daughter entered, there was a bit of hushed silence while Brooke left her parents to sit next to her friends. Lois made a move to follow her but Ned pulled her back to sit with the adults.

Nikolas Cassadine entered next, with his fiancé Emily Quartermaine and their friend Elizabeth Webber. Brianne remarked her from her report as someone Mac had suggested Brooke speak with. Since the woman was not a counselor, Brianne made a note to question her.

A thin young man barely old enough to out of law school came through the double doors and went to the defense table. Brianne recognized him from one of her misdemeanor drug cases and remembered that he was quick to deal–especially when the evidence was clearly stacked against his client.

An officer led Diego Sanchez in from a back room. Brooke stiffened–only slightly. Lucas felt it and so did Dillon. Lucas wrapped an arm around here shoulders while Dillon squeezed her hand. If looks could kill, the left side of the courtroom would be on trial. Diego just smirked and winked at Brooke, who wanted to vomit.

“The State of New York and the city of Port Charles versus Diego Sanchez is now called to order. The Honorable Winston Solomon presiding. All rise.”

An older man entered, dressed in the black judicial robes. He settled himself behind the tall bench. “Be seated.”

Brianne took a deep breath and sat down slowly, her back straight, her eyes pinned to the judge.

“The defendant is charged with rape in the first degree and assault in the first degree.” Solomon looked up and peered at Diego. “You have not entered a plea.”

“Not guilty,” Diego said, with a smirk.

“Christopher Hartman for the defense, Your Honor.” Hartman stood. “My client was not arraigned and was denied his due process. I move that the charges be dismissed.”

“What?” Georgie hissed. She glared at her father, who sat a few rows in front of them. “I’ll kill him!”

“Shh,” Maxie ordered.

“Says here your client had his one phone call, refused his right to be arraigned and had to be assigned an attorney. Motion denied.” Solomon turned his attention to Brianne. “You. Speak.”

Brianne stood. “Brianne Joyce for the State, Your Honor.” She picked up a report. “The state believes there is more than enough evidence to bind the defendant over trial. We have a medical report–”

“I’ve read it all,” Solomon said. He picked up his own copy of the medical report. “Says here that victim Brooke Lynn Ashton suffered from among other injuries, a concussion, some broken ribs and a broken nose.”

“Yes, Sir.”

“There’s also the results of a rape kit, positive for semen that matches one Diego Sanchez.” Solomon turned a page. “Some internal bruising and bleeding. All pretty self-explanatory, Ms. Joyce. And with Ms. Ashton’s statement, I agree. There is plenty of evidence.”

Brianne hid her smile. “Yes, Your Honor. We ask that bail continued to be denied for Diego Sanchez–”

“Your Honor, that is absurd,” Hartman interrupted. “This not a murder charge, it’s a rape charge–”

“Some would say it’s worse,” Solomon cut through harshly. “Leaving a victim alive to remember rather than killing them.”

Brooke paled and felt the bile rising in her throat. She needed to get out of here. Now.

“However, I have never denied bail for anything less than a murder or manslaughter charge,” Solomon continued.

“Your Honor, Diego Sanchez has no ties to the community. His own foster mother is not present and his father has more international ties than domestic–”

“His father has no plans to bail him out,” Lorenzo Alcazar remarked from the back of the room.

Ned whirled in his seat. “What the hell?”

“Oops,” Lois muttered. “Ah, Ned, sweetie, there’s something–”

“Order!” Solomon barked, rapping his gavel. “Who the hell are you?”

“Lorenzo Alcazar, the defendant’s father,” Lorenzo said. “I’m sorry for the interruption but I’d hate for anyone to get the idea I would be bailing him out.”

Diego paled and for the first time, he began to understand that this time–there was no rescue coming.

“Sit down,” the judge ordered. “Bail is set at a hundred thousand dollars.”

Pleased, Hartman sat. He’d only wanted the judge to set bail, he never expected to get a number his defendant could pay.

Brianne sat as well. Bail meant a trial.

“This defendant is bound over for trial,” Solomon said. “Trial is be set for January 5, 2005. Is that satisfactory?”

“The defendant has a right to a speedy trial,” Hartman complained. “That’s two months away–”

“The defendant can have his case tried right now if you’d like,” the judge remarked caustically. “I have some free time. I’m sure the State wouldn’t object.”

The State would, but Brianne just smiled at her colleague. Hartman glared at her before turning his attention back to the judge. “That’ll be fine,” he muttered.

General Hospital: Monica Quartermaine’s Office

Jason, just fresh from a visit with Sam where he’d been yelled at for not telling his mother about his son, knocked on Monica’s slightly ajar door. “Monica?”

“Jason.” Monica sprang up and kept her hands at her side. “I didn’t know–how are you?” she asked awkwardly.

“I’m fine. Do you have a minute?” he asked.

She nodded and watched as he entered the office and closed the door behind him. “I haven’t had a chance to tell you how sorry I am about Adella,” Monica said.

“Sam said you took her to the morgue to see her,” Jason said. “That you helped her–I wanted to thank you for that. I think she needed to talk to a woman.”

“I only told her the truth.” Monica hesitated, thought about asking him what Sam meant about how he’d found his second chance, but decided not to.

“I’m also here to tell you that you have a grandchild,” Jason said after another moment. “I have a son.”

“A son–” Monica pressed a hand to her mouth and bit her lip hard. She’d wondered–part of her had looked at that little boy’s eyes and remembered another face. It seemed almost another lifetime. “Cameron.”

Jason frowned. “How–how did you know that?”

“I–” Monica lifted her hands. “I saw him at the hospital and he just–he looked so much like you did.” She yanked open a desk drawer and withdrew a picture. She hesitated. “I know you can’t see–”

“I’m better with pictures,” Jason said. She handed the framed photo to him and he saw a professional portrait of a baby, not much older than Cameron was now. And he realized it could be his son’s twin. “This…this is me?”

Monica nodded, fighting the tears. “You were about eight months old. Susan had it taken–she was still alive then. She gave it to Alan and he gave it to me after the accident. I–I wanted to put all the pictures of you in one place so you wouldn’t run into them all over the house. But you moved out–and it didn’t matter.” Her voice faltered and she looked away.

She cleared her throat. “I saw Cameron and I was reminded of you. Since it was Elizabeth, I did wonder. And when you said you had a son, I just–I knew.” Her smile was weak but it was genuine. “I’m so very happy for you, Jason–and so grateful that he’s Elizabeth’s son as well.”

“Why?” Jason asked, frowning. “Why does that matter?”

“Because she’ll never take him from you. And she’s mature enough to handle a child, unlike…Courtney,” Monica muttered. “Elizabeth is a good person and I always–I always hoped you would end up together. I remember what you went through when she was missing.”

“We haven’t told many people,” Jason said, awkwardly. “It’s–it’s not easy information. But you’re welcome to visit him at the cottage at any time and Elizabeth will probably–she’ll probably let the rest of the family see him. She’s a little more tolerant than I am,” he admitted.

“A baby in the family,” Monica clasped her hands together. “We have to have a baby shower–some sort of celebration. We haven’t had a reason to be happy in so long. Would you mind terribly if I brought it up to Elizabeth?”

“Well, like I said–not everyone knows,” Jason reminded her. “So…it’s not something you can do right away–”

Monica waved him away. “What better way to announce to the world that he’s yours?” she asked. “You can tell the people that matter beforehand and then everyone else at the party.” Her eyes pleaded with him.

And Jason realized that it might just be the answer he’d been searching for. His way of making this up to Elizabeth. A Quartermaine party was never thrown without publicity, without some sort of fanfare. He would prove to her that he loved their son and that he loved her.

And if he had to deal with the Quartermaines to do it, well then she might just believe it.

This entry is part 11 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

November 9, 2004

Wyndemere: Conservatory

Emily hung up the phone and smiled to herself, checking the phrase head gardener off her list of employees to hire. The mansion and the island would be returned to its former glory if Emily had to work day and night to see to it.

She’d already hired an army of maids to open all the closed rooms and give them a thorough cleaning. She’d contracted a decorator to give the whole place a brighter and friendlier look. The house may be Gothic in design but there was no point in having it be so dark and dreary.

“Miss Emily.”

At the sound of the new butler’s voice, Emily turned to the doorway. “Yes, Richards?”

“There is a gentleman to see you…Jason Morgan.” Richards was an older man with a stiff British upbringing. Nikolas had liked him from the first interview–the man had reminded him of a butler he’d had in Greece as a boy. He wore a crisp black suit and styled his silver hair slicked back. The first time Emily had seen him, she had immediately pictured Anthony Hopkins in Remains of the Day and made up her mind to hire him. He just…looked like a butler ought to.

“That’s my brother, Richards,” Emily said. She stood from her desk and set her lists aside. “He’s to be admitted immediately at any time.”

“Very good, Miss.” Richards bowed and disappeared from the room. Emily smiled and turned to look at the view outside her window. It overlooked one of the south gardens on the estate and she had a wide view of the river as it drained into the Atlantic. The view was the reason she’d chosen this room as her sanctuary.

“Jason Morgan, Miss,” Richards said as he stepped aside to let Jason into the room. “Shall I tell Master Nikolas your brother has arrived?”

“Yes, but don’t interrupt him.” Emily smiled briefly at Jason as Richards made his exit. “He’s of the mind that the master of the house must know who is in it at all times.”

“Right.” Jason shook his head and looked at his sister. “The place looks…different.”

“Better?” Emily prompted. “I’ve been working for the past week to clean it up. Since Connor Bishop was taken into military custody, I’ve had to have something to put my mind on.” She sat on the reupholstered sofa and patted the cushion next to her. “Sit.”

He did and looked around the room. “Seems you’ve done a lot in a week.”

“Well, money can do quite a bit but you’re not here to discuss any of that.” Emily shifted. “Have you spoken to Elizabeth since yesterday?”

He nodded. “Last night. Cameron has a cold and an ear infection. She called to tell me about it so I went over.”

Emily waited and glared when he didn’t continue. Talking to her brother was like pulling teeth. “Did she mop the floor with you or did you actually talk?”

“I told her that I loved her, that I didn’t want her to give up on us.” Jason smiled faintly. “Is that what you wanted to hear?”

Pleased, Emily smiled. “Yes. Thank you. So…did you come to talk to Nikolas about the job?”

“Yes,” Jason said. “I’m not promising you anything. I just came to listen. If I don’t like what I hear, then I’m not doing it, so don’t get your hopes up.”

Emily nodded. “All right. I’m just glad.” She hesitated. “This is the first time in a long time that I feel like I’m talking with my brother.” She stood and moved away. “Since I came home, you haven’t really been acting like yourself. One of my favorite things about you, Jason, was your honesty. I could count on you to tell me the truth; even if it was something I didn’t want to hear. You didn’t see the point in lying because you knew in the long run, a lie was worse.”

Jason sighed heavily. “Emily. I didn’t lie because I didn’t know how.” He stood and slid his hands in the pockets of his jeans. “When I came home two years ago, I came home to nothing. You were gone. Robin had been gone for three years. Michael was Sonny’s son. I only had Sonny and Carly in my life.” His eyes softened and he looked passed her for a moment. “And Elizabeth.”

“Jason, you always had me,” Emily informed him. Her eyes narrowed. “So, what? You bent over backwards to keep Sonny and Carly in your life? Let them walk all over, take advantage of you? And why do that for them and not for Elizabeth?”

“Because she is and always was too good for me,” Jason said simply. “I know it’s her decision to do what she wants but back then, I wanted to protect her. So when she walked away, I let her. Emily–”

“I know that Robin hurt you,” Emily murmured. “I know that losing Michael nearly broke you. But that’s no excuse to cut yourself off from the people who still love you and that’s what you’ve been doing since you left that April. You surrounded yourself with people who would always ask for your help. Sonny, Carly, Courtney, Sam…” Emily smiled sadly and looked away. “Me.”

“Emily, I want you to come to me when you need me,” Jason said forcefully. “You’re my sister.”

“I know that. But by surrounding yourself by people who need you, you haven’t let yourself need anyone. And that’s what worries me. Because for all the people who love you, Jason, I’m so afraid you’ll end up alone.” Her eyes brimmed with tears. “Elizabeth loves you. You deserve the life she wants to give you. Why don’t you let her give it to you?”

