February 2, 2015

This entry is part 20 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

Saturday, December 4, 2004

Cottage: Living Room

It was nearly eleven o’clock and Elizabeth was due at the Quartermaines within the hour but Cameron was feeling cranky this morning and had flung his breakfast against the kitchen wall. After cleaning him up and taking a shower, she was seriously running late.

As she was stuffing Cameron’s necessities into the diaper bag, her phone began to ring. Deciding to let the machine answer, she started a hunt for the stuffed rabbit Cameron refused to leave the house without.

“Elizabeth? It’s me.” She glanced up and frowned at the answering machine as Jason’s voice filtered through. “I should have called last night but with the time differences…I’m not going to be home until Monday so I’m going to miss the shower. I wouldn’t leave you to the Quartermaines on purpose but there’s nothing I can do.” There was a long pause. “I love you.”

The phone clicked off and Elizabeth sank onto the couch, both pleased that he’d called at all and disappointed that he was going to feed her to the wolves while he was off in Europe.

“He gets to have all the fun,” Elizabeth muttered as she resumed her search for the elusive rabbit.

Quartermaine Mansion: Living Room

“It’s so exciting to have a baby in the family,” Brooke remarked to Georgie as they perused the refreshment table. She reached for a chocolate chip cookie. “One that’s actually related to us.”

“Babies are so cute,” Georgie said. “I love going to the hospital and going to the nursery to see all the babies who were just born.” She sighed happily and filled her plate with various crackers and cookies.

“Babies are nasty,” Lulu argued. She passed the cookies and crackers right over for a chunk of fudge brownies. “They spit up all the time, they cry and you never know what they want. I had to baby sit for Cameron once and I’ll never do it again.”

“Spoils sport,” Maxie joked. “Besides, the best thing about babies is that when they get cranky, you can just shove them right back to their moms. I plan on being the world’s best aunt,” she smiled.

“No babies on the horizon for our girl Maxie, eh?” Lulu nudged her with an elbow. “I sense a kindred spirit.”

“Well, I can’t wait to have kids.” Georgie paused. “Well, actually, yeah I can. I’m like seventeen. But it’s going to be so much fun in like ten years.”

“Ten years sounds way too soon to me,” Dillon eavesdropped from the other end of the table where the drinks were set up. “Who’s up for twenty?”

“Me,” Lucas said solemnly. He bit into a cookie. “I figure I wait a good fifteen, twenty years until I’m mature enough to handle it.”

“If you wait until you’re mature enough to have one,” Lulu drawled, “you’ll be waiting a lot longer than twenty years.”

Dillon snickered. “She’s got you there.”

“Kids, stop eating the refreshments,” Monica scolded. She tugged the cake away from Dillon’s roving eye. “The guests of honor aren’t even here yet.” She smacked Lucas’s hands as he made a reach for the brownies before going to join Audrey. She kept one eye on the group of teens though.

“So, how’s the case going?” Lulu asked.

Everyone froze except for Brooke who just rolled her eyes. “Don’t worry about it guys. It’s like the elephant in the middle of the room no one wants to talk about.” She turned to Lulu. “It’s going okay. Brianne has prepared me pretty well but she wants to meet once a week until the trial starts to go over my testimony. We’ve been practicing cross-examination, too so that I’m prepared for anything that comes up.”

“Yeah, I definitely think that’s a good idea. I was reading the Manson book the prosecutor wrote,” Lulu said as she sneaked one last cookie, “and he was talking about how his star witness was actually stronger on the stand because he didn’t give the defense an opportunity to mess with her. Like, he brought out her drug use and her criminal past during the direct part. She’s totally the biggest reason they won that case.”

“What were you doing reading Helter Skelter?” Maxie asked.

Lulu shrugged. “I like true crime novels and I’m a nut for those shows on A&E. Like Cold Case Files and American Justice. I love that stuff–I’m thinking I might want to go into PI work.”

“I like those shows too,” Brooke said with a small smile. “And from what I’ve heard of the Spencers, that seems like a good career choice. It’s like Lucky’s only…not so on the side of the law.”

“Which Luke would totally approve of,” Dillon pointed out.

Elizabeth entered the room with Cameron in her arms, having left the stroller in the foyer. She scanned the room uncertainly before spotting Emily talking with her mother. “Hey, Em.”

“Elizabeth!” Emily hugged her. “Hey, everyone–the guest of honor is here!” she announced.

Elizabeth was immediately swarmed by well wishers and various members of the hospital staff. Cameron was taken from her by Monica and Audrey to coo over while Elizabeth herself was supplied with a drink and a plate of cookies.

Fifteen minutes later, she found herself cornered by a curious Monica. “So, where is Jason today?” his mother asked.

“He got stuck in Europe on business,” Elizabeth shifted. “He should be back on Monday.”

“Mmm-hmm,” Monica nodded. “So, do you make my son happy?” she demanded without any sort of preamble.

“Ah…” Elizabeth fumbled with her plate for a moment before setting it down on a nearby table. “I wouldn’t–you’d have–Monica, that’s just not something I can answer right now,” she finally settled on.

“Uh huh.” Monica clasped her hands in front of you. “Jason left me with the impression that the two of you were planning a future together.”

“We were–that is, we are–it’s complicated,” Elizabeth finished lamely. “Things have been difficult for the last few months.”

“Well, I’m disappointed to hear that. Jason looked happy when he talked about you,” Monica said. “Happier than he’s been in a long time.”

Elizabeth shifted. “Monica, it’s complicated. We’re not seeing other people, we’re just not really seeing other at the moment either. We’re working it out.”

“Well, for the sake of my grandson, I would hope so,” Monica remarked.

Elizabeth narrowed her eyes. “Look, Monica, I’m not really sure you want to be championing doing what’s right for the sake of your children. If I remember correctly from what I’ve heard just in my own family history, you were never the world’s best mother either, okay?”

Monica pressed her lips together. “I’m sure I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Shipping your sons off to boarding school for the better part of their lives is one of the few things I can remark on but not knowing if my Uncle Rick was AJ’s father is one. Ignoring AJ’s alcoholism, getting married and divorced numerous times not to mention affairs–”

“You’ve made your point.” Monica shifted. “But I do love my children and I do want them happy which is what I’m hoping Jason will be with you and Cameron.”

“I’m hoping that too,” Elizabeth softened. “But I can’t make something happen if it’s not supposed to happen. Jason and I haven’t really been together in any kind of real way for almost three years. I want to be sure we’re together for the right reasons and not just because we have Cameron together. I won’t subject my son to that.”

“As much I as don’t want to admit it,” Monica said slowly, “you may have a point.” She sighed. “At least one of my kids is happy.”

Quartermaine Mansion: Parlor

“Emily?” Alexis entered the room as Emily was arranging the mountain of gifts in the room. “I was hoping we could have a moment to talk.”

Emily huffed and ignored her as she straightened a pile of gifts next to the chair reserved for Elizabeth.

“Emily, I was hoping you would be in the wedding,” Alexis tried again. She twisted her hands together. “Will you please just give me a chance to explain?”

“What can you possibly explain?” Emily demanded. She planted her hands on her hips. “Ric broke Elizabeth’s heart. He crushed it into the ground and now…” she shook her head. “She doesn’t know what’s going on in her life and it’s all his fault–”

“I’m not saying Ric’s blameless but your brother might have a few things to do with the current state of Elizabeth’s heart.” Alexis sighed. “When Ric found out Cameron was Jason’s son, he was devastated. He was working on his marriage to her at the same time Elizabeth was having the affair–”

“But they were divorced,” Emily said. She folded her arms tightly across her chest. “Because he drugged her and kidnapped Carly–”

“And I pushed Luis Alcazar off a building, faked a mental illness and dressed like a butler,” Alexis huffed. “You also married Zander, knowing you wanted to be with Nikolas and pretty much drove him to his death as well. No one is blameless, Emily, least of all you. Now, I want you and Nikolas at my wedding because he means the world to me and I have always considered you a friend. But I won’t beg for it and I shouldn’t have to explain being with someone who makes me happy.”

Emily sighed and looked away. “I did hurt Zander,” she said softly. “And I don’t deny that I probably drove him to what he did in the end. You’re right.” She squared her shoulders. “Nobody is blameless and I can’t whitewash my life to make myself feel better. We’ll be at the wedding, Alexis.”

The other party guests filtered in and soon, Elizabeth was lead to her chair and a present was pushed into her lap. “I have to say that I’ve been looking forward to this portion of the day,” she said with a grin as she ripped into the first present.

Cameron received enough clothes and toys and supplies to keep him happy for at least two years and Monica and Alan had bought a beautiful cradle for Cameron as well as a silver rattle with his named etched into it along with the date of his birth.

Georgie and Brooke each gave Elizabeth IOU coupons for free baby sitting and Maxie got a laugh from the crowd when she gave Elizabeth a third IOU for free baby sitting from Georgie.

Alexis was the last to give Elizabeth a gift. She held it in her lap for a moment. “Now when you open this, you might tell me it’s too much,” she began, “but I have to tell you that I could pay for Cameron to go through college and it could still never be enough to thank you for what you’ve done for my daughter.”

“Alexis,” Elizabeth shook her head. “I didn’t do it to get anything in return–”

“No, I know.” Alexis exhaled slowly. “Which just makes it all the more incredible. Kristina is my whole world and I know, you being a mother and all, I don’t have to tell you that. But you saved her life and you didn’t have to and I just…I wanted to thank you for that in some way.”

She handed the slim package to Elizabeth, who just set it in her lap and reached over to grasp Alexis’s hand. “I would do it again in second,” she told her. “I’m only glad I was able to help.”

Alexis sniffled. “Well…open your present.”

Elizabeth grinned and tore off the lavender wrapping paper and removed the lid. She held up the slim envelope inside and saw the plane tickets sticking out. She eyed Alexis suspiciously. “What are these?”

“Don’t ask, open!” Emily urged.

Elizabeth slid the tickets out and gasped, covering her mouth with her hand as she held the precious tickets in the other. “Italy,” she murmured. She looked at Alexis. “How did you know?”

“Believe it or not, you are the one subject Jason and I can talk about. I asked him the one place in the world you’d like to see and he said Italy.” Alexis leaned forward. “There are three tickets. They’re open, so you can take them whenever you want. There’s the number of a hotel in there that I’ve instructed they’re to bill me for your entire stay but if you don’t like that hotel, just pick any other and send me the bill.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “I–I can’t accept this,” she breathed. “It’s too much–Alexis–”

“I want to do this for you,” Alexis said firmly. “You made my dreams come true and I want to do the same for you.”

“Well, hell, how can you turn that down?” Lulu decided. “If she doesn’t want the tickets, I’ll take them,” she volunteered.

Quartermaine Mansion: Foyer

Carly sighed impatiently as she saw the wreckage of the parlor with gifts and wrapping paper strewn about. She had missed most of the shower and didn’t really intend to stay long. She’d gotten a voicemail from Jason on her way over that he wouldn’t be here after all and since she was only coming to support Jason, there didn’t seem to be a point to it now.

“Carly?” Elizabeth poked her head out of the double doors that led to the living room. “I didn’t know you were coming.”

“Yes, well…” she coughed. “Jason asked me to come last week but since he’s not here–” She shoved a small gift into Elizabeth’s hands. “Here.”

“Thank you.” Elizabeth unwrapped it, understanding it would be first and last gift she’d receive from Caroline Corinthos.

“It’s beautiful…” she lifted the necklace from the box and met Carly’s embarrassed eyes. “These three stones…”

“Emerald for Cameron, citrine for you and garnet for Jason,” Carly muttered. “Your birthstones. And there’s room to add more gems for more kids–” she coughed again. “So, ah, it can kind of continue.”

“I know you don’t want to make a big deal of this and I swear after this moment, we’ll go back to being civil enemies,” Elizabeth said. She set the box down and put the chain around her neck, clasping it. “But just let me be nice and we can then return to our regularly scheduled program.”

“Okay,” Carly said warily.

Elizabeth stepped forward and embraced the blonde gingerly. She stepped back. “I know what you mean to Jason and I’m glad you came here for him today.”

“Well…” Carly rubbed the back of her neck. “I know what Cameron…and you,” she added reluctantly, “mean to Jason, so-”

Before she could finish what might be one of the only nice things Carly Corinthos would ever say to Elizabeth Webber, the door opened and Carly’s day just got worse.

“Somebody up there hates me,” she muttered to the heavens.

“Well, that’s amusing,” Brenda Barrett remarked caustically. “I was about to suggest the same thing.”

Elizabeth blinked. “Brenda. What are you doing here?”

“Well, I hear that Jason finally spawned so I decided to come meet the lucky new mob moll.” Brenda crossed the threshold and behind her, Carly spied someone else that took a bad day and just made it three times worse.

“And you brought the Saint with you.” Carly threw up her hands. “If this is what I get for doing something nice, I am never bothering again!”

Robin Scorpio smirked. “You did something nice? I’m sorry I missed that.”

“What are the odds that the three people in the world I dislike the most could be in the same room with me?” Carly asked, disgusted.

Alexis poked her head out of the double doors. “Elizabeth–”

“The only thing left is an apocalypse,” Carly muttered as she stormed towards the door. “I should have known stepping foot into the Quartermaine asylum would end up like this.”

She pushed past Robin and left. Alexis frowned and looked at the gathered women. “Was it something I said?”

Kelly’s: Inside

“The Saint, the Bitch and the Lunatic all in the same day,” Carly grumbled as she sat down at the counter. “I’m pretty sure locusts are next.”

“That doesn’t sound promising,” Steven said as he joined her at the counter. “My sister’s baby shower didn’t go well?”

“I didn’t stay long to find out,” Carly said. She flicked open a menu, despite knowing the menu by heart. “As soon as I did my nice deed, as if to punish me, God sent Brenda, Robin and Alexis to strike me down.”

“Brenda and Robin are…?” Steven prompted.

