February 11, 2015

This entry is part 4 of 6 in the Fanfiction 101

Introduction

Sonny Corinthos is easily the most controversial character on General Hospital at the moment. As of the day I write this article (February 11, 2015) he has just been pardoned for the cold blooded murder of AJ Quartermaine because he saved the lives of some people on the Haunted Star, including the sitting governor’s daughter.

Let’s ignore the fact it would be career suicide for a governor to pardon a man with known ties to criminal organizations who freely admitted to murder and then broke out of prison simply because he saved a few lives–Sonny has become a lightning rod for GH watchers. Many feel as I do — Sonny has eaten the show and there’s nothing enjoyable about watching a man with no remorse for any of his crimes while others have a love for him that seems, at times, unfathomable.

I think that for some, they can’t let go of the Sonny Corinthos they fell in love with two decades ago, which is a sentiment I whole-heartedly endorse. The level of disgust and hatred I have at the moment for Sonny and Carly are in no way reflected in any of my stories, particularly Sonny. It’s because when I choose to write this character, I always try to tie his motivations and personality back to his original characterization.  There are a thousand ways GH writers could have dealt with Sonny in the last decade or so that would not have alienated many viewers, but they’ve chosen to forget his roots and who he is at his core.

So that’s why Sonny is my first entry in my Characterization Bible articles (and why Carly and Jason will likely be my second).

My Love For Sonny Corinthos (With Clips!)

The first time I ever watched Sonny (my first real memory) was twenty years ago this coming November, when Stone Cates passed away from AIDs. Most of us know the story: Stone was his adopted brother, the first character on the show that really softened Sonny from being a mobster. Stone died in the old Harborview Towers penthouse, with Robin and Sonny looking on. And that’s my everlasting memory of that man–the death of his friend.

In the 1990s, during Sonny’s first run on the show before he left in September 1997, he was a lot closer to the AJ character. He could be happy for brief periods but it never lasted. He had Stone, but then he died. He had Brenda, but she wore that wire. He had committed himself to Lily and their child, but both died in a car bomb. He thought he could have Brenda back, but then his rivals threatened her life if he didn’t walk away. Sonny was a character who was in a dangerous world and wanted to do the right thing by the people who mattered–he didn’t always know how, but his heart was in the right place.

That changed around the time Bob Guza came into the picture in 2002. Sonny had returned in 1999, and he’d had those moments we think of as Liason writers: When Lucky is believed dead, and Sonny catches Elizabeth as she falls. It’s an iconic image for those of us who love Elizabeth’s character and it was a gorgeous moment. Their relationship, their friendship, was so beautiful once.


God, I still can’t watch those clips and not lose it. GH was so powerful once when it gave a damn about characters and not plot twists.

Even the stuff with Carly later that year made sense. Sonny did things that were awful, but no one hated himself more than he did. If you can, go back and rewatch those scenes following the Sonny/Carly hate sex in December 1999–this is a man who knew who Carly was and wanted Jason to see it, too even if it mean Jason would never forgive him. It worked–Jason has never looked at Carly romantically again.

There’s a specific clip I can’t find on Youtube for this moment, so I’ll have to clip it from my Liason DVDs. 

So when I write Sonny, I’m always thinking of him in this pivotal time, because for me, that’s who he is as a character. The Sonny of later years — self-righteous, omnipotent — that’s the Sonny I dislike. I can usually explain pieces of it by working in the bipolar diagnosis, but since 2009, I just can’t. It’s why you rarely see a story from after that time period. What they’ve done to this character breaks my heart.

Bible: Sonny Corinthos

Sonny grew up in Bensonhurst, New York. Childhood friends: Connie and Olivia Falconeri, Lois Cerullo. Son of Michael Corinthos, Sr. (Mike Corbin) and Adela. Stepson of Deke. Abused by Deke, a police officer, locked in closets. Mother killed by abuse. Used to own strip clubs, took over for Frank Smith in the mid 1990s with Luke Spencer’s help.  Took in Stone Cates and Jason Morgan.

Sonny is obsessed with power and control because he had none growing up, and dislikes authority particularly the police because of his stepfather and his profession.  His worst fear is losing power. His greatest strength is his capacity for generosity and love, but it’s tempered by the way he tries to control the people around him, which tends to drive them away.  Other family: Courtney Matthews, Ric Lansing (half-siblings),  unborn child with Lily, unborn son with Carly, miscarriage with Claudia. Adopted son Michael (Carly), sons Morgan (Carly) and Dante (Olivia). Daughters Kristina (Alexis) and Avery (Ava).

 


Would you like to read more about the way I write Sonny? Specific characterizations? A Few Words, Daughters, The Best Thing, All We Are? Let me know 🙂

February 10, 2015

fictionSo for no reason whatsoever, I did not get to the Graveyard updates yesterday. I have no good excuse, ha. Anyway. I posted more of Shadows and Poisonous Dreams #1 as well as all of the material I have available for Slide, the original sequel to I Shall Believe. As of this update, the following stories are still left to add to the Graveyard section:

  • Aurora Dawning #1 (Chapters 1-10)
  • Fumbling Towards Perfection (Prologue & Chapter 1)
  • Lupercalia (Prologue, Chapters 1-2)
  • Inside Your Fear (Prologue, Chapters 1-3
  • Poisonous Dreams #1 (Chapter 3-13)
  • Shadows #1 (Chapters 10-15, Original outline)
  • Sing Me A Lullaby (Prologue, Chapters 1-5)
  • Shatter (Prologue, Chapters 1-3)
  • Tangle (Chapters 1-16, Original Outline)

Poisonous Dreams #1 is being reposted much more slowly because it’s a messy copy — some punctuation and dashes were missing, so it’s jumbly and I don’t want to hurry it.

So there’s still a ton of material to add to the section, so your weekly updates in this regard will continue.

Graveyard Additions

In ebook news, I’ve finally rolled out an update to The Best Thing‘s in progress version with the addition of Chapter 17. I’m also working on February’s release: Yesterdays. From now on, I’ll be doing ebooks for featured stories to hurry up the backlist. I have to do a cover and do a read through, but I anticipate having it next week.

The Best Thing‘s ebook has been formatted so that it’s much easier for me to just drop in future chapters, so if you open up the table of contents and find out there are some forty-two chapters listed, ha–there are not 42 chapters yet. (Yeah….I warned this was going to be a behometh).

In regular story news, I had made some passing comment on possibily rewriting I Shall Believe. No one shrieked in horror, but that storydoesn’t mean some people didn’t roll their eyes. Ha. I’ve been playing around with some possible premises and realized it’s really not possible to do that because the way I would write that particular storyline today is so far removed from the original that there’s no point in calling it a rewrite, so we’re going to go with a revisioning of the panic room story and its fallout. ISB will stay where it is, but the sequel Slide has been shelved in favor of the new idea, so that’s my plan. Sorry for anyone really looking forward to more Slide, but the ideas I had for it will be incorporated into the new story.

And in other site news, I started a Tumblr for this page. Mostly because I get bored. So if you’re at all interested, please follow it. It’ll have story updates and occasionally I post photos and screencaps from the show that have inspired my stories.

This entry is part 3 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Slide

August 15, 2005

 

General Hospital: Locker Room
Patrick Drake had been working at General Hospital for a little more than six months. He’d come to Port Charles on the recommendation of a college buddy who had ended up as an English professor at the local university. Pete had been playing a trick on him–neglecting to tell him that Noah Drake–Patrick’s absentee father–was the Chief of Surgery.

Pete had always had a warped sense of humor.

Father and son still had nothing resembling a relationship and Patrick and Pete had picked up their friendship where they’d left off after college (when Patrick’s unyielding residency schedule allowed the time to hit the bars) but there was something…lacking in the whole experience thus far.

Patrick was inclined to blame it on a fellow surgical resident–one Dr. Robin Scorpio. If she had just followed the script to which he was accustomed, he was sure that this strange obsession would have passed. But she’d rebuffed his initial dinner invitation as well as the next three.

Not a huge fan of rejection (and also somewhat new to the concept) he had backed off and pursued other candidates for the position of temporary bed mate. But none had lasted more than a night and it had been more than three months since the position had last been filled.

He blamed Robin entirely for this.

Patrick slammed his locker shut and tugged on his lab coat before exiting the room and running straight into Emily Quartermaine, a fourth year medical student that he’d briefly flirted with before she’d nearly knocked his eye out with the diamond engagement ring she wore like a shield.

“Hey, didn’t you just leave like an hour ago?” Emily asked falling into step next to him as they headed for the ER desk.

“More like four. I crashed at my place for three hours and came back.” Patrick perused the list of patients on the white board before turning his attention to the desk clerk. “Hey, Renee, any surgical consults?”

“Nope, Dr. Drake,” the clerk remarked. “But I got a sick kid in Curtain Two if you’re interested.”

“No, thanks. I’ll do my rounds instead.” He reached for a stack of charts and turned back to Emily. “You been in to see the accident victims yet?”

“Not yet.” Emily’s eyes perked up. “Why? Can I go with you on your rounds?”

“Miss Quartermaine,” a voice called from the other end of the hall. Emily huffed and turned to see her resident motioning for her.

“One more year, and that will be Dr. Quartermaine,” Emily muttered. “I guess you get to have all the fun while I get stuck doing another rectal exam.” She reached for the box of rubber gloves on the counter and snapped a pair on. “Coming, Dr. Carroll.”

“Ah, the life of a student,” Patrick called after her as he tucked the charts under his arm and headed for the elevator. He didn’t miss those days at all.

General Hospital: ICU

Robin watched through the glass window as Felicia brushed her cousin’s blonde hair off her forehead and said something to Robin’s uncle.

Maxie had woken up briefly but was still drifting in and out. She hadn’t been coherent enough to tell about Serena Baldwin’s death nor the conditions of her other friends and Robin, for one, did not want to be the one to tell her.

She knew Maxie would take it hard, that she would assume the greater responsibility since she had been driving–and that it had been her idea to go out after the club. She would suffer from survivor’s guilt.

It was a condition Robin was all too familiar with.

“Her vitals are good,” Patrick said, stepping up to her side. “She’s going to pull through.”

“Hmm,” Robin murmured. “She’s always been a fighter.” She glanced at him. “Did you see the other girls already?”

“All recovering nicely and officially off the surgical service,” Patrick replied. “I think they’re even releasing Georgie tomorrow, but Lulu and Sage had more severe concussions and I think they want to keep them longer in ortho.”

They stood there for another long moment in silence before Robin spoke again. “I’m standing here thinking that I don’t want to be the one to tell her that Serena didn’t make it, because I know it will destroy her.”

“Losing a friend is always rough,” Patrick nodded, hating himself for remembering what Emily Quartermaine had said much earlier that day about this being his ticket into Robin’s affections. The annoying girl had been right of course and most of the time, Patrick wouldn’t think twice about taking advantage of Robin’s clear vulnerability but for some reason, some infuriating reason, it just didn’t seem like a palatable course of action for Patrick.

Something else to lay at Robin’s feet. Before her, the only ethics and morality he’d worried about had been in medicine.

“It was her idea to be there,” Robin explained, unaware of Patrick’s inner turmoil. “Serena was leaving later this week for college and Maxie had a list of things they needed to do to make this summer memorable and last night was seeing the sun rise at Vista Point.”

“Being hit by a drunk driver is hardly her fault,” Patrick replied. “She couldn’t have predicted that.”

“It won’t matter to her,” Robin said. “That’s too rational and the human heart doesn’t work like that. Just because she didn’t cause the accident, to Maxie, it’s not going to matter. She’s just going to remember that Serena is gone and she’s going to have to go on without her. She’s not just going to be upset, she’s going to feel guilty.”

“Sounds like you have a bit of experience in that area,” Patrick said, narrowing his eyes.

“You have no idea.” The beeper at Robin’s waist chirped and she glanced down at it. “I…gotta go.”

“ER?” Patrick inquired.

Robin shook her head. “Not quite.”

Kelly’s: Courtyard

“Thanks for meeting me.”