“I think I should speak with Nikolas now,” Jason remarked abruptly. She sighed and went to the hallway. Richards was standing by the door.

“Richards, could you please see if Nikolas is free to speak with Jason? He’s expecting him this week.”

Richards nodded and moved down the corridor to Nikolas’s office. “Jason,” Emily said, turning back to him. “I just want what makes you happy. You know that, right?”

He sighed and kissed her forehead. “I know that. But trust me to know what it is and how to get it, all right?”

“All right,” Emily said. She folded her arms. “I only meddle because I love you.”

General Hospital: Kristina’s Room

“Jax!” Alexis smiled, pleased to see him outside her daughter’s room. “I can hardly remember the last time I saw you.”

“Too long,” Jax said. He kissed her cheek and looked towards the room. “I came by to see about Kristina. I should have been here earlier. When you were suffering.” He frowned. “When you made the very odd decision to marry that…lawyer.”

“It was an odd decision,” Alexis agreed. She moved to look through the window at her daughter. “But it’s one that agrees with me. We’ve all done strange and crazy things in our lives, Jax. I can no more judge him than he can judge me.”

“Yes, we’ve done bizarre things but Alexis, love, I never locked a pregnant woman in a room,” Jax remarked. “Nor drugged the one I was married to.”

“But I’ve killed a man. Plotted to kill Helena, God knows how many times. I’ve dressed like a man, and quite honestly–that is only at the tip of my transgressions. What Ric has done–he’s done. I don’t mean to say that I understand them and I’m certainly not going to forget about them. But I have the right to see who he is today.”

“Yes, well you were also in love with Sonny Corinthos.” Jax smiled ruefully. “Your line of men worries me.”

“You were in that line, I might remind you.” Alexis sipped her coffee. “Sonny was a mistake. And I deeply regret the loss of our friendship. But he gave me my little girl and nothing, no one has ever meant more to me.”

“I’m so very happy that she will continue,” Jax said. “She’s a beautiful child and you have been blessed. I’ve missed you, Alexis. If Ric Lansing is what you have chosen, who you wish to spend your life, then I will not only support it, I will celebrate it. I’ve made inquiries–Kristina will be home by December 1?”

“Yes, if all continues well.” Alexis smiled at him. “Why?”

“Well, as you know, I’ve been rebuilding the Port Charles Hotel for the last few months.” Jax smiled briefly. “I was going to rename it, but it doesn’t seem right. The Hotel was such a part of this town’s history, its heritage. It seems only right to continue that. We reopen December 15. I wish to give you and your husband a party in celebration.”

“That’s a very touching thought and I’d like to do you one better,” Alexis said. “Ric and I married with only Nikolas and Emily present. While they, of course, are important, we both agreed that when Kristina was healthy and safe again, we would have a bigger ceremony. Perhaps I could schedule it at the hotel?”

Jax grinned. “What better way to kick off a new chapter in the hotel’s history than a wedding?” He kissed her hand. “You’ve got it. Provided I get to grill the groom.”

“No.”

“Just a little.”

“Absolutely not.” A smile tugged at her lips. “Leave him alone.”

“I promise not to harm him,” Jax held up his hand as if taking an oath. “I solemnly swear on the Boy Scout motto that I won’t leave any marks. Visible ones.”

“When were you a Boy Scout?” Alexis asked suspiciously. “You’re from Australia. Do they even have Boy Scouts Down Under?”

Gate House: Front Walk

Lucky was waiting for the blonde attorney at the gate to Ned’s home. She was dressed in a plain black suit with a long skirt and a thick black pea coat. Her blonde hair pulled tightly back from her face. She carried a thick leather bag at her side. “Sergeant Spencer.”

“Ms. Joyce.” He nodded and gestured for her to go first. She did so and knocked on the door.

Ned Ashton opened the door. “Miss Joyce?”

“Hello, Mr. Ashton.” Brianne avoided the hand he placed out for her to shake and entered the house. “Sergeant Spencer and I have come by to question you, your ex-wife and Brooke Lynn.”

“Lois and Brooke are in the other room. I thought we could get me out of the way first.” Ned nodded to Lucky as he entered and shut the door. “How long have you been working at the DA office?”

“Nearly two years,” Brianne remarked. She set her bag on the floor and removed her jacket. “I hope you don’t think my age is a problem.”

“No, of course not.” Ned took her coat and waved towards the seating area. “Have a seat.”

Brianne sat in the arm chair and took out a clean legal pad. She uncapped her pen. “Now, Mr. Ashton, I would like to apologize in advance for some of the questions I will have to ask your daughter.”

Ned frowned. “What does that mean?”

“Well, I seem to have run into some problems when I ask about the nature of Brooke Lynn’s relationship with Diego Sanchez. I anticipate the defense will say that that the sex was mutual and that he will say they were dating.”

“That’s ridiculous. Brooke would never date him–”

“I understand that, Mr. Ashton, but if I don’t ask the question and don’t cover every angle, I run the risk of missing an important detail. It is extremely important to me that this does not happen,” Brianne said briskly. “So I wish to apologize in advance and assure you I only want the truth.”

Ned nodded. “All right.”

“Until recently, Brooke Lynn and her mother loved in Brooklyn, New York City. Under what circumstances did she move here and how has your relationship been since then?”

“Brooke ran away from home,” Ned admitted. “Lois, while an extremely generous and loving mother, tends to be overbearing at times. She merely wants the best for her of course and they tend to differ on what this is. Brooke ran away. She came here and Lois and I decided it was time I had more of a presence in her life.”

“Up until this point, you’ve had little contact with your daughter then.”

Ned bristled, but understood the question and saw the sympathy in the young woman’s eyes where there was none in the no nonsense tone. “No. Lois and I divorced when she was little and it wasn’t always easy with our schedules to coordinate visits. I missed out on watching her grow up and I regret that. Since she moved here, I’ve done the best I can to make up for it.”

“When did you meet Diego Sanchez?” Brianne asked.

“Ah, sometime in late September. He dropped Brooke off and I asked her who she was. Just a friend from school, she told me.”

“Did you know Diego Sanchez very well?” Brianne continued. “Have solo conversations with him? One on one?”

“No,” Ned sighed. “I thought about it. I discussed it with Lois. I didn’t like him. I didn’t know why, but I didn’t like him. One might say I was being a snob, that I didn’t want my daughter to associate with a foster child. But I wasn’t comfortable her being around him. But Lois convinced me that Brooke was an intelligent girl, that she was headstrong. She would do what she needed to do and we needed to pick our battles.”

He rubbed the back of his neck. “So, no I never spoke with him alone. I didn’t know him at all beyond what I knew of him. I knew that he was a foster child taken in by Courtney Matthews.” He sneered. “What a mistake that was.”

Brianne smiled thinly, “I assure you that if the defense calls her as a character witness, I have enough information to tear her to shreds.”

Lucky smirked. “Little children in the park know about Courtney Matthews.”

“You were in the hospital room when Brooke awoke after attack.”

“Yes. She was disoriented. Unsure of where she was. She moved her arms and it began to flood back. She, ah, turned to Lois and said ‘Mama, I couldn’t stop him.'” Ned’s voice faltered for a moment and he had to look away.

Brianne’s pen trembled slightly but that was her only outward reaction. “And?”

“She said that she’d told him no, that she’d screamed…that she thought he’d been her friend. She said no name at first and I was terrified at was going through my head. I thought of Lucas and I’m sorry for that. He was her boyfriend and I suppose it’s every father’s worst nightmare that the boy they trust with their little girl will hurt her.” He exhaled slowly and looked to Lucky. “But I asked her who because I could never believe he could do that and that’s when she told me it was Diego.”

“I think that’s all the questions I have for you, Mr. Ashton,” Brianne murmured. “If I could speak with Brooke and Ms. Cerullo?”

“Of course.” Ned stood but paused for a moment. “I believe that I will look forward to seeing you try this case in a courtroom, Miss Joyce.”

Brianne frowned and watched him disappear into one of the other rooms. “What does mean?” she asked Lucky.

“He respects you,” Lucky said. “He doesn’t give that easily.”

Cottage: Foyer

Elizabeth swung the door open and frowned. “Carly.”

“Hello,” Carly pushed past her armed with Morgan in the stroller and Michael at her side. “I hope you don’t mind but when Michael found out about his cousin, he was anxious to meet him.”

“Right.” Elizabeth blinked. She closed the door and watched Carly settle Morgan into the playpen she kept in the living room for Cameron. “Well, he’s napping right now.”

“Oh.” Michael frowned. “For how much longer?” he asked disappointed. “I wanted him to meet his cousins.”

Touched, Elizabeth knelt in front of him. “Well, he’s due for a dose of medicine in about twenty minutes so if you’d like to wait around.”

“Can we, Mom?” Michael asked.

“Sure. Go play and watch Morgan while I talk to Elizabeth in the kitchen.”

“Cool.” Morgan took a hand held video game from the bag hanging from the stroller and settled in front of the playpen to watch his little brother.

Still somewhat flustered, Elizabeth followed Carly into the kitchen. “I wasn’t expecting you to embrace Cameron like this.”

“I firmly believe the children shouldn’t pay for the sins of their parents,” Carly said, sitting at the table. “Jason is an uncle to Michael. He’s part of the family and Michael wouldn’t understand why his son wasn’t.”

“I’m glad though,” Elizabeth sat across from her. “Michael and Morgan mean so much to Jason. I know he’ll be happy to hear that Cameron means a lot to them.”

“I want to tell you that I’m sorry for being one of the reasons Jason kept this all a secret.” Carly shrugged. “And I have to admit that if I had known, my reaction would have been worse than either of you could imagine. I’m a selfish person, Elizabeth. It’s quite obvious to everyone else that I think Jason belongs to me, that I should always come first.” She waved her hand. “All that and probably more would have been spewed at you.”

Elizabeth tilted her head to the side. “But you don’t believe that do you?” she asked softly.

Carly frowned. “Of course I do. Don’t you know me at all?”

“No,” the other woman said slowly. “I don’t believe many people do. I don’t think you believe that about Jason at all.”

“Well, no I don’t think he belongs to me. Jason has and will always belong to himself. It’s just that…he offers unconditional love. Unconditional friendship, support.” Carly shrugged and looked away. “It can be so easy to take advantage of that and not even realize. He’s always there when you need him. He’s so strong, you know? I just didn’t realize how much I depended on him until I realized what I was costing him.” Carly sighed. “Look, we don’t like each other. I don’t see why that has to change simply because Jason is in love with you and you have a son. I will be cordial to you. We might end up with some kind of civility thing going here. I will love and adore your son because he’s Jason’s. But I don’t expect either one of us to become best friends.”

“I don’t expect it either.” Elizabeth shifted and looked at the baby monitor. “Would you like to come up and see Cameron?”

Carly nodded. “Sure. I haven’t had a chance to see him up close.”

Gate House: Living Room

Brooke sat where Ned had before, her mother next to her and Ned pacing restless behind the couch. “Hi,” the teen said softly.

Brianne stared for a moment at the girl’s battered face but quickly averted her eyes. “Hello, I’m Brianne Joyce. I’m with the DA’s office.” She didn’t extend her hand and looked away when Lois offered hers.

“I’m Brooke Lynn but most people just call me Brooke.” She shifted nervously. “So you have to ask me some questions.”

“Yes.” Brianne turned to a fresh sheet in her pad. “I’m sorry, but they’re going to be difficult for both of us. I wish I didn’t have to ask you but I assure you, if I don’t ask it on direct, the defense will on cross. And they’ll make it worse.”

Brooke nodded and Brianne turned to her list of prepared questions. “When did you meet Diego Sanchez?”

“September,” Brooke remarked. “Maybe it was October.” She hesitated. “Early October,” she decided. “He seemed okay. Rough around the edges.” She thought for a moment. “He never really fit in with our friends.”

“How so?” Brianne asked.

“Well, he always wanted to better than everyone else. Be tougher. He wanted to work for Sonny Corinthos and when that didn’t work, he wanted to work for Lorenzo Alcazar just so he could feel big and bad.”

