January 13, 2015

This entry is part 7 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe

— Sheryl Crow, I Shall Believe


Carly nervously took a step back. “Sonny.”

“I never will what, Carly?” Sonny demanded, taking another step closer to her.

Immediately, Ned stepped in front of Carly, feeling guilty for having brought it up. He’d sworn to Alexis that he’d keep Carly’s secret in return for her cooperation and because he’d felt the need to know Carly’s business…well, he felt responsible. “Don’t worry about it, Corinthos. Carly and I were just talking.”

Carly, feeling strangely grateful to Ned Ashton, took a deep breath and stepped around him. “Thanks, Ned. But I think that Sonny and I need…we need to talk.”

“Are you sure?” Ned asked.

Carly nodded, reluctantly. “Yeah.”

“I’m sorry, Carly,” Ned apologized.

“Me, too.” Carly turned back to her husband. “Mandy and Drew are being tested. We can talk about this at home.”

“We’ll talk about this now!” Sonny said, his face turning red with anger.

“No,” Carly said firmly. “We’ll talk about this at home.” She turned to Ned. “Can I leave Mandy and Drew with you and Alexis?”

“You will not leave my children–”

“They’re my children, too,” Carly said, glaring at Sonny. “And if I want them to meet Christina, they will.”

“Carly–”

“Drop it, Sonny,” Carly said. “Besides…I don’t want them anywhere near the penthouse when we have this discussion.”


Lu pushed open the door to her brother’s apartment and turned to Michael. “You ready for this? Because I think he’s gonna be a little tough to handle.”

Michael shrugged. “Can you blame him? His girlfriend just dumped him.”

Before Lu reached Lucky’s bedroom door, she stopped and pulled Michael to the kitchen. “You cannot under any circumstances tell him about what happened at Jason and Liz’s house.”

“Why would I tell him that?” Michael asked, bewildered. “And what does that have to do with anything?”

Lu chewed her lip for a few seconds before saying, “I think he still has feelings for Liz and I don’t want him knowing they’re having trouble.”

“All right,” Michael agreed. “I’m glad Em got out of this situation though–she’s better off.”

“I think so, too.” Lu jerked her heads towards the door. “Come on.”

Lu knocked on Lucky’s door. “Lucky?”

“Lulu, I don’t really feel like visitors today. Can you come back later?” Lucky called.

“I heard what happened,” Lu said. “Missy….you remember my friend Missy, the tall redhead? She works at the Grille. Let me in, Lucky. We can talk about this.”

“Nah. I think I’ll just stay in here for a while.”

“Lucky, don’t make me send Mom in here!” Lu called.

“You didn’t bring her did you?” Lucky asked after a pause.

“No. But she’s just a cell phone call away!”

A few seconds later, the bedroom door was jerked open. “Lulu, can’t–”

“Lu,” she cut in. “I am not five anymore.”

“All right, Lu. Can’t you just let me wallow in my own misery for a while?”

Lu shook her head. “Nope. You know, I’m trying to be supportive to everyone, but you guys all made messes of your lives long before I ever got old enough.”

“Lu–”

“Nikolas called Mom.”

Lucky’s face sobered. “So?”

Lu shot a look at Michael before continuing. “He, Gia and Markie are coming to Port Charles in about a week or so.” She took a deep breath. “Gia’s sick.”

Lucky leaned against the doorframe and closed his eyes. “When you say sick–”

“She’s got breast cancer,” Lu reported. “Now, it’s in its early stages and you know Nikolas is sending her to the best doctors in the world. She’s getting treatment in New York City, so they’re going to stay at Wyndemere while they’re here.”

“Stefan’s not coming is he?” Lucky asked, warily. “He’s gonna stay right in Greece, right?”

“Right,” Lu confirmed. “Anyway, Nikolas and Gia are going to need your support so you’ve got until then to wallow in your misery. Oh, and don’t bother Emily.”

“What?” Lucky demanded, incredulously. “You expect me not to try and get her back?”

“I expect you to use this time to think about what Emily said when you broke up–”

“She’s wrong–I do not still love Liz–”

“Yeah, I know–we’d all like to believe that. So, listen, you take this time and think about what Emily said. Think about it like an objectionable person and see if maybe she doesn’t have a point.” Lu poked her finger in her brother’s face. “But once Nik and Gia get here, everybody’s happy, got it?”

“Got it,” Lucky said.

“Good. Come on, Mike.” Lu grabbed her cousin’s hand and practically dragged him towards the door.


“Daddy? What’s for dinner?”

Jason hesitated in flipping through the channels to find a cartoon that would satisfy both Dee and Davie. Dinner. Suddenly he wished he hadn’t let Lu leave.

It wasn’t that he couldn’t cook. He could–

But if he remembered correctly when he’d gone to make coffee that morning, there was precious little to eat in the cabinets. Elizabeth usually did the grocery shopping, but she obviously couldn’t do it right now.

“Uh…” Jason said, trying to stall for time.

“We eat pizza!” Davie cried, jumping onto his lap.

“No, no, pizza isn’t good–”

“You sound like Unca Sonny,” Davie said.

“All right. Pizza’s fine.”

After ordering the pizza, Jason finally found an old episode of Scooby-Doo that the kids insisted he leave on. He left them on the couch and went upstairs to check on Elizabeth.

She’d come in, kissed the kids and made an attempt to play with them for a while. But then Davie had asked why she wasn’t fat anymore, and she’d shut down. She’d gone upstairs and hadn’t come down since.

He pushed the bedroom door open silently and sighed as he realized she stretched out on the far side of the bed, sleeping.

He entered the room and closed the door behind him. He sat down and ran his hand through her hair. She was in so much pain and all he wanted to do was take it away for her. He knew he should let her figure this out for herself, but he couldn’t help wanting to fix this.

“Jason?” she murmured. She rolled over on her back. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” he said softly. “I just ordered pizza and I wanted to see if you were hungry. I’ll bring you up a piece.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No. I just–I just want to sleep.”

“All right,” Jason agreed. He pressed a kiss on her forehead and got up to leave the room. He looked back when he was at the door, but she’d already rolled back over.


Michael had heard his parents fight countless times over the years–sometimes it was playful, sometimes it was serious.

But he’d never heard it as particular as vicious as it was now. He stood just out of sight in case his mother needed him. He knew Sonny would never hurt her, but Carly had a tendency to overreact and go after people, and he didn’t want to her to do it.

As a result, Michael got quite the earful.

“How could you not tell me?” Sonny yelled.

“I promised Alexis that I wouldn’t!” Carly snapped.

“After everything I’ve done for you–”

“Oh, please, Sonny. Kicking me out every time you didn’t like something I do–yeah, real generous!”

“I took you in, I’ve treated your son like my own–”

At Sonny’s words, Michael froze. He couldn’t mean–he couldn’t possibly be saying–

“That’s not fair and you know it! You wanted to adopt Michael! You wanted to give him a family!”

Michael closed his eyes and counted to ten. He was dreaming. That was the only explanation.

“I want you out of here, Carly! And I don’t want to see your face again, do you hear me?”

“Fine!” Carly yelled.

Michael heard the door slam and he knew his mother was gone. He walked down the stairs silently and asked the only question he could.

“Is it true?”

Sonny, who’d been standing at the bar, on the verge of smashing it, whirled around. “Uh, Michael. Hey.”

“Is it true?” Michael repeated.

“What are you talking about?” Sonny asked, looking away.

“You’re not…you’re not my father, are you?”

“Michael–”

“Are you?” Michael shouted.

Sonny took a deep breath and looked down. “No. Not biologically.”

“Who is?” Michael asked through gritted teeth.

“Michael, you know–”

“Who is my father?” Michael demanded. “Don’t lie to me–you hate liars, don’t be one.”

“AJ,” Sonny spit out the name like it was poison.

Michael gripped the railing of the stairs. “Quartermaine? Courtney’s husband?”

“Yeah.”

Michael nodded and walked across the room and opened the door.

“Michael,” Sonny called.

Michael turned around and glared at the man who’d been a father to him for as long as he could remember. “I’m going to go find my mother and I’m going to get some answers. And after that? I never want to see your face again.”


Laura Spencer opened her front door and immediately narrowed her eyes. “What are you doing here?”

Carly shifted her feet and sighed. “Is Luke here?”

“Why?” Laura demanded.

“Look, I just want to talk to my uncle,” Carly said quietly. “So can you please just…just let me do that?”

Laura stepped back and studied the younger blonde. “What’s wrong?”

“Can I just…can I just speak with Luke…please.”

“Luke!” Laura called. When he didn’t answer she frowned. “Luke, I know you’re in the kitchen trying to cook, so just come out and I won’t yell at you!”

Luke exited the kitchen sheepishly. “Sorry, Angel.” His eyes focused on Carly. “Hello niece of mine.”

“I need to talk to you,” Carly said quietly.

Luke looked at Laura who sighed. “All right. I wanted to go speak with Emily about her plans for opening Wyndemere.” Laura picked up her purse and headed for the door. “I hope everything’s all right, Carly.”

“Thanks,” Carly said. Laura left and she turned back to Luke. “I wanted to say I told you so.”

“Aww, the don kicked you out, didn’t he?” Luke said.

Carly nodded. “Yeah. He overheard part of a conversation and demanded to know more…and I was going to lie to him. I really was. But I just couldn’t, I guess.” She tucked her hair behind her ears. “I’m probably going to be staying at the Port Charles Hotel for a few days, but I was hoping Mandy and Drew could stay with you until I figure out what I’m going to do.”

“Of course. What about Michael?” Luke asked.