“The bane of my very existence.” Carly sighed. “No, Brenda is Sonny’s ex and Robin is Jason’s ex, so naturally neither one of them is fond of me and let me tell you–the feeling is more than mutual.”

“Well, it sounds as if your day needs a bit of a pick me up,” Steven remarked. “How about we get a table and try dinner.”

Carly eyed Steven suspiciously. “Is this another one of those friendly dinners you’ve been plying me with lately?”

Steven grinned and stood. “Sure, why not?”

Carly sighed and crossed to one of the tables. “Because I’m wondering how many of these dinners do we need to have before one of us admits they’re dates.”

Spencer House: Living Room

Luke coughed and moved to the space in front of the fireplace. “I, ah, I’m not good at this family stuff.”

Lulu snorted and glared at Lucky when he elbowed her. “What? It’s not like we weren’t all agreeing him silently.”

“Be that as it may,” Luke sent a warning glare at his daughter. “I’m glad you could all come on such short notice–” he broke off when he realized a very nervous and very unfamiliar blonde was seated next to his son. “Who’re you?”

“Ah…Brianne Joyce,” Brianne clasped her hands together to keep from wringing them. “Lucky wouldn’t let me stay home alone.”

“It’s okay, Dad,” Lucky told him, trying to convey the fact that he’d explain later without letting Brianne know that he’d explain. “So, what’s up?”

“Well, I asked you all here because well, for one, we’re a family.” He eyed Nikolas and his wife suspiciously. “Even the Cassadine branch, though it pains me to admit that we even have one. And we all want what’s best for Laura.” He took a deep breath. “She was the glue that kept us together and since she got sick…”

“Everything’s gone to hell,” Lulu muttered.

“Yeah, well…we all should have a say in what comes next.” Luke shifted. “The doctors in London say that she’s responding to some of the new treatment and she’s showing marked improvement.” He met Lesley’s eyes. “She even recognized me for a while.”

“That’s incredible,” Nikolas sat forward. “So she’s going to get better?”

“Well, now, we don’t know that for sure. They just say that she’s at a point in her recovery where family is encouraged to visit, to participate in the program. So they’re moving her here, to a place called Rose Lawn within the month. If she keeps responding, they say by the spring she could start out patient therapy.”

Lulu sat up straight. “Mom’s going to come home?”

“Well, the doctors aren’t sure. And they don’t want to make guarantees. She could slide right back or she could get better faster than they think. But they say she’s been improving regularly and if she keeps doing well, things are going to get better.”

“That’s the best news I’ve had in months.” Lucky stood and crossed to embrace his father. “So what’s there to decide?”

“Well, seeing as how we didn’t manage to get remarried,” Luke shifted. “Nikolas is her oldest son and has power of attorney. He has to okay the move.”

Nikolas stood. “Give me the name and the number of who to call.” He gripped Emily’s hand. “And I think that everyone will back me up when I say that I would have no trouble transferring power of attorney to you.” He met Lucky’s eyes for a moment before focusing on Luke. “Mom would want it that way.”

Luke swallowed hard. “Thank you. That would…that would mean a lot.”

Sonny’s Penthouse: Michael’s Bedroom

Michael flopped onto his bed and folded his arms behind his head. “I missed my room,” he sighed.

Sonny set Morgan on the bed beside his brother and patted Michael’s knee. “I miss having you in this room.”

“You and Mom really aren’t going to get back together are you?” Michael sighed. He sat up and tucked his knees under his chin, wrapping his arms around them. “This isn’t like the last time.”

“No,” Sonny said. “I’m sorry, buddy, but that’s not going to happen this time.”

“But you’re not going to fight over us this time either right?” Michael asked. “Mom said you weren’t but I wasn’t sure.”

“No, we’re not.” Sonny stopped Morgan from crawling too close to the edge. “We’re going to have joint custody. You’re going to spend weekends with me and every other holiday and your mother and I have already agreed that we can stop over the other’s house to spend time together when we’re apart. I don’t like it, but it’s for the best.”

“So if I want to come see you on a Wednesday after school, I can?” Michael asked.

“Sure. As long as you tell your mother and you do your homework,” Sonny said pointedly.

Michael huffed. “Well, if the homework is going to be the breaking point,” he joked.

“Smart ass,” Sonny muttered with a fond smile. “There’s something else I want to tell you, buddy. Some good news, I think.”

“What?” Michael asked eagerly. “Is it presents?”

“No,” Sonny drawled. “You’ve met Kristina Davis, right? Alexis’s daughter.”

Michael nodded. “She’s in Morgan’s playgroup at the park. What about her?”

“She’s my daughter, too,” Sonny said after a moment. “She’s your sister.”

Michael pursed his lips. “I don’t understand,” he shook his head. “How come you never told us before? And you were married to Mom.”

“Not when Kristina was conceived,” Sonny said uncomfortably. “Your mom and I were divorced for a year, remember?”

“Right, before her car accident,” Michael nodded. “Okay. So Kristina is my sister. That’s cool. When do we get to see her?”

“That’s something Alexis and I have to decide between us,” Sonny told him. “We haven’t come to an agreement yet.” He paused. “So you’re okay with this?”

Michael thought about it for a moment. “When Mom was pregnant with Morgan, I really wanted a little sister,” he told his father. “I love Morgan but it’s still cool to have a sister.”

“Well, good.” Sonny leaned over and kissed his forehead. “Watch your brother for a little while. I have to make a phone call.”

He left his sons and went downstairs to the phone on his desk. He dialed an old but familiar number. When the answering machine clicked on, he waited for the beep. “Alexis, its Sonny. I think it’s time to talk custody arrangements.”

This entry is part 19 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

Wednesday, December 1, 2004

PCMB: Ric’s Office

Ric set a file aside and checked his gold wrist watch. He had court in a half hour and was hoping to be out of there by noon so he could meet Alexis for lunch before picking up Kristina.

His intercom buzzed and his secretary’s voice filtered through, “Mr. Lansing, Christopher Hartman is here about the Sanchez case.”

“Could you direct him to Ms. Joyce’s office, please?” Ric asked. He stood and crossed to his filing cabinet. He fished through a few files, trying to locate the Harding case file.

“Sir, he says he needs to meet with you,” Gertrude remarked. “Should I tell him you’re busy?”

“No, no…” Ric sighed. “Show him in.”

A few moments later, the young defense attorney was seated and tapping his fingers on the leather top of his brief case. “Brianne Joyce is first chair on this case. I don’t know what you’re hoping for from me,” Ric said. He buttoned his jacket and sat behind his desk.

“My client has information that can close the East Side rapist case and your ADA wasn’t interested in hearing what he had to say.” Christopher swallowed and set his briefcase on the edge of Ric’s desk to remove a statement from Diego. “Diego Sanchez is prepared to make a sworn statement about the case in exchange for probation on the Ashton case.”

Ric arched an eyebrow. “And Ms. Joyce turned this down?”

“She didn’t even let us make an offer,” Christopher said, perking up a bit. “She led us to believe she would make a deal in exchange for his information but declined to make any promises. She says she’s taking this to court. She’s not doing what’s in the best interest of–”

“What she is doing is giving Brooke Lynn Ashton her day in court,” Ric leaned back in his chair. “She did exactly what I would have advised her to do. I don’t want Diego Sanchez serving even one hour less than he deserves. We make deals in cases we aren’t sure we can get a conviction. We don’t let a brutal rapist off with a slap on the wrist because he might have information on an old case. And just so we’re clear, Brooke Lynn is a member of a family that includes the Edward and Tracy Quartermaine and Ned Ashton. They would have my head if I agreed to something like this. And besides, Hartman, we have enough information to bury your client. Does he understand the significance of DNA?” Ric asked coolly.

“Look, I know the merits of the case,” Christopher said. “But Sanchez wants to go to trial. What else am I supposed to do?”

“Remind him that the sentence for aggravated rape and assault of a minor is fifteen years to life. If he’s so eager to give us this information, we could always make a sentencing recommendation once he’s convicted.”

Christopher glared at the DA. “You’re so god damn smug, you’re so sure you can convict Sanchez.” He slammed his briefcase shut and stood. “Wait until the press gets a hold of the information that you could close fifteen open rapes and instead, chose to bow to the political pressure of the almighty Quartermaines.”

He stormed out of the office. Ric rolled his eyes and started to look over his case notes for court.

Port Charles Airport: Gate 4

“I’m so excited,” Emily squealed as she waited for the Cassadine jet to begin boarding. She straightened Jason’s leather jacket as if it were a sports coat. “It’s your first trip where I can know where you’re going, when you’ll be back, and that you won’t be shot while you’re gone.”

“I’ll be back on Friday,” Jason replied. “It’s just a quick round of the offices to make sure security is up to date and running efficiently. ”

“Well, the baby shower is Saturday, so you have to be back by then,” Emily said. “Nikolas mentioned after the new year that you have to do a longer trip.”

“To visit the other sites,” Jason confirmed. “In Rome, Athens, Sydney, Hong Kong and Tokyo.”

Emily smiled slyly. “I bet Elizabeth will be ready for a vacation by then. Maybe you should take her–”

“Emily, you promised no meddling,” Jason reminded her. “You’re going to let Elizabeth and I handle this in our own way and in our own time.”

She rolled her eyes and stamped her foot. “But you’re not handling it,” Emily said, tossing up her hands in exasperation. “You’re just…avoiding the whole issue. How are you ever going to be together if you don’t talk?”

“We’re giving each other some space right now,” Jason replied. “Emily, just concentrate on your own life–”

“I am. You and Elizabeth are part of that life.” Emily sighed. “I can’t get Lucky to make a move on the ADA and I am so bored out of mind waiting for Nikolas to get home from work. I seriously am going to lose my mind by the time next semester starts.”

“That’s really not any one’s fault,” Jason told her. “Find something you like to do–besides meddling in people’s lives.”

Emily huffed. “There’s no fun in that.”

“Mr. Morgan,” the flight attendant approached them with a bright smile. “We’re boarding now, sir.”

“Okay, I’ll be right there,” Jason told her. He hugged Emily. “Don’t meddle.”

“Spoilsport,” Emily muttered.

PCMB: Ric’s Office

“Mr. Lansing, Sergeant Spencer is here to see you.”

Ric muttered under his breath and set his case down. He was due in court in twenty minutes and still hadn’t left his office. “Send him in.”

Lucky strode in a few seconds later. “I need to speak with you about Brianne.”

“You have ten minutes before I absolutely have to leave for the courthouse,” Ric told him. “Make it fast.”

“We reactivated her case last month,” Lucky began. “And she’s been jumpy and kind of distracted since–”

“Lucky, could you please get to the point–”

“I’m worried about her motives for prosecuting the case,” Lucky interrupted. “I don’t think this is the right case for her.”

Ric sighed and sat back in his seat. “Look, I already talked to her about this. I understand that the two of you have grown close, Lucky, but I honestly….I’ve got it under control. And I think Brianne will do a better job because of her past.”

“It’s taking a toll on her,” Lucky said after a long moment. “She got another bouquet of roses earlier this week and she’s been having nightmares–”

Ric arched a brow. “How do you know she’s having nightmares?” he asked curiously.

Lucky glared at him. “I’m sleeping on her couch until the harassment stops,” he said through clenched teeth.

“I appreciate your concern, Lucky, but until Brianne comes to me with this, it’s her case.” Ric stood and checked his watch. “If I were you and wanted to get somewhere with the lovely ADA, I wouldn’t go behind her back even if it was in her own best interests. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to get to court.”

Spencer House: Living Room

“Thanks for getting my homework,” Lulu told Georgie as she stuffed the folders that Georgie gave her into her backpack. “Even though I’m so totally behind.”

Georgie shrugged and flopped onto the flowered couch. “I can help you get caught up, it’s no biggie.”

Lulu sat next to her and shoved her hair out of her face. “So how are things with Brooke Lynn?” she asked. “All I know is what I read in the papers.”

“Brooke’s doing okay, I guess. As well as can be expected. She tried to go back to school before Thanksgiving but only made it until lunch time. But she looks better.” Georgie hesitated. “Unless she’s just pretending and if that’s the thing, then I’m not sure if she’s okay at all.”

“Yeah, the kids at school are just being really stupid about the whole thing. Mostly, they feel sorry for her but a lot of them think she brought it on herself by hanging out with Diego in the first place, which is the dumbest thing I ever heard of.” Lulu rolled her eyes. “Such is the maturity at PC High.”

“It’s been really hard for us, I mean, me, Maxie, Lucas and Dillon. No one’s sure how to act, what to say. And poor Lucas, I mean they were dating. Brooke hasn’t said anything to him about wanting to just be fiends so it’s just kind of this awful limbo. So far, he’s sticking but I just…” Georgie shrugged. “I can’t imagine how it’s all gonna end.”

The front door opened behind them and shut with a bang. “There sure are a lot more flowers here than I remember,” Luke muttered.

Lulu turned and for a moment her eyes lit up at the sight of her father but they quickly dimmed. “Hey. Dad,” she said absently. “How long are you back for?”

Luke frowned. “Didn’t Lucky give you my message?”

“He said something about you staying longer than a month.” Lulu shrugged and stood. “But your plans change all the time, you know?”

“Hey, Mr. Spencer,” Georgie said, standing as well. “I was just bringing Lu her homework. Let me know if you need any help getting caught up.”

“Thanks,” Lulu called as the other girl went to the door.

“See ya, Georgie,” Luke said as Georgie left. “Well, I’ve got some good news, Princess. I’ll be sticking around. Especially since I won’t need to traipse overseas to visit with your mother.”

Lulu frowned. “I don’t understand. Is that where you’ve been?”

“You bet,” Luke nodded. “And as soon as I can gather the family together, we’re going to talk about her future.”

“Sounds like a lot of fun,” Lulu said dryly. She hoisted her bag over her shoulder. “Pizza for dinner?”