“What type of relationship did you have? Was it close, was it distant? Do you think there’s anything you said that gave him reason to think you felt more?”

Lois made a growling sound. “So what if she did? This isn’t her fault–”

“No, Ma…” Brooke squeezed her mother’s hand. “If she doesn’t ask, they will. And they’ll make it sound like I did lead him on, even though that doesn’t matter.” She focused on Brianne again. “I thought we were friends. We didn’t know each other very well and I felt a little sorry for him. He was dealing with a new foster home, a new city. I have always been a wealthy kid so I always feel bad when I come in contact with someone who isn’t. I was friendly with him, I don’t think I said anything to make him think it was more but I don’t know how he thought.” She shrugged. “You read all the time about these people who have obsessions with people they don’t even know because of some small interaction.”

“That’s a good answer,” Brianne nodded. “I want you to remember that for the trial.” She shifted in the chair. “November 2. You were at Kelly’s. You were alone.”

“Mike stepped out and asked us to watch the place for a bit. There were no other customers so it didn’t feel like a big deal.” Brooke swept a hand through her hair. “He wanted to work for Lorenzo Alcazar or for Sonny Corinthos and even a conversation with Jason Morgan wouldn’t change his mind. I–I was worried. I didn’t see the point in him choosing such a dangerous life. He was only seventeen. He had other options.”

“And then?” Brianne prompted.

Panic knotted and coiled inside Brooke as she prepared to speak in detail about that night. She licked her dry lips and took a deep breath. “He kissed me. I pushed him away. I was angry. He knew I was dating Lucas.” She swallowed hard. “I–he was angry. He couldn’t understand–he didn’t think we were friends. He said ‘You think I wanted to be your friend?’ I asked him to let me go but then he just started…” Her breath was coming in quick small gasps.

“Ssh, baby,” Lois murmured. She looked to Brianne. “We should finish this another time.”

“Lois, Ned, why don’t we go in the kitchen?” Lucky stood. “I think Brooke will do better if the room isn’t crowded.”

“No,” Lois said. She wrapped her arm around Brooke’s shoulders. “Why don’t you take a nap or–”

“Ms. Cerullo, I’ll have to ask you to follow Sergeant Spencer into the kitchen,” Brianne broke in. “The preliminary hearing is tomorrow and I need your daughter’s statement. It might be better if you weren’t in the room.”

“Can’t you see this is upsetting her?” Lois snapped.

“Lois,” Ned said softly. “We have to cooperate.”

“Oh, don’t you start!” Lois stood and glared at him before turning her anger on the ADA. “You have the nerve to come in here and ask my daughter insulting questions and then when she’s obviously upset by them, you just keep on going,” she seethed with mounting rage. “Do you have any compassion, any heart?”

Brianne flinched but before she could defend herself, Ned strode forward and took Lois by the arm, shaking her a little. “Do you think a defense attorney is going to be any gentler?” he demanded contemptuously. “Do you think he’s going to stop and wait for her to gather her thoughts before asking for more details? He’s going to try and break her on the stand, Lois–”

“What the hell do you care?” Lois spat with burning, reproachful eyes. “You’re barely even her father, you–”

“Stop it, just stop it!” Brooke cried, miserably. She sprang to her feet and glared at her parents. “This isn’t about either one of you. Do you think it makes any better for the two of you tear each other part?” She shoved her father away from her mother. “Go sit down,” she ordered before whirling to Lois. “And stop trying to protect me! You can’t! You can’t keep bad things from happening. They already have and I have to do this, no matter how much it hurts.”

Lois pressed her lips together and sat down hard. “Fine,” she said shortly. “Carry on.”

Brooke sat down slowly. “He pulled me into the kitchen,” she continued. Her voice was hushed and thick with tears–both from the confrontation of a few moments ago and memories of a night that had never really ended. “He shoved me against the counter so hard that I have bruises here,” she rubbed the small of her back.

She breathed in air almost greedily before continuing. “He tried to tear my shirt but it wouldn’t rip. He tried to kiss me again but I scratched his face and he hit me. It was so hard, I could feel my teeth rattle.” She touched her cheek where the bruise still bloomed dark purple. “He went for my shirt again but it still wouldn’t rip so he started yanking at my skirt.”

Lucky slowly sat back down, his knees feeling slightly week. Across the room, Ned began to pace. If he was ever in the same room as that scum….

“I heard the zipper on my skirt but I kept fighting and I hit him again. I tried to knee him but he hit me again. He threw me to the floor and I hit my head against the side of the stove.” Brooke hesitated. “It’s not really clear after that. I guess I might have blacked out. They said I had a concussion. The next thing I remembered, the kitchen was empty, my skirt was torn and my–” she swallowed and colored a little. “My panties were gone. I was sore all over but especially…between my legs.” She clenched her hands into fists. “That’s when Mike came back.”

Brianne exhaled slowly and closed her legal pad. “Brooke, tomorrow is the preliminary hearing where the judge decides if there’s enough evidence to be bound over for trial. I don’t want you to worry about that.” Her hands were shaking just a little as she slid the pad into her bag. “There’s enough physical evidence without me having to put you on the stand. I just wanted to get your statement today in case I had to. He will be bound over for trial, there’s no doubt in my mind about that.”

“And that’s when he’s going to tell people that I like rough sex,” Brooke said in a small voice. “Can he really get on the stand and say that? Lie?”

“Yes. He’s allowed to put a on a defense. However, thanks to Sergeant Spencer, we’re ready for him. We have a list of rebuttal witnesses, including your own boyfriend who are ready to testify that there was nothing but friendship. We have the doctor’s report that says you were raped. And honestly, we have your background working for us.”

“Because I’m a Quartermaine and he’s a foster kid,” Brooke said resigned.

“At least being a part of this family is good for something,” Ned muttered.

“Essentially.” Brianne stood and put her coat on. “The hearing is tomorrow at 9 AM. I’ll need you and your family to attend. To put a face on the statement, so to speak.”

Brooke nodded. “That’s fine, right Ma?” she asked, turning to Lois.

“It’s fine.” Lois looked at Brianne coolly. “If you cross examine that little scum half as well as you interrogated my daughter, we should be fine.”

Brianne remained silent, looping her bag over her shoulder and heading for the door. Lucky stood and said his goodbyes and followed her.

“She’ll hold up on the stand,” Lucky said as he followed her down the walk. Brianne ignored him and continued past the Quartermaine mansion to where her car was parked on the estate’s driveway. He hesitated a moment and stared after her before quickening his pace.

His long stride put him in front of her and Lucky slipped in to block her hand from opening the car door. “Hey, wait a second–”

Brianne jerked away. “I have to go.” She clenched her fists until her nails bit into her palms. “I have to get back to work.”

“You can take five seconds.” Lucky cocked his head to the side. “Lois is just upset. She didn’t mean what she said.”

Brianne huffed. “Of course not. Her daughter was brutally raped and beaten. She’s allowed to lash out.” She inched away from him. “What is your problem?”

“Nothing.” Lucky stepped back. “Are you going to interview any other of the other witnesses today?”

“Yes but I won’t need you.” Brianne turned and yanked her car door open. “Thank you very much. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Lucky’s hand shot out and he gripped the edge of the door to keep her from simply getting in the car and driving away. “Lucas is my cousin. He trusts me. And Georgie and Maxie are his cousins. They’ll cooperate more if I’m there.”

“You can’t be there all the time. You can’t protect them. Bad things happen all the time and there’s nothing you can do about it,” Brianne said stiffly. “So back off and let me do my job.”

Lucky blinked. Stepped back again. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Ms. Joyce.”

She got into the driver’s seat, slammed the car door shut and started the car. With a roar of an engine and the squealing of some tires, Brianne pealed out of the driveway, leaving Lucky to stare after her.

Wyndemere: Nikolas’s Office

“Hey, Jason.” Nikolas stood as Richards showed Jason into the newly renovated office. Stefan had used it when they first bought the Gothic mansion and Nikolas had it closed up when his uncle left for Greece. He felt ready, now, to embrace that part of his past. “I’m glad you came by.”

“I told Emily not to get her hopes up,” Jason remarked. He shook Nikolas’s hand and sat in the chair in front of Nikolas’s thick mahogany desk. “I was only coming to hear about the job.”

“Right, right.” Nikolas took his seat. “Well, since my uncle’s death last year, I’ve been working to rebuild the empire my family used to possess. I haven’t been able to put my full attention into it but I’ve had advisors doing most of it. We’ve got a lot of properties overseas. And we’re doing some work for other agencies, hence the need for a securities expert.” He shuffled through some papers. “In addition to overseeing the security for every building owned by Cassadine Industries, you would be expected to fly out and be present for the larger jobs or any emergencies. You would have the Cassadine Jet at your disposal of course.”

“And why exactly do you think I’d do well at this?” Jason asked after a long moment.

“Providing security has always and will always be one of your best personality traits,” Nikolas said. “When Emily suggested you, I immediately agreed. You have experience with a lot of the technology, you seem to have the capacity to expand on that and you don’t strike me as someone who’s afraid to try something new. Something better. What’s at your core, Jason, is someone who knows how to make people safe. Or at least feel that they are.”

Jason hesitated. He stood and moved towards the fireplace, where a fire was crackling. He stared into the flames for a moment before looking back at Nikolas. “Emily would have told you about Elizabeth.”

“That Cameron is your son, yes.” Nikolas shrugged and leaned back in his chair. “I knew.” When Jason’s expression stilled, Nikolas let his lips curve into a smile. “I’m not stupid, Jason. I knew he wasn’t Zander’s son. When Elizabeth came home in June, I hadn’t yet regained my memory. When I had, I was upset that I had missed Cameron’s birth. You know how much she loves him and I was sorry that I’d missed something so important. I was worried that he’d been born in early May. Which meant she’d been pregnant barely seven months. I inquired into his health and Elizabeth told me he’d been full term. A slip on her part, but it didn’t take long to understand that when Cameron was conceived, Emily and Zander were still together. Elizabeth was still parted from Ric.”

“You knew months ago?” Jason asked, suspiciously. “And you said nothing.”

“This was Elizabeth’s secret. I didn’t know that she’d told you and I haven’t always been deserving of her trust. I kept it to myself.” Nikolas laced his fingers together. “What I do want to know is if you intend to fix things between the two of you.”

“Yes,” Jason said. “I do. But I don’t want that to have anything to do with this job. It’s important that my job be separate from my personal life.”

Nikolas nodded slowly. “Have you told Sonny you’re leaving the organization?”

“No.” Jason paused. “I only decided over the weekend. Part of my problems with Elizabeth stemmed from my job. I want to remove that from the equation. I want regular hours–emergencies not included.”

“Naturally. And when you do have to travel, you can always take her with you.” Nikolas stood. “I trust Elizabeth to know what she’s doing and while she’s made choices I don’t always understand, I don’t hold them against her. She’s made the choice to be with you more times than I personally think you deserve. But only she knows why she’s doing it.” He held Jason’s gaze with dark, sober eyes. “Don’t make her regret it.”

Jason held his hand out. “Do we have a deal?”

Nikolas shook it. “Welcome to Cassadine Industries.”

General Hospital: Sam McCall’s Room

Sam smiled faintly when she saw Jason enter the room. “Hey, stranger.”

“Hey.” He sat in the chair next to her bed. “I was here for a few hours last night but you were asleep.” He shifted. “How are you?”

“Empty.” She sighed and rested her head against the pillow, closing her eyes. “Did you work things out with Elizabeth that morning?”

Jason sighed and bowed his head. “I am so sorry I wasn’t there–”

“Hey, hey…” Sam shook her head. “I told you to go. I wanted you to fix things with her. No one could have seen this coming.” A hand came up to rest on her abdomen, still swollen from pregnancy. “The doctor said that there wasn’t much of a chance that she would have survived no matter how fast I was rushed to the hospital.”

“But there was one–”

“Sure,” Sam sighed. She rubbed her eyes. “Jason, I don’t blame you. And if Sonny did, well–he doesn’t now. The only person left who blames you is you.” She reached her hand out to him and he took it. “Did you work things out?” she repeated.

“Not so much,” Jason admitted. “I’ve hurt her so much, Sam.”