“I wanted to talk to him,” Carly said. “I think I’ll ask him if he wants to stay at the penthouse or come with me.”

“So, you gonna tell me what this big bad secret is?” Luke asked.

Carly shrugged a little and looked away. “Christina Ashton–Alexis’s daughter–is Sonny’s daughter, not Ned’s.”

“Oh.” Luke studied his niece. “And you knew all along.”

“Yep,” Carly nodded. “I didn’t tell Sonny because…well, because Alexis didn’t want him to know and I think that every mother has the right to raise their child the way they want to. I would not to do Alexis what Robin did to me.”

Luke suddenly smiled and Carly eyed him suspiciously. “Well, what do you know?”

“What?” she asked, warily.

“You’ve got principles.”

“That’s not funny, Luke.” Carly crossed her arms.

“You know Mandy and Drew are welcome here any time,” Luke said. “You’re more than welcome to stay in the guest room.”

“No. I appreciate the offer, but me and Laura don’t get along and we never will. Thanks…for everything. I’m going to go check in at the hotel now.”

On an impulse, Carly reached forward and hugged her uncle. Luke squeezed her back and then she stepped back. “You know you can always come to me. Spencers stick together.”

Carly smiled grateful. “Thanks, Luke.”


Lu entered Luke’s Club. “Mikey? Is everything okay?”

Michael sat on the barstool, sipping his soda. “You know…I wish I were of age to drink.”

Lu nodded and went around behind the bar. She poured him a shot glass of gin and set it in front of him. “Consider it a graduation gift.”

Michael stared at it and chuckled bitterly. “You know–you may be the only person that hasn’t lied to me.”

Lu folded her elbows on the bar and leaned towards him. “Michael, you sounded upset when you called. What’s wrong?”

“Lu…remember when Dee said Mandy had told her I didn’t look like her and Drew?” Michael said.

“Uh huh,” Lu agreed. “So?”

“Well, I’m not their brother. Not fully anyway,” Michael reported.

“What do you mean?” she asked, bewildered.

“Sonny’s not my father,” Michael replied. “And you’re not going to believe who is.”

“Michael–”

“AJ Quartermaine,” Michael revealed. He picked up his soda and finished it. “You can put the gin away. I’m not going to drink it.”

Emptying the shot glass, Lu said, “I’m sorry, Michael. I can’t imagine what you’re going through.”

“You know what’s worse?” Michael asked. “I didn’t find out because they wanted me to know. No, Mom and Sonny were fighting and he threw it in her face. ‘After everything I’ve done for you’ and then…then he threw her out.”

“Sonny threw Carly out?” Lu repeated. “Why?”

Michael shrugged. “Don’t know. I didn’t hear that part of the fight. I confronted him, he confirmed it and I left.” He smiled humorlessly. “Of course, not without telling him I don’t want to see him again. That’s what he told my mother–that he never wanted to see her face again. Can you believe him? I knew he was selfish–but after all these years, he threw her out anyway.”

“Yeah, but Carly might have done something stupid, you know?” Lu said.

“Probably. But isn’t marriage about compromising and forgiving each other?” Michael stared at his best friend and cousin. “Shouldn’t it be about working things out instead of throwing it all away?”

Lu nodded. “You know, Mikey, you’re gonna make a woman very happy one day. But right now, you need to remember…Sonny and Carly don’t have a normal marriage. They never have–and there’s no reason to compare their marriage to a conventional one.”

“Yeah.” Michael sighed. “I know.” He peered at her. “You know…we might be the most mature and responsible people we know.”

“I don’t know,” Lu said, smiling a little. “There’s always Emily and Jason.”

“Yeah…well, when you think of Lucky, of my parents, of my real father, about your nutty father–”

“Hey!”

“–makes you wonder how we ended up the way we did?”

“Yeah…a little. Mikey, it’s gonna be okay. We’re gonna figure this out,” Lu said, squeezing his arm a little.

“I’m sorry to dump this all on you,” Michael said. “I know you’re going through a lot with Lucky and Elizabeth, not mention Nikolas and Gia, but I didn’t know who else to come to.”

“You can always come to me,” Lu promised him. “No matter what.”

Michael smiled weakly. “Thanks.”


Alexis was sitting at Christie’s side when Ned entered the room. Her eyes widened as she recognized the children whose hands he was holding. “Amanda, Andrew.”

“Is that Christina?” Amanda asked, pointing towards the bed.

“Hi!” Christina said, sitting up a little. “I’m Christie.”

Alexis smiled and beckoned the twins forward. “Christie, you’ve met Carly Corinthos right?”

“She’s the blonde who you fight with sometimes,” Christie said.

“Right. Well, these are her children, Amanda and Andrew.” Alexis looked to Ned who gave her a tired smile.

“Hi,” Amanda said, cautiously. “Why are you here?”

“I’ve got leukemia,” Christina said, without a trace of bitterness in her voice. “Why are you here?”

“We had to take a test,” Andrew said, rubbing his arm where the needle had gone in. “It hurt a lot.”

“I hate needles,” Christina said, wrinkling her nose. Her eyes lit up as she saw the little purse Amanda was caring. “You like Sailor Moon?”

“Do I?” Amanda said, grinning. “I love it.”

Alexis stood and joined Ned at the doorway. “I’ll be in the hallway with Ned. Be good.”

“Okay, Mama,” Christie said as Amanda took her chair and Andrew leaned against the end of the bed.

Alexis and Ned went into the hallway. “So, they took the test?”

Ned scratched the back of his head. “Yeah. The results should be in tomorrow. Uh…Sonny knows.”

Alexis frowned. “He knows what?” A troubled look crossed her face. “Oh, no. How?”

“Carly and I were talking and he heard the tail end of the conversation. She wanted the kids to meet Christina, and I figured since it was my fault Sonny knows, it was the least I could do. They left, but Carly said she’d pick up the kids later.

“I hope Sonny at least hears her out,” Alexis said quietly. She peered in the doorway. “Amanda and Christina look alike a little, don’t they?”

Ned put an arm around his wife’s shoulders. “Yeah. They do.”

This entry is part 15 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

Monday, November 15, 2004

Adair Suites: Lorenzo’s Penthouse

It was just after seven in the morning when Lorenzo’s quiet breakfast was interrupted by frantic banging on his front door. He wiped his mouth and stood, waiting for his guard to come in from the foyer to tell him who had disturbed him this early. It had better be for a good reason, he thought absently. He hadn’t slept much the night before—had waited up until the early morning hours to hear from his men about Diego’s whereabouts. There had been nothing.

Instead of one of his guards, a small flash of dark skin and dark hair rushed in. “He’s gone!” Maria Sanchez blurted. “He was supposed to be in the hotel room this morning and he’s gone!”

Lorenzo sighed and took his daughter by the shoulders and gently steered her towards the sofa. “Sit, take a breath.”

“I can’t!” Maria’s darkeyes flooded with tears. “He’s gone!”

“Maria, when did you even get to town?” he asked gently. “What happened to your last foster family?”

“I don’t know why that matters,” Maria choked. “Diego is gone. I have to find him—you have to help me.” She gripped the lapels of her father’s robe. “Please, Papi, please!”

Lorenzo closed his eyes and felt something inside him shift. She’d never called him Papi before and he knew she used the word now only to get him to do her bidding. But it would be worth finding the little bastard if only it meant Maria would stay with him.

“All right,” Lorenzo agreed. “But you must tell me who financed his bail.”

Maria pulled back, shifted her eyes to the side. “I don’t know what you mean.”

“You don’t have the resources for ten thousand dollars. Even the bank account I have given you does not have that much money and never did. Where did you get the money?”

Maria licked her lips. “Why does that matter?”

“Because I must know,” Lorenzo stated. “Tell me, Maria.”

“It was his foster mother,” Maria said quietly. “Courtney Matthews gave me the money and Diego promised to stay in the hotel room when I went to get dinner but he was gone when I got back. You have to find him!”

“I will find him,” Lorenzo promised. “But you will stay here until I do so. Where I can keep you safe. After he is found, you will tell me when you got here and where your foster parents think you are.”

Kelly’s

Elizabeth had already ordered breakfast for herself and was feeding Cameron strained peaches when Jason arrived for their breakfast meeting. She’d taken a back table in efforts to minimize exposure. It would be the first public outing for the three of them and she was in no hurry to gain anyone’s notice.

“I ordered you coffee since I know you don’t eat breakfast,” Elizabeth told him, nodding towards the pot next to his cup.

“Thanks.” Jason kissed Cameron’s forehead before sitting down. “So, he’s over the cold?” He asked after a moment, unsure of how to proceed.

Elizabeth sipped her milk and nodded. “Better than ever.” She cracked her knuckles under the table.

Jason shifted. “The services are on Tuesday. For Adella.” He hesitated. “I was hoping you could come.”

Elizabeth’s eyes softened and she reached across the table to touch his hand. “Of course. I’ll leave Cameron with Grams for the day—she’s been asking for more time with him.” She sat back and nibbled on a piece of toast. “I spoke to Monica about the baby shower. I’m surprised she’s so enthusiastic.”

“She just hopes this will bring me back to the family,” Jason said. He exhaled slowly. “I don’t like to disappoint her but that’s not going to happen.”    He took a long swallow of coffee. “You sure you’re okay with it being held at the Quartermaines? Any party they have ends up in the papers.”

“It’s fine. It’s probably better that way. Everyone will know at once and we won’t have to keep answering questions for months,” Elizabeth replied. “I was wondering when you might want to move your things over—to the cottage, I mean.”

“Let’s—let’s hold off on that just for a bit,” Jason said uneasily. “Sam’s coming home next week and I want to make sure she’s settled before I make any new living arrangements.”