“Nope. We’re picking Lesley up at the hospital in a few hours and then I’m taking my two favorite girls out for dinner,” Luke said.

Lulu rolled her eyes. “Look, Dad, I appreciate the gesture of family solidarity, but really–you don’t have to act around me. I know how it works and it’s really okay.”

Luke narrowed his eyes. “How what works?”

“This family,” Lulu clarified. “Lucky’s your number one kid. I’m the kid that Mom wanted and you never had time for. It’s okay. I mean, it’s not my first choice on how to live but I can’t really change that–”

“Whoa, Princess, that’s not how it is at all,” Luke interrupted. “I admit…since your mother got sick, I have been…somewhat…not here but that’s got nothing to do with you. It’s all my fault.”

Lulu sighed. “Dad…”

Luke set his bag down and approached his daughter. When had she grown up? What had happened to the tiny girl with the big eyes? “Lu, you are my daughter. Now, I never set out to be a father, okay? That was all your mother’s idea, but the day you were born, I knew a kind of terror that I hadn’t with Lucky. Lucky was a boy, I could almost picture myself raising a boy. You were a girl, you know? I didn’t know…I didn’t always know how to be with you, to be your father.”

Lulu looked down. “So it’s my fault for being a girl–”

“No, no,” Luke shook his head. “Princess, you have always been a challenge that Lucky wasn’t. I don’t know much about women, you can just ask your grandma about that and I always figured…if I didn’t want to screw you up too much, I should just keep my distance. I’m sorry if that led you to believe that you meant less to me than Lucky.”

“So you were a coward,” Lulu nodded. “That’s fine. At least the lack wasn’t in me. But Dad, I never figured you for someone who ran from something that was tough. You always seemed like you liked things that weren’t easy. But maybe that my problem for listening to the stories about you instead of using my own brain to figure it out.”

She brushed past him and hurried up the stairs. Luke exhaled slowly. Teenage daughters. He’d almost rather go up against Stavros Cassadine.

General Hospital: Nurse’s Station

“The patient in 620 was asking for you,” Elizabeth said as she handed a stack of charts to her brother. “But I think it was more to look at you than actually needing your medical attention.” She arched an eyebrow. “My brother, such a ladies man.”

Steven smirked. “The patient in 620 is twelve years old and has just discovered boys. She’s been practicing on me since they brought her in.” He signed a few charts before speaking again. “Have you noticed Dr. Patrick Drake around yet?”

“He’s the new ER doctor isn’t he?” Elizabeth asked. “I’m not supposed to start my rounds on the ER floor for another few weeks, so no. Why?” she asked suspiciously.

“He’s mentioned you,” Steven said, casually. “He thinks you’re cute.”

Elizabeth rolled her eyes. “Gee, Steven, are we sixteen years old?” She snorted and started marking charts of her own. “Cute.”

“He wanted to know if you were seeing anyone.” Steven paused. “I didn’t know what to tell him.”

Elizabeth paused and bit her lip. “I don’t know,” she answered honestly. “Jason and I are taking some space but I don’t think that means we’ve broken up.”

“Bit…” Steven hesitated. “You really don’t think it’s fair that you spend your life waiting for him to be ready for a relationship, do you?”

“That’s not what we’re doing, Steven. We’re just…” Elizabeth shrugged. “Taking time. He’s just made some really big changes in his life–”

“Don’t make excuses for him,” Steven interrupted. “I get that you love him. But love…it’s not always the answer, Liz. Sometimes, you have to know when to give up.”

“No.” Elizabeth shook her head. “We have a son together. There’s more at stake than just us. We make it work when it’s just us…it’s just when other people are around.” She gripped her pen so hard her knuckles turned white. “Steven…”

“Do you really want a relationship that works only when you’re alone?” Steven asked quietly. “Neither of you are isolated from the rest of the world. You have family and friends. They shouldn’t be cut out of your life.”

“You’re not telling me anything I don’t–” Elizabeth huffed and shifted her weight from one foot to another. “Steven, you’re not telling me anything that I don’t know, okay? These are all things that I’m completely aware of and we want to work on them. But we’re not broken up.”

“You’re not together either, Liz. Look, just think about it. It wouldn’t have to be real date. Just something to get yourself out there,” Steven told her. “Maybe it’ll even clarify things for you. That you want to work things out with Jason, that there are no substitutes.”

“I shouldn’t need a blind date to tell me that I love Jason,” Elizabeth said impatiently.

“I know you love him. He knows you love him. Love is not the problem here, Bit. The problem is that you and Jason have spent more time apart than you have together and neither one of you realizes that just because you fell in love three years ago doesn’t mean the things you loved about each other are still true. You tell yourselves that you love each other but you haven’t really taken the time to remind yourself why. You’re not in love with the person Jason is today, Elizabeth,” Steven said. “And he’s not in love with who you are today either. You’re in love with the people who existed three years ago–even two years ago. But, honey, you’re not that girl anymore.”

Elizabeth blinked. “That’s it.” She set her pen down and shook her head. “I just…that’s absolutely it.”

Steven misinterpreted the words and sighed impatiently, dragging a hand through his head. “I know you think I’m just meddling and that I don’t know Jason–”

“No, no, I mean, you’re right.” Elizabeth exhaled shakily. “I just–I never thought about it like that before. We’ve had no real contact over the last few years, he was gone so long and it wasn’t too long after he came back that we really broke contact and so many things in our lives have changed since then. We’re not the people we used to be.” Her eyes met her brother’s. “I’m not sure what to do now. I mean, I want to be with him. I want a life with him. But I can’t…do I want Jason now or the one I knew three years ago?”

“I can’t answer that for you. You and Jason have to deal with that. I’m just trying to say that you’re a beautiful young woman and you shouldn’t have to sit around waiting for grand epiphanies. I get that you and Jason have a son together–”

“I’ll think about it,” Elizabeth cut her brother off. “I can’t promise you anything more than that. But you’re right, it is time for a change.”

Sam’s Penthouse: Living Room

“Nope.” Sam scribbled out an ad for an exotic dancer. “I have the body but not the temperament. First guy to drool the wrong way, I’d probably kick him in the teeth.”

“I wouldn’t let you do it anyway,” Sonny muttered from his position next to her on the couch. Sam glanced up and eyed him. “I mean, I would have advised you not to do that.” Her eyes narrowed. “What I actually mean is that I would have suggested perhaps you continue looking.”

“Close enough,” she replied. She huffed impatiently. “I can’t stand doing this. I hate job hunting.”

“Have you ever actually done it?” Sonny asked.

“Well, no,” Sam admitted. “Before the salvage gig, I was a con artist, after all. We don’t really job hunt. We mark hunt.” She flipped to a new page. “I need to think stable income and benefits.”

“Stable has never been a word I’d associate with you,” Sonny remarked. He sipped his coffee. “You could just come work for me,” he offered.

“I also need to think no guns and no explosions,” Sam murmured. “What about a receptionist?” she asked

“A receptionist?” Sonny repeated. He smirked. “Well, it’s stable, probably has benefits and the odds of you being shot are low. But do you really think you could deal with being in customer service?”

“Hey,” Sam said, annoyed. “I am the very definition of sunshine and light and if you think otherwise, I’d like to introduce your ass to my foot, got it?”

“Ms. Sunshine, understood,” Sonny said, sipping his coffee again to hide the grin. “Where would you be working?”

“The new PC Hotel,” Sam said. She circled it. “I’m applying.”

“I don’t really think it’s your thing,” Sonny said.

Sam arched an eyebrow. “When did I ask for your input on how to run my life?” She reached for the phone. “And I’m only doing this to prove that I can do anything, even be nice to a bunch of idiots. I am a very pleasant person.”

“I don’t doubt it,” Sonny said, his grin widening.

Port Charles Hotel: Jax’s On Site Office

“So today’s the big day, eh?” Jax remarked as he shoved aside a pile of papers so Alexis could sit down in his office trailer at the site of the Port Charles Hotel construction.

“Mmm-hmm,” Alexis said. She glanced out the small windows to peer up at the stone building. “It’s looking pretty good. How’s the inside coming along?”

“The rooms are very nearly complete, actually. I was doing the administration wing last which is why I’m still stuck in this tin can,” Jax remarked. “So you want to do your wedding the Saturday after we open?”

“December 19,” Alexis nodded. “Are you sure it’ll be ready by then?”

“I’ll make sure it is,” Jax answered. He sat behind his desk. “So, Kristina’s doing as expected?”

“Better,” Alexis answered. She sighed and closed her eyes. “It’s like a miracle, really. I just hope everything else goes as well.”

“Uh huh,” Jax nodded. He fished around his desk for some paperwork. “How’s life with the DA?”

“It’s…surprising,” Alexis admitted. “Once Kristina was improving and we could kind of go back to ordinary life a little more, he started spending more time at the office. But, all in all, it’s going well. How’s…Courtney?”

Jax exhaled slowly. “I wouldn’t know,” he said finally. “We haven’t really been keeping in touch the last few weeks. She’s been very involved with her foundation and her…plans.”

“Plans,” Alexis echoed. “The last I remember, you thought you might be falling for her.”

“Well, I thought wrong,” Jax replied. “After she lied to the police about Diego and then bailed him out so he could jump bail, I’m just not sure I want to be in a relationship with someone who shares Sonny Corinthos’s views on police authority.”

Alexis snorted. “Since when do you care about that?”

“Ned’s a good friend of mine and Diego Sanchez brutally raped his daughter,” Jax answered. “I know where my loyalties are.”

Alexis sobered. “I know. And I’m certainly glad he’s back in jail where he belongs. I haven’t seen Ned except for board meetings at the hospital but he hasn’t looked well. Like he’s not sleeping.”

“He wasn’t,” Jax replied. “Especially once Sanchez had jumped bail. He told me that Brooke Lynn wasn’t sleeping at night either and when she did manage to doze off, she woke up with nightmares.”

“We should get together,” Alexis suggested. “You, me, Ned, Lois. It’ll be good. We’ll go out for dinner or just–I want to do something for him. For Lois.”

Jax nodded. “I’ll call him and set it up.”

Spencer House: Living Room

“Careful, Lesley,” Luke said, holding his mother-in-law’s elbow as she stepped over the threshold. He swung her bag and set it next to the stairs. “Let’s get you on the couch.”

“I had a heart attack, Luke, I’m not dying,” Lesley said, laughing weakly. But she followed his direction anyway.

“Lu, baby, could you get a menu from the kitchen?” Luke asked. “Kelly’s or Eli’s, wherever you want to go. I don’t think Lesley’s up for dinner out.”

“Sure,” Lulu murmured. She closed the front door and disappeared into the kitchen. Luke sighed.

“I’m not sure what I’m doing here, Lesley,” he told her as he sat in the armchair adjacent to the couch. “I want to fix the things I’ve done wrong but I don’t want to screw her up anymore.”

“Just be here,” Lesley said, patting his hand. “Now, what’s this news about Laura you’ve been keeping to yourself?”

“Well, I was going to wait until we had Lucky here and the Cassadine spawn,” Luke said with a smirk, but I suppose you have a right to know.” He lowered his voice and leaned towards Lesley. “Her doctors are moving her from London here to New York. She’s doing well enough for less intensive therapy. And if she continues to get better, in a few months, she might even be able to start out patient therapy. She might be able to come home.”

Lesley squeezed Luke’s hands. “That is good news,” she said with a wide smile. “You, Laura, Lulu and the boys. You deserve to be a family again.”

“We’ve always been a family,” Luke said after a long moment. “I was just too blind to be a part of it.”

January 20, 2015

Hey! Just a quick note that I’m looking for another beta reader. I still love Cora to pieces, but I know I’m definitely too prolific for just one person, ha, and if I could afford to pay her I would. That being said, you can tell from my story statuses that I often have several projects going on at a time. I’m usually writing two actively with about six or seven working through the development process.

While I am looking for someone to do a basic read through of chapters before I post looking for typos, I’m also looking for someone who’d be interested in story development. I often create really elaborate outlines to begin my stories and then break them down scene by scene to facilitate the writing. I’m looking for someone to read them with a critical eye — if a character is missing or maybe some subtext, or just an element that isn’t present, I want to hear that.

I like to think this isn’t a time consuming thing — particularly since you wouldn’t be responsible for anything I’m currently writing (The Best Thing and All We Are are in Cora’s hands at the moment), but I also try really hard not to bug anyone who’s doing me a favor.

If you’re interested, just reply to this and I’ll contact you by email 🙂

January 19, 2015

bestthingFirst things first: I know The Best Thing is a bit late. I’m waiting on Chapter 17 to come back from Cora, and it’s been a crazy couple of weeks for everyone involved. I like having a buffer zone between what I’m posting and what I’ve written — and I completely eliminated that in December, so I’m working hard to get ahead of myself again. At the moment, there are four chapters that I’ve written and haven’t posted. I hope to double that this week which puts us in a good position. I’ve mostly decided how to end the story — but I’m contemplating a sequel. I still have to do some thinking on that, so we’ll see.

On to the Fiction Graveyard updates 🙂 Next week, I’ll be posting the last chapters of True To Your Heart and Mad fictionWorld, so I’ll be posting a few shorter stories for a couple of weeks rather than the longer ones. I still have about nine stories to post, two of which are ten chapters or more, so Fiction Graveyard is still going to be with us into the spring.

Since I’ll be finishing the repost of the first version of Mad World, I’ll also post the outline for how I would have finished that version and talk a bit more about why I didn’t continue that version. I know plenty of you like that story, and that’s fine. I may try to finish it up one day, but I hates it a lot. True To Your Heart had no such planned outline, so I have no idea how I would have ended that, so once I post the twelfth chapter next week, that’s all she wrote on that.

As for housekeeping: I’m working on a system that would speed up the creation of ebooks for my backlist, as well as creating collections of my short story and novellas in ebook form. But in order to best serve you guys, I was hoping you might respond to this post with following information.