“People recover from being hurt,” Sam murmured. “If you’re hurt, you can feel. And if you can feel, you’re human. It’d be nice not to have to hurt anyone, Jason, but it’s not a promise you can ever make and…what a boring life it would be if we never had our heart broken once in a while.” She squeezed his hand. “You’ll fix it with her, right?”

“Yeah.” Jason exhaled slowly. “I’m going to fix it.”

General Hospital: Vending Machines

Sonny was getting some coffee when Jason strode up to him. “Hey, have you been to see Sam?” he asked.

Jason nodded and slipped his hands into his pockets. “Do you have a minute?”

“Sure.” Sonny sipped the coffee and grimaced. “This tastes awful,” he muttered.

“There’s no easy way to say this and I’m tired of trying to find the right words for everything.” Jason took a deep breath. “Cameron’s my son. Biologically, legally and in every other way that matters.”

This entry is part 10 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

November 8, 2004

Gatehouse: Living Room

Elizabeth sat down in the arm chair and smiled nervously at Lois Cerullo. “I wasn’t sure if Emily mentioned I’d be by today.”

“She did.” Lois played the hem of her pink sweater nervously. “I appreciate whatever you can do for my daughter, Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth nodded but inside, she wondered if she’d be any good to Brooke right now. She felt empty. Hollow. Jason had been gone when she came back downstairs on Friday and she’d spent two days waiting for the second shoe to fall. No word from Jason, no inkling he’d told anyone the truth.

“Seeing you gives me hope,” Lois broke into Elizabeth’s thoughts. “This–this happened to you and you’ve risen up. You have a son, a life. You smile. If Ned hadn’t told me what happened, I wouldn’t have guessed.”

“It wasn’t overnight,” Elizabeth said, though the words warmed her heart. She had risen above her tragedy. Overcome it. She wasn’t the girl in the park any longer. “But I had an incredible support system. I hear that Brooke has one as well.”

“She’s got me and Ned,” Lois nodded. “And her family. Her friends. Dillon, the Jones girls, and her boyfriend has just–Lucas has never wavered.”

“He’s a good kid,” Elizabeth nodded. She looked up as Ned led Brooke into the room. She kept her face calm and composed but the bruises on the girl’s face broke her heart. No one should have to go through this. “Hey.”

“Thank you for coming, Elizabeth,” Ned said. He kissed his daughter’s cheek and tried to ignore the flinch. He looked to Lois. “We should give them some time.”

“I–” Lois hadn’t been that far from her daughter’s side since it happened but perhaps now would be a good chance to tell Ned about Lorenzo’s connection to Diego before anyone else could. “All right. Brookie, if you need me, we’ll be up at the main house.”

Brooke nodded and sat in her mother’s vacated seat. When they were gone, she smiled nervously at Elizabeth. “Hey.”

“Hey. I know–I know we don’t know each other but Emily asked me to come by and see if I could offer anything,” Elizabeth said uncomfortably.

“My dad said it happened to you,” Brooke said after a moment. She stared at her hands while she asked this.

“It did,” Elizabeth admitted softly. “I was a little younger than you. Fifteen.”

Brooke yanked her startled eyes to Elizabeth’s calm ones. “Fifteen?” she repeated. “That’s so horrible.”

“It’s horrible no matter when it happens,” Elizabeth said softly. “Seventeen, fifteen, twenty-five–it’s always horrible.”

Brooke nodded. “Did–did they ever find him? Did you know him?” she asked hesitantly.

“I did all the wrong things when it happened,” Elizabeth said, almost wistfully. “I showered. I refused to go to the police. By the time I reported it, the case was cold and it was later ruled inactive. So for a long time, I didn’t think I would find him. And I think I might have slowly gone mad. Believing every man I saw might have done it.” She took a deep breath. “But eventually, through a coincidence we found him. He went to prison on another crime but he’s serving time now.”

Brooke exhaled slowly. “Was it someone you knew?”

“Not really. I mean, he was someone Emily knew. It was her photographer,” Elizabeth admitted. “But not someone I was personally acquainted with.”

“Diego…he was supposed to be my friend,” Brooke said in a small voice. “Do you think it’s worse if it’s someone you know, someone you trusted?”

Elizabeth hesitated. “In a way…probably.” She joined Brooke on the couch. “I think it’s different for everyone. I couldn’t tell anyone and I didn’t even tell my own family for almost a month. Lucky Spencer found me that night and his father knew, his aunt. But I refused to tell anyone and didn’t tell my closest friends for months. I couldn’t bear for anyone to know. I thought–” she hesitated. “Before I was raped, I dressed in tight clothing. Short skirts, tight jeans, anything I thought might get Lucky’s attention. So part of me thought they would blame me. Say that I had brought it on myself.”

Brooke nodded, her throat tight. “I thought maybe I led Diego on someway. Like…let him think I felt that way for him. I didn’t–I never thought he was more than friend. I have a boyfriend you know.” She swiped at her eyes. “Not that he’s really my boyfriend anymore.”

“Why?” Elizabeth asked softly. “Has he said anything?”

“No,” Brooke admitted. “But–well, don’t you think it’s only a matter of time?”

“I know why you feel it has to be,” Elizabeth admitted. “It was almost a year before I let Lucky kiss me. Six months before I could really stand anyone’s touch. And it was nearly three years before I became intimate with Lucky. See…I was a virgin when it happened to me.”

Brooke cleared her throat and her dark watery eyes met Elizabeth’s warm blue ones. “Me too.”

Elizabeth went with instinct and put her arms around the younger girl. Brooke pressed her face into Elizabeth’s neck and started to sob.

General Hospital: Sam McCall’s Room

Sam blinked. She moved her head to the side and smiled faintly when she saw Sonny slouched in a chair at her side. “That can’t be comfortable,” she murmured.

He sat up at her voice and rubbed his eyes. “Sam. You’re awake.”

“Mmm…I feel so groggy,” she said softly. She tried to sit up, but pain spread through her lower body. Her eyes darted to her abdomen and instantly she knew what was different. What was wrong. “Where is she?” Sam asked softly.

Sonny hesitated. “Friday morning, you were rushed to the ER. You were bleeding.”

Sam stared at him. “Where is she?” she repeated.

“She was stillborn,” Sonny said after a long moment. “She–she was deprived oxygen and she died.” He took a deep breath. “Sam, I’m–I’m so sorry.”

“No.” Sam shook her head. “No, I won’t–I won’t accept that. No!” she yanked her hands away from him as he reached for them. “Where’s Jason?” she demanded shrilly. “He’ll tell me the truth!”

“He’s not here right now.”

“I want Jason,” Sam said. “He should be here. She was his, too.” Tears slid down her cheeks, but she didn’t seem to register that. “How could you let her die?” she demanded.

“Sam–”

“Don’t touch me!” she cried, smacking his hands. “I don’t want you to touch me. I want to see my daughter!”

Sonny stood and took her hands in his almost forcefully. “Calm down,” he ordered. “You’ll tear your stitches.”

“I don’t care!” Sam struggled to pull her hands from his strong grasp. “Where’s Jason?”

“I’ll call him,” Sonny sighed. He let her hands go. “And I’ll tell the doctor you’re awake.” He stood and looked at her intently for a moment, then strode to the door.

“Sonny–” Sam swallowed hard. He turned in mid stride. “Did she suffer?” she asked quietly. “Did she hurt?”

“She never drew a breath,” Sonny sat back down. “She didn’t feel anything.”

“What day is it?” Sam clenched the sheets of her bed. “Saturday?”

“Monday,” Sonny corrected. He brushed her hair out of her eyes with a sad faint smile. “You’ve been in a coma.”

“Did you see her?” Sam asked. She brushed at the tears. “Was she beautiful?”

“She was,” Sonny replied. “We wanted to wait until you woke up to talk about arrangements. Names.”

Sam nodded slowly. “Adella Leigh,” she whispered. “Adella Leigh Corinthos. That’s what we should name her.”

Sonny exhaled slowly and nodded. “All right then. Adella Leigh. I’ll get a doctor.”

PCPD: Squad Room

Brianne set her file on Lucky Spencer’s desk. “I’m sorry I’m late,” she said, tugging her black pea coat off and draping it across the chair that sat in front of the desk. “My alarm didn’t go off this morning.”

“It’s fine.” Lucky waited until she was seated. “Mac gave me his notes. I’m not sure why you needed to meet with me.”

Brianne sighed. “I’m going to meet with Brooke Lynn tomorrow and I want to make sure I’ve got all my bases covered. The preliminary hearing is Wednesday. I’ll be calling the investigating officer.”

“He’ll be bound over for trial, there’s no chance he won’t,” Lucky replied. His eyes darkened. “The sick twisted little bastard.”

She rubbed her temple. “I’m the lawyer, you’re the cop. Let’s just pretend for a second that I know what I need to happen in that court room, okay?”

He smirked. “Okay, okay. I’m sorry. What do you need from me?”

“First of all, I need an exact run down of her injuries.” Brianne uncapped her pen and poised it over her legal pad.”

Lucky flipped to the medical report. “Brooke had a broken nose, a broken arm, a concussion. Three of her ribs were bruised and she had various bruising and cuts on her face and arms. The doctor ran the rape kit at the hospital and Mac supervised. The kit was positive for semen which later matched Diego Sanchez’s DNA. We also have photographs of all her bruising and surface injuries.”

Brianne nodded and finished writing that down. “Diego has said she consented and her injuries are a result of rough sex. Is there any evidence that points that way?”

“You know Mac said you’d ask something stupid like that,” Lucky muttered.

Brianne set her pen down and leveled a cool stare at him. “He’s going to be saying that in court. His lawyer is going to attack that poor girl on the stand. I owe it to her to ask first and to be ready for it. I’m sorry that you and Commissioner Scorpio don’t seem to understand that.”

“No,” Lucky said reluctantly. “I’m sorry. You’re absolutely right. It just–it’s irritating to think he could even get to say that in public.” He shook his head. “There’s no evidence that backs that up. Brooke was dating Lucas Jones, had been for about two months. Her friends say Diego was just a friend. I stopped by the high school on Friday,” he told her. “And I talked to some kids–with parental permission of course. Diego had only been in school for a month. The only person they really saw Brooke with was Lucas. She, Georgie and Maxie Jones, Lucas and Dillon Quartermaine had a little group and Diego was really only on the edges. I got the impression they thought she felt sorry for him.”

“Good, good.” Brianne noted that. “I’ll need a list of names of those kids. If we need rebuttal witnesses.”

He slid a sheet of paper towards her. “Have you ever first chaired a case before?”

“No,” Brianne admitted. “Have you ever worked on a case like this before?”

“Not officially,” Lucky said cryptically. He leaned back in his chair. “Why would you pick something like this for your first case?”

“Because it’s an important case,” Brianne remarked. She slid her legal pad in her bag. “The Quartermaines are attached to it. And it appears that Lorenzo Alcazar is as well. It’d be a good way to make a name for myself.”

He nodded. “It would.” He paused. “But I don’t think that’s why.”

She stood and pulled her coat back on. “Well then I guess it’s a good thing I don’t care what you think.” She slid the bag over her shoulder. “I’ll see you tomorrow. We have an appointment to meet with Brooke Lynn at ten o’clock and I think it would help if you were present.”

“I’ll see you there.” He watched with considering eyes as the assistant district attorney walked briskly out of the squad room.

Kelly’s

Emily found her brother sitting at a corner table back near the counter. She pulled off her scarf and gloves as she made her way back there. She planted the scarf and gloves on the table and her coat on the chair. “Hey.”

“Hey.” Jason rubbed the back of his neck. “I wanted to wait to talk to you about this. I wasn’t sure how I felt about it all myself, so–”

“You can save it. I talked to Elizabeth yesterday,” Emily said briskly. A waitress came over and she ordered a hot chocolate. Jason ordered black coffee. When they were alone again, she continued, “I can’t say that I don’t feel bad about the way things happened. I think I may have had a little to do with it. I said some things to Elizabeth I shouldn’t have and I know her brother may have had something to do with her change of heart. However, I whole hearted applaud her newfound backbone.”

Jason stared at her. “I’m not really sure what you’re saying.”