Elizabeth set her purse at her side and lowered herself into the chair opposite of Carly. “It sounded important. I assumed you’d be at the hospital most of the day.”

“I was.” Carly shifted and rubbed her eyes. “But Lucas and Kyle drove back from college and got to the hospital about noon. I went home to reassure Michael and Morgan that Sage was okay.” She paused as the waitress set a plate of fries and two sodas on the table. “I only ordered one plate, I didn’t think we’d be here long.”

“That’s fine.” Elizabeth frowned. “Carly…did something happen after you got home?”

Carly exhaled slowly. “You might say that. I shipped the boys over to Alexis to play with Kristina so they didn’t hear the message.” She sipped her soda. “Look, you can’t tell Jason, okay? I haven’t told Lorenzo yet and I’m not sure how to, so I just need–I need someone to listen.”

“Now I’m worried–Carly, what’s wrong? What message?” Elizabeth demanded.

“It was from a lawyer.” Carly closed her eyes. “Apparently Sonny’s treatment has progressed to the point where he’s ready to receive family members. He contacted me about two months ago about seeing the boys and I refused. I never told anyone.”

“Oh, Carly…”

“And now Sonny’s threatening me with court action and I’m terrified a judge will make me take the boys to him.” She huffed. “God, how can he be so selfish? How can he think only of himself? The boys are doing wonderful without him. There’s no violence in their lives, no crashing mini bars, no strange outbursts of rage and no routine breaking up of their parents’ marriage. Michael is well-adjusted, he’s doing so well in school–how can Sonny want me to jeopardize that?”

“And Morgan–Morgan doesn’t even know Sonny. He’s never even seen him, he thinks Lorenzo is his father, you know. I never meant for that to happen, but how can we avoid it, you know?”

“Carly, Carly–” Elizabeth reached across the table and put a hand over the blonde’s to get her attention. “Take a deep breath. I’m sure we can fix this, we just have to concentrate.”

“I know, I know–I’m sure I’ll think of something but I just–I can’t handle any more stress right now. It was bad enough Sage was leaving the dorm in another two weeks–I had barely resigned myself to that but now she’s in the hospital, all of her closest friends are injured and one of them is dead. She’s going to need me to be focused on her and I can’t afford the energy to get into a legal battle with Sonny.” Carly pushed her soda to the side and put her head on the table. “Oh, God, I think I’m going to be sick.”

“I’m no lawyer, but surely you can fight this in family court,” Elizabeth said, hesitating as she tried to remember what little she knew about the legal system. “I mean, Morgan’s never met Sonny, you can probably prove that it would only confuse and hurt him. He’s also barely two years old; it’s unlikely a court will force you to take him to a psychiatric hospital.”

Carly’s eyes brightened. “Right. I’m sure I can use Morgan’s age.” She bit her lip. “But Michael’s almost ten. I couldn’t–they would make him go.”

“Probably,” Elizabeth allowed, “but Carly, you always have a trump card where Michael is concerned.”

Carly narrowed her eyes in suspicion. “What trump–” she stopped and shook her head. “No, no–you can’t possibly be suggesting–”

“I’m sure the word of a biological father would carry some weight,” Elizabeth said. “Even if his parental rights were terminated and if necessary, I think Zander could testify that he was forced because he was there when Sonny hung him from that hook. It’s just an option, Carly.”

“If I acknowledge in court that AJ is Michael’s father…” Carly shook her head. “He’d want custody, he’d want Michael and that would just make things worse–”

“Or if I know AJ at all, he might take the opportunity to one-up Sonny and be willing to leave it at that,” Elizabeth interrupted. “It’s worth thinking about, but it depends on how desperate you are to keep Michael from seeing Sonny.”

Carly glared at her. “God, I hate when you’re right. This is exactly why I should have told Courtney. She hates AJ nearly as much I do.”

Elizabeth smirked. “Guess that’s why Courtney lives fifty miles away and I’m five blocks away.”

General Hospital: Sage’s Hospital Room

If an eight ton truck had rolled across her chest, Sage Alcazar didn’t think she could feel any worse than she did the first time she opened her eyes for longer than ten seconds.

“Oh God,” she mumbled. She gingerly turned her head just a smidge to the left and found herself meeting the very concerned gaze of her boyfriend. “Lucas? You weren’t here the last time I woke up, were you?”

“No.” He leaned forward and grasped her hand. “Are you in pain? Do you need the doctor?”

“No,” Sage frowned. “No pain.” She turned her head to the other side and found Georgie Jones sleeping in the bed next to her, Mac Scorpio at her side. She turned back to Lucas.

“What–I don’t remember what happened.” She licked her lips. “Where’s Lu? And Maxie and Serena?”

Lucas scrubbed his hands over his face. “Ah. God, Sage. You never start with the little stuff.”

“What? Why?” Sage’s eyes widened and she tried sit up. “Lucas, where are they?”

“Lu is down the hall,” Lucas said slowly. “And Maxie is in the ICU.”

“ICU?” Sage repeated. “She’s okay right? Is that where Serena is?”

“Ah…” Lucas licked his lips. “Sage–”

“Tell me they’re both okay, Lucas. I’m clearly not in a position to be freaking out but that’s exactly what I’m doing, I am freaking out–”

Mac glanced over from Georgie’s bed. “Lucas, you okay over there?”

“Mac…” Sage turned to the commissioner. “Maxie and Serena–they’re okay right? They’re in the ICU–” she stopped and turned back to Lucas. “Oh, God. You said Maxie was in the ICU and Lu was down the hall.” Her eyes filled with tears. “You never said Serena was anywhere. Lucas–please…”

“I don’t know all the details,” he said quietly, brimming with his own grief at the loss of a girl he’d known most of his life. “Or all the reasons why, but Serena and Maxie were both on the driver’s side and that’s where the car struck–”

“No,” Sage whispered. “Not Serena–please–”

“There was a head injury, I think. And some internal bleeding, I guess Robin would be able to give all the details.” Lucas swiped a hand over his eyes and swallowed hard. “Serena died.”

“She’s going to be a dancer,” Sage whispered. “You’re lying. She’s fine and this isn’t a funny joke, okay? She’s down the hall or something and she’s going to NYU and she’s going to dance, and we’re all gonna see her on stage. That’s the way it’s supposed to be, so just stop and tell me she’s okay.”

“I can’t,” Lucas told her. “I wish to God I were joking, that I were lying, I’d give anything–”

“No–” Sage shook her head. “You’re lying, she’s okay, she has to be okay. We didn’t finish the list, okay? We’ve still got stuff to do, so she’s okay–”

“Sage–”

“You’re lying,” she repeated, her voice rising. “Get out, okay? Just go. I can’t–I can’t deal with this right now.”

“Sage–” Lucas tried again.

“Get out!”

He jerked out of the chair and left the room, smacking the outside wall with his fist. The last thing he’d wanted to do was make this situation worse. He should have avoided the question, should have found a way to make her feel better, to feel safe and instead…

The door to the girls’ room opened behind him and Mac stepped out. “You okay? That was pretty rough.”

Lucas coughed and nodded. “Yeah, I’m just–I think I handled that all wrong, you know. I’ll fix it–”

“Lucas–” Mac put a hand on his shoulder. “Unfortunately, anyone who came to her with that news was going to get the same reaction. Serena–” he shook his head. “You know what those five girls have been like for the last year, quite frankly, I’d have been surprised if Sage had reacted any less violently.”

“I just…all I want to do is make it better,” Lucas said quietly, “and I just feel like I failed completely.” He met Mac’s eyes. “I’ve known Serena since her dad moved them back to PC like ten years ago, you know? She was a grade behind me and everything, but she’s been part of my extended family forever. When my mom was dating Scott Baldwin, we thought we were going to be stepsiblings. Serena wasn’t just their friend, she was mine too. And I still can’t quite…” he shook his head. “I’m never going to talk to her again. I’m never going to see her smile or get to see her name in lights in New York. She’s never going to be on stage. Her dreams are never going to come true. And you know what I feel most guilty about?”

“What’s that?”

“That I’m just so damn glad it wasn’t Sage.”

This entry is part 4 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Slide

So one of the main reasons I decided not to go with this version was that I wussed out. I wanted to examine how losing someone so young could destroy a family and her social circle, but I couldn’t bring myself to kill off any of my four core female characters: Maxie, Sage, Lulu, or Georgie. So I added in Serena. But the emotional connection wouldn’t have felt right since Serena hasn’t been on GH proper since her birth in the 1990s and her years on Port Charles more than a decade ago. She wasn’t in ISB, so I hadn’t laid any groundwork. And yet, her death was going to rock my female characters so much, it would propel all the conflict?

Yeah, so I wussed out. Looking back, I probably would have knifed Georgie. I adore her to pieces and her death on GH still grieves me, but her death would have had the maximum impact. Maxie losing a sister, Sage’s guilt over Dillon, Lulu being the same age, etc. But I didn’t start it that way.

Anyway, so my original plan for Slide was to focus less on the original three women from ISB (Carly, Courtney, Elizabeth) and more on Maxie, Sage, Robin and Nadine.  Courtney is in Haye’s Landing with Brian and would have faded away, or just remained on the periphery since no matter what I do with her, most people hate her guts.

Elizabeth and Carly still would have been there — Elizabeth would be with Jason, raising their daughter and trying for another child with less success. Carly confronts parenting an almost adult daughter in Sage and deals with Sonny wanting to reconnect with the boys, but they would also be a part of the other stories.

Maxie was the driver in the car, so her guilt was going to leave to severe depression; Sage would struggle with drugs. Georgie and Lulu would deal with the loss of all three of their older friends. Kyle, Dillon, and Lucas would obviously be there in their significant other storylines. I had thoughts of bringing in Logan as part of Lulu and Scott’s story.

Patrick and Robin would date, confront her desire for a child. I shoved Nadine in there with Johnny Zacchara as a mob storyline for Jason. There would be a history between the two of them in a college setting that came back to haunt both of them. I don’t want to be more specific since I might still use it in another story.

Yeah, so Slide was going to be a bit like ISB, one messy huge ensemble piece, but I no longer have the desire to write it. I would have to deal with Carly and Lorenzo, whom I no longer have any fondness for. I thought about just killing off Lorenzo, which I guess is still an option. I also feel less comfortable about writing Lucas as a heterosexual character when he’s been gay for more than a decade. I mean, it’s not I don’t approve of that (I’ve written Brad and Lucas into a story) I just don’t feel right ignoring what is now a part of his character.

Anyway, that was my basic idea for Slide. I even went so far as to create a promotional video which explains some of my ideas in another fashion.

This entry is part 2 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Slide

August 15, 2005

Port Charles, New York

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire

Maxie Jones was in constant motion–every second, every minute, every hour of the day. Her hands were always flying, her teeth flashing in a dimpled smile and words just flowed from her mouth like water rushing from a faucet.

She was more than silent, she was utterly still. The paramedics that were crowded around her knew her, had watched her grow up as the stepdaughter of the police commissioner, as a volunteer and aspiring nurse at General Hospital and they worked fervently to save her life, to keep her heart pumping.

A few feet from the vivacious teenager lay the remains of the crumpled car Mac Scorpio had given her for graduation and inside, four more teenaged girls were trapped. The dark night sky was beginning to streak with the purple and pinks of a new day and cars were pulling up to the wreckage–cars filled with family and friends, with reporters and curious bystanders.

Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

“You don’t understand!” Felicia Scorpio-Jones snarled as an officer made a vain attempt to hold the mother back behind the yellow tape. “Those are my girls, those my daughters and my life–”

“Sage!” another woman screamed. She fought to get through onlookers, tore at jackets and sleeves and skin to get to the front, hoping desperately for some glimpse of the girl she thought of as her own. Nothing and no one could keep Carly Corinthos from getting what she wanted.

Directly behind her, swathed in his customary black, Lorenzo Alcazar followed in Carly’s path, his brown eyes searching the accident scene, but seeing only Maxie Jones being loaded into the ambulance. “Where is she?” he demanded.