“Okay, I understand.” Elizabeth blew out a slightly exasperated breath. Just because she understood didn’t mean she liked the idea of the two of them still living together. She trusted Jason and she trusted Sam, mostly. But they were both in a vulnerable state right now and she was wary of the whole situation. “So I guess that means you won’t be spending the night either.”

“Elizabeth,” Jason began but a shadow fell over their table before he could attempt to explain himself. He looked up and very nearly sighed. “Courtney,” he said warily.

“Well, if it isn’t the home wrecking slut and my ex-husband,” the blonde remarked scathingly. She crossed her arms and glared at them. “I’m not surprised you couldn’t wait to throw this in people’s faces—”

“Courtney, please don’t use that kind of language in front of my son,” Elizabeth said quietly.

“Your son,” Courtney sneered. “You mean Jason’s son?” Her eyes flew to Jason. “I knew it–I told you last year that if you wanted her, you should go to her. But you chose to stay with me. But I always knew that you only married me because you couldn’t have her.” Her gaze raked over Elizabeth. “I don’t see the attraction a pale, skinny little twit like her myself but I guess some guys get off on constantly having to rescue the pretty little damsel in distress—”

“If you say that with a straight face, you’re a better actress than I gave you credit for,” Elizabeth broke in quietly. “You can’t solve a single problem yourself without leaning on a man so I really don’t want to hear that kind of bull leaving your mouth. Now, please—go away before you make an even bigger fool of yourself.”

“Excuse me?” Courtney fumed. She would have gone on but Mike approached the table at that point.

“Courtney,” her father began, putting his hand on her arm. She shook him off.

“Jason cheated on me when we were engaged!” she told him furiously—her voice loud enough to attract more than a few stares. In fact, every eye in the small diner was fixed on their table. Jason kept his eyes on Cameron and Elizabeth slunk down in her chair.

Mike hesitated and looked to Jason before glancing at Cameron. The father in him warred with the logical side. He’d known Jason and Courtney had been having problems long before they married and while he was furious on his daughter’s behalf, he’d known Jason too long to think he’d cheat with just anyone. “Courtney, this is a place of business,” he said quietly. “Can you just hold it until later?”

“Everyone takes his side!” Courtney raged. “Just because it’s Elizabeth and not some cheap slut he picked up off the street—”

“Courtney, that’s enough.” Jason stood. “Just knock it off and stop playing the betrayed party, here okay? You’re not perfect and you’ve made mistakes, too.” He muttered something under his breath, irritated with his word choice.

Elizabeth’s head snapped up, her face pale. “Mistakes?” she said softly. “That’s an odd way to phrase that.”

“Elizabeth,” Jason started but she held up a hand.

“I don’t want to hear it.” She stood and took a twenty out of her wallet. “This should cover the breakfast, I’m sorry for the scene,” she said to Mike. She shrugged her arms into her coat, gripped Cameron’s stroller and started out of the diner.

“Elizabeth,” Jason followed her out the door.

“Always the victim,” Courtney muttered. She glared at her father and left.

Mike sighed, pocketed the twenty and signaled for the bus boy to clean up the table.

Outside, Courtney stormed out of the courtyard and blessedly decided to ignore Jason and Elizabeth as they argued.

“I didn’t mean you and Cameron,” Jason said defensively. “You can’t believe that’s what I meant—”

“I don’t know what to believe anymore!” Elizabeth exploded, throwing her hands up in frustration. “You say you love me, that you want to be a family, but you won’t move in, you won’t stay longer than five minutes and I don’t think you intend to change that any time soon—”

“I do love you and you were not a mistake, Cameron was not a mistake,” Jason broke in. “Going back to Courtney, marrying her, that was my mistake. I should have stayed and worked things out with you–”

“But you didn’t,” Elizabeth retorted. “You turned and walked away. You always walk away. I can’t keep doing this anymore–” Her shoulders slumped and she closed her eyes. “I need some time.”

“Time?” Jason’s throat closed. “What do you mean, time?”

“Time away from you, away from us. I can’t keep wondering if I’m second prize, if you’re only with me because of Cameron. I can’t keep putting my life on hold for you. I can’t do this anymore, Jason and I won’t.” She gripped the stroller tightly. “Cameron is your son, he will always be your son but I can’t–I can’t be what you need and you refuse to be what I need.”

“No, I don’t accept that–I won’t.” He took a step towards her. “Elizabeth, we’ve come so far–why are you doing this when we’re so close to everything we wanted?”

“Because you can’t see that we’re not,” she whispered. “As long as you keep that distance between us, we’re so far apart; we might as well be on different planets.” She turned the stroller in the opposite direction and walked away.

Jason stood there, staring after her until long after she’d disappeared from sight and her footsteps only a distant memory.

Gatehouse: Living Room

Justus pulled a sheaf of papers from his briefcase and laid them in front of Ned and Lois. “I’ve drawn up the papers to file suit against the New York State Social Service Agency as well Courtney Matthews-Morgan. The suit is pretty straightforward. We’re not asking for a large amount of money because the money isn’t important.”

“That’s right,” Lois nodded. “It’s not about money, it’s about placing a dangerous kid with an unsuitable foster mother.”

Brooke shifted. “I don’t know if I’m comfortable with any of this,” she murmured. “Yeah, I mean, Courtney was an awful choice but she didn’t make Diego…do what he did.”

“We’re not saying she did,” Ned said quietly. “But Social Services have a job to do and by placing a grown teenager with a background like Diego Sanchez with the sister of a known criminal–a former drug abusing stripper, they’re sending a message that they don’t care about the quality of the foster family–just that they’re there.”

“I know,” Brooke sighed. “Will I have to testify?”

“Probably not,” Justus said. “We’re going to doing mostly character witnesses. We’ll put some officers on the stand, those who have dealt with Courtney after her stripping days, when she was accused of hitting Elizabeth Webber with a car. We’ll also bring up her family background–her connection with Sonny Corinthos, her father’s gambling convictions, the fact that she lives in a loft with one bedroom–that she was barely ten years older than the boy she was supposed to care for.”

“I get what we’re trying to do but I don’t want it to hurt the criminal case,” Brooke said. She shifted. “I mean, you see it on Law & Order all the time–the rape victim gets creamed on the stand because she’s suing.”

“That’s true, baby, but we’re not suing the defendant,” Lois told her. “It doesn’t matter–”

“But Brooke has a point,” Justus said. “I was actually going to recommend we hold off filing until after Sanchez is convicted.”

“That’s what I want to do,” Brooke said. “I want to wait.”

Ned squeezed his daughter’s hand. “We’re doing this for you–however you want to handle it. But in the end, I want to change the way they go about their business. I want something good to come from this nightmare.”

“Okay,” Brooke agreed. She smiled weakly and kissed his cheek. “Okay. Then I’ll do whatever I can to help. When the trial is over.”

PC High: Library

Lucas set his books next to Maxie at the back table. “Hey.”

She glanced up and sighed. “Hey, Lucas. I didn’t know you had study hall this period.”

“I don’t.” He sat and opened his Calculus text. “I’m skipping gym to talk to you. But look busy, I don’t want the librarian remembering that I don’t belong here.”

“Okay,” Maxie drawled. “How’s Brooke? Have you seen her?”

“Not since court on Wednesday. But I talked to her on the phone last night. You know Diego was released on bail right?”

“Yeah,” Maxie sighed. “My dad’s barely letting me and Georgie out of our rooms, much less the house. How’s Brooke handling that?”

“She’s doing the best she can I guess,” Lucas sighed. “Anyway, she wanted you to know that she’s sorry you guys fought last week. But she didn’t say what about.”

Maxie tapped her pencil against the table. “I wanted to talk to her—to make her understand why I didn’t come to the hospital at first. I mean, Lucas, my reasons are so selfish, they make me sick. But I thought I owed it to her to be honest.”

“What did you tell her?”

Maxie’s cheeks flushed. “I told her that I was glad it wasn’t me—because you know that I was alone with Diego too. So was Georgie. I know it doesn’t mean that I was glad it was her, but isn’t that what it means, deep down? That I’m glad it was her and not me?” She shook her head. “I’m an awful, selfish person, Lucas and I can’t believe Brooke doesn’t hate me.”

“It does not mean you’re glad it was her,” Lucas argued. “It means you’re relieved you’re safe, that Georgie is safe. Brooke knows that you wouldn’t wish this on anyone. And we’re going to get Brooke through this, I promise. You, me, Dillon, Georgie—we’ve got to be her support system, we’ve got to be her rock. Every day during the trial, we’ve got to be there. And even more importantly, we’ve got to be there afterwards. Brooke needs us more than anyone or anything else in our lives right now.”

“You’re right.” Maxie cleared her throat and sat up. “And we’re going to start immediately. Georgie and I will go to her house today and help her get caught up with homework. Dad will have to let us go there—there’s no where safer than the Quartermaine estate, right?”

“Right,” Lucas agreed. He put an arm around his cousin’s shoulders. “It’s gonna be all right.”

Parking Lot

Diego slid his hands in his pockets and waited in the parking garage of General Hospital. When he’d gotten back to his motel that morning after sneaking a breakfast from a nearby convenience store, a letter had been taped to the inside of his door. Inside, a time and a place had been scrawled in block letters.

Here he was, lurking behind Spot 24, his eyes peeled for any suspicious movement. It wasn’t the cops—it was too soon for them to have found him. But it didn’t rule out his dear old father—lousy son of a bitch who had abandoned him all his life. Diego sneered—he knew Lorenzo Alcazar had never meant all that bullshit about wanting to be a family.