“I’m saying you treated her like dirt and I am so very disappointed in you. This isn’t the brother I’ve loved and respected for so many years. And then when she stands up for herself, gives you the ultimatum you so damn well deserved, you leave her.” Emily accepted the cup of hot chocolate and sipped it. “She’s devastated naturally.”

Jason didn’t even register the coffee set in front of him. “She threw me out.”

“You didn’t really live there. You don’t really live anywhere,” Emily murmured. Her brisk tone fell to the wayside and she peered at him through dark watery eyes. “I feel so very sorry for you, Jason. You had everything and you chose nothing instead.” She set the cup down and took a deep breath. “She told me that you were going to deed the penthouse to Sam. That’s a good idea. There aren’t a lot of happy memories there anyway. So you’ll need somewhere new to live. In a good neighborhood for Cameron.”

Jason blinked and looked away. “You’re right,” he said roughly. “I woke in the hospital seven years ago with no memory, no family, no friends. I had nothing. And despite everything between, that’s all I have now.”

“No.” Emily shook her head. “You’re still my brother, Jason. And I still love you. I’m just not that thrilled with you.” She reached across the table and took his hand in hers. “You have always been my rock. Always there for me, never failing, never faltering. Let me be that for you.”

“I’m not going to work for Sonny anymore,” he said after a long moment. “I don’t think it’s done anything good for me in years and I think it’s time I left the organization for good.”

“I think that would be an excellent idea,” Emily said. She sat back and a smile crossed her face. “But I know the Cassadine Industries could use a security expert to oversee everything. Nikolas has been expanding the business over the last year and it’s quite the little empire. It’d be challenging which I think would be something you’d want. But more, it would be safe. For a family.”

Jason studied his sister for a moment. “You’ve talked this over with Nikolas already.”

“I talked to him on Friday. It was obvious something in your life was going to have to change. I didn’t think you’d decide to leave Sonny just now but I had hoped to offer this alternative to you.” Powerful relief flooded her veins as Emily realized her brother was actually considering this. “Nikolas would have the rest of the details and when I suggested you fill the position, he was really happy about it.”

“Emily, I appreciate it. I do. But I–”

“No, no, don’t say no yet.” Emily leaned forward. “Talk to Nikolas first. Just talk to him. If you’re really not interested, then okay. But please just give it a chance, okay?”

“Okay,” Jason said after a moment. “Would you help me find an apartment?”

Emily sat back and sighed. “You’re really going through with this.”

“I have to be in Cameron’s life,” Jason said, his voice resigned. “After the way I treated Elizabeth, she had every right to throw me out. I don’t deserve to ask her for her more.”

“What about what she deserves?” Emily asked softly. “She deserves a family. Someone who loves her. Elizabeth deserves you, Jason.”

“Not now,” Jason shook his head. “I have nothing to offer her.” He paused a moment. “Will you help me find an apartment?”

“All right,” Emily replied. She leveled one last glare at him. “Idiot.”

General Hospital: Board Room

Alexis tapped a pen against a note pad and sat straight when Ned entered. “Ned. What’re you doing here?”

“There’s a board meeting.” Ned rounded the table and took a seat next to the head of the table, across from Alexis. “I heard you’d been reappointed the counsel to the hospital.”

She nodded slowly. “You’ve heard about Kristina.”

“I’m glad she’s all right,” Ned told her. “It was a good thing a donor was found.”

She bit her lip. “I was sorry about Brooke Lynn. I–I can’t imagine what that must be like.”

“I don’t want to talk about it,” Ned said briskly. He opened a folder. “So Sonny knows the truth. Has he filed for custody yet?”

“No,” Alexis said, a little stung. She sat back and shifted in her seat. “We agreed that we would wait until she was recovered and back at home before we talked about that. That Kristina’s welfare came first.”

“He agreed to that?” Ned remarked caustically. “I’d watch my back, Alexis. He does nothing that’s not in his own interest.” He flipped through the papers idly, not really looking at them. “I hear congratulations were in order.” He glanced at her naked finger. “No ring.”

“It was rather sudden.” Alexis covered her left hand with her right. “We haven’t had time for traditional things.”

“Ric Lansing.” Ned looked at her and though his face remained expressionless, Alexis had the feeling he was mocking her. “And I had my issues with Sonny.”

“I’m not sure you have room to judge,” Alexis said, a little haughtily. She tapped her pen more incessantly against the legal pad. “Five seconds after you realized Skye wasn’t your cousin, you were trying to sleep with her. And might I add, Faith Roscoe wasn’t one of your better choices.”

“Says the woman who’s only healthy relationship is with her profession,” Ned replied with heavy irony.

She bit down hard on her lower lip and trapped her words back. He was going through a difficult time as a parent. He needed to lash out, Alexis reminded herself. They’d been friends once. Good friends. She took a deep calming breath. “He makes me feel a little less alone,” she murmured. “A little less isolated.”

Ned closed the manila folder slowly. “Brooke was sitting in her room this morning,” he said slowly, “and she was staring at a blank white wall. I called her name for almost a full minute before she heard me. I came here in a rotten mood and I took it out on you, Alexis. I’m sorry.”

“It’s all right. I’ve taken things out on you plenty of times.” She offered him a faint smile. “Who else can you treat like dirt if not your friends?”

General Hospital: Nurse’s Desk

“Clean bill of health,” Elizabeth remarked as she met her grandmother at the nurse’s desk. She leaned over and touched her son’s cheek. “Was he okay?”

“He was a perfect angel,” Audrey beamed. She looked at her great-grandchild with pride. “He has his great-grandfather’s nose.”

Cameron had a pudgy nose that looked nothing like her grandfather’s but Elizabeth merely smiled and let her grandmother have her beliefs. “Steven says I’m just fine and I’ll be back at work tomorrow.”

“Good. I have tomorrow off and it would be my pleasure to sit with Cameron.” Audrey crouched down next to the carriage and trailed a finger down his chubby cheek. She frowned and pressed her hand more fully to his skin. “Elizabeth, darling, he’s warm.”

Elizabeth’s smile faded. “Warm?” She knelt in front of her son and touched his cheek. Cameron did indeed feel warm. His face was mildly flushed. Slightly panicked, Elizabeth lifted him into her arms and searched for a doctor.

“He’s probably just got a little case of the sniffles,” Audrey said with a nervous smile. “I’m sure he’s fine.” But she rounded the nurse’s desk and paged Steven.

Her brother stepped off the elevator a moment later and frowned when he saw Elizabeth’s glassy eyes. “Bits? What’s wrong? Did you run into Jason?”

“Jason?” Audrey questioned. “What does Jason have to do with anything?”

Ignoring her grandmother, Elizabeth shifted Cameron to Steven’s arms. “He’s warm. And he’s flushed.”

“All right, all right.” Steven adjusted Cameron in his arms and peered into the infant’s face. “His eyes do look a little bright. He may have a small cold.”

“May?” Elizabeth narrowed her eyes and poked him directly in the chest, her red finger nail digging into the white fabric of his lab jacket. “Listen, Doogie, I don’t have the patience for maybes and might bes. You fix him, and you fix him now.”

“Okay, okay.” Mildly amused now, Steven shifted Cameron higher into his arms. “You haven’t called me Doogie in years.”

If flames could have shot out of her eyes, they very well would have as Elizabeth and her grandmother followed Steven into an examining room.

After a brief examination, Steven deduced that his nephew did indeed have a cold and ear infection. He wrote Elizabeth a prescription for Cameron–ear drops and a cough syrup to handle the rest.

“You’ll want to keep him inside, so you probably should take the week off instead of coming back to work,” Steven told her.

“See, everything is just fine, darling.” Audrey kissed Elizabeth’s cheek and squeezed Steven’s shoulder. “Now I have to start my shift. You call me if you need anything, all right?”

“Right, Gram.” Elizabeth watched her grandmother disappear out the door. “I–I’m sorry I snapped at you, Steven. I just–he’s the most important person in the world to me.”

“I totally understand.” Steven kissed Cameron’s forehead and ruffled the baby’s soft dark hair. “He’s pretty important to me, too, Bits.”

She smiled faintly at the nickname. “And don’t mention Jason in front of Gram. Not yet. I’m trying to think of the best way to tell her.”

“You know…” Steven hesitated. “Jason not telling Sonny or Carly…is almost like you not wanting to tell Gram. Or wanting Mom, Dad or Sarah to know about Cameron at all. You know that they won’t accept it. Won’t understand. So you don’t tell them.”

Elizabeth arched an eyebrow. “Playing Devil’s advocate?”

“I’m just saying I do understand his initial reasons for keeping this all to himself,” Steven remarked. He put Cameron into the carriage and secured him. “My issue isn’t with the secret. It’s the way he keeps it. The way he treats you. His son. I honestly believe he loves you so it’s hard to understand why he’d do it.”

“Steven, I don’t really want to dissect Jason’s mind right now. I want to take my son, go home and forget about the whole thing.” She grimaced. “Except for where I have to call Jason and tell him Cam’s sick.”

Brownstone: Living Room

Carly came down the steps and smiled hesitantly at Jason. “Morgan’s napping and I managed to keep Michael upstairs by promising you’d stop up before you go.”

Jason nodded and remained standing next to the sofa. “Bobbie at work?”

“She’s got a late shift.” Carly folded her arms and looked at the ground. “So, listen, Jase, I know I haven’t always been the kind of friend you wanted me to be.”

“I never wanted you to be anyone but yourself,” Jason corrected quickly.

“Well…you’re a better person than me.” She met his eyes. “I know you’ve been seeing Elizabeth. That you were with her the morning Sam lost the baby.”

He blinked. “What?”

“I–I was talking with Steven Webber when Mama told us they couldn’t find you. He said he had to make a call and left. Jase…the only person you and Steven have in common is his sister. He wouldn’t confirm it, so don’t be mad at him.”

“I’m not,” Jason said after a moment. “I came here to tell you that.”

She nodded. “I know that you kept it from me, from Sonny. And I know that you expected me to throw some sort of hissy fit about how she’s not good enough for you and all that stuff.” She shrugged. “Two weeks ago, you may have been right.”

“Carly–”

“But it’s okay,” she hurried on. “I–I’m glad that you’ve found someone. And though I don’t really like her, she’s always put you first. And I think that’s something you need–”

“We’re not together anymore,” Jason interrupted abruptly.

Carly closed her mouth and frowned. “I don’t understand.”

“We were.” Jason took a deep breath. “Carly, Cameron’s my son.”

“I–” Carly exhaled slowly. “Your son.”

“Yes. Last fall…Elizabeth and I–I don’t know how to describe it,” Jason hesitated. “It wasn’t an affair. We were both–I was going to break things off with Courtney but she was still recovering from the miscarriage…and the pills. I didn’t know how to do it. And when Courtney set the date for the wedding, Elizabeth thought–” he shook his head. “It doesn’t matter. We broke things off. She didn’t realize Cameron was mine until the doctors readjusted her due date.”

“And you’ve been sneaking off to be with him, with her,” Carly murmured. Memories of not being able to reach Jason on his phone, of his strange and sudden disappearances began to filter through her mind. “Was it her idea to keep the secret or yours?”

“Mine,” Jason said with some regret. “Elizabeth agreed and we both thought it was temporary. But one day after another passed and before I realized it, she was telling me that as far as she was concerned I wasn’t being a father to Cameron and she couldn’t be with someone she didn’t respect.”

“Jason…” Carly let her hands fall to side. “When did this happen?”

“Friday.” He dragged his fingers through his hair. “And she was right. So I’m telling you the truth. I’ll tell Sonny about Cameron, but he found out about Elizabeth Friday morning.”

“And Courtney?” Carly asked.

“I’ll deal with that. I don’t want to hurt her. But I don’t want her to hear it from anyone else,” he told her. “Carly–are you okay with this?”

“Well, let’s see.” Carly folded her arms again and took a few steps towards him. She turned and took a few steps away. She faced him. “You have a son. A little boy that probably looks like you, that’s going to grow up and know you’re his father. And if I can give Elizabeth any credit at all, she’s not going to keep you from him. I’m very happy for you,” Carly continued, “but I wonder if there’s anything I can do regarding the rest of it. Can I talk to her? What?”

Some of tension bled from his shoulders and Jason relaxed a little. “No. No, I’ll handle that. But I’m sorry that I underestimated you. I thought you’d take this differently.”