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way

At the car they had abandoned, Elizabeth Morgan rubbed her bare arms despite the hot summer morning. “If anything happened to Sage,” she murmured, “I don’t know that Carly or Lorenzo would be able to handle that.”

Her husband put his arm around her and knew they were both thinking about their one year old daughter, Lila, currently at home with Elizabeth’s grandmother. “Carly’s stronger than she looks,” Jason murmured.

General Hospital: Emergency Room

I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

“We’ve got five kids coming in from an accident, two are critical.” Emily Quartermaine tugged a hair band from her wrist and threw her hair up in a messy pony tail. “Drunk driver smashed into their car near Vista Point and fled the scene.”

“Then how do they know it was a drunk?” Robin Scorpio asked, making some last minute notes on an old chart.

“Don’t know, didn’t ask,” Emily replied.

Robin turned to the nurse at the station. “Page both Drs. Quartermaine, and both Drakes, I’m sure we’re going to need a neurosurgeon or two.”

“And all the nurses you can find,” Emily remarked. “Can’t do this without them.”

The nurse, Epiphany, humped. “Damn right,” she said under her breath as she turned to make the pages.

Princeton, New Jersey

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen
I have sunk so low

Kyle Radcliffe slammed the phone down and moved the short distance from the living room to the bedroom where his roommate Lucas Jones was passed out. “Get up!”

“Who, what?” Lucas raised his head sleepily from the pillow and scrubbed at his eyes. “What the hell–it’s barely five in the morning–”

“There was an accident back in PC,” Kyle said roughly. He grabbed Lucas’s school bag and threw at him. “We’re driving home. Be ready to go in five minutes.”

“Wait–” Lucas rolled out of bed and clumsily stuck his legs through the jeans he’d discarded the night before. “What kind of accident? What’s going on?”

“The girls were hit, that was Dillon on the phone,” Kyle called from his room where he was hastily shoving clothes in his backpack and trying to remember where he’d left his wallet.

“Which girls?” Lucas demanded. He appeared in Kyle’s doorway. “Which girls?” he repeated.

“All of them.” Kyle pushed past him and went into the kitchen to grab a few bottles of water and toss a few bags of chips into his bag. “They were on their way home from the club last night and it was the night to see the sunrise at Vista Point. It was on Maxie’s list of things to do before Serena left for college.”

“Did Dillon say if they’re okay?” Lucas grabbed Kyle’s arm as he headed towards the door of their apartment. “Damn it, Kyle, stop for five seconds and tell me what the hell is going on.”

I have messed up
Better I should know

“He didn’t know,” Kyle answered. “He was on his way out the door to the hospital. We have to get on the road now. It’s going to take six hours to drive there as it is.”

“Did Dillon know anything?” Lucas swiped his wallet from the counter and shoved into his back pocket.

“He said it was bad,” Kyle confessed after a long moment. “He wouldn’t say anything else but he said he’d call us when he got to the hospital. Lucas, we have to go now.”

“He didn’t know if anyone had–” Lucas had to stop, had to prepare himself to ask this. “If anyone had died, did he?”

“He would have said something,” Kyle said roughly. “But no, he didn’t know. He didn’t know anything other than they’d been in an accident and that it was serious.”

Lucas swallowed. “I guess we better go then.”

General Hospital: Emergency Room

So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so

She knew the blonde girl stretched out on the gurney, racing down the hallway from the emergency room bay doors to the trauma room. She had watched her grow up, had known her parents and been to her high school graduation.

And more importantly, she knew that Lulu Spencer had been with her cousins the night before. In fact, you could hardly trip over Lulu Spencer without finding Maxie and Georgie Jones with her, or Sage Alcazar and Serena Baldwin. The five girls were best friends and had spent the summer creating memories to last them before Serena left for a dancing scholarship in New York and Sage and Maxie began their freshman year at PCU.

Robin was already barking out commands for medicine and tests as her mind was processing that the other four girls included Maxie and Georgie, two girls that were more than cousins. They were her sisters.

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young

“Get her to x-ray,” Robin told Emily. She tugged off her yellow gown and flew through the doors to the next trauma room where Sage Alcazar was stretched out.

“What do we have here?” she asked as a nurse hurriedly gowned her and put on her new gloves.

“Seventeen-year-old female with a concussion and possible broken femur,” a nameless intern replied. “We’ve got it handled here, Dr. Scorpio.”

Robin took a bracing breath before exiting to the next trauma room across the hall. Before she was more than five feet inside, Patrick Drake was pushing on her shoulders to keep her out. “You don’t want to be in here,” he told her. “For once, don’t argue with me and don’t try to prove me wrong.”

She bit her lip. “Maxie or Georgie?” she asked him quietly. “How bad is it?”

Patrick cast a look back at his patient, knew he had only moments to spare before he had to get her into surgery. “It’s Maxie, Robin. It’s a pretty serious head injury, and we need to get a CAT scan so I can see what I’m dealing with.”

“But you can fix it right?” Robin asked. “You’re supposed to be the best neurosurgeon in the state. You can fix it.”

We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone

“I need to get a scan first–maybe you should go update the families,” he suggested. “You’re too close to the patients—”

“They’re the daughters of some of Port Charles’ most noted families,” Robin retorted. “The Spencers, the Baldwins, the Jones–there’s not a hospital staff member that hasn’t worked with Maxie or Georgie–”

“But she’s your sister, Robin,” Patrick interrupted. “She’s family and that makes it different.” He glanced back at Maxie. “I have to get back there. Someone needs to update the families. You have the best bedside manner anyway.”

Robin nodded and took a deep breath. “Then you’d better tell me what to say to them about Maxie because Felicia and Mac are going to want more than you don’t know what you’re dealing with yet.”

General Hospital: Emergency Waiting Room

But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals

“We should have heard something by now,” Carly snapped, pacing restlessly. She reached one end of the lobby and closed her eyes, trying to take calming breaths. It wasn’t working–whether it was the tension of the moment, the fright that her adopted daughter would be torn from her or maybe it was this depressing gray room that was driving her to the brink but she was coming up fast on the line between sanity and irrational actions.

“The doctors will get to us as soon as they can,” Felicia said, more to comfort herself than Carly. The two women were not by any means friendly but Sage and Maxie were closer than sisters and sacrifices had to be made for the sake of their children. She stood and put a hand on Carly’s forearm to stop her pacing for a moment. “I’d rather have them back there doing everything they can than out here assuaging my fears.”

Carly nodded. “Right, right. Better that they’re not out here telling us what we don’t want to hear.” She stilled and surveyed the room, almost in disbelief as she realized the variety of people waiting for news. If not for the friendship of the girls, there would be no way Port Charles District Attorney Scott Baldwin and his parents and Police Commissioner
Mac Scorpio would be in the same room as reputed criminals Lorenzo Alcazar and Jason Morgan–and it was unlikely that Jason would ever want to be in the same room as Edward Quartermaine who was waiting with Dillon for news on Dillon’s girlfriend Georgie and stepsister Lulu.

The doors to the emergency room swung open and Robin stepped out, a carefully blank expression on her face. “Ah, I’m here to update all the families,” she said. “I could take you each aside or just say it—”

“Just get it over with,” Mac said. “They’re all friends, they’re going to want to know anyway. Just tell us, Robin.”

The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal

“Ah, well, okay.” Robin cleared her throat. “Lulu is in stable condition. She had a concussion and a broken arm, which they’re setting now. She’ll be moved up to her own room shortly and will be making a full and complete recovery.”

Elizabeth reached over and squeezed Lucky’s trembling hands. “See, she’s a Spencer. They’re like cockroaches–they never go away.”

“Sage is also in stable condition,” Robin continued. “She also suffered a concussion, along with a broken leg and a few broken ribs, Like Lulu, she’ll be moved up to her own and will be making a complete recovery.” She hesitated. “Georgie is in stable condition, she suffered a concussion, three broken ribs and a broken wrist. She’ll be in her own room soon.” There was a long pause before she could bring herself to speak.

Scott Baldwin stood up from his chair. “What about Serena?” he demanded.

It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear

“Serena and Maxie were both seated on the driver’s side,” Robin said softly. “The other driver struck that side of the car and as a result, they have suffered the worst injuries. Maxie and Serena both have head injuries, the extent of which is not yet known, in addition to some broken ribs and other lesser injuries.”

“I don’t understand.” Felicia clenched her fingers in her ex-husband’s sleeve. “What does that mean, Robin?”

“It means that they’re listed in critical condition,” Robin said quietly. “And that we can’t determine anything more without further testing.”

“But Serena will be all right, won’t she?” Scott demanded. “I’ve lost one daughter in a car accident; tell me I’m not going to lose another…”

More than anything, Robin wanted to reassure the anguished father that Serena would be fine, that she had one of the best medical teams in the area working on her to save her life, but she would also not give out false hope.

I’ve fallen
I have sunk so low

“I can’t say right now,” Robin said softly. “But I’ll keep you updated and hopefully I’ll have a better answer soon.”

Unable to stomach the desperate looks of so many people she loved and respected, Robin swallowed hard and fled behind the trauma room doors.

Highway: Kyle’s Car

I have messed up
Better I should know

Kyle stared at the cell phone in his hand, Dillon’s words echoing in his ear. Maxie…critical…head…injury. They weren’t moving together and forming any kind of sensible outcome. Dillon was supposed to call and tell him that all the girls were fine, that by the time Lucas and Kyle got there, they’d be ready to go home. He’d pictured Maxie laughing at him because he’d driven six hours just to be with her.

But according to Dillon, Maxie was in critical condition and there was no word yet if she was going to survive.

“What did he say?” Lucas demanded from the passenger side. When Dillon’s number had flashed on the cell, Kyle had pulled to the side of the road. “Kyle–”

“Sage, Georgie and Lulu are all right,” Kyle said, his head still wrapping around the nightmare of not having Maxie in his life. His whole future had been mapped out with her. Graduate from college, come home to Port Charles for medical school, get married, start a family. None of that seemed possible without her.

Lucas let that relief flood through him but then he released there were names missing. “Serena?” He hesitated. “Maxie?”

“The car struck them on the driver’s side,” Kyle continued slowly. “Serena was in the back seat on that side, and Maxie was driving. They’re in critical condition.”

“Oh, God.” Lucas closed his eyes and hated himself for being desperately relieved that it wasn’t Sage. Maxie was his cousin, Serena one of his oldest friends. “Do they know…?”

“Robin wouldn’t say one way or the other.” Kyle looked at Lucas, the young man who’d gone from being his enemy to his brother. “I can’t–I can’t do this without her.”

So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so

“Don’t talk like that, man,” Lucas said. “She’s gonna pull through, if for no other reason than she hasn’t annoyed everyone nearly enough.” He hesitated. “Do you want me to take over driving for a while?”

Kyle nodded. “Yeah, yeah, that might be a good plan.”

Hardy House: Kitchen

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn

It had taken Audrey Hardy time to truly accept Jason Morgan in her granddaughter’s life, as more than the father of her child. They had married only six months previous and it had been during the wedding ceremony that Audrey had finally opened her eyes and seen the radiant smile on Elizabeth’s face.

She hadn’t smiled like that for so long Audrey had forgotten what she looked like when she was happy.

After that day, she’d opened her home to the family and had encouraged Elizabeth to move the trio into the house Audrey had shared with Steve for longer than she could remember. And one day, when Audrey passed away, she would know that Elizabeth always had a home to call her own.

It was nearly noon before the tired couple returned to the house, exhausted from having being woken by a frantic Carly in the middle of the night. Audrey had coffee ready, knowing Jason would still insist on going into work that day.

“How are the girls?” Audrey asked as Elizabeth stifled a yawn and shuffled in the kitchen. “Are they all right?”

“Sage, Lulu and Georgie are,” Elizabeth answered, pouring Jason’s customary mug of black coffee and passing it to him. “But Maxie and Serena are in surgery. They were still in critical condition when we left.” She touched Jason’s arm. “I’m going to check on Lila. I just…I need to see her.”

I’m lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know

Elizabeth left them alone in the kitchen and Jason stood uncertainly, still somewhat uneasy with his wife’s grandmother.