1. Have you downloaded any of the ebooks on the site? If not, why?

2. Which format do you find most useful? Is there another format I could utilize?

3. Would you be interested more specific instructions for using Calibre to put the ebooks on your ereader?

I’d appreciate any feedback 🙂

sitenewsThat being said, would you guys kill me if I thought about rewriting I Shall Believe? I know, I know, I swore I wouldn’t. But I was contemplating why I’m struggling with writing a sequel so much and I think it’s either two reasons: 1. I don’t think it actually needs a sequel and therefore, there’s no point, or 2. We’re dealing with a Burn in Heaven situation where I couldn’t write the sequel because I didn’t like the way I had written the first story. I don’t know. I might be overthinking it.

I have issues. This is not news.

And before I go and leave you alone, I’m working on a short story set in my All I Want for Christmas universe for Valentine’s Day, but I make no promises 🙂

Your Graveyard Additions
Mad World: Chapters 16-18
Shadows: Chapters 4-6
True To Your Heart: Chapters 8-10

This entry is part 11 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

And it’s hard watching
‘Cause I’m part of you
And it’s hard not to
Not to know what I can do
I’m powerless to change your world
I’m powerless to stop the hurt
I’m trying hard to be your tower of strength
I’m trying hard to bring you back to joy

— Heart and Shoulder, Heather Nova

—-

Courtney watched her husband change his shirt for the tenth time and felt a rush of love for him. “Honey, Michael’s not going to care what you’re wearing.”

AJ buttoned the blue shirt and sighed. “I just…I want to be perfect. I’ve got a second chance with him…and I don’t want to lose it.”

Courtney slid off the edge of their bed and wound her arms around him, staring at his reflection in the mirror over his shoulder. “Do you know what I see when I look at you?” she asked.

“What?” AJ asked, covering his wife’s hands with his own.

“I see man who’s made mistakes in his life,” Courtney said. “Someone who’s done bad things, but never because he’s a bad person. Baby, I see someone whose taken his family’s expectations of him and shattered them.” She kissed the side of his neck. “Be honest with Michael, don’t hold anything back. He’ll respect that in the end.”

AJ turned so that he was facing her. “How did I ever manage to marry someone like you?” he asked, his voice full of the awe and love he felt whenever he saw her.

Courtney grinned and leaned up to brush a kiss against his lips. “You hated my brother,” she reminded him without a trace of anger or bitterness.

Somehow, they’d gotten past AJ’s confession of why he’d married her. She’d been hurt and she’d asked him to leave. He’d thought their marriage was over, but it didn’t stop him from trying. He loved her more than anything in the world and he refused to lose her.

Courtney had attempted to end the marriage several times, but always stopped before seeing the lawyers. She wasn’t sure if she wanted to end her marriage because of his mistake. He claimed to love her for real–and she wanted to believe him.

In the end, it hadn’t been AJ’s tireless efforts to win her back or Courtney’s seemingly bottomless faith in her husband.

It’d been the discovery of Courtney’s pregnancy. Knowing she could never keep the child from AJ, she’d told him.

“I’m pregnant,” Courtney confessed, her hands clasped in front of her as she and AJ were seated in the small apartment they’d once shared.

He didn’t ask how long. He didn’t ask if it was his.

Instead, he slid off the couch and kneeled in front of her, placing his hands on her knees. “I love you,” he told her, his voice quiet and calm. “I’ve made so many mistakes and I don’t blame you for wanting to walk away. Hell, I’ve done enough to make you do that without telling the truth about the reason I married you.”

“AJ–” Courtney began, unwilling to listen to more apologies.

“I will never stop trying to make up for the reason we began, for how unbelievably selfish I was, trapping you into marriage. I can’t ever ask you to forgive me for it. But, I love you. I know that like I know my last name. You are my everything. The first thing I think about when I wake up–the last face I see before I fall asleep. I want to spend the rest of my life loving you. Please, just give me one more chance to be with you–to be a family. Let’s give this child what any child deserves. Two parents who love each other, despite the odds.”

She raised her tear-filled blue eyes to her husband’s pleading brown ones. “I love you so much, AJ Quartermaine. I married you because I wanted to escape Sonny and his controlling nature. This is my confession. I didn’t marry you because I loved you, but I saw you as my escape.” She sucked in a deep breath and wiped the tears away with the back of her hand. “But somewhere along the line, AJ, I fell in love with you. With everything that you are. I’m not blind anymore–I’m not na�ve. You’re not the perfect person I thought you were in the beginning.”

AJ’s shoulders slumped and he sighed. “All right. I–I just want to be part of this child’s life. I understand if you–”

She pressed two fingers to his lips. “I’m not finished,” she told him. “You are my everything. The first thing I think about when I wake up–the last face I see before I fall asleep. I want to spend the rest of my life loving you. Please, just give me one more chance to be with–to be a family. Let’s give this child what any child deserves. Two parents who love each other, despite the odds.”

AJ blinked back the tears that threatened to spill over. He stood, pulling Courtney with him and wrapped his arms around her. “I love you,” he breathed, his breath warm on her neck.

“I love you, too,” Courtney said.

“What are you thinking about?” she asked, bringing AJ back to the present. He looked into his wife’s dancing blue eyes.

“Thinking about the day you told me about Jocelyn,” AJ told her. “I love you, Courtney. I love you and Jo and Steve so much it takes my breath away sometimes. Having Michael in my life–it won’t change that.”

Hearing the promise from her husband’s lips quelled the fear that she hadn’t even known she possessed.

“Go,” she told him. “Go have lunch with your son.”

AJ kissed her again before pulling out of her arms to finish buttoning his shirt. He tucked it into his khakis and left the room.

—-

Carly smoothed Michael’s black t-shirt for the hundredth time and Michael smacked her hands away. “Come on, Mom, I’m not six anymore.”

Carly smiled. “You may be sixteen–you may be a high school graduate, but you will always be Mr. Man to me.” She kissed him on the cheek. “You’ll never know how much it means to me to know that despite my best efforts to the contrary, you still managed grow up into this wonderful person.”

A little embarrassed by his mother’s words, Michael turned and shrugged. “Well, you’re not as bad you seem to think.” He turned back to her. “So, Jason went in today?”

“No. Johnny called–Sonny came to work,” Carly replied. She moved around the guest room she was using at the Morgan house. “I guess he’s feeling better.”

“You going to talk to him?” Michael asked, sticking his hands in his pockets.

Carly shrugged. “I don’t know. I need to figure what I’m gonna say to him.” She eyed him. “You gonna drop Drew off at camp on your way to meet AJ? I have to take Mandy to the hospital.”

“Yep. I’m taking Dee and Davie with me….Mom?”

“Yeah?” Carly asked, checking the battery on her cell phone before putting it into her purse.

“You okay with me going to see him?” Michael asked.

Carly stilled in her movements and looked up. “No,” she said honestly. “I have been so terrified of AJ being around you since the moment you were born. It doesn’t matter that he’s gotten his life under control, or that he’s happily married and I know he’s a wonderful father–but I guess…I guess I can’t forget the days when he threatened to take you away and never let you see me.” She took a deep breath. “But I understand that you need to do this.”

“Thanks,” Michael said. “Well, I’d better get going.”

—-

Emily rubbed her forehead wearily. She’d never dreamed all the work that would go into opening Wyndemere to prepare for Nikolas’s arrival in a week or two. She’d found on agency to clean it, and then she’d had to contract another agency to furnish it. She’d hired gardeners to take care of the gardens and she had to hire at least a minor staff once Nikolas and Gia arrived.

To top it off, Lucky was still calling and begging her for another chance. Emily might have been tempted to listen to him, but he was still insisting she was being ridiculous. There was no way he was still in love with Elizabeth.

Emily could hear the way he felt about her best friend in the very way he said her name, so she promptly hung up on him.

Perhaps she was just being paranoid.

Maybe it was her pregnancy and the hormones were affecting her.

But Emily couldn’t be imagining the way his voice changed when he talked about Elizabeth, or the way his eyes lit up when she was around. He might be consciously aware of it–but Emily was.

She still wanted Lucky to be part of the child’s life and she’d told him as much. She’d offered to let him come to the ultrasound next week, but Lucky wasn’t interested. If he wasn’t going to be with Emily and part of her life as well, he wasn’t interested in being part of the child’s either.

Emily thought that was a rather selfish way to look at it, and had decided that he was going through a bad time and that she wasn’t going to hold him to this decision. She’d invited Laura instead.

In the back of her mind, the image from her brother’s house still lingered. She’d cried herself to sleep, thinking about Elizabeth, the strain Emily had placed on their friendship, about the way she’d die if anything happened to own child and finally, she cried for her brother, who must be reeling. No father loved his children more than Jason–and she couldn’t imagine how he was faring, having to deal with Elizabeth’s depression as well as his own.

Emily had come to work late–around noon and had spent the morning decorating the nursery. She’d decorated in a multitude of colors, preparing for either a boy or a girl. She promised herself that even if Lucky wasn’t going to be part of this child’s life, he or she was never going to want for love and attention. She was going to spoil this child beyond recognition.

“Miss Quartermaine? Mr. Spencer is on the phone again,” said her secretary over the intercom.

“Tell him I’m in the meeting,” Emily replied. “And then cancel my appointments for the rest of the day. I’m going to visit my niece at the hospital.”

“All right.”

—-

Alexis, Carly and Ned were in the hospital cafeteria trying to pass the time until Christie and Mandy returned from testing. They’d scheduled the transplant for the next day and had told Mandy and Christie that they were related and it would be explained in further detail after the surgery.

There was a tense air among the trio. Ned still felt the lingering guilt that he’d been the reason Sonny found out. Alexis still felt guilty that while she would save her daughter, Carly would lose her marriage.

And Carly was contemplating the words she’d say to her husband the next time she saw him. Sonny had yet to acknowledge Christina and Carly knew there was a real possibility that he might never do so. Once Sonny had made his mind that you didn’t exist, you didn’t have much of a chance.

“I can’t thank you enough, Carly,” Alexis said, finally breaking the tenuous silence. Carly smiled weakly.

“Just knowing that Christina will be all right is good enough,” she replied. She sipped her coffee, ignoring the bitter taste.

“I still haven’t decided on a way to tell Christie,” Alexis murmured.

Carly sighed. “I don’t know that the truth would work. I’m not sure Sonny wants to be part of her life and if that’s true, it would only hurt Christina in the end to know that her biological father doesn’t want her.” Carly looked to Ned. “If that ends up being true, I’m glad she has you.”

Ned shifted, unaccustomed to being on normal and nearly friendly terms with Carly. “Thank you. How are Mandy and Drew doing with the fall out?”

Carly sighed heavily. “They’re…adjusting. Jason offered the guest room and the kids room to us. Dee and Mandy are bunking, I’m in the guest room, Davie and Drew in the other room, and Michael’s on the couch. They don’t understand why yet and to be honest, I don’t know how to explain why we haven’t gone home.”

“You haven’t spoken to Sonny at all?” Alexis asked, concerned.

“No one has,” Carly remarked. “Not since the night I left. Jason stopped by that night, but he made it clear to Sonny that while he was there if Sonny needed him, his first priority was Elizabeth. He didn’t return to the warehouse until today.”

“How is Elizabeth?” Ned asked. “I meant to stop in while she was here, but I didn’t have the chance.”

“She’s doing a little better,” Carly replied. “She saw Emily yesterday for the first time since the miscarriage and it was bit of a nasty shock, and she locked herself in the bedroom.” A small humorless smile spread on Carly’s lips. “Jason put his lock picks to good use. But she was up this morning, and I even passed her in the hall–the first time I’ve seen her since I got there.”

“I can’t imagine what she’s going through,” Alexis murmured. “My pregnancy with Christina was very difficult–there were a few times I nearly lost her. And then with the premature birth…but in the end, she survived.”

“Elizabeth is strong,” Carly said. “I will never be her biggest fan nor will we ever be friends, but I will say that for her. She’s a survivor and I think it’s just a matter of time.”

“Tell her I’m thinking of her,” Alexis said. “That we both are, and we hope she’ll be all right.”

Grudgingly, Ned asked, “How is Jason?”

“He’s holding up,” Carly said. “You know Jason–he’ll take the weight of the world on his shoulders and never let anyone know. He’s being strong for Elizabeth, but eventually it’s going to come crashing down. It always does. And that’s when I’ll be there. Or Emily will. Jason’s got any number of people there to support him.”

It suddenly struck Ned that he was sitting here with his wife and Carly, discussing the people they had in common and those they cared about and not a single nasty word had been passed since Carly arrived.

Perhaps they’d finally grown up–seen past the mistakes of yesterday and were genuinely concerned for the decision of the future.

Or maybe it was time for a change.

“Monica wanted me to send hers and Alan’s prayers,” Ned said. “They didn’t see Elizabeth either while she was here…they didn’t want to upset Jason.”

“I think that Jason might be a little more receptive these days than he was ten years ago,” Carly said. “Marriage and parenthood has definitely mellowed him out.”

“AJ was visiting yesterday,” Ned said. “He, apparently, has lunch plans with Michael today.”

“Yep,” Carly confirmed. She traced the edge of her Styrofoam coffee cup. “Michael’s made the decision to get to know AJ and I’ve made the decision to support him in that endeavor.”

“I’m so sorry Michael found out,” Alexis said.

“It’s not your fault,” Carly remarked. “It’s mine. I never told him and I badmouthed AJ every time I turned around. You know, with Sonny and myself as role models, it’s amazing that my son grew up to be the well-rounded individual that he is.” Carly smirked. “Jason keeps telling me to stop giving him credit for his temperament.”

“He really did love that child,” Alexis said. “Getting visitation rights is still one of the best highlights of my career. I’m only sorry it didn’t work out better.”