“Well, Jason, I’m sorry to burst your little bubble there but you pegged me pretty right. If you had told me about this months ago, I would have. But things have changed.” She smiled faintly. “I suppose I have.”

Jason’s cell rang and he took it from his pocket, noting he had a missed message. He flipped it on. “Hello?”

“Jason…” Elizabeth paused. “Hey.”

“Hey.” He shifted, turned away from Carly. “Are you–is everything okay?”

“Yeah…well…Cameron’s got a cold…and an ear infection.” There was another pause and he could almost see her, sitting on the sofa in the cottage trying to decide what to say to him. “He’s all right, I mean we’ve got medicine and he’s sleeping. I thought you should know.”

“I’ll be right over,” Jason told her. “We–we have to talk.”

“I know.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “I’ll see you when you get here.” There was a click and he knew she’d hung up. Jason clicked to listen to his one message. When it finished, he slid the phone in his pocket and turned to Carly, who was trying to hide her curiosity.

“The message was from Sonny. Sam woke up.” He stared past her, out the window and into the street. “She isn’t taking the whole thing very well and she asked for me.”

“And what did Elizabeth say?” Carly asked.

“How’d you know it was her on the phone?” Jason asked.

“Your voice.” Her lips curved. “It changed. It was very cute, Jase, by the way. What did she want?”

“Cameron. He has a cold. An ear infection.” He met her eyes. “I told her I’d be over.”

“Well, you should go,” Carly said. “Sam’s a big girl. Sonny’s with her.” Her lips twisted into a wry smile. “And I can’t believe I said that without wanting to be sick.” She shook her head. “But you already know what you should do.”

Cottage: Living Room

It was nearly midnight when Jason got to the cottage. Elizabeth was curled up in a ball, on the corner of the couch, watching the local news. She turned as he stepped off the front landing into the living room. “I expected you a few hours ago,” she murmured. She took a glass of water from the table next to the sofa and sipped it. “Cameron’s been up and down most of the night. You should go see him.”

“Sam woke up,” Jason said after a long moment of silence. “I stopped by the hospital to see her. I only intended to stay a minute but…” he shook his head. “No excuses. I should have called.”

Elizabeth stared into the glass. “Is she all right?”

“Physically, yes. Sonny’s still with her.” Jason shifted and stared down at the top of her head. “I spoke to Carly today. I told her about Cameron.”

She glanced up sharply. “You did?”

“She knew part of it.” He rounded the sofa and sat gingerly at the other end. “She thought what Sonny had. That we were seeing each other after you got back from Napa Valley.”

“But now?” Elizabeth prompted.

“She’s okay with it.” He stared at the television, not registering what was on the screen. “I’m trying to find the right moment to tell Sonny, I promise you. He’s just lost his daughter. He’s got Kristina to deal with. Sam…I’m not putting it off–”

“Jason…I don’t expect you to run right out and do it. I know Sonny’s going through some stuff.” Elizabeth curled her legs underneath her. “I’m not asking you to make Cameron your only priority. I’m just asking for him to be your first.”

“I know.” He looked at her. “What about you?”

“What about me?” she murmured.

“What happened between us Friday afternoon…” Jason hesitated and looked away. “It doesn’t change anything. I love you.”

“I love you, too,” Elizabeth said softly. “But it doesn’t ever seem to be enough.”

“This time, that’s my fault.” He stood and faced her. “I talked about making you and Cameron the number one priority in my life. I said that I loved you, that I wanted a family. I broke my own rule, Elizabeth. My words meant nothing. I never wanted that.” He shook his head. “I never used to be like that.”

“You meant them when you said them,” Elizabeth murmured. “I don’t think you know what you want, Jason. Or how to make it happen.”

“I know that I love you,” he said solemnly. “And that I’m not willing to just…let this go. I’ve done that. I’ve let you go too many times and we always seem to end up back here. I’m not doing this again. I have to ask you for something. I don’t deserve it but–”

“What is it?” Elizabeth asked. She looked up at him, met his eyes and held them.

“Don’t give up on us yet,” Jason said. “Please.”

“As long as you don’t get married,” Elizabeth said, only half-joking. She stood and touched his cheek. “I love you Jason. I won’t give up.”

He nodded and then stepped back from her. “I should go see Cameron.”

She nodded and watched him leave the room. She should feel relieved but somehow, she only felt sad.

January 3, 2015

sitenewsWelcome to 2015! I’ve uploaded a new layout, but I’m still tweaking it. I’m still learning the ins and outs of designing for WordPress (particularly the comment section) but I’m satisfied with the way it’s coming along. I recently found my General Hospital CD with my picture collection dating from 2002-2005, which is fantastic, so I celebrated with a few old photos in the top layer.

Yesterdays is now the featured story until the beginning of March. It’s one of my personal favorite alternate universe stories so if you haven’t read it, please check it out.

I’ll be back on Monday with updates for the Fiction Graveyard 🙂

December 31, 2014

Happy New Year’s Eve!

I added Part Eight and the epilogue to All I Want For Christmas, which draws that story to a close. The Best Thing, Chapter Fifteen has also been added.

There’s some housekeeping that has to happen with those — All I Want being moved to the completed section, some ebook links added and whatnot. I’ll take care of that today before I go out.

If you check out the ebook section, you’ll see I added an in progress section. If you’ve fallen behind on The Best Thing at all, you can now read in progress versions of the ebooks so you can catch up at your leisure. Every time I update the story, I’ll update those files.

Have a great New Year’s! I’ll be back at some point this weekend, hopefully with a new layout.

This entry is part 8 of 9 in the All I Want For Christmas

Maybe I’m crazy to suppose
I’d ever be the one you chose
Out of a thousand invitations
You received
Aah, but in case I stand one little chance
Here comes the jackpot question in advance
What are you doing New Year’s
New Year’s Eve?
What Are You Doing New Year’s Eve?, Ella Fitzgerald


December 31

Port Charles Hotel: Ballroom

“I’ve changed my mind,” Kiki declared. “I want you to introduce me to Michael.”

Elizabeth gestured for orchestra leader to begin setting up before turning her attention to her assistant. “What, are you insane? I still have to figure out if I want to be introduced to anymore Quartermaines. You think I’m fixing you up?”

“Just a thought.” Kiki followed her to the wall where Elizabeth briefly conferred with the hotel employee that had set up the balloons and confetti meant to fall at midnight. “I thought I was taking point tonight.” She tapped her ear piece. “Isn’t that why I’ve got this?”

“I still have mine for emergencies,” Elizabeth murmured. She pursed her lips, considering the placement of the silver silk draping across several of the tables. “I think that’s dragging a bit—”

“So it’s been a week,” Kiki said as Elizabeth straightened the silk. “Are you taking Hottie back?”

Elizabeth sighed and briefly touched the snowflake she’d yet to take off. “It’s not that simple, Kiki. I…may have overreacted.”

“Listen, his aunt called me a stripper and I’m pretty sure his dad tried to hit on you.” Kiki pursed her lips. “I’m not sure that can be overreacted to.”

“She’s got a point about the nickname,” Elizabeth murmured, taking a clipboard from the caterer and scrawling her name.

“It annoys my mother, so that’s reason enough.” Kiki blinked. “Um, I thought the guests weren’t arriving for another hour.”

“They’re not supposed to,” Elizabeth said as a blonde woman in a blue velvet dress approached them. “Ma’am? I’m sorry, the ballroom is still closed—”

“Oh, I just…” The woman stopped a few feet away from her. “You are Elizabeth Webber, right?”

“Yes.” Elizabeth handed the clipboard back to the caterer. “Can I help you with something?”

“I’m Courtney Matthews…” The blonde glanced at Kiki, who just folded her arms and lifted her chin. “Since I arrived in town yesterday, your name has been mentioned to me more than once. I’m assuming mine isn’t exactly unfamiliar.”

“There’s a vague bell ringing,” Elizabeth murmured. “You used to work at ELQ?”

“I did, in New York, but I was in Port Charles for a few months about two years ago.” Courtney stepped closer. “And I dated Jason while I was here.”

“Oh, hell, can’t people just leave her alone?” Kiki demanded. “This is getting ridiculous—”

Courtney held up her hands. “I—I’m sorry, this isn’t…what you think. No, I just wondered—you’re probably getting some of the same treatment I did.” A faint smile appeared. “The Quartermaines close ranks, even when they’re not wanted.”

“Ah, so you’re another social climbing whore,” Elizabeth nodded. She looked to Kiki. “Can you make sure the servers are ready to go?”

Kiki nodded and headed across the room for the bar. Courtney watched her go. “She’s a fierce one.”

“I rescued her from employment with Ava Jerome, so her loyalty is undying.” Elizabeth twirled a pen in her fingers. “I don’t really know what you want from me—”

“It’s…more to make sure you’re not…that you have the right idea about what happened between Jason and I.” She held up her hand where a large diamond flashed. “I’m engaged, so I promise you, I come in peace.”

Elizabeth sighed. “I’m not really sure it’s my business—”

“It is if you’re being fed the same lines…” Courtney stepped closer. “Jason’s not like the rest of his family, I’m sure you get that by now. He and I…it was casual. I worked in Port Charles on a deal with Jacks Industries, which is how I met my fiancé, Jax. Meeting him changed my life, because I saw him and I just knew—so Jason and I very amicably broke things off. I went to work with Jax because I wasn’t comfortable dating him and working for a competitor, though I’m sure the gossip has me unceremoniously removed due to the end of my time with Jason.”

“That’s the general gossip,” Elizabeth agreed. “You really don’t have to explain anything—”

“I worked for ELQ long enough to get the family dynamics,” Courtney continued, “and I’m sure you picked up on it, too. This current crop of Quartermaine men? They date, sure. But they’re nothing like Edward or Alan. AJ was burned really badly with his ex-wife, and Ned is an eternal romantic, which is why he gets married so often. Jason—”

“I’ve heard he was married once,” she murmured in response.

“For five minutes.” Courtney flashed a smile. “I’ll let Jason explain the details, but it was annulled within two days.” She tilted her head. “I don’t know what happened with the last one—Sam—but I’m sure it’s nothing like the gossip.”  She shrugged. “Anyway, Jason was really good to me. I don’t like being used to annoy someone else he cares about.”

“Fair enough. I appreciate the gesture.”

As Courtney exited the way she came in, Elizabeth sighed. So the marriage had lasted five seconds, probably a drunken weekend. Courtney had left voluntarily.

Which meant the phone calls from Sam McCall likely had a logical explanation.

“I hate being wrong,” she muttered.

It was several hours later before Elizabeth finally had the courage to approach Jason, trying to wait until he had separated from the majority of his family. When he was just standing with his nephew Michael, she finally went for it.

“Ah, Jason?” She fought the urge to clasp her hands her back. “I…was wondering if I could speak to you for a moment.”

Jason turned to look at her, his eyes focusing on the necklace she wore. He exhaled slowly. “Of course. Michael, if you’ll excuse me?”

“Of course. Ah, Ms. Webber, I had a quick question for you,” AJ’s son said with a grin. “You’ve got that assistant…Kiki right? I was wondering if you might introduce me or put in a good word. Jason can vouch for me—”

Quartermaine men. But she just smiled. “Don’t tell her this because she’ll kill me, but she’s begging me to arrange an introduction for about a week, so if you ask her to dance, she’ll say yes.”

“Fantastic.” Michael drained his champagne and disappeared into the crowd.

“You Quartermaines have to get out more,” Elizabeth said with an easy smile she did not feel. “There’s probably a reason you only date women who work at ELQ.”

“Probably,” Jason agreed. He stepped forward. “Elizabeth, listen—”

“Let—let me.” She glanced around and stepped closer to make sure her words weren’t overheard. “I just wanted to apologize. I—I overreacted…in certain ways. I…let the things people said to me get in my head.” She lifted a shoulder. “Mostly because I know what this is, and what it can’t be.”