“You spend your entire life protecting your children,” Audrey said softly, “shielding them from danger the best way you know how and you think you know what you’re doing. You’re confident you’ve thought of all the angles. And then something happens that proves you can never prepare for every eventuality.” She met his eyes. “It’s disturbing when you realize how wrong you were and the very thing you were trying to protect your family from was exactly what they needed.” She set her coffee mug in the sink. “It was good of you to go be with Carly this morning. It shows great character for someone to be so devoted to a friend.”

Jason shifted uncomfortably. “She’d do the same for me.”

“Even so.” Audrey patted his arm. “It’s mornings like this that make me glad my Elizabeth chose you.”

General Hospital: Doctor’s Break Room

Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don’t see

Emily gulped down half a bottle of water and set it on the table. “If you stare at the door, it’s not going to make either Drake come in any faster.”

Robin turned away and sighed. “Yeah, I know, but I don’t know what else to do.” She propped her chin up with her hand. “I just want Patrick to tell me Maxie is going to be okay.”

“I want them all to be okay,” Emily said. “But, Robin, you saw the scans–”

“I know,” Robin cut in. “But I have to believe that it’s going to be okay. I can’t…I don’t think I can tell someone that their daughter is gone, right of the very beginning of their life. I just–I don’t have that in me.” She dropped her head to the table. “I should have gone into research.”

But it’s one missed step
You’ll slip before you know it

The door to the room cracked and an exhausted Patrick Drake entered, stifling a yawn. “She’s out of surgery,” he told her. “Pressure is relieved and unless there’s some infection or unseen complications…”

Robin got to her feet and crossed the room, wrapping her arms tightly around his waist. “Thank you so much.”

“Just doing my job,” the doctor replied uncomfortably. He backed away. “I peeked in on Serena Baldwin.” He hesitated. “It wasn’t–it’s not looking good.”

“Oh, God,” Emily breathed. “Scott’s not going to be able to handle losing her. There’s got to be something…”

“As much as I much hate to admit it, the only thing left is to pray,” Patrick said. He gripped Robin’s shoulder. “Why don’t you go to tell Maxie’s parents? I’m sure they’re waiting for the good news.”

And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Robin nodded and exited the room. Emily arched an eyebrow. “That would have been excellent opportunity to continue your pursuit of the good doctor,” she observed.

Patrick collapsed into a nearby chair and rubbed his eyes. “I don’t want her to go out with me because I saved her cousin’s life,” he muttered.

“Six months ago, you would have used any and every chance to reel her in,” Emily replied. She tossed him a doughnut. “Interesting how fast things change.”

General Hospital: ER Waiting Room

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low

Scott Baldwin saw Robin striding towards the doors, coming towards them. Her face looked optimistic, surely a good sign. He was positive she was bringing him the news that his beloved Serena would be just fine.

There was no other possible outcome.

Just before Robin reached the doors, Noah Drake stepped out of an elevator and reached out for her arm. They stood and talked for a moment, Robin’s face falling.

And then she turned and looked directly at him. All that pain and devastation directed at him–such a change from her face mere moments ago.

Scott couldn’t feel his legs anymore.

General Hospital: Lobby

I have messed up
Better I should know

In the five and a half hours since Dillon’s last phone call, Kyle’s phone had been stubbornly silent and he’d been afraid to call, afraid that the words would be something he wasn’t ready to hear.

They parked the car haphazardly across the street and rushed towards the entrance to find Dillon waiting for them, sprawled out in a chair, his chin tucked into his chest.

“Dillon…” Kyle choked out. “Tell me she’s okay…”

So don’t come round here

Dillon raised his head and looked at them, his dark eyes swimming with tears. “Maxie’s…she’s fine.”

“Then what…?” Lucas asked, shaking his head. He swallowed. “Oh, God…”

“Serena…she’s…she’s gone.”

And tell me I told you so

This entry is part 1 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Slide

I experimented with a few different opening scenes before settling on one. One of which is lost due to computer crash–other is this short collection of scenes, perhaps half a chapter.  The other outake concerned the teens having a night out at Club 101, which is all I really remember of it. I might still find it one day, you never know.


 

August 15, 2005

Alcazar & Corinthos House: Sage’s Bedroom

Carly Corinthos folded one of her adopted daughter’s tank tops and set it on top of a pile already settled into her suitcase. In just a week, Sage Alcazar would be moving out of this bedroom and into a dorm room at Port Charles University with Maxie Jones.

She wasn’t ready for this. She hadn’t been ready for the sex talk (though by the time Carly had gathered the courage to have it, Sage had already been there and done that) and she certainly hadn’t been ready for Sage to graduate from high school.

But here she was, all the same, helping Sage pack her room.

“Carly, you know that you don’t have to help,” Sage sat on her bed and smiled fondly at the woman who had gone out of her way to adopt her and be the first real mother she’d ever known.

Carly sighed, “No, the best way to accept this is to help you pack.” She reached for a sweater and sighed again. “I remember when I bought this for you.”

Sage smirked. “Me, too. It was two weeks ago.” She reached across the bed and squeezed Carly’s hand. “I know you think you’re losing me. Believe me, Uncle Zo can’t hide it either. But it could have been worse.”

“How?” Carly demanded, failing to see how anything could be worse than her first baby leaving her. It didn’t matter that Carly had known Sage for two years and had only adopted her a year ago. Sage was her daughter, her family and Carly protected no one like she protected family.

“Well,” Sage drawled. “I could have gone to Yale to be with Lucas and Kyle.” She patted Carly’s shoulder. “But I’m staying in Port Charles with Maxie and Dillon. We’re going to PCU. And Georgie and Lu will join us in another year. And then Lucas and Kyle are coming back for grad school. It’s really going to work out, Carly. Just the way we planned it.”

Morgan Apartment: Dining Room/Studio

Elizabeth Morgan slowly set the cordless phone back on its base and let her fingers tap restlessly against the table on which the phone sat. That had been her obstetrician, Dr. Kelly Lee, who was just reporting that the results of Elizabeth’s fertility tests had come back positive.

There was no reason she hadn’t conceived another child in the year that she and Jason had been trying. No blockage, no abnormalities–everything was squeaky clean and perfect. Kelly had just told her that she was probably stressing out over it and putting too much pressure on her body to come through.

It would happen.

Elizabeth put the phone call out of her mind and turned back to her sketching. In the year since she had finally married Jason, her art career had finally turned into…a career. She’d had her first show six months ago and was due to follow its success with another in a few months. She’d quit Kelly’s and now had all the time in the world to devote to her art, to her husband, and of course, to her beloved daughter, Lila Emily Morgan, who had turned a year old two months ago.

She shook herself out of her melancholy. She had a beautiful little girl and a wonderful life. Another child would only make things better but she was happy with the state of things. She would just concentrate on those for now.

General Hospital: Lobby

“Free at last!” Maxie Jones balled up her volunteer’s uniform and then tossed it in the trash before raised her hands in the air. “Thank God Almighty, I am free at last!”

“You use the best quotes at the most inappropriate times,” Dillon Quartermaine sighed, deeply disappointed. He turned to his girlfriend. “I thought you were going to work on that.”

“Hey, I can’t really blame her,” Georgie Jones remarked. “I only wish that I could be saying goodbye to that uniform.” She held her finger up. “One more year and I will be just as free as Maxie.”

“Oh, come on,” Robin Scorpio rolled her eyes. “The hospital is not that bad.” She reached into the trash bin and removed Maxie’s uniform. “And Norma Rae, this doesn’t belong to you–you’re supposed to turn it into the hospital.”

“Oh, sure,” Maxie rolled her eyes dramatically. “It’s the symbolism of the thing. The principal. Casting off the shackles of my servitude and rising above my oppressors.”

“I bet you miss Paris right now,” Dillon remarked to Robin.

“Oh, quiet you,” Maxie sniffed. She wound her arm through Robin’s and held on to her cousin tightly. “You know you missed me.”

“Desperately,” Robin said dryly. “All that culture and history, that fashion and beauty–it can’t possibly compare to the glory of my dear cousin Maxie.”

Maxie wrinkled her nose. “I know you’re being sarcastic but I’m going to take that as a serious compliment.” She released Robin’s arm and took a step back. “You know what you need?”

“No, don’t answer that, it’s a trick,” Dillon cautioned. “She told that to Sage last week and ended up getting her some sort of piercing in a very odd place.”

“Lucas will love it,” Maxie promised Dillon. “And if Georgie wouldn’t so prim and proper, she’d have one too.” She shook her head. “Never mind Sage. We’re talking about you, Robin.”

“We’re really not,” Robin replied. She started for the parking lot and the trio followed her–she was their ride home after all. Maxie had gotten one speeding ticket too many and Mac had grounded her from the car until she left for college.

“Sure we are. What you need, my gorgeous cousin whom I happen to adore is a man!” Maxie declared with a flourish of her hand–that accidentally whacked someone going through the double doors.

“Son of a–” the guy braced a hand against his bleeding nose.

“Oh, my gosh!” Maxie started to dig through her purse for a tissue. “I am so sorry!”

“Would you believe this isn’t the first time that’s happened?” Dillon told Robin as he removed the packet of tissues from his back pocket and passed them to Maxie’s victim.

“Absolutely,” Robin sighed. “I really am sorry for my cousin–”

“Sincerely,” Maxie cut in. “I talk way too much with my hands and they just start going all over the place. I’ve racked up some serious injuries. Really, totally, unbelievable sorry.”

“It’s okay.” The guy tossed the tissue into the nearby trash can. “My mother was Italian. I’ve seen her break some noses.”

“Well, hey, Maxie doesn’t stop at breaking noses,” Dillon said. “She’s knocked out teeth, dislodged shoulders–”

“I have not, you traitor!” Maxie gasped, betrayed. She whacked Dillon in the shoulder. And then she focused on the guy that she’d maimed and perked up. He was hot.

And he was in Robin’s age bracket.

“Project!” Maxie squealed. “Georgie, Dillon, we have to go to the, ah, well–somewhere else.” She grabbed her sister elbow and dragged her back into the hospital. “Robin, we’ll be right back, I forgot something in the lounge and I absolutely need it for my dorm room.”

Robin watched her cousins and Dillon disappear and turned back to Maxie’s victim. “She gets less subtle with age, it’s really kind of sad,” she sighed, severely put upon. “I’m Robin Scorpio and you were assaulted by Maxie Jones.”

“Patrick Drake, and I can think of worse ways to meet a lovely woman.” He grinned and Robin resisted the urge to roll her eyes. He was one of those guys. “Do you work here?” Patrick continued.

“Yes–I’m a pathologist in the lab,” Robin replied. “I don’t think I’ve seen you around though–”

“I just signed the paperwork today. I’m the new neurosurgeon–I think I’m replacing someone who just retired.”

“Tony Jones,” Robin nodded. “Well–” she leaned back and sighed in relief when she saw Georgie and Dillon practically tugging Maxie towards the exit.

“Do you want to have dinner?” Patrick cut in. He flashed that grin again and Robin was sorry that such a lovely grin and gorgeous dimples were wasted on an obvious womanizer.

“No,” Robin said bluntly.

This entry is part 9 of 17 in the Fiction Graveyard: Shadows #1

A week before Michael’s school let out for the summer, Jason made his usual rounds to gather letters for Elizabeth. He went to the post office box he’d set up for Audrey Hardy and retrieved the two letters her grandmother had sent before going out to Wyndemere where Emily gave her letters from herself, Nikolas and Lucky–and a surprise one from Elizabeth’s brother Steven who had heard about his sister’s pregnancy and hoped they could arrange a visit when she returned home.

He saved his visit to Ric for last and he could tell the lawyer was not expecting him. “Is something wrong with Elizabeth?” Ric asked when he opened his apartment door.

Jason entered the apartment and shut the door behind him. He didn’t want anyone hearing this conversation because the more people knew, the more humiliating it would be for Elizabeth and she didn’t deserve that.

“I came by to pick up your letter,” Jason said. “And to let you know that I’ll be telling Elizabeth about your…relationship with Sam McCall.”