Footsteps came towards him, sounding like someone just shuffling their feet over the rough surface. Scratch, scratch. Diego crouched behind a large red truck and watched as figure hung just back in the shadows. He was tall and slim—even it was even a man. Diego couldn’t tell from this angle.

“I admire you,” a rough deep voice emitted. It was low, to keep it from echoing. “But you were messy, you got caught.”

Diego frowned. “It wasn’t rape,” he said—because he firmly believed that. It didn’t matter what she said—she’d wanted it. He was an expert in matters such as these, and he knew when a girl wanted him.

“That’s exactly right,” the man murmured. He dropped something on the ground and kicked it towards him. Diego reached forward and retrieved a trash bag. “Open it.” Diego obeyed and withdrew a handful of folders and some labeled plastic bags. One read Pink Skirt – 7/16/94.

“What’s all this?”

“I thought you might like to have some fun while you’re on the run.” The man chuckled at his rhyme. “There are some instructions inside—just so you can do me a few favors in return for my goodwill.”

Diego noticed the wad of cash and was all to ready to agree. Except for… “How’d you know where I was?”

“We think alike, you and I.” The man stepped back. “I’ll be in touch.” He faded into the shadows.

Diego waited until his footsteps were gone before making his own escape.

PCMB: Brianne’s Office

“I’ve programmed my phone so I just have to open it and say your name,” Brianne began as she set her briefcase down on her desk. “They installed a panic button in all the offices here after that bombing last year in the courthouse. I promise not to leave my office without waiting for you. So, please—can I have a half hour to myself?”

Lucky folded his arms across his chest. “You’ll call me at the slightest instance?” he demanded. “You’ll press that button even if you only feel a little panicked?”

“Yes,” Brianne nodded. “I just—I need some time, okay?” She took her coat off and hung it on the rack beside her desk. “Just—don’t take this the wrong way, but just go away, okay?”

“Okay,” Lucky agreed. “One half hour. I’m going right across the street to GH. I can be back here in five minutes.”

Brianne arched an eyebrow. “You can fly?”

“Don’t be a smart ass,” Lucky replied as he left.

General Hospital: Administrator’s Office

“Lucky.” Nikolas stood and shifted some files to the side. “I haven’t seen you in a while.”

“Hey—yeah, I’ve been busy with the Sanchez case,” Lucky replied. He sat. “But ADA Joyce wanted some time to herself and that building is more secure than the White House. Panic buttons, metal detectors—so I’m taking a half hour, thought I’d check in on you.”

“I can’t believe he got out on bail,” Nikolas shook his head. “I wonder what strings they had to pull to get that one over the DA’s head.”

“They’re trying to trace the money, track Sanchez down to put a detail on him. We can’t afford to screw this up or we’ll have the wrath of the Quartermaines on us and no one wants that.”

“So you’re staying with ADA Joyce until Sanchez is located?”

“Or until he’s back in jail, Mac’s not sure which.” Lucky shook his head. “Something’s not right about this girl, Nikolas. She’s either cold or lonely and I just can’t make up my mind which.”

“I don’t think I’m familiar with her—is she new?” Nikolas made a mark on his calendar about that afternoon’s board meeting.

“No, but I guess she’s been low-profile until now. She seems to be all about her work, there’s nothing personal in her apartment–it’s like its barren. But I can’t accept that it’s nothing more than a defense.” Lucky shook his head. “There’s just something about her, you know?”

“I can make a few calls,” Nikolas offered. “Get a background check.”

“No, no, that would be like spying.” Lucky shrugged. “I’ll get to the bottom of it eventually. Hey, have you heard from Elizabeth?”

“Since the bombshell? No. Emily’s worried, though. She said something about Elizabeth being miserable again.” Nikolas sighed, slightly exasperated. “I wish I knew what was really going on with her but she’s not talking.”

“I’ll try to stop by the cottage. Maybe she’ll open up to me.” Lucky glanced at his watch. “I better get back to the ADA.”

Port Charles Executive Park: Lainey Winter’s Office

“One set of divorce papers for your client to look over,” Justus announced, dropping the sheaf onto to Lainey’s desk. She glanced up and took them.

“I have to say, this is the one of the weirdest divorces I’ve ever worked on,” Lainey sighed. “They’ve got it all backwards—and did I read their file right? This is their third divorce?”

“Second actually, but third time around with attorneys,” Justus corrected. He leaned against her desk. “Want to compare war stories over dinner?”

Lainey arched a brow. “Are you asking me out?”

“If you have to clarify, then I am definitely out of practice,” Justus sighed dramatically. “Do you want to have dinner with me?”

She sat back and smirked at him. “That wouldn’t be a conflict of interest?”

“Where’s the conflict?” Justus asked. “Our clients are on the same page, they’re in agreement. We’re not even going to court on this one. I can behave if you can.”

Her smile deepened. “Fine. The Cellar at eight?”

PCPD: Commissioner’s Office

“Have you heard from Diego?” Mac demanded as soon as the door was closed.

Lorenzo shook his head. “No, but I do have some news. His twin, Maria, came to me this morning. She was upset—nearly hysterical. He’s disappeared from their hotel room.”

Mac exhaled slowly. “Well, he was released to his sister’s custody—another anomaly considering she’s underage but that’s for another time. If he’s left her sight and she doesn’t know where he is, that’s considered jumping bail. We can pick him. When we find him.”

Lorenzo nodded. “That’s good to hear. I do have something else for you—the name of the person who financed his bail.”

“Well, that’ll give us an avenue of investigation. I’m just glad it wasn’t you,” Mac told him.

“Maria told me it was Courtney Matthews,” Lorenzo revealed.

Mac sat back in his chair. “I completely underestimated how stupid that girl could be.”

This entry is part 14 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

Friday, November 12, 2005

PCMB: Ric Lansing’s Office

Brianne shifted in her seat. “I don’t care what the court clerk said. There was no motion, there was no phone call.”

She stared at her hands rather than at the district attorney who was currently peering out his window at the busy boulevard street below. “I had no idea Sanchez was even being considered for bail much less that he was out.”

“Something about the entire situation…” Ric shook his head. “I have no doubt that you were unaware, Brianne. Which is why I agree with the Commissioner on this matter. Someone’s using the system to help Diego Sanchez beat this charge. It’s not Lorenzo Alcazar and it sure as hell isn’t Sonny Corinthos.”

“Are we sure it’s not Lorenzo Alcazar?” Brianne questioned. “He is Sanchez’s father and he may have made that scene in the courtroom to throw us off.”

“We’ve been watching him as well. No contact with Diego, no calls to the prison and nothing to connect him to Maria Sanchez. My gut tells me he’s on the up and up on this.” Ric returned to his desk. “Scorpio is putting someone on the principals. This is a big case and I don’t have to tell you that the Quartermaines are going to be pissed if something goes wrong.”

“I understand the ramifications, Mr. Lansing,” Brianne began, “but I hardly think–”

“And that means that Brooke, the Jones girls, Dillon Quartermaines and Lucas Jones are getting round the clock guards. They’re the main witnesses. We’ve also got someone guarding the property room with the evidence. That leaves you, Brianne.”

“I doubt I’m a target,” Brianne said. “If something happens to me, they just get another prosecutor–”

“But it slows the process down. Takes time to get another lawyer up to speed. We’re not taking any chances, Brianne. Mac’s agreed that Lucky Spencer is the best choice. You can work together on the case and Spencer has the best track record when it comes to this kind of work.”

“But, sir–”

“I can understand that having Spencer camp out on your couch is obviously not a comfortable idea so the department thought a suite at a hotel would do–”

“Sir, that’s a major expense and it’s not just feasible,” Brianne argued weakly. “You can’t make me accept a bodyguard.”

“No,” Ric agreed. “But I can remove you from the case and assign someone who will.” He leaned back in his chair. “With your personal history, that might be for the best. I don’t know that this is the type of case you should be prosecuting.”

Brianne stiffened. “I have done an excellent job of prosecuting this case, Mr. Lansing, and it is unfair that a minor incident in my past can be used against me.”

“A minor incident,” Ric repeated softly. “An odd phrase for what happened, Brianne.”

She clenched her fists. “I am not one of those women who do not trust men or that see…a certain someone in every man I meet. I know better, Mr. Lansing. If you feel that having Lucky Spencer guard me is so important to my successfully prosecuting this case, then I will of course defer to you. He is more than welcome to the couch in my living room. As an officer of the law, I am duty bound to trust him, aren’t I?”

“No one’s trying to force you into something that you don’t want to do, Brianne,” Ric cautioned. “We just want everyone to be safe, all right?”

“Fine.”

Gatehouse: Brooke’s Bedroom

Brooke pushed her textbooks away and shoved her hair out of her face. She was more than a week behind in her homework and the way her concentration was going, it was only going to get worse.

She couldn’t seem to focus on anything for longer than a few seconds. She’d read a sentence and her eyes would flick away from the book, her ears tuned to the sounds in the hallway or the ones at the window.

“This is so stupid,” she muttered. She stood and started to pace. “He’s in jail. This is a fenced property with security. He’s not going get to me here. He can’t.”

She was nearly jarred out of her body when someone knocked on her door. “Who is it?” she called.

“It’s me,” Ned said. “Brooke, baby, we need to talk. Can you come out to the living room?”

She bit her lip. “I was doing my homework, I swear.”

“I know–Brooke, it’s important.”

“Okay,” Brooke reluctantly agreed. She pulled the door open and followed her father through the hallway and down the stairs to the living room where the commissioner was waiting. She hesitated at the foot of the stairs. “What’s going on?”

“Brooke,” Mac sighed, “I’m so sorry.”