“That’s my fault,” Carly replied. “I got scared and talked myself into trying to fix a situation that Jason already had under control. I screwed it up and I’m the reason Michael lost the best father he could have had. But Jason has always been a constant in his life and I’d be denying him the credit he’s due when it comes to Michael.”

—-

Jason pushed open the bedroom door, holding a plate with some lunch for Elizabeth. He breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Elizabeth sitting up in bed, showered and wearing jeans and a t-shirt. She was sketching something in one the plain sketchpads she left in the nightstand.

At his entrance, she looked up. “Hey.”

“Hey, I brought up something to eat,” Jason said, indicating the plate.

“I’m not really hungry,” Elizabeth replied. She set the sketchpad and the charcoal she’d been using aside. “Where are Dee and Davie?”

“They’re at the day camp that Mandy and Drew go to,” Jason replied. He sat down and handed her the plate. “Eat. You’ve barely eaten anything since you’ve been home.”

Elizabeth wrinkled her nose. “Jason–”

“How many times have you shoved soup down my throat?” Jason asked. “Humor me.”

She sighed and took the plate. She looked at the burger and fries and then looked back up at him, “Wow. This looks so…professional.”

Jason smirked. “Yeah, smartass. It’s from Kelly’s. I haven’t had much of a chance to get something to eat in the house.”

“I hope you haven’t been feeding the kids a lot of junk,” Elizabeth said, setting the plate on her lap. She lifted the burger and took a small bite. She chewed carefully and set it back down.

Jason shrugged. “Just some Kelly’s take out.” He shifted on the bed, leaning his back against the headboard and stretching his legs out. “Carly and the kids are staying here for a while.”

“Yeah…I saw her this morning when I took a shower,” Elizabeth replied, nibbling on a fry. “How is she doing?”

“She’s doing better,” Jason answered. “Still isn’t sure what she’s going to do, but she’s got my support no matter what.”

Elizabeth reached and touched his arm. “I know that must mean a lot to her. How are the kids?”

“Mandy and Drew are a little confused–I think they think they’re on vacation or something. By the way, Mandy’s a match for Christina Ashton,” Jason told her.

“Oh, I’m so glad,” Elizabeth said, taking another bite. As she continued to eat, she felt her appetite return. She hadn’t realized how hungry she really was. “I know Alexis and Ned must have been worried.”

“Yeah, so Carly’s going to spending some time at the hospital while Mandy’s undergoing some tests and then the actual surgery. Michael…he went to see AJ.”

Elizabeth’s eyes widened. “Really. How did Carly take that?”

“Surprisingly, Carly’s…being really…” Jason searched for the right word before finally setting on, “mature is the best way to put it. She told Michael that he’s going to do what he needs to do and that she supports him no matter what.”

“For what it’s worth, I’m glad all these secrets are out,” Elizabeth replied. “They had to come out sometime, y’know?”

“Yeah, I know. I just wish Sonny could have handled it better.”

Elizabeth finished her burger and set out to eat the rest of her fries. “Have you seen him?”

Jason shook his head. “He came back to the warehouse today, but I’m going to finish the original week of vacation I had and stay with you. I told him if he needs anything to let me know.”

“I’m okay, you know,” she told him. “I don’t need constant supervision, so it’s not like I’m going to collapse if you’re not here.”

“I know…” Jason watched her for a few minutes. “But I feel better being here.”

“Not that I’m arguing,” Elizabeth said. She finished the last fry and set the plate on the nightstand. “I think I’ve seen you more the last few days than in the entire six years we’ve been married.”

He frowned. “You’re joking right?”

She laughed and straddled his waist, planting one knee on either side of his waist. “Of course,” she replied. “Like I said, I’m not arguing. I like having you here.”

“I like being here,” Jason replied, resting his hands on her hips.

“So, what are you doing today besides baby-sitting duty?” she asked.

Letting the baby-sitting comment go, he told her, “Nothing. Why?”

Her eyes lit up and she grinned. “Can we go for a ride?”

“Sure,” he replied. “Right now?”

“Yeah, I could use it.” She looked at him, her eyes imploring. “Can I drive?”

“No.”

“Aww, come on. Please?”

“You’re not driving.”

“I’ll make it worth your while.”

“Well, in that case…”

—-
AJ was sitting in the Port Charles Grille, nervously shifting in his seat. He couldn’t believe he was about to come face to face with his son after so many years of being strangers. And to have Michael initiating the contact–well, that was just the icing on the cake.

He looked up when he saw a figure walking towards the table. Michael stopped in front of him.

“Hey,” he greeted.

“Hi, Michael,” AJ said. He indicated the seat across from him. “Sit down.”

Michael sat and AJ watched Michael shift a little. It was an uncomfortable and slightly bizarre situation.

What do you say to your sixteen-year-old son the first time you’re together as father and son?

I’m sorry for being a rotten father? For being a drunk? For signing away the rights to you? Badgering your mother every time she turned around?

Where could AJ possibly start?

This entry is part 10 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

There was a time you’d let me know
What’s real and going on below
But now you never show it to me do you?
Remember when I moved in you?
The holy dark was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah

— Hallelujah, Rufus Wainwright

——–

“Jocelyn Marie Quartermaine!”

Eight-year-old Jocelyn looked up at the sound of her mother’s angry voice, guilt written all over her face. “What, Mom? I didn’t do anything.”

Courtney Quartermaine folded her arms and waited, with an eyebrow raised expectantly. Finally Jocelyn cracked.

“All right. I won’t try and shove Steven out the window anymore,” Jocelyn grumbled, pushing her blonde bangs out of her brown eyes.

“That’s not what I was talking about,” Courtney said. “Mrs. Miller called. You were kicked out of day camp.”

“Oh. That.” Jocelyn frowned. “Well, it was mainly Mandy Corinthos’ fault. She said something about my father being a drunk, so naturally, I had to say something about her father being a mobster. And then Drew called Daddy a…” Jocelyn stopped and thought for a moment. “Well, it was a very bad word.”

“And you had to give him a black eye?” Courtney asked. “Jo, he’s your cousin. They’re both your cousins.”

“They suck,” Jocelyn replied plainly. “They’re stuck-up. They think they’re all that just ’cause they live in fancy penthouse and we live in a cottage.” She snorted. “Joke’s on them.” She grinned. “Besides, Eddie told me that they don’t even live there anymore.”

Courtney let her arms fall to her side. “What?” she asked, her voice concerned. “What do you mean?”

“Eddie says that Mandy and Drew have been staying with the Spencers,” Jocelyn confided. “And-”

“Jo, how many times have I told you–don’t spread gossip,” Courtney chastised.

“Fine,” Jocelyn shrugged. “Am I done being yelled at?”

“Don’t let it happen again,” Courtney warned. The doorbell rang, distracting her. “Go to your room the rest of the night and that’s your punishment.”

Jocelyn climbed the stairs to her room and Courtney went to answer the door. She pulled it open and frowned. “Michael.”

“Um, hi, Court,” Michael said, slightly uncomfortable around the woman who was supposed to be his aunt. He’d left Jason and Elizabeth’s after a disastrous dinner and had ended up at cottage where Courtney and AJ lived.

“Hey…” Courtney trailed off. “Not to be rude, but…what are you doing here?” she asked.

“Is AJ here?” Michael asked, gesturing towards the inside of the house.

“Um, no, he’s not, actually. He’s at the hospital.” Courtney tilted her head a little. “Can I tell him anything?”

“Um…” Michael shrugged a little. “Can you tell him that I found out the truth and I’d like to talk to him?”

“The truth?” Courtney nodded, understanding. “Oh. You know…”

“That AJ’s my dad….yeah…I found that out,” Michael replied.

“Oh…wow…” Courtney leaned against the doorframe. “I didn’t think you’d ever find out.”

“Yeah, well,” Michael looked away. “If my parents had had anything to say about it, I wouldn’t have. I overheard Sonny throwing it in Mom’s face…right before he threw her out.”

“I’m sorry,” Courtney said. “That must have been difficult.”

“Yeah, well, I’m dealing with it.” Michael shifted his weight from one foot to the other. “Well, just tell AJ that I stopped by.”

“I’ll do that,” Courtney replied. She watched Michael walk away and sighed.

She’d never thought this day would come.

She shut the door and leaned against it for a minute before pushing away and heading for the phone.

—-

Carly sighed. “It’s not your fault, Jase.”

“I shouldn’t have left,” Jason murmured, his clasped hands against mouth, muffling the sounds. “I should have stayed here.”

“Lu thought Liz was asleep. Emily was only stopping by to see the kids,” Carly tried to assure her.

“She’s crying again and she locked the door.” Jason just shook his head. “She was doing so much better.”

“I wish there something I could do,” Carly murmured, rubbing Jason’s back.

Jason sighed and took a deep breath. “The kids are asleep right?”

“Yeah. I put Drew and Davie together and the girls in the other room.” Carly frowned. “Drew got a black eye at camp today.”

Jason’s jaw clenched. “Who punched him?”

“Jocelyn, Courtney and AJ’s kid,” Carly said. “I know Jo–she’s not a violent kid, so I’m sure the twins aren’t completely innocent.”

“Probably not,” Jason agreed. “Where’s Michael?”

Carly shrugged. “He took a walk after dinner. I guess he’s not back yet.” She rubbed her eyes wearily. “I really appreciate you letting me and kids crash here.”

“It’s not a problem,” Jason said. “I think having the house full will help Elizabeth from withdrawing.”

“It’s only temporary,” Carly promised. “Luke is looking into a few things for more–believe it or not, Brenda’s old cottage is available. I might arrange to buy it.”

“You and Sonny might work this out,” Jason said.

“It’s impossible,” Carly said, quietly. “He’s convinced he’s right and I’m of being ashamed of who I am. I scheme, I lie, and I do stupid things. But that’s who I am. Why should I change and still have him not accept me?”

“So, you’re saying that you don’t want to work it out?” Jason asked incredulously.

Carly shifted on the couch and tucked her legs underneath her. “It’s not that. I mean, Sonny and I…Jase, I love him. And I always will. But it’s not always enough. He doesn’t respect me–and he doesn’t trust me. I don’t understand why I should have to put up with it.”

“You shouldn’t make a decision so quickly.” Jason leaned back and put his arm on the back of the couch. “Ending a marriage is such a large decision–especially one that has children and that’s lasted as long as yours.”

“Entering a marriage is just as big a deal,” Carly pointed out. “And the only reason Sonny and I are even together is that night of…” she wrinkled her nose. “I guess you could call it anger sex.” She twisted the hem of her shirt in her hand. “I don’t know if a marriage that began like that should last.”

“Look, I’m not going to argue–the way the two of you started out–it was unconventional,” Jason said. “But you love each other.”

“Right,” Carly agreed. She rubbed her forehead. “Okay, you and Elizabeth, you’re in love right?”

“Of course,” Jason replied.

“You’d lay down your life for each other,” Carly continued. “Sonny and I…we have that.”

“Which is why you can work this out,” Jason said.

“But you trust Elizabeth, don’t you?” Carly asked. “When she walks in the door, you’re not automatically wondering what she was doing and where she was and if she’s going to lie to you about it. No, if you wanted to know, you’d ask and you’d get the honest answer.”

“Right,” Jason said, slowly, understanding where Carly was going.

“Is it so bad to want someone to trust me like that?” Carly asked quietly.

“No,” Jason replied. “It’s not.” He reached out and grasped her fingers. “If you need me, I’m here for you.”

“Thanks,” Carly said. The door opened then and Michael entered. Carly sat up. “Hey.”

“Hey.” Michael eyed his mother. “I went to AJ’s.”

Jason could feel Carly tense beside him and raised himself off the couch. “I’m going to get my lock picks and open the door so I can go to sleep. Night, Carly. Night, Michael.”

Michael frowned as Jason passed him and went upstairs. “Lock picks?”

“Don’t ask.” Carly patted the seat Jason had just vacated. “So, how did it go?”

Michael sat down and studied his mother. “You’re okay with the fact that I might want to talk to him?”

“Actually, no.” Carly gave her son a weak smile. “I’d rather you stay as far away from him as possible. But you’re a young man and I trust you to make your own decisions.”

“Thanks,” Michael said gratefully. He took a deep breath. “He wasn’t there, so I told Court to let him know I stopped by and that I knew.”

“I’ll give AJ credit–he has stayed sober for ten years,” Carly said, grudgingly. “And he has made Courtney happy.”

Michael smirked. “That looked painful.”

“It was.” Carly sighed. “So…are you going to try and get to know him?”

Michael shrugged. “I don’t know. I want to at least connect, you know? To keep my options open.” He leaned back against the couch, his head tilted up. “You make any decisions yet?”

“Not really,” Carly admitted. “I’m toying with buying this old cottage–it’s actually out in the neighborhood where AJ and Courtney live. But I think I have to discuss this with Sonny first. We haven’t even talked about Mandy and Drew.” She eyed Michael. “I guess it’s safe to say you don’t want to be part of any custody arrangements?”

Michael frowned and turned his head to the side. “I don’t know how I feel about him. I mean…he raised me–he loved me. But he threw you out in a second and even threw my adoption in your face. How can I reconcile the man I knew as my dad to the one I met the night the truth came out?”

“No one can figure that out except for you,” Carly said softly.

“Same goes for you, Mom,” Michael replied.

“Thanks, kid.” Carly stood up and stretched. “Well, I’d better get some sleep. I think I might have to go into the warehouse.”

“Why?” Michael asked, pushing himself off the couch.

“Well, if Sonny doesn’t come in, someone needs to look after things.” Carly headed towards the stairs. “And Jason needs to be here. Francis will call if he needs someone.”

“I’ll make sure Mandy and Drew get to camp tomorrow,” Michael said. “Lu and I are going to enroll Dee and Davie, we think that might help.”

“Oh, Alexis called,” Carly said, suddenly remembering. “Mandy’s a match, so I have to take her to the hospital tomorrow.” She sighed. “She called on the way here, but with everything that happened with Liz, I guess it slipped my mind.”