The color drained from Ric’s face almost immediately. “What are you talking about?”

“I think you know,” Jason said after a moment. “I thought about telling her over the phone but it’s not really fair to give her something like that to deal with alone.”

Ric’s eyes narrowed. “You just love coming to her rescue don’t you?”

Jason remained silent and waited, knowing the lawyer would give him exactly what he came here to for.

“You’ve wanted her for years and now you think you’ve finally got your opening,” Ric spat out. “She won’t believe you, you know that? She loves me.”

Still silent.

“She could have gone back to you last fall,” Ric continued hatefully. “But she chose to forgive me. Marry me. Raise her child with me.”

Still silent.

“She would understand what I was doing with Sam,” Ric said, changing tactics. Provoking Jason wasn’t doing the trick.

Jason merely raised an eyebrow.

“She knows how important my career is to me,” Ric said. He nodded. “That prosecuting Sonny would be the highlight of my career.”

“And sleeping Sam is something Elizabeth would understand,” Jason said slowly.

“She won’t believe you,” Ric repeated. “She doesn’t trust you.”

Jason found that somewhat amusing but he still hadn’t gotten what he came for. “She’ll believe me because she knows that I would never lie to her,” he told Elizabeth’s husband. “Not to her face and not about something like this.”

And because Ric knew Jason was right, panic licked at the back of his throat. “She shouldn’t have stress,” Ric switched tactics yet again. “She-”

“Then you shouldn’t have slept with another woman,” Jason interrupted. “When I tell her, she will want to know why and I think you owe it to her to give me an answer.”

“I don’t have to tell you anything.”

“No, no you don’t. But I’m your only contact with Elizabeth for the next few months. I’m going to tell her what you did. Do you want her to have all that time to speculate on her own?” Jason asked pointedly. “Elizabeth deserves the truth. I know that’s a novel concept for you, but why don’t you try it out?”

“She’s going to think it was about Sonny,” Ric muttered. “She thinks everything is about Sonny.”

“Was it?” Jason asked pointedly.

“Sam was tired of being treated like trash, she knew it would piss Sonny off if she slept with me,” Ric said. “She knew Elizabeth was out of town. A man can only be a monk for so long.”

Because Jason had never seen the point of having sex just to have it, he couldn’t really understand that. When he’d slept with Carly in the beginning, the feelings were new to him and he needed to find an outlet for them. But as he began to realize exactly what the act should be about, it began to be more important for him–something he didn’t do lightly and never without reason.

Except for the first time with Courtney.

So he couldn’t understand how this man Elizabeth had given her love and trust to could stand there and tell him that he had been tired of being a monk, of living without sex. He wondered what Ric’s excuse would have been if Elizabeth had remained in town but in the late stages of her pregnancy and unable to give him what he so obviously couldn’t do without.

A man who let himself be led around by dick obviously couldn’t be trusted.

“I’m leaving in a week,” Jason finally said. “If you have any letters for her, have them to me by then.”


Carly watched as Jason packed his duffle bag and then her eyes strayed to the door of his bedroom where he had stacked two other duffle bags. “How long are you going to be gone?”

“At least until early July,” Jason said. He zipped it shut. “You’ve got my cell if you have to get in touch with Michael.”

Carly sat on the bed. “He’s very excited about this trip but he refuses to tell me any details.” She met his eyes. “If I ask you, will I get the same refusal?”

“Carly…” Jason sat next to her.

“This is the third time you’ve gone out of town since you got custody of Michael,” Carly said. “You’re taking him out of the country but I don’t understand that. You’re not one for vacations. Jase…you can trust me.”

“We’re going to Spain,” Jason said after a moment. “And the reason we’ll be gone so long this time is that…Elizabeth is due in early July.”

Carly pressed her lips together and looked away. To her credit, she didn’t immediately throw any tantrums. “So Spain is where Elizabeth went to get away from Ric.”

“She didn’t go to get away from him.” Jason sighed. “She needed to get out town. I helped her. I had to bring Michael the first time and during that time, he became attached to her. He cares for her, considers her baby her cousin. I need to know if you can deal with that.”

“Why did he come attached to her?” Carly asked, a little annoyed. “Why does everyone become attached to her?”

“Because she was there for him during a very difficult period in his life. She was there the morning after he heard Sonny say those things. He needed someone to reassure him and she found the words that I couldn’t. He considers her part of the family now, Carly. And eventually she will be back. Can you deal with that?” Jason repeated.

Carly exhaled slowly. “If you think that she’s having a good influence on my son, if you think she’s good for him and that this attachment he has for her is okay, then I will trust your judgment.”

“Thank you.” He set the last duffle bag by the door. “How was the custody hearing this morning?”

Carly sighed. “Rough. But since I’m putting longer hours in at the club and I’ve got Mama looking after Morgan as opposed to Sonny’s job and a nanny, I still came out looking like the more capable parent. He’s still fighting for Michael but I’ve been able to handle that myself with letters from teachers and his school saying how much his grades and behavior have improved.”

“Will he get a hearing?” Jason asked, his stomach clenching at the thought of losing Michael once again.

“The judge isn’t going to grant one. What Michael told him the last time he met with the judge was enough. He’s never going to let Michael in Sonny’s sphere.” Carly sighed. “The divorce is the only thing going smoothly if you discount the custody part of it. I didn’t ask for child support or alimony. I just want the whole thing over.”

“I’m sorry, Carly. I can’t really understand what’s happened to Sonny,” Jason said regretfully.

“Well even that slut Sam jumped ship,” Carly remarked. “I saw her cozying up with Ric.” She studied him. “Is that why Elizabeth left him?”

“No. She doesn’t know that yet.” Jason sighed heavily. “I have to figure out how I’m supposed to tell her.”

“Well, your friendship with her is something I’ve never understood but if I were her, I wouldn’t want you to coddle me. I’d just want you to tell me straight out. I’d want to know why, but I wouldn’t want excuses. I wouldn’t want you trying to coat the truth.”

“I paid him a visit,” Jason said. “And he told me that Sam came on to him. That Elizabeth would understand that he couldn’t live like a monk forever.” He shook his head. “I don’t understand that. Even if she hadn’t left town, she’d still be pregnant and in the last stages of it. Would she understand if she were home?”

“He’s slime, Jason. He doesn’t need any other excuses or reasons,” Carly said.

“But she’s pregnant and even if the baby isn’t his biologically, he was supposed to take care of her anyway. Be her father. How can you think about cheating on your family? On the woman you took vows with?”

“A lot of men aren’t like you, Jason. They think that because they have certain parts, it gives them a right to do things.” Carly snorted. “Though if their women ever decided that it held true for them, they’d be the first people to spout that shit about vows.”

“I just wish I didn’t have to be the one to tell her,” Jason said after a moment. “I’ve hurt her so many times.”

Carly reached out and squeezed his hand. “You really care for her, don’t you?” she asked softly.

“Yeah…I do,” he answered after a moment.

She bit her lip. “Do you…do you love her?” she asked hesitantly.

“I don’t know,” Jason answered honestly. He stood and went to his dresser, opening drawers as if to check if he’d forgotten anything. The question made him restless as it was one he’d been asking himself since the day Ric Lansing called him to the docks.

He’d dropped everything to help her. He’d never even considered letting her twist in the wind. He would do anything to keep her safe and he had already called in his favors at the PCPD, giving the police false leads and sending them in the opposite direction. Elizabeth didn’t deserve to pay for this crime and he knew that Zander Smith would be the first one to say so if he could.

When he talked to her about raising Michael, he knew she was the only one who truly understand what this second chance meant to him. How utterly terrified he was that he would screw this up.

Carly watched Jason avoid the question and narrowed her eyes. Maybe he didn’t know the answer but she sure did. Her stomach clenched at the idea of Jason actually being in love with the twit but she squared her shoulders. Jason was his own person and he could love anyone he wanted. Even if it was Elizabeth Webber. Therefore, it was her place to make him realize his feelings. Then he could deal with them.

“What’s your favorite thing about her?” she asked suddenly. He turned around with suspicious eyes.

“What?”

“About Elizabeth. What do you like the most?” Carly asked again. “Is it her hair? The…” she almost felt nauseous. “The body?”

He frowned. “No. I-” he hesitated.

“You can trust me, Jason,” Carly said, hoping he would actually open up to her this time. “I promise.”

“She only sees the good stuff,” he answered after a moment. “When we first became friends, everyone told her all the reasons she shouldn’t be around me but she only saw the ones why she should. She never looked at me and saw Sonny’s enforcer. She only saw me.”

“Oh, hell,” she muttered. She stood. “Why couldn’t you have said the chest–though God knows why that would have been a factor.”

Jason shook his head, bewildered. “I don’t understand.”

“Because if you’d said something physical I could chalked it up to lust. My advice was gonna be to just…you know. And get it over with.” She pouted. “You had to go wax poetic about her personality.”

“She is beautiful,” Jason said after a moment. “I never said she wasn’t.”

“Yeah, but now you’re gonna say something mushy like she looks beautiful when she’s sweaty-oh, ewww,” Carly whimpered. “Bad thought. Nasty image.”

“I’m a little unsure where you’re headed with all this,” Jason said, a little amused by his friend’s reaction.

“Look, the first step is admitting it to yourself,” Carly declared. She stood and folded her arms. “And then once you can say it to yourself, you can say it outloud. You can stand in a room by yourself if that makes you feel more comfortable and eventually you can build up to telling her.”

“Telling her what?” Jason pressed.

“Sometimes it’s like pulling teeth,” Carly muttered. “Tell her that you love her, of course. Knowing you, it may take a year but that’s only if you start now. So go ahead, say it silently.”

Jason stared at her. “I-I’m not.”

“Uh huh. How come five seconds ago you didn’t know?” Carly said pointedly. “I’m not saying you have to go and propose or anything Jason, but trust me, if you at least own up to you, you’ll feel better. I promise.”

“Carly-”

“The hardest person you can fight is yourself,” Carly interrupted smoothly. “The twit, er, Elizabeth has always been after you-” at Jason’s dark look, she immediately corrected her statement, “cared about you.”

“She’s married-”

“To a loser. Even I think that girl can do better,” Carly rolled her eyes. “Just go ahead,” she repeated.

He stared at her for a moment before deciding that if he didn’t say it out loud, then he didn’t have anything to lose. The worst that would happen would be that he’d think it and realize it wasn’t true.

He wasn’t sure he wanted that to happen.

“Did you do it yet?” Carly asked impatiently. He shot her an annoyed look.

I love Elizabeth, he thought and hesitated because it sounded right in his head. And it felt right.

Something changed in his eyes and Carly felt her heart soften a little towards the twit. If she could inspire that look then Elizabeth couldn’t be all that bad, Carly decided. Still annoying but not the most hated woman in her life anymore. “How did it feel?” she asked.

“I love her,” Jason murmured, the first time he’d said it out loud since he began having…other feelings for her almost five years ago.

“Well, then,” Carly smiled pleased. “Now you’re ready to see her.”


Carly had said he’d be ready to see her but suddenly as Jason pulled into the drive way of the house in Spain the following afternoon, he didn’t feel that way. He was about to see her after having admitted his feelings-to himself and to Carly, who didn’t really count. He was about to tell her something that would probably destroy her marriage.

He didn’t feel ready at all.

Elizabeth opened the screen door and smiled brightly at him as he lifted the sleeping Michael from the car, the plane ride having exhausted him as usual. “Hey!” she said, standing at the top of the stairs. She was heavily pregnant now-more so than she’d been last month and probably not as much as she’d be next month.

Jason was now having second thoughts about telling her about Ric. She didn’t need the stress–she’d come to Europe to escape the stress. What right did he have to do this to her?

But he couldn’t keep this from her, he couldn’t protect her. She would see it as a lie and he would have to agree. An omission was still a lie.

“He’s always sleeping when he gets here,” Elizabeth murmured as she followed Jason down to Michael’s room. “I wonder if that says something about me.” But her smile told him she was joking and he smiled back.