“Why?” Brooke asked, her voice hitched, her breathing beginning to quicken. “What’s going on? What’s happened?”

“Diego made bail, baby,” Ned murmured. His fists were clenched but that was the only outward show of emotion he could allow himself. If he just let his guard down for a moment, he was sure he would explode and Brooke didn’t need that. She needed his support–she needed for him be calm so she could fall apart.

“Bail?” Brooke said sharply. Her dark eyes flicked from Mac to her father. “I don’t understand. He had no ties to the community, he was a flight risk–Brianne said he would be remanded. I don’t understand what’s going on.”

“We don’t know either but the ADA got a call. He was released on bail before she could get to the courthouse. Now, I don’t want to worry. We’ve got officers guarding the house, and we’re going to put someone on Sanchez at all times, Brooke.” Mac shifted and tried to look reassuring though he didn’t really feel that way. After twelve hours of trying to locate Diego Sanchez in order to put a tail on him, his officers had had no leads. The boy had all but vanished but he sure wasn’t going to tell the victim that. “You’ll be as safe as we can make you.”

Brooke shook her head. “No. He can’t be out. Why does he get to be out? He–it’s not fair!” She hugged herself tightly. “Put him back in jail!”

“We can’t unless he violates the bail agreement,” Mac said apologetically. “I promise, Brooke, we’re going to keep you safe–”

“You can’t promise that!” Brooke cried. “No one can!” She whirled around and flew up the stairs. A few moments later, her bedroom door slammed shut.

Ned exhaled slowly and looked at his old friend. “If I find him first, I don’t make any promises that he won’t need medical attention when I’m done.”

Mac nodded. He was, after all, a father first and an officer of the law second.

Lawyer’s Office

Lainey Winters buttoned her suit jacket and took a seat across from Justus Ward and his client, Sonny Corinthos. She smiled reassuringly at her client, Carly, before looking at Justus. “My client’s demands are quite small. I’m sure we can wrap this up today.”

“Mr. Corinthos is prepared to offer a generous settlement,” Justus began. “Ten thousand a month in alimony, twice that in child support as well relocation resources. All he wants is joint custody with his children.”

Lainey looked at her client, Carly shook her head. “I’m sorry, but my client has made her wishes clear. She doesn’t want any alimony and only two thousand a month in child support. She doesn’t want relocation resources and has no problems with joint custody.”

“Carly,” Sonny sighed. “I know you’re trying to make a point, but you don’t need to sacrifice the luxuries–”

“Mrs. Corinthos makes a good living from her club,” Lainey interrupted coolly. “She’s looking into buying another. She has excellent investments.”

Sonny whispered to Justus who sighed. “My client will be forced to go to court to petition for sole custody if Mrs. Corinthos does not agree to alimony and more child support.”

“Then you’re going to have to do that,” Carly said scathingly. “I don’t want or need your money, Sonny. I can’t believe you’d drag our kids through another custody battle because I don’t want your money.”

“It won’t come to that,” Sonny said confidently. “You’ll see reason.”

“If you petition for sole custody, I can promise you that I won’t hold back this time,” Carly declared. She stood. “I won’t protect you on the stand. I will tell them about the nervous breakdowns, the car bombs, the guns in my face—you don’t want to tempt me, Sonny, because if it comes down to it, they will give me custody over you every time.”

“You’re forgetting your own brush with insanity,” Sonny said quietly.

“I’m not forgetting anything,” Carly retorted. “Ferncliff was over seven years ago and my little stint in Shadybrooke is easily explained away by the fact that my husband shot me in the head!”

“She’s right,” Justus said softly. “No judge that’s not being bribed is going to give you those children.”

Sonny stared at him in disbelief. “So now you’re on her side?”

“I’m just giving you my legal opinion.” Justus shrugged. “You can’t change certain facts, Sonny. Carly would win a custody suit.”

Carly nodded. “And I don’t want it to come to that, Sonny. I don’t want our marriage to end like this. Let’s be adult about this.” She took her seat. “I understand that you want the boys to be taken care of, looked out for. I understand and appreciate that, but they’re my children too and you have to trust me to know what’s best for them.”

“And what’s best for them is to have their own home—” Sonny began.

“What’s best for them is to be with family and Mama is family,” Carly interrupted gently. “They love her and she loves them. She’s changed her schedule so she can be with them when I’m not. I don’t need a nanny when I have a live in baby-sitter. Sonny, the best thing for them is not to change anything else. They’re happy with living at the Brownstone.”

“What about giving Carly what she wants,” Justus suggested, “but write in an addendum that if at any time, she needs more child support, alimony or relocation resources, Sonny will provide it.” He looked to Sonny for his approval.

“I can live with that,” Sonny said.

“Carly?” Lainey prompted.

“So can I,” Carly agreed. Her eyes found Sonny’s across the table. “Thank you, Sonny.”

General Hospital: Kristina’s Room

“I bet you can’t wait to go home,” Steven remarked as he shined a light into Kristina’s eyes. “Probably so tired of hospitals, you could puke.”

Kristina giggled and reached for the stethoscope hanging around his neck. “Gimme!”

“Ah, ah,” Steven wagged his finger. “Can’t play with that.”

“You’re no fun,” Elizabeth said from the doorway. She sighed dramatically. “Always taking my toys and putting them away before I could even play with them.”

“Hey, Lizbits,” Steven said. “Did you need something?”

“Nope, Alexis said Kristina was up for visitors.” Elizabeth approached the crib-like bed and waved at the little girl. “Hey, I bet you don’t remember me.”

Kristina shook her head. “Nope!”

“I’m Elizabeth,” she said. “Your mommy and I have been friends for a long time.”

“Mama!” Kristina perked up. “Where’s Mama?”

“She has to sleep sometime, poppet,” Steven murmured. He unwound the stethoscope from his neck and raised the metal piece to Kristina’s chest. “This is going to feel a little cold.”

“I tried to call Mom and Dad today,” Elizabeth said quietly. She met her brother eyes. “Hung up before it even started to ring.”

“You have to tell them sometime,” Steven said absently. He shined the light again and watched as Kristina’s eyes followed it.

“I know,” she sighed. “But it’s not as though it’s the easiest news to impart.”

“Just try telling them bluntly,” Steven suggested. “Mom, Dad, I have a son and his father is a mobster with a part-time sort of second girlfriend.”

Elizabeth scowled. “You’re not amusing.”

“Neither is the situation.” Steven put the light back into the top pocket of his white coat. “Well, Kristina, guess what?”

“What?” Kristina asked brightly. She reached again for the stethoscope. “Gimme!”

“You are doing much better,” Steven told her. “Do you feel better?”

“Better than what?” the toddler asked, puzzled.

“Ah, the ability to forget that which is painful.” Steven grinned. “Your mom will be back soon, Princess.” He raised her call button so she could see it. “See this?”

She nodded.

“Press this button if you need anything, okay?” Steven directed. “Can you repeat that?”

Kristina nodded. “Press button if I need candy.”

Elizabeth grinned. “She’s obviously got her priorities set in the right place.”

General Hospital: Monica’s Office

After leaving Steven to explain once again to his young patient the purpose of the call button, Elizabeth headed to Monica’s office to ask for more details about the mysterious baby shower that Jason had mentioned.

Monica was marking charts when Elizabeth knocked on the open door. “Elizabeth!” Monica stood and immediately crossed the room to envelop the young woman in a warm embrace. “I was hoping to get a chance to speak with you!”

Elizabeth patted the other woman’s back awkwardly. “Jason said something about a baby shower—”

“Right, right, of course.” Monica pulled away and motioned for her sit on the small couch. “I just—I was so thrilled when Jason told me about Cameron. Part of me always wondered because Cameron looks so much like Jason did as a baby, but I always thought it was wishful thinking.”

“Well, I’m just glad you’re so happy,” Elizabeth replied. “My parents live in Europe, so it’s nice that Cam will have a set of grandparents here, as well as my grandmother.”

“So, the baby shower,” Monica clasped her hands together. “It’s been a while since we’ve had a baby in the family we could really celebrate—I think Dillon was the last baby. I’m just so thrilled.”

“You really don’t have to,” Elizabeth said. “Cameron has everything he needs—”

“Nonsense,” Monica dismissed it with a wave of her hand. “Baby showers are for the mother anyway. They’re usually one last hurrah before the insanity of a newborn but for you, it can be a little vacation.”

“That does sound nice,” Elizabeth agreed. “If you’re sure it’s not any trouble—’

‘Trouble?” Monica laughed. “A chance to celebrate Jason and his family? No trouble at all.”

Elizabeth smiled uneasily. “Okay then, whatever you’d like to do is fine with me.”

General Hospital: Sam’s Room

Sam was staring at the television screen listlessly when Jason entered her room. “Hey,” she murmured as he took a seat next to her. She flicked the talk show off. “What’s going on?”

“I just wanted to clarify a few things,” Jason told her. “You’re staying in the penthouse for a while right?”

She sighed heavily. “I don’t really want to, Jason. I don’t want to be dependent on you like that.”

“I understand but you’re still not one hundred percent,” Jason explained. “I don’t want you in some seedy motel room out job hunting. Just—just stay until you find another place.”

“If you insist.” Sam shifted. “The services on Tuesday…who’s planning that? You or Sonny?”

“Sonny’s handling most of it,” Jason said. “But I’ll pick you up from the hospital, take you home—on Monday. Do you want me to pick you up for the services?”

“Yeah…I mean, if that’s okay.” Sam closed her eyes and leaned back. “Are you staying at the cottage?”

Jason shook his head. “No. I—I’m at the penthouse right now but I’m going to find an apartment or someplace to stay.”