“Does Mandy know?” Michael asked.

“She knows she’s helping a friend of mine, but no, she doesn’t know about Christie being family and I don’t think Christie knows either.”

“It’ll come out,” Michael warned.

“Yeah. Well, everything does eventually,” Carly replied.

—-

Emily laid in her bed, listening to the sounds of her mother and father moving around downstairs. Since it was the only sounds in the house, it was pretty easy to discern where they were.

She should be asleep–but she couldn’t get the image of her best friend out of her mind. She’d only wanted to see Delilah and David; she hadn’t meant to run into Elizabeth.

“I only want to stay a few minutes,” Emily said. “She’s asleep right?”

“Yeah,” Lu said. “Come on in. The kids will be glad to see you.”

Emily entered and was immediately confronted with a squealing Dee and an excitedly jabbering Davie.

“Hey guys,” Emily said, tousling their hair affectionately. “How are you?”

“We’re fine,” Dee chirped. She frowned. “You’re still fat.”

Emily laughed. “That’s because I’m pregnant.”

“Oh…I thought that because Mama wasn’t gonna have a baby, you weren’t neither,” Dee said innocently.

Davie looked at Emily there, his blue eyes somber. “Mama said she lost the baby. Do you know where she put it?”

Before Emily could say anything, she heard a horrified gasp and she turned suddenly. Elizabeth stood at the top of the stairs, her brown hair disheveled, her arms wrapped around her abdomen and tears shining in her dark blue eyes.

“Uh…Liz…” Emily said, smiling shakily. “Hi.”

She could see Elizabeth’s body trembling from down here and within seconds she’d whirled around and disappeared upstairs.

She hadn’t stayed after that–had gone straight home. She’d ignored the dozens of phone messages and hadn’t answered the phone when the agency she’d contracted to open Wyndemere had called.

Lucky was still calling–thinking she’d change her mind. But Emily had made up her mind–she was done with being a second choice and no one could convince her to be anything else.

She closed her eyes and said a silent prayer for her best friend. No matter what Emily felt Elizabeth had done in the past, she didn’t deserve the type of pain she was going through. No woman did.

And she could only hope she and her brother would get through this.

—-

AJ rubbed his forehead and shifted on the couch. “You’re saying that Michael knows the truth.”

Courtney nodded somberly. “Yeah. He found out when Sonny and Carly were fighting about something.”

“Did he….did he seem upset or anything?” AJ asked.

Courtney shook her head. “No. He seemed calm. He wanted you to know he knew the truth and that he stopped by.”

“I just can’t believe…after all this time…that he knows the truth.” AJ stared ahead. “I always just thought that…he’d never know. That we’d go through life being strangers.”

“Does that bother you?” Courtney asked, leaning her head against the back of the couch. “That your son might not have known?”

“Of course,” AJ replied. “But I knew I’d made mistakes–that I was partly to blame for the whole situation–and I know how badly I handled the entire situation.”

“You’re not that person anymore,” Courtney argued. “You’re so much better than that–and Michael’s going to find that out.”

“Do you think he wants to be part of my life….of our life?” AJ asked, a little eagerly.

Courtney smiled and reached out to touch his face. “I hope so. Because you deserve a chance to finally be a father to your son.”

“Thank you,” AJ said, his brown eyes locked on her blue ones. “You have no idea how much your love, faith and trust has done for me.”

“It’s nothing you wouldn’t have done for me,” Courtney replied. She leaned forward to pull him into a soft kiss.

—–

Alexis stared through the window at Christie who was being prepped for one of tomorrow’s many tests. She felt Ned’s hand on her shoulder and she grasped it eagerly. “I just can’t believe it.”

“Carly just called,” Ned replied, pulling Alexis towards him and wrapping his arms around her waist. “She’s talked to Mandy and they’ll be here in the morning.”

“Any idea how she is?” Alexis asked, peering up at him.

“No…” Ned sighed. “But she’s staying with Jason and Elizabeth–I could tell from the Caller ID.”

“I wonder what she told Mandy,” Alexis said. “And how are we supposed to explain this to our baby?”

“We’ll think of something,” Ned replied, tightening his hold. “I was thinking of bringing Eddie by before the surgery. He’s so worried about everyone–Alan and Monica are trying, but I guess not seeing his parents or sister for so long…”

Alexis smiled a little. “We’ll bring him in tomorrow when she gets back. I know I haven’t been home with him–but I just felt like Christie needed me more.”

“It’s all right to feel that way,” Ned replied. He pressed a kiss to her temple. “We’re going to come through this, Alexis, I know it.”

“You know,” she said, closing her eyes and leaning against him. “I think I finally believe that.”

—-

Jason finally slipped into bed and laid on his back, staring at the ceiling. He was beginning to miss the way he and Elizabeth used to sleep–neither one of them ever stayed on their own sides, they’d always ended up in the center of the bed.

He turned his head on the pillow and looked at her, curled up tightly on her side. He wished he’d been here earlier when Emily had been by. He didn’t blame his little sister–the kids were attached to their aunt and had been asking about her.

He only wished Elizabeth hadn’t seen Emily or heard what Dee and Davie had said. They were only children and had no idea how cutting their words could be.

Without thinking, his arm drifted across the gap and stroked her shoulder lightly. At the touch, she rolled over and peered at him. “Hi.”

Surprised, he replied, “Hey.” He shifted closer. “You all right?”

She gave a little shrug and turned her face away. “I’ll be fine,” she whispered, her voice broken.

Unwilling to let her turn away completely and sleep in a tight little ball, he tugged on her arm and she shifted closer to her. He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and she hugged his side.

“I know I’m not being fair,” she whispered, resting her head against his chest. “I know that they don’t really mean it–that Emily still being pregnant isn’t anyone’s fault–but I just…” she sucked in a deep breath, “I can’t help it.”

He felt her warm tears on her chest and hugged more tightly. “I know. It’s okay. Emily understands.”

“Why does it hurt so much?” Elizabeth sobbed. “Why can’t I just let it go?”

He sighed and rested his head against the top of hers. “Because it was our child and we loved him or her. We made plans–and now we have to get used to the child being gone. It’s only been a few days, Elizabeth. No one expects you to bounce right back.”

“I love you so much,” she whispered brokenly.

“I love you, too,” Jason replied. He listened to her tears and didn’t succumb to slumber until long after she’d fallen asleep and her tears had dried from his chest.

This entry is part 9 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

If you could give me one good reason
Why I should believe you
Believe in all the things that you tell
I would sure like to believe you

— Toni Braxton, You Mean The World To Me

——

Lesley Lu Spencer did not surprise easily. After the life she’d led, it was nearly impossible to stun her.

Until her cousin sat across from her at Kelly’s and told her that his mother had had no idea who his father was when she’d gotten pregnant.

“Wow.”

“You don’t have to keep saying that,” Michael said.

Lu blinked. “Sorry. So, do you know what you’re going to do?”

Michael shrugged. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Am I supposed to disown my parents, confront my birth father, what?”

Lu shrugged. “It’s really up to you.” She glanced around. “Hey, daughter of the owner here–do I get served or what?” she called to no one in particular. She turned back to her cousin. “Do you know what you want to do?”

“I want to smack my father,” Michael muttered. “Sonny, that is.” He frowned. “How am I supposed to walk up to AJ Quartermaine and say, remember me? I’m the son my mother kept from you and the one you signed away to avoid jail.”

“Wait, wait. What’s the last part?” Lu asked, leaning forward.

Michael smirked. “My mom told me the rest of it this morning. How AJ set the warehouse on fire and in order to stay out of jail, he signed away all rights to me. Lovely, huh? With parents like these, it’s amazing I’m not a serial killer.”

“Mikey, listen,” Lu began. Before she could continue, her cell rang. “‘Ello? Hey, Jase. How’s Liz? Oh…oh…uh huh…yeah…sure. I’ll be right there.” She clicked it off and shoved it into her purse. “Let’s take this conversation to the Morgan abode, shall we?”

Michael frowned even as he stood and followed Lu to the door. “What’s wrong?”

Lu pushed the door open and headed into the courtyard. “Liz is still sleeping and Jase had planned on staying home with her today, but someone from the warehouse called.” She turned around and eyed Michael. “Sonny never showed this morning and Jason feels like he’s got to at least check in. But he didn’t want to take the kids, so he wants me to stay with them.”

“Sonny probably had a breakdown,” Michael said.

“Do you feel bad?” Lu asked.

“No,” Michael replied. “Not really. He’s the one that lied to me and kicked Mom out. I really don’t see how it’s my fault.”

Lu shrugged. “Just checking.”

—-

Jason sat on the edge of their bed on Elizabeth’s side. She wasn’t asleep, but she was doing her best to pretend otherwise. As soon as he sank onto the mattress, she rolled away from him. He put a hand on her hip and rolled her back.

“I know you’re awake,” he said softly. “Come on, Elizabeth.”

Her eyelids fluttered a little before opening up. They weren’t sleepy or unfocused but very alert and clear–she’d been pretending for a while. “Hey,” she said softly.

“I have to go to the warehouse for a few hours,” Jason said apologetically. “I called Lu to look after Dee and Davie–unless you’re feeling up to it.”

“I thought you were off,” Elizabeth replied, stretching a little.

“I was,” Jason replied. “But Sonny never showed for work.” His eyes strayed to her abdomen which was almost as flat as it had been before the pregnancy. Her gaze followed his and she sighed.

“It takes a little getting used to,” she admitted. He looked up to meet her eyes. “I can see my feet again.” She bit her lip and turned her face away. “I wish I didn’t.”

His large hand splayed across her tummy, covering it. “I know, honey.”

Her hands came up and covered his hand. “I can see your face when you felt Dee kick for the first time.” A small smile crossed her face. “And how you looked the first time you held her.”

“I love you,” he said softly. “I hope you know that.”

“I know,” Elizabeth replied. “I know I haven’t been all that easy to deal with these last few days.” She frowned and looked up at him. “Why didn’t Sonny go to work?”

He sighed, not wanting to dump Sonny’s problems on her shoulders. “Elizabeth–”

She pulled herself into a sitting position and leaned towards him. “Did something happen with Carly?” she asked, searching his eyes.

Jason frowned. “How…how did you know?”

“Carly came to see me while I was in the hospital,” Elizabeth explained. “She…was struggling with something and she wanted to tell someone–even if was me–but she couldn’t. What happened, Jason? Is she okay? Is Sonny okay?”

“Carly moved out,” Jason told her. “Sonny found out she’d kept another secret.”

“What secret?” Elizabeth asked softly.

“Christina Ashton is Sonny’s daughter,” Jason replied. “And Carly knew.”

“She didn’t move out did she?” Elizabeth asked. “Sonny kicked her out, didn’t he?”

“Yeah,” Jason admitted. “And Michael overheard the fight and found out that AJ is his father.”

“He didn’t…he didn’t know?” Elizabeth asked, her eyes wide. “I always assumed that he did.”

Jason shook his head. “No. And he walked out after that. Sonny was upset last night, which is why he didn’t go to work.” And now Jason was reluctant to leave–was worried Elizabeth would withdraw again and they’d lose this tenuous connection. “Hey…why don’t you get dressed?” he suggested. “I’ll check in at the warehouse and maybe we can go for a ride?”

She shook her head. “I’m so tired. I just wanna go back to sleep.”

Disappointed but trying not to show it, he nodded. “You sure?”

Instead of answering him, she leaned forward and kissed him. He returned the pressure but did nothing to deepen it. She pulled away after a few moments and smiled. “I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

“I’m going to be okay,” she assured him. She leaned her forehead against his. “I just…I want to sleep for a while.”

He pulled away to kiss her forehead. “All right.” He heard the downstairs door open. “It sounds like Lu is here. Get some sleep. I’ll bring home dinner.”

“No pizza,” Elizabeth admonished. “Get something from Kelly’s if you have to.”

“All right,” Jason agreed. He kissed her again quickly and stood up. “I’ll see you later tonight.”

—-

Michael was with Lu when Jason came down the steps. David was sitting on Lu’s lap while Delilah was sitting in between Lu and Michael, chattering incessantly to the older boy.

“Hey,” Jason said.

“Hey,” Lu greeted. “How’s Liz?”

“She’s good,” Jason said. “Much better.” He stood at the bottom of the stairs. “I’ll only be gone a few hours–just to make sure everything’s under control.” He reached into his wallet.

“Don’t you dare try to pay me, Morgan,” Lu warned. She stood up and shifted Davie to her hip. “You know I love you like part of the family and Liz is like a sister to me–I’m more than happy to donate my time.”

“Still,” Jason pressed. “I wish you’d let me give you something.”

“Let’s make a deal,” Lu said. “If you name–” she stopped and bit her lip before beginning again. “If you stop trying to pay me, I’ll stop letting Dee watch MTV.”

Jason’s eyes went immediately to his daughter who was glaring her baby-sitter.

“Lu!” Dee cried.

“All right,” Jason agreed. “I’d better get going.”

After Jason had kissed the kids goodbye and was gone, Lu turned to Michael with a stricken expression. “I am such an idiot.”

He frowned and switched the television to Disney so Dee and Davie’s attention would be take care of. He then turned back to his cousin. “What are you talking about?”

“I almost told him that if they named their next kid after me, I’d let him pay me.” She shook her head. “I can’t believe myself.”

“Lu, don’t beat yourself up over this.” Michael shrugged. “I bet Jason didn’t even notice.”

Lu looked up towards the ceiling. “You think she’s really doing better?”

“If Jason says so, then she is,” Michael said.

“Yeah…you’re right.” Lu turned to face him and tucked her leg up underneath her body. “So. Do you know what you’re going to do yet?”

Michael frowned. “Not a damn clue.”

Dee twisted and gave him a dark look–well as dark as a four-year-old could handle. “You’re not supposed t’curse!”