“Maybe,” he teased quietly as he tucked Michael in for a nap. Elizabeth kissed the little boy’s forehead before following Jason into the hall.

“How are things back home?” Elizabeth asked.

Jason hesitated, looked away for a moment before meeting her eyes. “There’s something I have to tell you.”

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\Jason led Elizabeth to the back porch and directed her to sit down. “I thought about telling you this on the phone,” he told her. “But I couldn’t leave you to deal with it alone.”

Elizabeth frowned. “I don’t–I don’t understand.”

“Earlier this month, I saw something on the docks.” He hesitated. “Michael saw it first. It was Ric. He…” Jason stopped. Decided to just lay it out for her. “He was kissing someone else.”

Her expression was frozen, unreadable. “He was.”

“I knew that you’d want a reason, you’d need one so I went to see him.”

Elizabeth looked away, her eyes still blank. “And he told you I would understand.”

“Yes.”

Her lips twisted into a smile. False and empty. “He would say that.”

Confused, Jason sat back. This wasn’t the reaction he’d expected. He’d prepared himself for tears, for hurt, for anger. Not this…icy acceptance.

“Late in February, Dr. Meadows told us that sex was no longer an option,” Elizabeth remarked in a clipped tone. “Because of my previous miscarriage and how far along I was, she didn’t think it was a chance we wanted to take. I agreed. I thought Ric would understand.” She stopped talking. There was no hesitation, she just stopped talking.

After a moment, she continued. “When we got home, Ric wanted to discuss our options. He said he didn’t think it was fair that his needs would have to be ignored because I happened to be pregnant. I knew that no matter what I did, said or thought, he would do what he wanted to do anyway. So I just said nothing.” She rubbed her hands together, a little cold. “I’d always heard about the women who could look the other way. I never thought I’d be one of them.”

“You deserve better than that,” Jason said earnestly.

“I’m sorry Michael saw it. He must have been upset, confused. I can talk to him if you want,” Elizabeth said.

“He was worried about you. Sure that you’d be hurt. I–I thought the same thing. Elizabeth, how can you let him do this to you?”

Hearing the anger in his voice and knowing how disappointed he must be in her, Elizabeth’s eyes burned with tears. “At least I have the pretense of not being alone,” she whispered. “I am so…tired of being alone.”

“I–I’m sorry.” Jason swore under his breath. He got off his seat and knelt in front of her. “I didn’t mean to judge you. I just–you deserve so much, Elizabeth. You’re so generous and kind to people who don’t treat you right or don’t deserve it. You don’t deserve to be hurt like this.”

Tears scalded down her cheeks. “Then why does it keep happening?” she whispered brokenly. She covered her face with her hands and started to sob.

Michael peered around the corner of the kitchen door. “Liz?” he asked hesitantly

Elizabeth jerked her head up and blinked rapidly. “Michael.” She wiped at her eyes.

“Michael, go back inside,” Jason said.

“I’m sorry you’re hurt,” Michael said, ignoring an order from his guardian for the first time. He came to her side and knelt next to Jason. “You should never have to cry.”

His words just broke the floodgates open again. She started to sob in earnest. Michael stood and wrapped his arms around her neck. She hugged him tightly.

Feeling useless and like a failure, Jason stood to leave them alone. Elizabeth reached out and took his hand. “Please–wait.”

He did so and watched as she drew Michael away. She kissed the child’s cheeks. “You are an amazing young man,” she told him intently. “You have such a large heart and an incredible wealth of kindness. Please don’t ever forget that or lose it.”

“You do too. You should never ever have to cry, ” Michael repeated solemnly.

“Wouldn’t it be a lovely world if no one ever had to cry?” Elizabeth asked with a tearful smile. “But sometimes, it’s the tears that help. It helps you remember that you’re alive, that you’re living, that you can feel. If you’re never sad, how do you know when you’re happy?”

Michael bit his lip. “That’s good, I never thought of it like that.” He frowned. “So, you’re okay?”

“I’m okay.” She kissed his forehead. “Go inside for a little while. Jason and I have some things to discuss.”

Michael nodded and turned to his uncle. “You’ll take care of her?” he asked.

“I’ll take care of her,” Jason promised. “Go inside.”

Michael obeyed and disappeared into the house. Jason turned back to see Elizabeth struggling to get out of the chair. He took hold of her arms under her elbows and finished the job.

“Thanks,” she said. “It’s getting difficult to move these days.”

“You should lay down,” Jason said. “Should you even be standing at all?”

She didn’t answer, only looked to the door where Michael had gone through. “You would have to be the most abusive and neglectful father to screw that boy up.” Elizabeth looked up at him. “And since you’re not, I think Michael’s very lucky to have you.”

“Elizabeth…”

“Thank you,” she continued. “Because I don’t think I could have dealt with this alone.” She moved past him to stand at the railing, overlooking the Atlantic Ocean. “This house is gorgeous. The scenery is just breathtaking. I’ve spent hours sketching out here.”

“I bought the house,” Jason said after a moment. “Less paperwork that way. It’s yours if you want. For as long as you need it.”

“You have been so wonderful to me since this all began,” Elizabeth continued, deciding to argue that later. “And I’m really glad I got this chance to know Michael.” She bit her lip. “I don’t think I’ve thanked you.”

“It’s nothing you wouldn’t have done for me,” Jason replied.

“I need you to call Alexis–she’s my lawyer. I need to file for divorce,” Elizabeth said. “I need for custody papers to be filed, nullifying any claims Ric might have to my baby. I can’t do it for myself obviously but if you could do that, I would really appreciate it.”

“I’ll call Alexis,” Jason nodded.

“As long as it won’t get her in trouble should the investigation turn to me,” Elizabeth said. “It won’t right?”

“Alexis can do all the paperwork without having to even speak to you. She just needs a way to get the paperwork to you, which is where I would come in and I’m not exactly new to dodging the law,” Jason said. “If you’re sure it’s what you want.”

Elizabeth sighed wistfully. “When you married Courtney, was there a moment where you truly believed that this would really work?”

“I don’t really remember,” Jason admitted.

“I had it right before I walked down the aisle to marry Lucky. I was walking towards him and I decided that it was okay if he wasn’t in love with me anymore. I still loved him and we were best friends. A lot of marriages start off worse than that.” She bit her lip and looked back at the ocean. “I walked down the aisle and I thought–I could make this work. But then I met him at the altar, I looked into his eyes and I realized that I loved him. But I wasn’t in love with him anymore and the really depressing thing was that I couldn’t remember when that changed.” She looked at Jason then. “I had the thought when I married Ric the first time. Because I was pregnant and he was so thrilled by that idea. And it was good in the beginning, it really was. Until I found Carly.” She exhaled slowly. “But I didn’t think there was any real chance the second time. That really should been a clue.”

She closed her eyes. “It’s what I want. A divorce, I mean. I’ll figure the rest out when this is over.” She bit her lip and looked at her hands. “There’s something I want to tell you.”

“All right,” Jason nodded.

“You’re one of the few people in my life that have never let me down no matter what. You’ve always been there when I’ve needed you and I just…” Elizabeth twisted her fingers. “There’s something you should know, that you deserve to know and I’ve wanted to tell you for so long…”

“Elizabeth,” Jason hesitated. “You can tell me anything.”

“I know.” She smiled then. “I know that.” She curled her fingers around the railing of the porch. “You mean so much to me, Jason, and I love you.” She paused. “You’re still my best friend and I just–I’m so sorry we’ve lost so much time because we weren’t honest with each other.”

He immediately understood that she didn’t mean love in the romantic sense and he didn’t mind. She was going to be divorcing her husband and delivering the child of a man she’d accidentally killed. He wasn’t about to tell her that he loved her–had loved her for years. Not now.

He kissed her forehead and smiled down at her. “I love you, too,” he said easily. “And I’ve missed you.”

Michael peeked out from the door and grinned. “You’re smiling again!” he said.

Elizabeth turned and motioned for him to join them. “Yep, I’m smiling again.”

“Great. I knew Uncle Jason would make it all better,” Michael said looking up at his guardian. “He always does.”

This entry is part 8 of 17 in the Fiction Graveyard: Shadows #1

The remainder of Michael’s spring break passed in relative peace. Jason arranged for another doctor and released Dr. Vincent from his employ.

Michael gave his solemn promise to call daily and maybe Elizabeth could even help with his spelling during the calls. Elizabeth smiled and told him she’d look forward to that.

“I’ll call too,” Jason promised. He touched Michael’s shoulder. “Go wait in the car.”

“Bye, Liz,” Michael hugged her tightly. “Take care of Andi, okay?”

“Okay.” She ruffled his hair and kissed his forehead. “Take care of your uncle.”

Michael grinned and shot an adoring look at the man in question. “He doesn’t need anyone to take care of him.”

“Sure he does,” Elizabeth said with a teasing smile. “He needs someone to make sure he has enough…soup.”

“Soup,” Michael repeated. He looked at Jason again who was grimacing. “You don’t eat any soup.”

“Well, see, that’s a problem.” Elizabeth’s face turned serious. “I recommend a bowl of chicken noodle soup just as soon as you get home, okay, Michael?”

“I’ll make sure he eats all of it,” Michael promised. He hugged her again before heading to the rental car.

“I’d say thank you but you know how I feel about lying,” Jason murmured, a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

“I think he needs to think he can take care of you,” Elizabeth said. She touched his upper arm absently as she stood at his side watching Michael climb into the car. “He’ll think he’s stronger then. And he’ll remember that it’s okay not to be strong all the time because well, if you need someone to look after you, then it’s okay for him to need that too.”

“Yeah…but soup?” Jason grimaced. “You couldn’t have suggested coffee?”

She laughed and looked up at him. “Just tell him that for every bowl of soup he makes you eat, he has to have a plate full of his least favorite vegetables.”

“You’re diabolical,” Jason said, unable to keep the smile back this time. “Is there some kind of handbook for mothers?”

“No, it’s just something my mother used to use on us,” Elizabeth replied. “My brother Steven wanted her to quit smoking so she told him for every day she didn’t smoke, he’d have to eat all the vegetables she could feed him.”

“Did she quit?” Jason asked.

“My brother is very stubborn. He ate vegetables by the plateful for almost a year before she told him she no longer craved cigarettes.” Elizabeth glanced back at the car. “He decided to be a doctor then. He figured that if he could make a difference in Mom’s life, he could do it for anyone. He was only eleven.”

“You don’t see him much, do you?”

“I don’t see him at all. He’s in Manhattan and he’s busy a lot.” Elizabeth’s eyes cleared and she smiled at him. “You should get going. Michael needs a full night of sleep before going back to school.”

“I’ll call when we get back to Port Charles,” Jason promised. He hesitated and then kissed her forehead. “Take care of yourself. We’ll be back soon.”

“When?” Elizabeth asked softly. She shook her head. “No–I didn’t… I shouldn’t ask. I never expected to come at all so whenever you get back, it’s fine–”

“Michael gets out for summer vacation at the end of next month,” Jason interrupted easily. “He’s been making noises about spending most of it here. And you’re due about then. You shouldn’t be alone.”

“Well, then I’ll see you next month,” Elizabeth replied, with a smile more genuine this time.

“I’ll see you then,” he told her. He backed up towards the car slowly. “Call if you need anything.”

“I will.”


They’d been back in Port Charles a week before Jason wished for the solitude of the house by the ocean.

Sonny dropped by more often than before they’d left, trying to gain back Michael’s love. The boy was having none of it and clung to Jason more tightly than before. Carly was still emotionally wrecked–the divorce proceedings were being strung out as Sonny continued to fight the custody decision.

She was fighting with Sonny, with Lorenzo Alcazar, with her mother, with Courtney and with herself for feeling resentment towards Jason. Jason understood that resentment and encouraged Michael to spend as much time as possible with his mother.

Work was tense–Faith Roscoe was still a problem though Lorenzo’s relationship with Carly had neutralized him, something Jason was grateful for. The less problems with the business, the less contact he had to have with Sonny.