Sam’s eyes flew open and she sat up gingerly. “Are you serious?”

Jason exhaled slowly. “I haven’t told Elizabeth I’m not moving in so—don’t say anything to her.”

“I wouldn’t even know where to begin.” Sam shifted and winced a little. “Jason, why aren’t you moving in with your son, with Elizabeth?”

Jason sat back and looked away, towards the blank television screen. “Because things might not work out between us,” he admitted finally. “They never have before and I’m not about to screw up Cameron’s life more by letting him get used to having me there and changing it later. When—if—I move in, I want it to be permanent.”

“I don’t understand,” Sam murmured. “If you love her and she loves you, then why wouldn’t it work?”

“Sonny loved you. You loved him,” Jason reminded her.

“Yeah, but he was married,” Sam said, exasperated. “And still in love with Carly, to boot. There are no such circumstances here.”

“What about Jax?” Jason said instead. “Or what about Courtney? Or Robin? Or the last time Elizabeth and I tried this?’ He shook his head. “I just want to be careful.”

“Well, I’d find a better way to explain this to Elizabeth when the time comes,” Sam advised, “because it just sounds like you don’t trust her to stay.”

“I just don’t want to hurt her anymore,” Jason said quietly.

“I’m not sure you can avoid that if you go this road,” Sam replied.

Brianne’s Apartment

Lucky set a duffle bag on the brown leather sofa and eyed Brianne who was edging towards her bedroom. “I’m sure it’s not going to be for long.”

“No, right,” Brianne nodded. She gestured towards a closed door on her left. “This is the bathroom, you can see the kitchen. Um—I’ll be in here.” She shifted. “Good night.”

She closed her door behind her and Lucky frowned, glancing at the clock on the wall. It was barely eight p.m. in the evening. Surely she wasn’t going to sleep already?

ADA Joyce was definitely wound tightly, Lucky decided. He unzipped his duffle and removed a small stack of manila folders. At least he’d have some quiet to get some work done.

He sat on the couch and set the folders on the oak coffee table, glancing around at the sparse furnishings of the nicely sized apartment. It was an excellent section of town, he noted, but rent didn’t come cheap. Probably why she had only the bare minimum—a sofa, a coffee table, a television stand and a table with two chairs in the kitchen.

Or maybe she just didn’t really live here, Lucky thought absently. Young ambitious career-minded people tended to live in their jobs. God knows, he did. He had just the room above Kelly’s, preferring to spend most of his time either at the station or on the job.

But even he had a few personal belongings scattered around the room—photos, memorabilia—just something that said that he lived there. If Brianne had anything of the sort, it was locked tightly behind her bedroom doors.

And if not—he wasn’t sure if that made her one of the loneliest people he’d ever known or just one of the coldest.

This entry is part 13 of 23 in the Fiction Graveyard: Mad World #1

November 11, 2004

L & B Recording Studios: Rehearsal Room

Brooke tapped at the piano keys, her voice hushed. “And I wanna believe you, when you tell me that it will be okay. Yeah, I try to believe you. Not today, today, today, today, today. Tomorrow it may change…”

“That’s beautiful,” Maxie murmured from the doorway. Brooke snapped her head up and met the eyes of one of her best friends. They’d seen each other at the hearing yesterday but hadn’t spoken. “You must hate me.”

“I don’t hate you.” Brooke switched off the synthesizer and set aside her sheet music. “I just…I don’t know how I feel,” she admitted.

Maxie clasped her hands behind her back. “I’m sorry I didn’t visit you in the hospital. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure how I would…I would feel.”

The corner of Brooke’s mouth lifted in a humorless smile. “Disgusted?”

“No. No,” Maxie shook her head. “No, that’s not–you’re my best friend, Brooke. But this has never–I’ve never known anyone who went through this. I mean, you hear about it and you know it happens…but I never really thought about what it would be like for it to happen to someone I know. And it scares me, Brooke. It terrifies me that anyone can do this to a person, even if you trust them.”

“Maxie…” Brooke sighed. She shook her head. “This isn’t about you.” She stood and shoved her work into her shoulder bag.

“No, and that’s why I couldn’t go to see you while this was in my head,” Maxie said. “But I talked to Georgie last night and she told me to just be honest with you. So…” she took a deep breath. “We were all alone with him, Brooke. You, me and Georgie. We all spent time one on one with him and it’s terrifying to know that he had that in him all the time and it makes me feel so ashamed to be glad it wasn’t me.”

Brooke stared at the miserable blonde and tried to shove the hurt aside. A natural reaction, she told herself. She herself would have felt it. “That doesn’t mean you’re glad it was me,” Brooke said, struggling to understand Maxie’s mind. “I hope you’re not dumb enough to think that’s what you were feeling.”

“No but…” Maxie sighed. “I’m selfish, it’s not much of a surprise to you, I guess. And I feel like such a shitty person for feeling this way. This is such a terrible thing to happen and all I can think of is I’m glad it wasn’t me.”

“You get to feel how you want to feel,” Brooke said. “I can’t control any of it. I can’t control that Dillon wants to kill Diego, that Georgie’s willing to do anything–even see Diego–if she thinks it’ll help and Lucas…” she sighed heavily. “And I can’t help that the thought of Lucas touching me makes me shiver inside and not the way it used to.”

She lifted the strap of her bag over her shoulder. “I know that while it happened physically to me, that it’s happening to all of you. I know that it’s affecting everyone, from my parents to you guys and I’m trying to deal with that. But don’t get too busy dealing with this to forget that all you guys have to do is process it.” Her lips pressed together. “But I’m the one that’s gotta remember it. To get on the stand and testify. To tell people. This did not happen to you. It happened to me. Everyone else is just a bystander.”

She stalked past Maxie and into the hallway.

Courtney’s Loft: Living Room

Courtney slid her foot into a pair of white flats and looked around for her coat. She was late for a meeting with Social Services and the last thing she had needed this morning was for her alarm clock to break.

There was a quiet knock at the door. “Come in!” Courtney called distractedly as she went into the partitioned area where the bed was. “Is that you, Jax?”

“Uh, no,” Jason said, uncomfortably.

Courtney came back into the living room, her meeting forgotten. “Jason. What are you doing here?”

“I’m…I have to talk to you.” He shifted. “And I didn’t want you to hear it from someone else.”

Her heart constricted. He was going to get married again. She could feel it. To that slut, Sam. Even though she’d lost her baby, that little home wrecker still had her claws in Jason. “Jason, I don’t–”

“Cameron Webber is my son and he was conceived while we were engaged,” Jason said in one sentence, which had to be the longest one he’d said to her in months.

Courtney opened her mouth but there was no sound. She blinked. Closed her mouth and tried to process it. Cameron Webber. Son. Conceived. Engaged. The words didn’t make sense in the same phrase because if they were used together it meant…no, she had heard wrong. She must have.

“Cameron Webber is Elizabeth’s son,” Courtney said slowly. “And Zander Smith is his father.”

“No. That’s what everyone thought until her due date was readjusted.” Jason exhaled impatiently. Say it quick, Carly had advised. Like ripping off a bandage instead of peeling it slowly. “He’s my son, Courtney. My biological son.”

Okay, that was getting through but the rest of it had to be wrong. She’d asked Jason about this. She’d begged him to tell her that he didn’t love Elizabeth, that he didn’t want her and he–

He had never answered. The memory of that day was clear in Courtney’s mind, despite the haze that settled over her memories of that time. He’d said that they were engaged. But he’d never denied it.

Which was always Jason’s way of not telling the truth. Just avoiding the question. Oh, Jesus.

“I was right,” Courtney murmured. “You wanted her. The whole time. I was just–I was substitute.” Oh–and Elizabeth had given him a child. The child Courtney had been unable to. Something inside her curled up and died at that thought. She’d accused him of it–never dreaming that it would be the truth. “You married me because you couldn’t have her. You were with me because she left you.”

She’d thought she’d felt pain before. When she’d found out AJ was stalking her, when she and Jason had been broken up, when she’d lost their child. Ending their marriage. She’d thought she understood what pain was like.

But hearing–understanding–that despite it all, that no matter what they’d had together, it had never been enough. She had never been enough for him. It would always be Elizabeth for him.

There was no pain like having your heart ripped out and shredded into pieces.

There was a buzzing behind her eyes, she wasn’t quite sure what was happening outside her head. Was he saying something? Was she? Dimly, she was aware that she was crying, that the tears were sliding down her cheeks and streaking her mascara and eyeliner.

She sat because her legs would no longer support her. He’d slept with Elizabeth, had never told her–her thoughts broke off abruptly and she focused on him. “The accident. It was after the accident. A baby never would have survived.”

Jason sighed, almost as if he himself didn’t want to think about it, didn’t want to delve into the memories. “It was before and after the accident,” he admitted. “We had–it was over before we were married but it was not a one night thing.”

“An affair,” Courtney said slowly. “You had an affair with her while I was going through an addiction to pain killers, while I was dealing with my miscarriage. While I was planning our wedding, you were sleeping with Elizabeth Webber.”

And while Elizabeth was dealing with her breakup with Jason, you were sleeping with him, a nasty voice in her brain said. While she was confiding in you, treating you like a friend, you were screwing him. You threw your husband out and slept with his brother two weeks later in the bed you’d shared.

She clapped her hands over her ears. “Get out,” she said. “Get out!” Her voice rose. “Get out!” she finally shrieked. “I want you out!”

Jason dipped his head into his chest, exhaled slowly once before turning and leaving. It was better that she knew the full truth, he told himself as he left the loft and headed for the stairs. Better that she didn’t question, didn’t wonder. It was better this way.