“Sorry,” Michael apologized. He turned back to Lu. “I think I want to talk to AJ. I think.” He drove his fingers through his hair. “But that makes me feel like I’m betraying Sonny and it shouldn’t–because AJ is my natural father.”

“Sonny raised you,” Lu reminded him. “Of course you feel loyal to him.”

“But he’s not my father and he knew it.” Michael shook his head. “He adopted me and I heard him throw it in my mother’s face. And it makes me wonder…was that the first time he’s done it…or has he always brought it up when she does something he doesn’t approve of?”

“Sonny’s…he’s a difficult man to live with,” Lu tried to explain. “I know how he feels about honesty and all that–and no offense, but your mother lies like some people breathe.”

“Yeah,” Michael admitted. “She does. But it’s a defense mechanism. And Sonny knows it.”

“You’ve stopped calling him Dad,” Lu noticed. “Why?”

Michael looked away. “Because I want to remember that he’s not my father and that no matter how much he might love me or how much I love him, he threw that fact in Mom’s face. He didn’t hesitate and I can’t…I can’t handle that. After ten years of marriage, he threw her out for a lie when I know for a fact he’s lied to her countless times.” He chuckled. “I’m actually glad he’s not my father. Isn’t that horrible?”

“Aww….Mikey,” Lu sighed. “I can’t say I blame you. I mean, from what you’ve told me about the fight…it was cold. Your mom…Sonny should know how Carly is by now and she shouldn’t have change who she is to make him happy.”

“They’ve had their problems in the past,” Michael said, carefully. “I don’t remember a lot of it, but I know they were divorced for like a year. But they’ve always come back to each other.” He looked at his cousin. “I don’t know if that’s possible this time.”

—-

“I’m fine. Really.”

Jason peered at his best friend and finally nodded. “All right. But if you need anything–”

Carly waved him away. “You have enough to worry about without getting involved in another one of my messes.”

“Carly, you’re my best friend–”

“And Elizabeth is your wife. She’s going through a difficult time, not to mention with Sonny out of commission, you have both businesses to run. The last thing you need is to worry about me.”

“That’s an awfully mature stance to take,” Jason decided.

Carly shrugged. “When you live in a hotel, and your oldest child has just learned what slut you were once, it’s a lot easier to be mature.”

“Michael’s at the house with Lu watching Dee and Davie,” Jason said. “He seems okay.”

“I think it’s your influence,” Carly said. “Because he’s taking this entirely too well.”

“Carly, I think you give me too much credit where Michael is due,” Jason protested. “I only had him for a year.”

“You’re absolutely the only constant he’s ever had,” Carly argued. “You were his entire world for a year and I know Michael adores you. He doesn’t look up to Sonny, he looks up to you.”

“He shouldn’t.”

Carly rolled her eyes. “God. How does Elizabeth put up with this? Doesn’t she tell you what a great guy you are?”

“She does,” Jason said. “I just don’t listen.”

“You’re absolutely infuriating,” Carly said. She sighed. “Actually, the reason I’m here is to ask you if you’ve seen Sonny.”

“I saw him last night,” Jason told her. “Lu came over and told me what happened.”

“Is he okay?” Carly asked. “Because I know Michael found out right after I left.”

“You mean after he kicked you out,” Jason corrected.

Carly frowned. “Don’t tell me you’re taking my side.”

“I’m not taking sides,” Jason insisted. “I don’t agree with what you did and I don’t agree with what he did. And he seemd pretty out of it last night. I asked Johnny to look in on him, but I don’t know if I can handle taking care of Sonny the rest of my life.”

“And you shouldn’t have to,” Carly said. “I don’t know what I’m going to do. Everything in me tells me that I shouldn’t go back to him–that I deserve so much better. But I love him. We’ve been good these ten years. That has to count.”

“Everyone has their limits,” Jason replied. “Even you, Carly.”

“So, I wouldn’t be like a horrible shrew if I decided this was the last straw?” Carly asked.

“If you want a divorce,” Jason said, “I’ll support you. You know that.”

“No. I didn’t know that, but thank you,” Carly replied. “How is Elizabeth? Is she better?”

“Yeah. She’s doing a lot better. All she wants to do is sleep, but she was awake before I left and we talked about you and Sonny. She was worried about you.”

“Me?” Carly was surprised. “Why?”

“Because of the visit you paid her in the hospital,” Jason told her. “You should stop by and see her.”

“Would she want to see me?” Carly asked. “You know, we’ve gotten along better these last few years, but that’s because I finally decided she was good enough for you.”

“Which wasn’t your decision to begin with.”

Carly shrugged. “Details. Anyway, she makes you happy and that’s what matters. But we’re never going to be best friends.”

“I know,” Jason saod. “But I know you’re concerned about one another, so you should satisfy your curiosity.”

“How much longer are you going to be here?” Carly asked, looking around the warehouse office.

“Another hour or so,” Jason replied. “Why?”

“You’re going to pick up the slack, aren’t you?” Carly said. “Because Sonny’s not coming in and he probably won’t be, you’re going to leave Elizabeth with Lu and the kids, and come in when you’re supposed to be at home with Elizabeth.”

Jason shrugged. “Someone has to do it.”

Carly leaned forward. “Let me do it.”

“Carly–”

“I can handle it. I ran Deception.”

“With Laura.”

Carly frowned. “I ran the place like a well oiled machine. Laura’s the one who wanted to Elizabeth to be the Face of Deception when everyone and their mother could tell the girl was rotten at modeling.” She smirked. “Come to think of it, knowing what I know now, she probably tried to tank a lot of those test shoots.”

“She didn’t want to be a model,” Jason murmured. “She was only trying to please Lucky.”

“Well, I know that,” Carly replied, exasperated. “But she knew she had no business being a model.” She waved that away. “That’s not the point. I can look after things here–at least until Elizabeth is feeling better.”

“I don’t know,” Jason hedged.

“It’ll give me something to concentrate on,” Carly said.

“I hate shoving this off onto you,” Jason said–but the temptation to take her up on the offer was incredibly strong. He would rather be at home with Elizabeth.

“Besides, like I said, you already have enough to worry about between Elizabeth and the territory and we both don’t want me trying to help there.”

“That’s for sure,” Jason agreed. “Speaking of which, I do have a meeting tonight. I forgot to tell Lu about it earlier.”

“Have you ever thought about going legit?” Carly questioned curiously. “I know Sonny has ruled it out. But what about you?”

“Sometimes,” Jason admitted. “Especially now…with Elizabeth and the kids. I was out of town when she found out she was pregnant all three times. I missed so much of this pregnancy because of Tagliatti and then there was the honeymoon thing.”

Carly frowned. “What honeymoon thing?” she asked, leaning forward. “You and Elizabeth spent a month in Italy, I thought.”

“Elizabeth spent a month in Italy,” Jason corrected. “I spent the first and last week there. The other two weeks, I was here in Port Charles, trailing someone.”

“You’re telling me Sonny called you away when you were supposed to be on your honeymoon?” Carly questioned. “Is he nuts?”

“Elizabeth was pretty pissed at him,” Jason said. “I think that’s when she argued with him for the vacation time.”

“Oh…the one where you get a weekend off every month and three weeks in the summer, right?” Carly said, smiling as she thought of that particular argument six years ago. “Truly inspiring of her.”

“I was mad at her when she did it,” Jason confessed.

“Because she was interfering in business, I remember. See, when it comes to venting about the job, I’m the one she comes to,” Carly explained. “We’re the only two people who understand, y’know?”

“Yeah, I know.” Jason leaned back in his chair. “But I know I’m in this for life and for some reason, Elizabeth chooses to be okay with that.”

“If she asked, would you give it up?” Carly asked, curiously.

“In a heartbeat,” Jason told her. “But she’d never ask.”

“Must be nice to have that assurance,” Carly said. “See, she understands that this is part of who you are. It’s not all of it, but it’s part of it, y’know? Asking you to give it up would be asking her to stop…I don’t know…breathing. That’s how I feel when Sonny demands complete and utter honesty.”

“It’s not the same thing,” Jason argued.

“Yes it is,” Carly insisted. “I lie like people breathe. It’s a defense that Sonny used to understand. And I’m sick of having to always be the honest one in this relationship while he can lie any time he pleases. Do you know that this Alexis paternity thing was the last lie I ever told Sonny? That this was my last secret?” She shook her head. “Not once in ten years have I lied or kept a secret. Does that matter to him? Nope.”

“I’m sorry,” Jason said.

“I am, too,” Carly replied. “Anyway, you go home to your wife. Let me look after things here.”

“You know what?” Jason said. “This can hold until tomorrow. Come with me to Kelly’s. We’ll grab dinner and swing by the Spencers and grab the twins. We’ll eat dinner at my house.”

Carly stood. “I do need to decide what to do,” she said. “It’s nice of Luke and Laura to keep Mandy and Drew until I figure it out, but it’s not fair to keep it open-ended like this.”

“You know, we’ve got the extra guest room,” Jason reminded her. “And there’s the sofa bed downstairs that Michael could use. You and the kids could stay with us. I can put Dee and Davie in the same room. You take the guest room, and the twins can stay in the extra room.”

Carly patted his arm. “Thanks, Jase, but I can’t depend on other people anymore. I think I need to stand on my own two feet again. Be independent. And then I can decide if my marriage is worth saving.”

“It’s always worth saving,” Jason told her as he steered her towards the door of his office. “It’s more of deciding whether you want to or not.”

—-

Alexis was reading quietly to Christina when Ned threw the door open. “We have a match!”

Alexis stood and stared him, her jaw open wide. “Are you serious?” she demanded.

“Amanda’s a match,” Ned said. He looked to Christina. “You’re going to be okay, baby.”

Christina frowned. “Why did Mandy get tested?”

Some of Ned’s euphoria evaporated and he remembered that Christina didn’t know the truth.

Had the time finally come?

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Michael trailed after Jason as he followed Elizabeth’s doctor into the bedroom the rented ultrasound machine was set up in.
Dr. Luther Vincent was a somewhat young doctor and he kept smiling at Elizabeth in a way that made Jason’s jaw tense.

“I’m glad to finally meet you, Mr. Morgan,” Dr. Vincent remarked as he smoothed the cold gel over Elizabeth’s abdomen. “And who is this young man?”

“I’m Michael,” Michael said somewhat suspiciously. “What’re you doing to Liz?”

“We’re going to see your little sister on this screen right here,” Dr. Vincent said, gesturing towards the ultrasound machine.

“Sister?” Michael perked up.

“Michael…” Jason shook his head.

“Right, right,” Michael sighed. “Does that hurt, Liz?”

“No, it’s just really cold,” Elizabeth replied.

Dr. Vincent started the procedure and after a few moments, something appeared on the screen. “There she is.”

Elizabeth propped herself up on her elbows. “Oh…” she breathed. She looked at Jason. “Can you see her?”

Jason hesitated. “Not–not really.”

“Oh, it’s cool, Uncle Jason,” Michael piped up. He rounded the bed and stood by the screen. “These are Andi’s arms, right?”

“Right,” the doctor answered.

“And those are her legs and that’s her head,” Michael finished. He looked at Elizabeth. “I nicknamed her Andi cuz Alexandria is too long for a little baby. Is that okay?”

“That’s fine. I like it, I think it’s a great nickname,” Elizabeth touched his arm and smiled. “Does everything look okay, Dr. Vincent?”

“It all looks great, you’re about seven months along and everything looks nicely developed. In two months, you’ll be the proud parents of a very healthy little girl.” Dr. Vincent reached into his bag and took out a manila envelope. “I sent over to the American Embassy for the documents your daughter will need to be a US Citizen if you’re not back home when she’s born.”

“Thank you,” Elizabeth accepted the envelope. “I appreciate all your help.”

Dr. Vincent nodded. He gathered his bag and stood. “Some men will be buy to pick up the machine,” he told Jason. “As long as she keeps up with her vitamins and her current routine, I see no reason why I would have to bring it out again.”

“Thank you,” Jason nodded. “I’ll walk you out. Michael, stay with Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth frowned as they left. “Why do they always give the instructions to the men?” she muttered.

“Because Uncle Jason will make sure you don’t sneak any junk food,” Michael said. “How come the doctor said you’d both be parents? Doesn’t he know about Ric?”

Elizabeth bit her lip. “Well, Jason helped me set up this vacation,” she said after a moment. “He arranged for the house, so it’s rented in his name and the doctor just assumed I was his wife.”

“You didn’t tell him the truth?” Michael frowned at her. “It’s wrong to lie.”

“Michael…”

The little boy sighed. “This is gonna be one of them grown up things, isn’t it?”

“Can you keep a really important secret?” Elizabeth asked after some deliberation. “I mean, really extremely important?”

Michael nodded. “Sure. Cross my heart, hope to die, stick in a needle in my eye,” he recited somberly.

“No one can know I’m here, which means my name isn’t on anything and if I were to tell the doctor that I had a husband back home and that Jason wasn’t it, he would start to ask questions and maybe he’d look into stuff back home. And then maybe people would come looking for me here.”

“Why can’t no one know?” Michael asked curiously.

Elizabeth bit her lip. “Because I did something bad,” she admitted in a small voice. “I was trying to protect me and my baby, but it was still bad and I’m here until they stop looking for the person who did the bad thing.”

Michael turned this over in his mind for a few moments. “So they don’t know it was you?”

She shook her head. “But I didn’t want to wait for them to find out so Jason agreed to help me. At least until Andi’s born.”

“Doing bad stuff isn’t right,” Michael said finally. “And you should always always tell the truth, Liz. But I think there’s…” he searched for the right word. “There’s times when it’s okay.”

“There are exceptions,” Elizabeth supplied softly.

“Yeah, exceptions,” Michael nodded. “There’s exceptions and if you was protecting you and the baby, then it’s not really okay but it’s not really bad either.” He leaned forward and wrapped his thin arms around her neck. “And I’m glad Uncle Jason is helping you and the baby.”