Jason frowned. “I don’t know what that means. I—”

“Well, isn’t it obvious?” Elizabeth lifted her champagne glass to gesture at the gold gown she wore. “You’re a Quartermaine and I’m—”

“I’m a Quartermaine by default,” Jason interrupted. “Not because my father wanted me to be, but because he either took me home when my mother died or I was shuffled into the system. I don’t care what my aunt says or anyone else—”

Elizabeth sighed and rubbed her head. “I know. I’m sorry. I did it again. I…that part of my apology is a lot more complicated than I have time for right now. “

Jason set his empty champagne on the tray of a passing server and snagged another. “Is there something I’m supposed to say to reassure you that none of that matters to me?”

“No, that’s…my own crap to deal with.” She looked down. “I’m just—I’m sorry—”

“I don’t want you to be sorry.” Jason stepped closer and tipped her chin up to force her to meet her eyes. “I know you…saw my phone. That you think I was talking to my ex-girlfriend.”

“Um…I may have glanced at something like that,” Elizabeth admitted, with a sheepish smile. “And I’m sure there’s a logical explanation—”

“She’s mad that I found out she was trying to sleep with Ned. And had made a pass at AJ. So I dumped her, and Ned transferred her to New York to keep Olivia from ripping her hair out.” Jason shrugged. “She worked for me back then, and wants her job back. I told her no. Again.”

“Well, now I feel like an idiot,” she muttered.

“Don’t. I should have mentioned it. There’s just…no easy way to bring that up.” His thumb brushed over her bottom lip. “Are we done fighting now? It’ll be midnight in about—” Jason glanced at his watch. “Thirty seconds.”

“Well, in that case, I declare our first fight officially at the end,” Elizabeth said. She wiggled her eyebrows. “Now comes the best part.”

He grinned. “The making up, right?”

She wrapped her arms around his neck and sank into his kiss as the clock struck midnight and the balloons and confetti released as scheduled.

It was going to be a very happy new year.

Epilogue

Oh, there’s no place like home for the holidays,
‘Cause no matter how far away you roam,
When you pine for the sunshine of a friendly gaze,
For the holidays, you can’t beat home, sweet home

Home for the Holidays, Cyndi Lauper & Norah Jones


January 7

ELQ: Elizabeth’s Office

Emily Quartermaine breezed into her assistant’s office, her smile bright, her skin sun kissed from her weeks in the Greek sun. “Elizabeth!”

Elizabeth was waiting for her with a bright smile and a pile of paperwork. She dumped it straight in her arms. “Here’s the contracts for the next quarter.”

Emily blinked as the brunette breezed past her. “Wait a second—”

She followed Elizabeth into the outer offices where Kiki sat at her desk. “Where are you going?”

Elizabeth swept her jacket on and stepped onto the elevator. “Your brother’s taking me to Italy. I’ll see you in two weeks.”

As the elevator slid closed, Emily huffed and set the contracts on the desk.

When she was sure Elizabeth was gone, she grinned at Kiki. “How did it go, kiddo?”

“Well,” Kiki said, “I’d say it couldn’t have gone better if you’d planned it, but…”

Emily smirked. “Better to keep letting them think I had nothing to do with it. Ned still doesn’t know I helped him with Olivia.”

She set off towards her office, but spun around with one last smile. “Isn’t it fantastic when a plan works exactly as you intended it? It’s going to be a fantastic year.”

THE END


Thanks for reading my little alternative universe fluff 😛 Well, as fluffy as I get. I’d love to revisit this particular universe, but I don’t know what to write about Ideas? Leave a message.

Happy New Year!

This entry is part 15 of 34 in the The Best Thing

Catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly
I cried the rain that fills the ocean wide
I tried to talk with God to no avail
Calling Him in and out of nowhere
Said if You won’t save me, please don’t waste my time

— Falling Down, Oasis


Thursday, July 7, 2005

Corinthos Penthouse: Living Room

Sonny’s hand tightened around the tumbler in his fingers. “Say that again,” he said softly.

“Sonny, I know Evie is your daughter.”

Yes, those were the words but somehow, he still couldn’t quite understand them. Couldn’t make them register in his brain. Carly knew Evie was his daughter.

“What—” His tongue felt too thick, the words wouldn’t form. Sonny turned to look at his wife, at the mother of his children, for whom he had sacrificed so much.

Her face was blank, but her eyes were dark. “I’ve always known.”

His chest clenched, and Sonny set down the tumbler, terrified he might throw it.

“I was content to let the situation stand,” Carly continued, standing so utterly still he scarcely recognized her. “I didn’t want any reminders of that time in our home, and that’s all Evie would be. Before Sam died, it just…it made sense to keep it going. Jason is an amazing father—” She pursed her lips and broke eye contact. “And after Sam died, when you still did nothing to change it, I said nothing. Because it was for the best.”

God. God. Everything he’d done to protect her from the knowledge had been for nothing. He’d moved her back into his home, had abandoned Sam and the feelings he’d felt for her—so that he could protect Carly and the boys.

And it had been for nothing.

“And now?” Sonny managed to say.

“You’re…so unhappy, Sonny.” Carly clasped her fingers in front of her. “I know it’s the guilt over Evie. And I know Jason wouldn’t even consider changing the arrangement as long as he believed that I was in the dark.”

“So what, you think it’s that simple?” Sonny choked off a bitter chuckle and tossed down the entire tumbler of bourbon. “Hey, Jason, that little girl you’ve raised for eight months as your daughter? I want her back now. Forget all the things we said, the promises. Carly has decided it’s okay.”

Carly pressed her lips together and took a moment to respond. “I’m…not blind to Jason’s difficulty. And that it’s particularly painful considering the position I put him in with Michael all those years ago, but I…did not ask him to do this.”

“Didn’t you?” Sonny bit out. He stalked away from her, towards the kitchen. Towards the window. Towards anywhere that wasn’t Carly. “Every time you called him, every time you begged him to fix your problems, you don’t think you trained him to jump? You didn’t even have to ask.”

“He was protecting the boys, and I’m ashamed of that, Sonny.” Carly planted her hands on her hips, her eyes accusing now. “But I’m not the one who started this. You moved that whore into our home and then moved her across the hall. Jason just stepped in where you wouldn’t. No one forced you to continue the lie. The slut is dead, Sonny, and still you left your daughter across the hall. You’re going to blame that entirely on me?”

No. And wasn’t that the fucking tragedy? He’d loved to cast the blame entirely at Carly’s feet. But he’d been just culpable. He had driven Sam to such desperate measures.

Bitch. Tricked him. Played right into Jason’s hands—

No. Sonny dipped his head. No. He had told Sam over and over again in every way except words that she and their daughter were not as important as his family with Carly.

Sam believed him, so she’d found someone who would love Evie the way she deserved.

“Sonny, we can’t let this continue,” Carly said. “If you are ever going to be in your daughter’s life, now is the time to step up. Yes, this is going to be horrible for Jason, and I am truly sorry. But I never told him to do this. I waited, didn’t I? I waited until he wasn’t alone—”

“You’re a fucking calculating bitch, you mean.” Sonny whirled to face her. “You mean you waited until Elizabeth looked like she was going to stick around this time. Her and her son. That’s the bullshit you were spouting a few months ago. You think that her kid can replace Evie.”

Carly huffed and looked away, but that was it, wasn’t it? In her head, Jason had planned a family with Sam and Evie, so Elizabeth and Cam were almost the same thing.

“You think people are replaceable?” he snarled. “You think making sure Jason had another kid in his life would make up for losing one?”

God, what a terrifying thing to learn about the woman to whom you’d sworn yourself to. What kind of life would Evie have with her? Would she ever be more than Sam’s daughter?

He’d known all long that he’d have to choose between a marriage to Carly and a life as Evie’s father, but it was so much more complicated than that. If he walked away from Carly, he ran the risk of losing Michael and Morgan. Morgan he could fight for, but maybe Carly would keep Michael from him. They would always be in the middle, and Evie would grow up, maybe blaming herself.

No, to protect Michael and Morgan, to do right by Evie, he had to walk away.

His guilt didn’t change things. Carly’s knowledge just made the situation…less complicated.

“Do you think I’d bring that little girl into a home with you?” Sonny said, his voice almost conversational. “Do you think I’d subject her to that?”

Carly’s nostrils flared. “What the hell does that mean?”

“It means exactly that. You’re a decent enough mother to Michael and Morgan, but that’s because they’re yours.” He shrugged and turned towards the window, looking out over the Port Charles skyline. “I don’t know if you could ever love Evie that way.”

“I could,” Carly said. “I-I wasn’t sure at first, but I know I could. You just…you never gave me a chance, Sonny. You lied to me over and over again.”

“I had to.”

“To hell with that!” Her voice rose. “To hell with that, Sonny Corinthos! You never gave me a chance! Never! You shot me in the fucking head and then were surprised when I didn’t immediately leap back into your life!”

He turned back to her. “Carly—”

“You’ve been punishing me for years now,” she seethed. “I was kidnapped, held hostage, electrocuted, shot in the goddamn head during delivery and you think I should have calmly accepted your affair with that piece of trash? Calmly accepted your bastard child? You’re so goddamn delusional.” Her chest was heaving now, her face flushed. “But I could have. I could have calmed down. I could have done so much if you’d given me the chance, but instead you wrote me off. And now you’re angry because I never fucking believed your lie?”

Sonny hesitated. There was something in her words that dug at him, because they were true, and he could see them. He could feel her desperation, her own unhappiness. “Carly—”

She shook her head. “For better or worse, Sonny. That’s what marriage is. I’m not walking away because it’s hard right now. We have two children together. We can do better.”

He stepped towards her. “I don’t know if that’s true—”

“I do.” Carly swiped at a tear with her thumb. “We just…have to resolve this situation with Evie. Jason—he should know that I know the truth. You know he’ll do what he can to help. That’s why he did all this, isn’t it?”

Sonny nodded and looked away. “I’ll tell him you know, but anything else…that’s between Jason and me.”

She nodded. “All right.” She stopped at the bottom of the stairs and looked at him. “For what it’s worth, I’m glad this is in the open now, Sonny. We…we can only get better from here.”

As Carly ascended the stairs, Sonny shook his head. He’d kept his temper, had not felt the walls caving in, but that didn’t mean anything. Arguing with Carly rarely…invited the darkness. Carly rarely expected him to be anyone than the man in front of her.

It was the rest of the world he couldn’t control.

Friday, July 8, 2005

Kelly’s: Courtyard

Emily dropped her tote on the ground and took the seat across from Elizabeth. “It should not have taken us nearly a month to meet without boys around,” she complained, reaching across to steal a fry from Elizabeth’s plate.

Elizabeth sighed and leaned back. “I know. Between your summer schedule at the hospital, the kids, painting…”

“And Jason,” Emily responded with a beaming smile. “I’m totally cool with you taking time to get that relationship grounded. You guys needed some solo time…Georgie! Just the girl I’ve been dying to see. I need a BLT, fries and the largest soda you can get me. Stat.”

“You’ll get it when Don finishes it and not a minute sooner,” Georgie said, scrawling the order on her pad. “You’re not in the hospital.” She glanced at Elizabeth. “You need a refill?”

“Please.” Once Georgie had left, Elizabeth leaned forward. “So…Jason’s going to try to talk to Sonny today.”

Emily paused, another fry in her fingers. “About Evie?”

“Yeah.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “I had an odd conversation with Carly, and I just…I have such a bad feeling, Em. You know that Jason and I have suspected she’s known the truth for months.”

“I know, which never bodes well for my brother.” Emily wrinkled her nose. “I wonder what she’s up to. I’ve been doing some reading on the symptoms I’ve noticed in Sonny—” She paused as Georgie set down their drinks.

“What do you think?”

“Oh, it’s likely bipolar, I mean there’s nothing surprising there, but it’s all about which kind, you know?” Emily sipped soda. “So I talked to a psychiatrist at the hospital, Lainey Winters. I told her about the lightning quick mood changes, the long periods of calm mixed with huge explosions. I also suggested some paranoid tendencies because knowing Sonny as long as I have, he definitely leans that way.”

“What did Lainey say?” Elizabeth asked, swirling her chili in her bowl. “Does she have any ideas what we should do?”

“Well, she suggested that the subject in question may be suffering from mixed bipolar disorder, which is like experiencing the symptoms rapidly. It explains that scene at the hospital, where Sonny was calm, even embarrassed by Carly one minute, and then lost it on you the next.” Emily dumped some ketchup on her plate. “Lainey suggested I get my friend into treatment ASAP to correctly diagnose him and offer medication.”