Somehow, someday, he was sure he would believe that.

Audrey Hardy’s House: Living Room

“He appears to be recovered from his little sickness,” Audrey remarked, propping her great-grandson on her lap and cooing at him. “I can’t believe how fast he’s growing.”

“Yeah,” Elizabeth sighed. “Seems like only yesterday he was still inside me.” Her eyes clouded for a moment. “Before you know it, he’ll be running around and then he’ll be going to college, having a life of his own.” She exhaled slowly. “It goes so fast, Gram. And all you can do is live every day the best you can.”

“Well, he has an excellent mother.” Audrey tugged at Cameron’s shirt, smoothing it out. “Have you given any thought to what we discussed? A father figure for Cameron?”

“Gram…” Elizabeth sighed. “I know you think he needs someone in his life, a male influence.”

“I don’t think you need to get married to give him a father, but just someone to look up to,” Audrey said. “Someone other than his uncle.”

“I know.” Elizabeth twisted her fingers. “There is someone, Gram.”

“Oh?” Audrey arched an eyebrow. “And who is that?”

“Cameron’s father.” Elizabeth bit her lip. “Jason.”

Audrey stilled. Her fingers tightened around Cameron’s midsection for a moment before she raised her eyes to her granddaughter. “I’m sorry, darling. I didn’t quite catch that.”

“Jason Morgan is Cameron’s father. His biological father,” Elizabeth said softly. “I discovered that before I left for California and when I came home, I told Jason immediately. We chose to keep it between us for a while. He was just coming off a divorce and…the situation with Sam…” She exhaled slowly. “I love him, Gram. I hope that you can finally accept that. We’re a family–Jason, Cameron and myself.”

Audrey stood and set Cameron firmly in his mother’s arms. She walked around the back of the couch and wandered towards the mantel, where photos of the family were kept. “When I was your age, my darling, I had only just arrived in Port Charles, flushed with my independence and a golden future. I thought I do anything, be anything that I wanted. And when I met Steve…oh…how lovely it all was…” She turned, a soft smile on her face and the memory of her love for her long gone husband in her eyes. “You know that your grandfather was the love of my life.”

“I know that,” Elizabeth said. “I love Jason that way, Gram.”

“From the time I was a young girl, flushed with all the sweetness and innocence of my first real love to today, there has never been anyone that I loved quite the same way, with the same depth and passion.” Audrey sighed and twisted her slim wedding band. “We didn’t have a smooth road and it took many mistakes before I realized that I was meant for Steve, and he for me. By that time, and during that period in time, we were past the age where we could have children of our own. Part of me has always grieved for that though Tom became Steve’s son.”

“Gram…”

“You’ve been through so much in your young life, Elizabeth. More than I have experienced in my long one,” Audrey continued. “You ought to know your own heart by now and if you truly believe that Jason Morgan owns it, then I trust you with that decision.” Audrey picked up a photo of herself and Steve on their second wedding day, twenty-seven years ago. “He was always a good father to Michael, I can’t imagine he’s any less for Cameron. And though I never thought he was right for you, I can’t disagree that he cares for you.”

Elizabeth stood and shifted Cameron to rest on her hip. “So…you’ll accept him?”

“Yes.” Audrey nodded. “Yes, I will. Though I reserve my judgment until he agrees to come to dinner one night soon.”

The tension left her shoulders and Elizabeth sighed in relief. “Thank you, Gram. You don’t know how much it means to me to know you’re going to give him a chance.”

General Hospital: Kristina’s Room

Alexis flipped through the snap shots of the houses Ric had gotten from their realtor. They were either the wrong location, the wrong size and in one case of lime green, the wrong color. She was beginning to think her apartment sounded like a nice place to live for the rest of their lives.

“Mama,” Kristina chirped. She held her hands out for the stack Alexis held her in her hands. “Gimme.”

Alexis held up a picture of a split level home five blocks from downtown Port Charles but still firmly residential. “How does this look, Princess?”

Kristina frowned. “What dat?”

“Well…it could be our new home,” Alexis said slowly. “You’d get a swing set.”

“Swing!” Kristina clapped her hands. “Swing, swing, swing!”

“And possibly a tricycle,” Alexis continued, though she still had doubts about putting her baby on anything that could move away from her. “That’s a bike with three wheels.”

“Bike?” Kristina’s eyes dark eyes grew wide. “Bike! Like on TV!”

“Yes, like on TV,” Alexis said, slightly irritated that her baby-sitter had let her watch so much television. She should have been read fairy tales instead of watching whatever daytime soap the baby sitter was currently addicted to.

“We live there,” Kristina decided. She reached for the picture and hugged it to her chest. “Home.”

“Yeah, okay. We’ll go see the inside of it,” Alexis compromised. “If Mommy doesn’t like it, we’re not doing it.”

“Home,” Kristina repeated. She looked down at the picture. “Krissy get swing, swing right?”

“Yes, Krissy get swing swing,” her mother repeated, charmed by the obvious attachment her daughter had to the image. Though she was not going to pick a house simply because her two-year-old daughter liked the way something looked.

She really wasn’t.

Club 101: Carly’s Office

“And make sure that the bottles aren’t broke,” Carly told her assistant. “The last shipment was full of cracked wine bottles.”

“Yes, Mrs. Corinthos,” the young man nodded. He marked that down and was about to bring up the next topic when there was a knock on the door. Without waiting for an invitation, Sonny pushed it open and held up a sheaf of papers.

Carly swallowed. The divorce papers. “We’re done for now, Roger. Come back in about an hour.”

Roger hurried to leave them alone. “What took you so long?” Carly asked as she shuffled some papers into a useless pile.

“The messenger delivered them to the warehouse and today was the first day I went in.” Sonny set them on her desk. “The terms are unacceptable.”

Carly sighed heavily. “Listen, we both know that this is over. I don’t see why we have to hurt each and drag it out.”

“I intend to see that my boys have their own home. You can’t live with your mother indefinitely,” Sonny chided.

“Why not?” Carly asked. “Mama’s already agreed to move her shifts around so she can be with the boys when I can’t. I can bring Morgan to work with me, pick Michael up from school.”

“Then what would we pay Leticia for?” Sonny asked pointedly.

“Nothing,” Carly answered. “I let her go.”

“What?” Sonny demanded. “Without speaking to me?”

“I don’t need a nanny,” Carly argued. “I want to raise my boys, I want to be their mother. If Morgan spends any more time with Leticia, he’ll be calling her Mom rather than me. If you want to keep her on for when you have the boys at the penthouse, that’s fine but you’re not going to tell me how I’m going raise my own children. We are staying with my mother until I feel we’re ready to move on and there’s nothing you can say to change that. Sign the papers and let’s get this over with.”

“And the child support is too low,” Sonny said. “You couldn’t feed them on what you’re asking for–”

“I’m not a child, Sonny. I can feed and clothe my own children. I only asked for child support because it’s standard. I don’t even want alimony–”

“What kind of bullshit is that?” Sonny exploded. “Since when do you turn down money?”

“Since I remembered that I grew up without any and I survived. I can take care of myself, Sonny and I don’t need you standing there judging my every move. I’m not Mrs. Sonny Corinthos anymore and for the first time, I feel damn good about myself.” Carly stood, her tone matching his. “I don’t want your money, I don’t want you in my life anymore Sonny. I’m tired of all of this. I’m tired of stepping on eggshells, tired of pretending to be someone I’m not–”

“What does that mean?” Sonny demanded.

“It means that before you came along, I didn’t need anyone. And I’m tired of depending on someone else. Get out of my office, Sonny. From now on, you deal with my lawyer.”

Cottage: Nursery

Elizabeth closed the fairy tale she’d been reading to Cameron and smiled when she saw him fast asleep. There were days when he’d refuse to go down for his nap which only made the days when he just slipped into sleep all the more sweet.

“Is he already asleep?” Jason asked from the doorway. She turned, surprised to see him. “I tried to make it over before his nap.”

“He just went down,” Elizabeth murmured. She tucked the blankets in more tightly around him. She set the book back onto the shelf and left the room, closing the door behind her. “I–I told my grandmother today.”

“Really?” Jason asked, surprised. He followed her down the stairs and into the living room. “How did it go?”

“A lot better than I thought it would,” Elizabeth admitted. “I think part of her knew.” She smiled ruefully. “It seems the people in my life knew at least that Zander wasn’t Cameron’s father. Can you believe Emily thought Lucky was?” she laughed and shook her head. “God.”

“I told Monica,” Jason said. He leaned against the arm chair and watched her start to fold a load of Cameron’s clothing. “Sam suggested that I should and I’m glad I did.”

“Monica loves you,” Elizabeth said. “I hope you told her she’s welcome to come by anytime to see him.”

“I did.” Jason hesitated. “I, ah, she wants to throw a baby shower because she didn’t get to while you were pregnant.”

Elizabeth wrinkled her nose and smiled at him. “I bet you turned that down fast. You and the Quartermaines, at a party together…” she trailed off and laughed. “What an idea that is.”

“I told her that it would be fine, that it was even a good idea. She pointed out that while we tell our families, that the only way to really announce it is to do it in a public way and I guess there’s no real more public way than a Quartermaine party.”

Elizabeth lowered a green shirt back into the basket and stared at him. “Are you…are you serious? You agreed to…you agreed to a Quartermaine party?”

Jason nodded. “I told you that I was going to make this up to you, Elizabeth. And I can’t really think of a better way to prove that I’m willing to put Cameron first. The Quartermaines aren’t the same and Monica deserves to have at least one of her grandchildren in her life.”