Nothing was really that different than before their vacation. Except that Michael talked to Elizabeth daily and as if somehow sensing his guardian would never actually call on his own, he would dutifully hand the phone to Jason at the end of his conversations with his surrogate aunt. As a result, Jason spoke to Elizabeth daily now.

And it couldn’t go without mentioning that Ric stopped asking questions. Stopped asking to see Elizabeth, to call her, to know where she is. In fact, other than Jason dropping off Elizabeth’s letters to him, one would think the district attorney wasn’t married at all.

Ric’s sudden change was unnerving and Jason knew it would come to a head sooner or later but for now he relished the lack of Lansing in his life.

Until he found out the reason for Ric’s change of heart.

It was early May, just three weeks before the end of the school year. Michael was working on convincing Jason to spend the entire summer in Spain and also to bring along his mother and little brother–at least for a visit.

Jason had to take Michael by the warehouse briefly while he met with Max about something. He spoke in hushed tones a few feet away from the boy and Michael was growing bored waiting for Jason. He wandered towards the dock stairs and when he returned, his face was pensive and a little confused.

“Michael, didn’t I tell you to stay where I could see you?” Jason demanded. He left Max’s side and came towards the boy.

“Jason, when people get married, they’re not supposed to date anyone else anymore right?” Michael asked.

Jason frowned and crouched to be at Michael’s eye level. “Well, no. They’re not supposed to.” Had Michael seen something? Lorenzo and Carly on the docks? Sonny and Sam? He wished they would keep these things discreet.

“Elizabeth doesn’t right?” Michael asked.

“No, Elizabeth stopped when she married Ric,” Jason said carefully. “She’s a good person.”

“Well, then why didn’t Ric?” Michael asked curiously.

Jason stood abruptly and moved towards the dock stairs. He blinked and looked back to Michael. “Michael…”

“Do you think she knows?” Michael asked sadly.

Jason thought of the phone call from the day before when Elizabeth had excitedly told him about how often the baby was kicking now. “No, I don’t think she does.”

“I knew he would hurt her,” Michael sighed heavily. “I told her that but she didn’t believe me.” He frowned and then met Jason’s eyes. “Do you think Sonny knows?”

“I sincerely doubt it,” Jason sighed. He looked back towards the lower level of the docks where Ric Lansing and Sam McCall were sitting on a dock bench, curled up in each other. If Sonny knew his mistress was seeing his half-brother, there’d be no where Ric Lansing could hide.

“We should tell her. She’d want to hear it coming from family,” Michael said after another moment.

“Wait here,” Jason said quietly. He went back over to Max and hurriedly finished their conversation. Max had heard the conversation between Jason and Michael and Jason instructed him to keep it to himself for now until Jason had decided how to handle this.

“You are going to tell her aren’t you?” Michael asked as they were leaving the docks later. “If Elizabeth stopped dating, then her husband should have.”

“Michael…” Jason sighed and picked him up, setting him on a bench so they were eye level. “Some marriages don’t work out. But when it’s good, both people should stop dating other people, okay?”

“Well, yeah.” Michael shrugged. “But she’s so nice and pretty. Why would he hurt her like that?”

“Just because he has something special, it doesn’t mean he knows its value,” Jason said after a moment. Telling Michael that he didn’t suspect Ric Lansing had a soul much less cared what this could do to Elizabeth didn’t really sound good to him. “Some people, they can’t appreciate the good things in their lives. The gifts. They let them go.”

“Why?” Michael asked. “I have this autograph from Michael Jordan and I’m smart enough to know that’s really special.”

Jason smiled faintly. “Adults are funny, Michael. We don’t always realize what we have until it’s gone, and then mostly it’s too late to fix it.”

“I bet if you had Elizabeth, you would never be that stupid,” Michael said confidently. He hopped off the bench. “Right?”

“I wouldn’t bet too much money on that,” Jason said quietly as they made their way to Harborview Towers.


Later that night, Michael was preparing to make his nightly phone call to Elizabeth. “We should tell her,” Michael argued. “She should know.”

“Yes, she should,” Jason agreed. “But you’re not telling her.”

Michael pouted. “Liz is my friend, I love her. I think she’d like it better if I told her.”

She’d be mortified if the little boy she adored told her that the husband she’d given too much trust to was sleeping with Sam McCall but Jason couldn’t say it like that. “I’ve been friends with her for a long time,” Jason said instead. “Since you were a baby. There’s no way we can tell her that she’s going to like it. It’s going to hurt her, Michael. A lot. She thought they were a family, she thought she could trust him.”

“I don’t want to hurt her.” Michael hesitated. “Jason, maybe you should tell her.”

“Why don’t you go upstairs and get ready for bed while I call her?” Jason suggested.

“Okay,” Michael agreed reluctantly. “Do it nicely, okay? It’ll be better that way.” The boy ran towards the stairs and Jason sighed as he started towards the phone. There was no way that this would be better.

He dialed her number.

“Hey, Michael,” Elizabeth greeted warmly.

“It’s–” Jason cleared his throat. “It’s me.”

“Oh, Jason–I’m sorry, I’m just used to talking to him first,” Elizabeth replied, her warmth undiminished. “How is everything?”

“It’s–Elizabeth–” Jason hesitated. Ric’s cheating on you. He’s a bastard. You deserve better.

The words were on the tip of his tongue but nothing could force them out. Instead he cleared his throat again. “How’s the baby? Are you feeling all right?”

“I’m feeling fat,” Elizabeth laughed. “How did Michael do on his spelling test? Did he pass?”

“He got an A,” Jason told her. “I took him out for ice cream to celebrate.”

“I knew he had it in him.” She was silent for a moment. “Jason, it sounded like there was something you wanted to say. Is everything okay?”

He hesitated. There’s something you should know about Ric. He could feel the words already formed in his throat. All he had to do was say them.

But he couldn’t give her that knowledge and then leave her alone to deal with it. No, she needed to be told in person. So for the first time, Jason consciously told her a lie. “Everything’s fine.”

He had just hung up the phone when a freshly bathed and pajama clad Michael came back down the stairs. “Is she okay?” Michael asked.

“I didn’t tell her,” Jason admitted. “I’m going to tell her when we go back at the end of the month.”

Michael frowned. “Why wait that long?” He climbed onto the couch next to Jason.

“Because I don’t think this is something she should hear over the phone,” Jason told him. “She shouldn’t have to deal with this alone.”

“She’s gonna need a lot of support,” Michael said after some consideration. “We should go now.”

Jason shook his head and laughed a little. “Elizabeth would be the first to tell you that school is more important.”

“But we’ll go as soon as school’s out?” Michael asked. “And you’ll tell her then?”

“I promise,” Jason assured him.

Michael nodded seriously. “And you’ll make her feel better.”

“I–I don’t know about that,” Jason said. “This isn’t good news, Michael. It won’t make her happy. I don’t know if anything will make her feel better.”

“You’ll make her feel better,” Michael said confidently. “Remember the first time? When we left? She wasn’t smiling and then you talked to her and then she was smiling. So you can make her feel better.”

“Michael–”

“She doesn’t deserve that kind of pain,” Michael told his guardian with a kind of maturity a boy of his age shouldn’t possess. “It’s just like with Mom and Sonny. He knows how much she loves me ‘n Morgan and he used that against her. Mom didn’t deserve to be hurt like that. And Elizabeth doesn’t either. There are people in the world that like…” he hesitated, searching for the right words, “they’re different from everyone else. ‘Cause they got bigger hearts. And they love more. Liz never would have married Ric again if she wasn’t one of them people. And people like that, we gotta protect them.”

Jason smoothed his hand over Michael’s unruly mop of red hair. “Elizabeth is special,” he agreed quietly. “She’s always taking in people that most have given up on. Zander, Ric…me.” He looked away. “She’s got something in her that searches for the good in everyone, no matter what they’ve done.”

“Exactly,” Michael said, pleased Jason had found the words he couldn’t. “And we can’t let Ric ruin that just because he didn’t understand.”

“Understand…?” Jason shook his head. “Understand what?”

“Love shouldn’t be something you toss around, like an old hat,” Michael said fervently. “It’s special and if you love someone, they’re special. Ric doesn’t understand that. He only cares about himself. So you have to make sure Liz knows it’s not her fault. You have to make her feel better.”

“I’ll do the best I can,” Jason pledged. “But until then, don’t let on that something’s wrong. She’ll only worry.”

Michael nodded. “And you know what would help her? If we stayed the whole summer.”

Jason waited a moment. “Well, her due date is early July. I see no reason why we have to leave before the baby’s born.”

“And we can talk about the rest of the summer after Andi’s born?” Michael asked hopefully.

“We can discuss it,” Jason agreed.

This entry is part 3 of 4 in the Fiction Graveyard: Poisonous Dreams #1

Elizabeth closed the door behind her and sighed, taking in the guest room of Jason’s penthouse. Her home, she corrected mentally. It was her home for the foreseeable future.

She’d moved her things into the same room she’d stayed in originally and if she closed her eyes, for a few minutes it would almost feel like the last ten months hadn’t happened. That maybe if she wished really hard, it would be that night in September again and she’d get a second chance.

But inevitably, she’d open her eyes and she’d come crashing back to reality. So what was the point of pretending for a moment?

She sighed again and crossed the room to the vanity table. As a wedding present, Carly had redecorated the bedroom in soft rose and beige colors. It was almost like the other woman was making an extra effort to be nice to her, but Elizabeth was willing to take what she could get. Any allies during this period of her life would be welcome.

She sat down and stared at her self for a few moments. Her makeup was faded but still intact for the most part, her hair was still done. She smiled. “Elizabeth Morgan,” she said softly, trying to get used to the sound of the name from her lips. The smile fell after a few moments.

It was ridiculous to try and pretend like any of this mattered. So she lived in his penthouse, had his name and now wore a gold wedding band. They were married in name only. There would be no romantic honeymoon, no silky lingerie…she closed her eyes, letting her imagination drift. They would have gone to Italy, rented a villa by the ocean. The room would have had a balcony overlooking the water with silk curtains. She could almost feel the wind on her skin and see the bed where he’d—

A soft knock startled out of her fantasy. She flushed and took a deep breath. If she allowed herself to think about things like that, she’d never survive this marriage.

She peered in the mirror and saw the door over her shoulder. “Come in,” she called.

Jason entered, his tux jacket long gone and his shirt undone a few buttons. Her mouth was suddenly dry. She licked her lips. “Jason.”

“Hey. I just” He shifted and leaned against the door frame. “I wanted to make sure you had everything you need.”

Not everything. She closed her eyes, forcing the idea out of her brain for good. “I’m fine,” Elizabeth answered. She reached up and started to unclip her hair, letting the curls fall around her neck. “You?”

He watched her take the pins out of her hair and set them on the vanity, her rich chocolate curls surrounding her face. She still wore the silk strapless gown and her lips were still painted a dark red. She was so beautiful

And she was speaking. He shook his head slightly. “I’m sorry—what did you say?”

“Never mind,” Elizabeth replied. She unclasped the locket from Luke and set it on the glass surface.

He rubbed the back of his neck. “Uh…Sonny wanted to invite us over for brunch tomorrow. Emily’s supposed to come too.”

“That’s fine,” Elizabeth answered. She slipped her bracelet off and set it next to the necklace. She glanced down at her left hand with a small diamond engagement ring and a slim gold wedding band.

“Good night,” Jason said finally after an awkward silence.

“Good night,” she echoed.

He closed the door behind him and she let out an uneasy breath. Her eyes fell on the locket and she picked it up. She hadn’t opened it, hadn’t thought about it actually. She clicked it open.

Inside was a picture of Elizabeth taken the summer of the “Dead Ted” disaster. Her hair was worn short—she looked so much younger and happier. She couldn’t remember being happy all that much at that time, so she wondered when Laura had taken this.

The picture in the other side was of Jason. Her eyes widened at the sight—it was an old picture in which he had longer hair and he was young. Why would Laura…what would give the idea to put their pictures together in a locket?

A lump grew in throat and she wished she could call Laura and ask her, to talk to her. She stood and crossed to the nightstand where the phone was.