“Me too.” She hugged him back. “Can we keep this conversation between you and me? I don’t know if Jason would want you to know this stuff.”

Michael sighed. “I don’t wanna keep secrets,” he said. “But if you–”

“No, you know what? I’ll tell him I told you. You’re right, there’s no reason for secrets, especially between you and Jason.”

Michael nodded in relief. “Okay, I would have kept the secret but I’m sure glad I don’t have to.”

On the porch, Dr. Vincent turned to Jason. “I was a little surprised it took you a month to join your wife, Mr. Morgan. A woman in her condition really shouldn’t be isolated out here.”

“I’m not sure that’s any of your business,” Jason said stiffly.

“She’s my patient and her welfare is my business,” Dr. Vincent said stubbornly. “Now if you and your boy can’t be here all the time, I don’t know why she is. Is there some reason she can’t be where you spend the rest of your time?”

“She likes it here,” Jason said, a little irritated. “And it’s more peaceful than our hometown. Is the baby at risk if Elizabeth continues to stay here?”

“No,” Dr. Vincent admitted, “I just suppose I can’t understand why an expectant father would be so uninvolved in his own child’s birth.”

“I’m not uninvolved,” Jason snapped. “I’m here aren’t I?”

“Yes, but for how long?” Dr. Vincent shrugged and stepped off the porch.

Jason glared at the doctor’s back for a few moments before slamming back inside the house and moving back towards the bedroom. “Michael, go play somewhere,” he said shortly.

Michael blinked. “Did I do something wrong?” he asked softly.

Elizabeth shook her head and kissed his cheek. “No, I just think your uncle wants to yell at me.” She lowered her voice and smiled. “He probably found my stash of Oreos. Why don’t you go start on a sand castle and I’ll join you.”

“Michael, I didn’t mean to yell,” Jason said with obvious regret in his eyes.

“It’s okay, Elizabeth shouldn’t be eating Oreos,” Michael said gravely. “I won’t go into the water until you guys get there.”

He left the room and Jason sighed, some of the tension gone from his shoulders. He crossed to the window where he had a view of the beach. After a moment, he spoke. “We’re getting another doctor.”

Elizabeth frowned and stood with some obvious difficulty. “What’s wrong with Dr. Vincent?”

“He’s too nosy,” Jason muttered. “He asks too many questions.”

Elizabeth bit her lip. “It’s my fault. He asked why my husband wasn’t here and I thought about telling him you weren’t but I didn’t want him to wonder or decide to ask questions. I should have told him you weren’t my husband.”

“No, no, it’s better that way. If they think your husband is here most of the time, they won’t start asking questions. But he’s asking too many questions, Elizabeth. We need to find another doctor.”

“Jason–”

“He wanted to know why an expectant father is so uninvolved,” he muttered. “I’m not uninvolved, damn it. I’m here as much as I can be and don’t we talk three or four times a week?”

Elizabeth thought about mentioning the fact that he wasn’t even the father but didn’t. “Yes, yes we do–”

“Michael’s in school, I can’t just drop it all and move over here,” Jason continued. “And Carly would miss him. I have a job to do, Elizabeth. I can’t be here all the time.”

“I never expected–”

“I made sure you had everything you need, everything I could provide. The only thing you don’t have is friends and family and with the exception of your grandmother, I can bring them any time they want,” Jason told her.

“That would be great–”

“I draw the line at Ric,” he cut in. “I don’t care if you love him, I don’t care if he walks on water, I don’t trust him and you can’t change my mind about that. He cannot know where you are–”

“I agree,” Elizabeth interrupted. She touched his arm. “Jason, do you hear me complaining?”

He hesitated. “Well, no.”

“Okay then.” She met his eyes. “Then, what does some doctor you don’t even know’s opinion matter to you?”

“I just–I’m not uninvolved,” he said stubbornly.

“No, no you’re not.” She kissed his cheek. “You’re really very sweet, Jason.”

His cheeks felt warm and if he didn’t know it was impossible, he might think he was blushing. “No I’m not,” he muttered.

“Sure you are,” Elizabeth said with a bright smile. “Come on. We’d better get to the beach before Michael fries in that sun out there. I bet he hasn’t put his lotion on.”

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— Beach —

“So then Michelle pushed me,” Michael reported. He held up his knee. “I got a scar!”

“Why’d she push you?” Elizabeth asked curiously as her pencil danced over the page of her sketchbook, the image of Michael playing near the surf slowly developing.

“Jonah says it’s ’cause she likes me but I think that’s nuts,” Michael dropped to his knees in the damp sand and started digging. “Why would she push me if she likes me?”

“Sometimes people are afraid of what others will say when they find out how you feel,” Elizabeth advised him. “Maybe Michelle thinks you won’t like her back and she doesn’t want you to know she likes you.”

“So she’s kinda trying to throw me off the scene,” Michael nodded. “Okay, yeah, women are sneaky.”

Elizabeth laughed and shook her head. “You think they’re bad at age seven? Wait until you’re my age. Every word has another meaning–or at least you think so. Someone says something they don’t think is particularly bad but it devastates the other. Words are tricky, Michael. Be careful what you say and how you say it.”

Michael nodded sagely. “That makes sense. Jason says that actions are really powerful but sometimes words are more.”

“Jason’s a very smart guy,” Elizabeth remarked. She glanced up, trying to catch the right ruffle in his hair. “Do you like living with him?”

“I love it. He’s not a great cook like Sonny but he lets me eat chocolate and other kinds of junk food,” Michael told her gleefully. “And he’s gonna help me build shelves in my room for all my trucks.” He plopped on the sand in front of her. “I like living with Jason a lot but my mom cries a lot when she visits. She tries not to but…” he shrugged and drew circles in the sand with his index finger. “I don’t like hurting her.”

Not knowing what to say, Elizabeth remained silent. Michael sighed. “She comes by every night and always brings something she says I left at her house. I know it’s just a reason for her to come over because lots of it has price tags on it.” He looked at her. “Is it wrong to live with Jason if it hurts my mom?”

“It can be hard to choose between what you want and what you should want,” Elizabeth said carefully. “A long time ago, I thought I should love this man because we’d been in love most of our lives. I thought I should want to marry him and spend forever with him. I felt very loyal to him but I convinced myself that he was who I wanted.” She sighed heavily. “Michael, it’s all right to feel guilty but in the end, you have to do what’s right for you.”

“Was the man Ric?” Michael asked curiously.

“No, it wasn’t Ric.” Elizabeth flipped the page to begin a new sketch. “Ric is my husband now.”

“Do you love him?”

Elizabeth glanced up and studied the small boy with concerned eyes. “Your parents’ divorce has been really difficult for you, hasn’t it?”

Michael shrugged. “I guess. They used to love each other so much and now all they do is fight. I don’t get it. If you love someone, how can that just go away?”

“It doesn’t go away,” Elizabeth told him. “It changes. People change. I’m sure Sonny and Carly still love each other but sometimes people change in a way that they just can’t live together anymore.”

“I guess but why do they have to be so mean to each other and why do they gotta use me and Morgan to do hurt each other?” Michael wiped his hand across his eyes.

“I’m sorry, Michael. It’s so hard to watch the people you love do things you don’t understand.” Elizabeth rubbed his shoulder. “But you’ve got Jason and no kid could ask for someone better.”

Michael’s sad expression instantly lit up. “Dude, I know. He’s so cool and he always treats me like I’m an adult.” He hesitated. “If I tell you something, will you promise never ever to tell anyone else as long as you live?”

“Cross my heart.”

“Sometimes…when I get scared or–when Mom sees Sonny in the hall and they start yelling…I get really scared they’re going to hit each other,” Michael confessed. “But then Jason just…” his cheeks flushed bright red. “He fixes it. He fixes everything.”

“He’s good at fixing things,” Elizabeth remarked. “He has such a big heart and he loves you more than he’s loved anyone.”

“Really?” Michael asked brightly. “That’s pretty awesome. You know he raised me when I was a baby?”

“I sure did. I knew you when you were a baby because Lucky Spencer lived above his garage,” Elizabeth told him. “Jason had you at the garage all the time. Like he couldn’t bear to be away from you.”

“I know it’s wrong but I really wish he was my dad,” Michael sighed. “But it’s a good thing he agreed to be a godfather for your baby, you know, because if Ric turns out to be a bad guy then Jason’s right there to take over, you know?”

“Honey…that’s not the way it works. Jason will always be in my life but he won’t be taking anything over. I’m married to Ric and he’s going to be Alexandria’s father,” Elizabeth told him. “I know that you don’t like Ric–”

“He’s mean. He stole my mom,” Michael told her with a hard glare. “Right in front of me. Did you know?”

Elizabeth sighed shakily. “Yeah, I knew that.”

“Jason watches you,” Michael abruptly changed the subject.

Elizabeth frowned. “What’s that?”

“He watches you,” Michael repeated. “When you’re not looking. Like at breakfast earlier, when you were looking down at your plate. And then the last time we were here, when we were leaving and you looked so sad, he looked sad, too.”

“Jason’s a good friend to me,” Elizabeth said, unsure where the boy was going and not wanting to hurt his feelings. So much in Michael’s life was unsure and uncertain.

“How come people always fall in love with people who are gonna hurt them?” Michael asked. “I mean, Mom and Sonny loved each other and now they just fight all the time and I thought Aunt Courtney loved Jason but she divorced him and I just know Ric’s gonna hurt you,” he said earnestly. “So how come people can’t just find people who won’t stop loving them?”

“Oh…honey…” Elizabeth sighed. “Love is complicated and sometimes it’s not enough to keep two people together. It’s what brings them together, but you need trust, faith–devotion. Sonny and Carly don’t trust each other. Courtney doesn’t trust Jason and–” she stopped abruptly as she realized she’d been about to say she didn’t trust Ric.

“You don’t trust Ric,” Michael finished grimly. “He’ll hurt you, Eliz’beth. He’s a mean man and he only cares about himself. He’s Sonny’s brother, remember?”

“Ric–” she shook her head. “No, I don’t trust him,” she admitted softly. “But I love him, I’ll learn to trust him.”

“Did you trust him before he kidnapped my mother?” Michael asked. “Because then that means he broke your trust and why would you want to be with someone who does stuff like that?”

“I wish there was an easy answer I could give you because I can feel that you need it but it’s not always black and white.” Elizabeth set her sketch pad aside. “Trust can be broken very easily. When it’s fresh and its new, it’s so easy to just take a wrong step and break it. And when you’ve known a person for years, they can still hurt you. When you care about someone Michael, they can hurt you. But if they care about you, you can hurt them just as easily. Do you understand what I’m trying to say?”

“I think so,” Michael said hesitantly. “Even though Ric broke your trust and he hurt you, you can do the same to him because he loves you, too and it kind of makes it okay.”

“Well–yes and no. Yes, he broke my trust but he knows that he did. He knows what he did was wrong,” Elizabeth told him. “He’s trying to change and I hope with this baby–that it will help him to realize that he’s more than just Sonny’s brother.”

“A baby shouldn’t have to make anyone do anything,” Michael said stubbornly. “That’s too much pressure to put on her. Ric should know he’s his own person and not depend on a kid to tell him that. It’s not fair.”

Elizabeth frowned and tilted her head to the side. “You know–Michael, I’m sorry that you’ve had to grow up so fast and mature. You’re so far beyond your ears, I can’t help feel a little sorry that you didn’t retain some of the innocence that all children deserve.”

Michael shrugged and dragged his fingers through the sand. “All I’m sayin’ is that a kid has enough problems in his or her life without worrying about their parents. If Ric doesn’t think he’s a good enough person now, all the kids in the world won’t change his mind.”

“Michael!” Jason called from the sun porch. “Carly’s on the phone!”

Michael got to his feet. “Walk to the house with me?”

“Mm…it’ll take too long to get up.” She smiled up at him. “Go ahead and make sure to tell her you love her.”

“Okay.”

Michael took the phone from Jason and gestured to Elizabeth. “You should go keep her company,” he told her seriously.

Though he’d been planning on talking with her anyway, Jason nodded solemnly. “Okay. Go inside with the phone and make sure to hang it back up.”

He joined Elizabeth on the sand. She’d resumed her sketching but had flipped to a fresh page. “Hey,” she greeted warmly.

“Hey.” Jason rubbed the back of his neck. “Listen–I think I know what that was all about earlier today. With Michael suggesting Carly as the godmother and saying that thing about me being a father.”

“He’s trying to rebuild his family,” Elizabeth said simply. “I could tell and I really am flattered he considers me part of his family but he’s a very confused little boy, Jason. I’m worried about him.”

“He wants to keep everyone together,” Jason continued. “He’s been hinting about me and Carly getting a house together and then in the next breath, he tells me that the guest room would make a great art studio for you. He’s not sure what he wants but he knows that he doesn’t want anyone else to leave his life. So he’s kind of alternating between pushing me and Carly together and me and you together. I just
wanted to be sure that you were aware of it.”

“I am.” Elizabeth reached out and squeezed his hand. “It’s whole other thing–raising a little boy as opposed to raising an infant.”

“I thought nothing would be as hard as taking care of a baby,” Jason admitted. “Keeping him fed and safe and happy–but he’s–he’s so much older now. He’s so much more aware of everything. I could–I could really screw him up, Elizabeth.”

“You could,” Elizabeth said quietly. She met his eyes. “But you won’t. You told me on the plane here that I would be a good mother. You said it with conviction–with no doubt. And I’m really glad I can do the same for you. You’re a good father, Jason. You’re going to make mistakes but he knows you love him. That you put him first. He knows that you would never hurt him on purpose or use him to hurt anyone else. That’s the kind of faith he doesn’t have in Sonny anymore. But he has it in you and I think you know that.” She touched his face. “You love him too much to screw up, Jason.”

He exhaled slowly, not aware of how much he’d needed someone to say that to him–to have her say that to him. “Thank you,” he said, with a slight tremble in his voice.