“Well, that’s what Jason is going to talk to him about.” Elizabeth tucked a loose piece of hair behind her ear. “If Sonny doesn’t seek treatment by the time Evie turns one, Jason will go ahead and petition for adoption.”

Emily pursed her lips. “He’s giving Sonny an ultimatum? I—I’m not sure if that’s the best idea, Liz. I mean, the thing about Sonny is he’s super paranoid and controlling on a normal basis. Any challenge to that, if he’s even close to a breaking point in the cycle could be bad.”

“Well, what are we supposed to do, Emily?” Elizabeth sighed, pushing her plate aside. “We can’t live like this. How can we put a future together? Evie needs stability, and if Jason is her father, then I—” She stopped and looked away.

“I get it. You and Jason are blending your lives together. You’ve got a son without a father, he’s technically got a daughter without a mother. Anyone who doesn’t know the circumstances, you just adopt each other’s kids and move on.” Emily shrugged. “But you guys are paralyzed, because I don’t know if Jason ever really saw himself adopting Evie. Or having a relationship where he’d be planning for permanence.”

“Well, I don’t know about permanence,” Elizabeth said, twisting her fingers in her lap. “I didn’t say anything about that. I mean, it’s just—I spend a lot of time with her, and I know it’s going to break my heart if we lose—I mean, if Jason loses custody—not to mention what it will do to him—”

“Elizabeth, it’s me you’re talking to. And you know it stays between us.”

“Em…” Elizabeth closed her eyes. “I’m terrified. For Jason. For myself. For Evie. And even Sonny. What if…what if Carly never believed it?”

“You mean, what if Carly’s been manipulating the situation from the getgo?” Emily leaned back in her chair and waited a moment. “Well, then we’re all fucked. Because if Carly’s dropping hints—”

“It’s more than that. I think…I think she’s starting to blame Jason for not finding a better way to fix this,” Elizabeth admitted. “Like, she was okay with it as long as it looked like her marriage would be okay. And I don’t know, if Sam hadn’t died, it would be different. Maybe the grief and guilt Sonny has wouldn’t be feeding into this problem he has. But now that it’s destroying Sonny, I think she looks at Evie as a solution.”

“A solution that Jason should be offering,” Emily finished. “And the longer he puts off fixing this situation, the more desperate she’ll get. Christ, Elizabeth. What do you think she’s capable of if she turns against Jason?”

“I don’t know. She’s never come this close before. I mean, yeah, she’s destroyed his life with Michael and Robin, then sleeping with Sonny.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “But Jason was collateral damage in those situations. If Carly decides Jason is the enemy?” She shook her head. “I don’t know. The last time she declared war like that was Robin.”

“And before that, her mother. Carly’s capable of a lot of destruction when she wants something.” Emily hesitated. “Have you talked to Jason about this?”

“Yeah. I’m not sure how much he buys my theory. You know, despite it all, he still has such a blind spot for Sonny and Carly. I mean, Sonny, I get that. He…” Elizabeth paused. “He told me once that Sonny taught him half of everything he knows, and that Robin taught him the rest of it. That’s who Sonny is to Jason. No matter what happens, Jason will always look for that in him.”

“That loyalty has never been deserved,” Emily muttered.

“But I don’t understand the blindness for Carly. I get that she’s Michael’s mother, but at some point…when does that stop being an excuse?” Elizabeth huffed. “I mean, how much damage does Carly have to do before Jason gets it? Carly’s out for Carly. Why doesn’t he see that?”

“I guess you’d have to be around during the accident,” Emily said after a long moment. She bit into her burger and swallowed. “When Jason woke up, the doctors told us his brain damage meant he’d never be normal. Everyone looked at him like some kind of…damaged person. He’d never be Jason Quartermaine again. They saw him as something that needed to be fixed. Something broken, not capable of real human emotion.” Her voice thickened. “And it used to make me so mad when they’d just describe him as brain damaged, like he wasn’t worth it.”

“I know, I used to see the way Taggart went after him,” Elizabeth murmured. “Talked down to him, like he was a child who didn’t get it. I hated it. I used to flip on Taggart for it.”

“Carly—she never saw him that way, you know?” Emily tilted her head. “She always saw him as a man. Even more, someone capable of fixing her problems. Even Robin, as much as I adored her and know how good she was for Jason for a long time, she never got past the part where Jason didn’t need constant lessons. Carly—for all her faults—never saw him as a student.”

“I guess. But still. I just…I don’t know. Could Carly turn Sonny against Jason?” Elizabeth asked. “I’d like to believe that even in the worst of his moods, Sonny would see that Jason cares for him, would do anything for him.”

“I know, Liz.” Emily set her burger down. “But the thing is? If Sonny does have this disorder, when he’s in the deepest, darkest part of this cycle, he might not see Jason as a friend, but rather someone challenging him. If Sonny doesn’t get treatment, if Carly decides this is all Jason’s fault, I don’t like where we’re going with this.”

“So should Jason not talk to Sonny?” Elizabeth asked. “Because it’s my fault. I pushed him to do something—”

“I can’t answer that. I can say that I think Evie’s better off where she is. I think you guys should go ahead and adopt her, or at least Jason should.” Emily tapped her fingers against her scrub-clad thigh. “Carly’s toxic. She’ll always be in Sonny’s life because of the boys. The further away Evie is, the better we all are. Jason told me about Sam, about the way she pleaded with him.”

“I think that’s what really holds him back. He could have found a different resolution months ago. Could have challenged Carly on her knowledge.” Elizabeth reached for her iced tea. “But he knew what Sam wanted for her daughter.”

“And Sam’s wishes should count for something. Sonny only wants Evie on his terms. She’s just a baby, Elizabeth, and she deserves the best the world can give her. I don’t see that being Sonny or Carly.”

“I just…can’t see an end point to this.” Elizabeth sighed. “But I also refuse to let it rule my life. I’m going to go forward. I love being with Jason, I love my career. There’s a lot going right. I just…one day at a time.”

“Not sure what else you can do.”

Hardy Home: Living Room

Steven knelt on the floor and reached under the sofa. “Gram, what does the other shoe look like?”

“Honestly.” Audrey sighed from across the room. “It’s a white flat. This is not difficult—” She stopped as Steven drew back, a pill bottle in his hand. “What…what is that?”

“Heart medication.” Steven looked at her. “In your name, Gram. What’s…going on?”

“I’m sure I don’t know how that got under there.” She strode forward and reached for it, but Steven held it back.

“Gram. I know this medication.” Steven rose to his feet. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing—” Audrey stopped and closed her eyes. “Okay. I have a minor heart condition, but it’s treatable. I’ve been in good health since I was diagnosed in January—”

“January?” Steven repeated. He handed her the medication. “What is this minor condition and why don’t I know about it?”

“I didn’t want to worry anyone. It’s mitral stenosis—just an issue with my heart valve,” she explained. “And I just knew you and your sister would be worried when it’s really not your concern—”

“So Elizabeth doesn’t know either?” Steven nodded. “Well, that’s going to change.” He reached for his cell phone, but Audrey reached out to grab his hand. “Gram—”

“No, I don’t…want to burden her. She’s been so happy these last few weeks, Steven. Please.”

“Are you never going to tell her?” Steven demanded. “She would be heartbroken if you said nothing—”

“I’ll tell her, but it’s just…I like seeing her happy.” Audrey took his hand in hers. “Don’t you?”

“No, Gram, don’t pull that on me—” But Steven sighed and nodded. “Fine. For now. But don’t keep pushing this, Gram. Elizabeth will handle this. She’s a strong woman, and she’s got Jason to /back her up now.”

“Soon, Steven, I promise.” Audrey paused. “Now, if you don’t mind, could you find my other shoe?”

Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

Jason hesitated just over the threshold of the office, waiting for his partner to raise his eyes from some paperwork and notice him.

It was a conversation almost a year in the making, but Jason still wasn’t sure how to go about it. But he knew that putting it off would just add to the tension shadowing his life. It had crept into his relationship with Elizabeth—not in a way that would damage it, he knew. But her worry and her concern for him would only increase the longer they drew this out.

“Jason.” Sonny leaned back. “I wasn’t expecting you today.”

The other man’s eyes looked relatively clear, but Jason knew that was deceptive. Even if he was in control this moment, there was no guarantee it would last.

“Yeah, I know, there’s just something we have to talk about.” Jason closed the door behind him and took a seat in front of Sonny. “Sonny, I think Carly knows the truth. About Evie.”

Sonny stared at for a long moment and then nodded. “I…was going to call you later when I knew how to—she admitted it last night.”

Jason frowned. “What? Why?”

“She said she was tired of the lies. We had a pretty bad argument.” Sonny sighed. “And she made me see how little credit I gave her. That I took her at her word about how she’d react to Evie, and started to lie. She wanted a clean slate.”

“O-Okay,” Jason said after a pause. “I was contacted by family services earlier this month.” He rubbed his hands on his denim-clad thighs. “After a year of guardianship, I’m eligible to adopt Evie. They wanted to ask about a possible petition.”

Sonny merely blinked, but his breathing picked up. “I—I don’t know what to do with that, Jason. You’ve admitted you have no intention of signing custody back to me. I-I’m not even sure doing so would be a good idea at this point.” He closed his eyes. “At the same time, knowing that I abandoned my flesh and blood…it doesn’t sit right with me.”

“I know.” Jason waited. “It was never my intention to deprive you of having Evie. But…it just happened that way. You—you weren’t stepping up. And Sam…she was terrified of the way Carly would treat Evie. I…didn’t have a choice, Sonny.”

Sonny slowly shook his head. “You always had a choice, Jason. Don’t pretend differently. You could have insisted I take custody—leave you out of it. You chose not to.”

Which was technically true, but something in Jason rebelled at having to force a man to take care of his own child. Being with Evie, with Cameron now…he couldn’t imagine giving them up. Didn’t Evie deserve better than that? So yeah, Jason had had a choice, and he couldn’t quite bring himself to regret the one he’d made.

“If you want to change the situation now,” Sonny continued, “we can discuss the best way to do so. Maybe Carly can spend time with Evie—”

“I—” Jason closed his mouth. “No, that’s not…Sonny, I’m not signing over the guardianship. Not now anyway.”

Sonny furrowed his brow, his lips thinned. “Excuse me?”

“You need…you need to talk to someone,” Jason told him. “You’ve been riding on the edge for months now, maybe a lot longer that. We both know it’s getting worse. You’ve gone after Elizabeth, after me—because you think we’re replacing you in Evie’s life. I can’t…I love her, Sonny.”

“Who, Elizabeth?” Sonny licked his lips. “So? I’ll knock it off. Jason—”

“Yes, Elizabeth, but I meant Evie. I can’t…let her go into a situation where I’m not sure she’ll be okay. And right now, Sonny, I can’t do it.”

Sonny just stared at him. “So that’s it? You’re keeping my daughter.”

“If you haven’t worked on this, if you haven’t gone for treatment by the time Evie turns one…” Jason rose to his feet. “I’ll petition for adoption. I can’t put her life on hold, and I won’t put mine on hold anymore—”

“I don’t see you doing much waiting around,” Sonny returned blandly. “You managed to convince Elizabeth to give you another chance. What life have you put on hold for me?”

“The one where I’m comfortable asking Elizabeth for something more permanent. It’s bad enough I might lose Evie, but I won’t let her fall in love with Evie as her mother only to watch someone take her away.”

“But if I got help,” Sonny said, adding stress on the word help that told Jason everything he needed to know about his feeling on the subject, “You’d be willing to change the custody arrangement.”

“Because it’s the right thing to do for everyone,” Jason said. “You know it couldn’t go on forever the way we were doing it. Now…it’s on the table.”

“I’ll take your suggestion under advisement,” the other man retorted. “Is that everything?”

“Yeah.” Jason nodded. “Yeah.”

He left, but hadn’t made it more than a few steps before he heard glass crashing in the room he’d just vacated.

December 29, 2014

Another update for the graveyard section. 🙂 The Best Thing is still on break with the holidays and whatnot. I hope to have it back soon.

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