She dialed the familiar number and waited until his soothing voice came over the line. “Hello?”

“Luke, it’s Elizabeth,” she said softly, sinking onto the bed, the locket still in her hand. “The locket from Laura–”

“What about it darlin’?” Luke frowned. “You sound upset. Is everything all right?”

“Did she ever tell you what was in it?” Elizabeth asked softly.

“Not especially,” Luke replied. “She kind of fretted for a while about what to put in it, and then she told me one day she’d figured it out and that it was the perfect idea. But she didn’t tell me, told me I’d have to wait until the wedding.” Luke hesitated. “What was in it?”

“An old picture of me and an even older picture of Jason,” Elizabeth replied. “So you don’t know why?”

“Well, my angel was always perceptive. It’s possible she saw what was between you and Morgan and went from there. I can’t really help you, sweetheart.”

“I didn’t want to bring up Laura…but I just opened it and it just…” Elizabeth trailed off. “Luke, I can’t do this,” she breathed, the sound of tears in her voice. “I’m not strong enough.”

“Sure you are, Liz,” Luke replied, confidently. “You got that baby inside you. You’re strong enough for anything.”

“What if I’m not?” Elizabeth asked. “What if Ric finds me?” her voice almost fearful. “What would he do if he could get to me?”

“He can’t,” Luke assured her quickly. “Morgan and Corinthos have taken every security measure possible to ensure differently. They’ll protect you and if comes to anything else, I’ve got the resources to protect you.”

“Luke—”

“Elizabeth, get some rest. You’ll wear yourself out worrying about thing that will probably never happen.”

She chewed on her lip. “I’ll see you later, Luke. Thank you for everything.”

“Not a problem. Good night.”

She replaced the phone in the receiver and stared at the open locket again. She touched her still flat abdomen. “I won’t fail you,” she murmured. “I promise.”


Jason was waiting the next morning when Elizabeth came down the stairs. She was dressed in a gray tank top and a pair of jeans, her only jewelry were her rings and the locket. Her hair was thrown up in a careless ponytail. He became alarmed when he saw the pallor of her face.

“Are you all right?” he asked.

She nodded and grabbed her purse from the closet. “Morning sickness,” she murmured.

“Isn’t there anything you can do to avoid it?” Jason asked, curiously.

She shook her head, not wanting to share the details of her pregnancy with him. She’d already made her decisions. She would barely mention it, not let him to go any doctor’s appointments. She was refusing to let him be emotionally involved.

“We’d better be going,” she murmured as she slipped past him out the door.


“Good morning,” Carly chirped without looking up from her magazine. She sipped her orange juice. “How was the wedding night?”

“Knock it off,” Emily shot back. She smiled at Elizabeth and Jason. “Hey guys, Sonny’s still cooking.”

Elizabeth groaned as she slid into a seat next to Carly. “Do not even mention food,” she grumbled.

“Ah, morning sickness,” Carly murmured. “I know how that is. You know, Sonny made these really cool smoothies for the first few months. I got all the vitamins and stuff I needed and it was easier to keep down.”

“You think he’d give me the recipe?” Elizabeth asked curiously.

“Ha!” Carly replied. “I doubt it. But he’ll probably make you one whenever you want it.”

“Good. Because I don’t know how I’m supposed to survive this morning crap,” Elizabeth muttered. She poured herself some orange juice. “I’m not a morning person to begin with.”

“Who’s your obstetrician?” Carly asked curiously. The two women fell into a discussion about their doctors and different delivery methods while Emily leaned closer to her brother.

“How’s it going so far?” she asked.

He shrugged. “About the same as it’s been going for the past two months,” he answered.

“It’ll all work out,” Emily said, patting his arm. “I’ve got faith.”

“At least someone does.”


Elizabeth was curled up on the sofa in the penthouse reading a book about pregnancy when Jason entered later that day. He’d gotten some weird looks from some of the men at the warehouse and had asked one of the guards what it was about. Johnny told him that the men thought it was odd that a newly married man would be in work at all the day after he’d been married. Apparently, not everyone realized the marriage wasn’t real.

“Hey,” Jason greeted.

“Hey,” Elizabeth murmured, not looking up.

He stood awkwardly near the stairs for a few moments. “Uh, did you want to do something for dinner?” he asked.

“I’m not really hungry,” Elizabeth replied. She turned a page and began reading about the changes her body would be making this month.

“You should eat anyway,” Jason told her. “You’re—”

“—eating for two,” Elizabeth finished. “That’s what Sonny said when he was checking on me earlier.”

“Still” Jason eyed the doorway to the kitchen. “We’ve probably got some frozen dinners in there. I could heat them up,” he offered.

“That’s fine.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “Courtney called. She left the number of her hotel room. It’s over there,” she said, indicating the pad near the telephone. “She told me to tell you she’s having a great time, but wishes you were there. She misses and loves you.”

Jason winced. “Elizabeth—”

“I think I’ll go to bed after dinner,” she interrupted. “I’m tired.”

He exhaled slowly and waited a beat before heading for the kitchen. It was like pulling teeth trying to have a conversation with her. It had been since the day she’d come to Sonny for help in May. They’d just discovered Ric’s connection to Sonny and were discussing their options.

“He’s hell bent on destroying you,” Jason said again pointing out the obvious. “We’ve got to do something to neutralize him.”

“You’re right. I know you’re right.” Sonny sighed and shook his head. “But I just don’t feel right doing it to my own flesh and blood. My mother’s son. My brother, y’know?”

“I understand that, Sonny, but Ric has crossed the line far too many times. With Carly, with Courtney—” Jason shook his head. “We need to do something.”

There was a knock at the door then and Marco opened the door. “Elizabeth Webber to see you.”

Sonny frowned but waved her in. Elizabeth was pale and trembling when she entered. “Sonny, I know this is unexpected, but I really need to talk to you.”

“Sure, what’s up?” Sonny asked. “Are you okay?”

Elizabeth glanced at Jason nervously and licked her lips before saying. “It’s—it’s Ric. He—I—” Tears gathered at the corner of her big cerulean eyes. “I’m pregnant and when I went to tell him, he was on the phone. And II over heard him talking about taking you out and destroying you” She swallowed hard. “He saw me and he knew I’d overheard too much. He—” Elizabeth stopped suddenly.

“What happened, Elizabeth?” Sonny asked concerned. He wrapped an arm around her shoulder and led her to the couch. “Did he do anything to you?”

“He just—he told me if I went to you, he’d kill me and the baby. But he told me that he’d take care of it anyway.” Her eyes searched his dark ones. “He scared me, Sonny. I can’t—he threatened my baby. I knew I had to come to you.”

“You came to the right place,” Sonny told her. “We’ll protect you. You have my word.”

And since that day, it’d been Sonny’s goal in life to protect his half-brother’s ex-girlfriend and her child. When Jason closed his eyes sometimes, he could still remember that haunted look in her eyes that day.

She was four months pregnant now and would be showing at any time. Against his better judgment, sometimes he thought what she’d look like. Her face would be fuller, her breasts heavier, her stomach rounded. She’d probably look more and more beautiful each day.

He knew it’d be all too easy to get involved in her pregnancy and become attached to her unborn child. This child, though half Ric Lansing’s, was part of Elizabeth and he knew he’d love the child.

But this marriage would be over one day and Elizabeth would take her child and leave. He’d lose another child. He couldn’t do that again, so he was going to force himself to stay aloof. Not ask any questions or make suggestions. He was going to make sure she was healthy and safe, and there his obligations ended.

He tossed the dinners into the oven and turned the heat on. He headed for the wall phone, intent on calling Courtney and asking her not to call the penthouse again during the day. She had his cell phone number, there was no reason to disturb Elizabeth.

He stopped halfway through dialing and hung up the phone. Defending Elizabeth to Courtney was the fastest way to screw this all up. He leaned against the kitchen counter and sighed, irritated. How did his life get this complicated so fast? A year ago, he’d been traveling in Europe, his only thoughts of home were Sonny, Carly, Michael and Elizabeth.

Now, he’d been married once to a woman he couldn’t stand, managed to alienate the woman he loved, and gotten involved with his boss’s sister. In his eyes, the only thing he’d done right lately was agree to marry Elizabeth. He’d keep her safe and healthy and love her from a distance. He could do it. He’d been doing it for years, why should now be any different?

He returned to the living room to tell Elizabeth that dinner was almost ready and saw her stretched out on the sofa, her book having fallen to the floor. She was sleeping soundly, her hand resting on her flat tummy.

He sighed and hooked his arms underneath her light body, lifting her into the air. She stirred only for a minute, long enough to tuck her head in the crook of his shoulder.

He set her on her bed and took off her sneakers, placing them at the foot of the bed. It was a warm night, so he left the sheets off. He kissed her forehead and before he knew it, he had his large tanned hand resting on her abdomen.

“I promise to always take care of you,” he said softly. “You and your mother.” He waited another moment to be sure Elizabeth didn’t stir again before he stood and left the room.

When the door clicked shut, Elizabeth opened her eyes and a single tear streaked down her cheek.


Meanwhile somewhere in Europe

Ric Lansing glared at the wedding announcement. “I don’t know what he thinks this is going to solve,” he snarled before tossing it aside.

Faith Roscoe laughed and sipped her wine. “He’s made some sort of deal with the families,” she replied. “No one is to support anything to do with you or I and in return, he’ll let them run some shipments through his territory. It’s actually rather smart having Jason marry the little twit—”

“Watch it, Faith,” Ric warned.

She rolled her eyes and leaned towards him, her blood red lips in a perfect pout. “Don’t tell me you still care about the girl? After all, you threatened to kill her and your unborn child should she run and tell anyone what she overheard.”

“You don’t understand,” Ric muttered. “She was never supposed to get involved. She wasn’t part of the plan.”

“You should have stayed as far away from her as possible,” Faith reminded him. “And now, you’ll probably have to get rid of her.” She sighed. “We should do it as soon as possible. Get it over with.”

“No,” Ric said sharply. “After the baby is born. We’ll take her.” He shoved a folder aside. “Her and the child. She’ll come to me and we’ll raise the baby together.”

Faith smirked. “You really think she’s going to come to you willingly? She went to Sonny to get away from you.”

“I’ll make her see it my way. I’ll make her understand that I never wanted to hurt her, that I was just angry because things had gotten out of control. She’ll understand, Faith.”

“Right,” Faith drawled. “So, we wait for five months to finish Sonny off just so you can have your precious princess?”

“We wait. We let Sonny think he’s got everything under control,” Ric replied. His brown eyes flashed in anger. “Don’t do anything stupid, like you did last month by grabbing Elizabeth. That just pissed Corinthos off more. Why do you think this marriage happened?”

“Fine. We let the little morons sit in peace,” Faith replied. “That doesn’t mean I’m happy about it, by the way. I hope you know that.”

“Yeah, whatever,” Ric muttered. He stood. “I need some fresh air.”


Emily dropped into a seat across from Lucky. “The photographer dropped off the wedding photos,” she told him, shoving the large manila envelope across the table.

“Why’d they give it to you?” Lucky asked, curiously.

She shrugged. “Because I ordered it. I thought one day, they might want a memento.” She opened the envelope and took out the package. “Here’s one of her walking down the aisle.”

He took it from her. “She looked almost happy,” he mused.

“I think part of her is happy,” Emily replied. “She’s married to Jason, who you and I both know she’s still in love with. Sonny and Jason would do anything to protect her. She’s got her friends and family looking out for her. The only thing that would complete it—”

“Would be Ric’s head on a silver platter and Jason loving her in return,” Lucky finished.

“If I get my way, she’ll get both,” Emily said fiercely.

Lucky raised an eyebrow. “How you going to accomplish that?”

Emily searched through the pictures, handing one to him. It was a picture of Elizabeth and Jason dancing. “Tell me he doesn’t love her,” she challenged.

Lucky studied the picture, the way Emily’s brother had his arms tight around his best friend’s face and his head dipped, his forehead resting in her hair. “Okay, I can’t say that he feels nothing for her.”

She put the pictures back and nodded. “That’s what I thought.”