“Jason, I don’t want you to do something you don’t want to. I know how you feel about them–”

“But I know that you like them,” Jason cut in. “And I trust you. Besides, with everything that was going on last year, did you have a baby shower?”

“No,” Elizabeth said, her lips curving slightly. “No, I didn’t get that chance.” Her eyes were sparkling now. “It does sound like a good idea and I bet no one gives gifts like the Quartermaines.”

“Good. Then when Monica descends on us tomorrow with party plans, I can leave that part of it completely to you.” Jason shifted. “Elizabeth, I told Courtney this morning.”

Elizabeth bit her lip and looked away. “How did that go?”

“It went,” Jason said. “She knows the truth. She was upset and she told me to get out but–she knows.” He shifted again, uncomfortable with the memory of the morning’s incident. “I don’t know how she’s going to react in public but–everyone knows now.”

“I guess they do.” Elizabeth sighed. “Well, it’s over at any rate. We can start with the rest of our life.” She finished folding the last of the clothes and crossed the room to him, standing between his legs and resting her hands on his thighs. “What are you doing with the rest of the day?”

“I have to go to the warehouse–there are some loose ends I need to tie up and I need to talk to Sonny. I haven’t seen him since Tuesday when I just…dropped it on him.” He sighed heavily. “I don’t know how he’s handling this. The job, Cameron, you and part of me wonders…” he trailed off.

“Wonders what?” Elizabeth murmured. She ran her fingers through the soft hair by his ear.

“I wonder why it matters so much. What he thinks, more than Carly, more than Courtney.”

“He’s your best friend.” Elizabeth had long ago come to terms with that while he loved her, that he loved his son, he also loved Sonny. “He’s been more than friend–he’s been your father. You don’t want to disappoint him and you think you have by not being what he wants.”

“I guess. He’s just been so different since I came home this last time and I don’t think it’s ever going to be the way it used to be. I don’t think I’m ever going to be person I used to be.”

“Well, that’s okay,” Elizabeth said, winding her hands around his neck. He gripped her waist and was just so relieved that this still felt comfortable, that this still felt right. After all he’d put her through and how much they’d been through together, there was still this between them. She always knew what he was thinking, what he was really trying to say and she was the only person who’d been there for him–and not for someone else first. “I kind of like who you are now.” She kissed his chin and smiled up at him. “Will you stay tonight?”

“I wish I could,” Jason sighed heavily. “But I just–” He shook his head. “I have things I need to finish before I can stay in this house again, before I’ll feel like I have a right to.”

Elizabeth exhaled slowly. “All right. I won’t pretend I wish you felt differently. I miss you, Jason.” She tucked her head under his chin and closed her eyes. “I love you,” she murmured.

Warehouse: Sonny’s Office

Sonny was shuffling through paperwork when Jason entered his office. He didn’t knock and didn’t announce his presence, just stood and waited for his friend and former partner to look up.

Sonny finished the form he was filling out before looking up though he was aware of Jason from the moment he’d stepped in. “I’m surprised to see you here.”

“I thought we should talk,” Jason said.

Sonny nodded and sat back. “You, ah, dropped quite the bomb yesterday.” He folded his hands on the desk and peered up at Jason. “I’d like to tell you that I’m happy for you. All other things aside, that is something I’d like you to be aware of. Elizabeth is a wonderful woman and Cameron is a beautiful boy.”

“Thank you,” Jason nodded. “I know how lucky I am.”

“I’m sorry you feel like you have to quit your job to have what you need but if you feel that this is what you really need, what you really want, then I support it and I’ll do what I can to make it happen.”

Jason frowned. “I don’t understand.”

“Before we’re partners, we’re friends,” Sonny said. “And I think sometimes we both forget that. I’m sorry you felt like you had to hide this. I’m sorry that my sister was hurt in the process but it’s happened. We have to deal with it.” He cleared his throat. “Have you told Courtney yet?”

“This morning.” Jason looked away. “She didn’t take it well.”

“She’s having a rough time of it,” Sonny remarked. “I’ll take care of her, don’t worry. Carly knows?”

“Everyone knows,” Jason said. “I’m tired of hiding it, of hiding Elizabeth. She doesn’t deserve that.”

Sonny stood. “Are we okay then?”

“I guess we are.” Jason offered a hand and Sonny shook it. Their friendship would never, could never be the same. But maybe, just maybe, it would be better after this day.

PCMB: Brianne’s Office

“I’m going to call Dr. Webber, Brooke, Ned, and one of Brooke’s friends as witnesses,” Brianne told Lucky. She shoved a folder across the desk. “I just haven’t decided which kid though I’m leaning towards Lucas Jones because he has the cleanest record. I’m also going to interview a few more people connected to this case.” She hesitated and tapped her pen against a notepad. “Would Elizabeth Webber be cooperative?”

Lucky blinked and shifted in his chair. “What does she have to do with this case?”

“She’s spoken to Brooke. She’s not a licensed rape counselor so her conversations aren’t confidential. I just want to check what Brooke’s said to her.”

Lucky narrowed his eyes and leaned forward. “Do you think Brooke’s keeping something back? Lying?”

“No, no,” Brianne shook her head and looked back at her notes. “Brooke’s being truthful but she may have said something to Elizabeth in a moment of emotion that she might not have felt in the room with me. I just want to have all the details.” Her blue eyes met his, hers full of a surprising intensity. “I want the cell locked so tightly on this piece of scum that there’s no hope of him going free.”

It was the first piece of real emotion that Brianne had shown and its appearance made him sit back a little, surprised. “It’s what we all want but I’m not sure Elizabeth will feel comfortable divulging anything Brooke said.”

“I want to question her anyway.” Brianne flipped a page in her notes. “Did you go back today and re-interview the stronger witnesses at the high school?”

“I have ten affidavits,” Lucky answered. He held out a manila folder for her to take and watched as Brianne took the edge and set it down on her desk. “From different groups at the school. Some athletics, some academics, couple of in betweens, a few slackers. I wanted to cover all bases. They pretty much say the same thing. Sanchez was new to the school, barely attended. They saw him in the company of Brooke and her friends. They all assumed it was because she felt sorry for him. No one saw any behavior on her part that would even suggest she felt more than friendly towards him.”

“Good, good.” Brianne stood and went over to a filing cabinet where she removed a few files. “That’s it on the Sanchez case. Thank you for your help, Sergeant Spencer, but that’ll be all for today.” She flicked a glance towards him. “I don’t think we’ll need much more investigation from the PCPD so other than preparing you for the witness stand, we’re done here.”

Lucky nodded. “Elizabeth’s an old friend of mine. She might talk to me more easily than you–”

“I can do my job,” Brianne interrupted briskly. She took the files back to her desk. “Thank you, Sergeant,” she repeated.

Lucky hesitated and nodded. “Fine.” He stood and started for the door. His cell phone chirped and he paused to answer it. “Spencer.”

“It’s Scorpio,” Mac reported. “Sanchez made bail.”

“What do you mean he made bail?” Lucky repeated. “Where the hell did he get a hundred grand?”

Brianne’s head snapped up and she stood. “Sanchez is out?”

“His lawyer appealed the amount of the bail and it was lowered to ten thousand which the sister met. Are you still with ADA Joyce?”

“Yeah, how come she wasn’t aware of this?” Lucky demanded. He turned back to see Brianne’s pale face staring back at him. “Shouldn’t she have been present at something like this?”

“She should have been which is why I’m worried. I’m going to talk to Lorenzo Alcazar. I’m putting a man on Brooke Lynn at all times. I want you to stick close to the ADA.”

“Why?” Lucky asked suspiciously. “Do you think Sanchez is that stupid he’d go after Joyce?”

If it were possible, the pallor of the woman in question faded even more.

“I’m not interested in taking chances. I’ve got the okay from DA Lansing. Until we locate Sanchez and put someone on him at all times, I want all the principals protected. Diego Sanchez has connections in this town and if it wasn’t Alcazar who sprung him, I want to know who. Corinthos wouldn’t put his neck out for him.”

“He’d have no reason,” Lucky murmured. “I’ll stick close until you tell me otherwise.”

“I’ll be in touch.”

Lucky dropped his phone back in his pocket. “Looks like you can’t get rid of me that easily, Ms. Joyce.”

Brianne sat down slowly. “How did he make bail?” she demanded, color rushing back to her cheeks.

“Seems Hartman appealed to have the bail lowered. Diego Sanchez’s sister paid ten thousand to spring him.”

“No, no, any motions would have to go through this office. We have to be made aware even if we choose not to fight it.” Brianne’s hands were shaking as she reached for the phone. “There’s some mistake.”

He took the phone from her hands and ignored the way she froze when their hands brushed. He hung the receiver up. “There’s no mistake, Brianne. Sanchez is out on bail. Mac is putting someone on Brooke and he wants me to stay with you until we have a line on Sanchez and can pin him down.”

“I just–I don’t understand.” She shook her head. “He’s a minor. He’s seventeen, he has to be released into someone’s custody. Social Services, maybe. They wouldn’t give him back to Courtney Matthews.” Her eyes met his. “Would they?”

“Not after Ned Ashton served them with papers this morning for reckless endangerment.”

“Lorenzo Alcazar didn’t sound like he’d fight for his son’s defense yesterday.” Brianne stood and moved to the windows. “Where would Diego Sanchez’s sister get ten thousand dollars?”

“I don’t know. But until we nail down what happened and get Sanchez back behind bars, I’m not leaving you alone.” Lucky clasped his hands behind his back and waited for her to argue. She’d been in a hurry to get rid of him just ten minutes ago, she wouldn’t want him to be sticking so close now.

But he had made up his mind that he wouldn’t listen, no matter what she argued. He had a job to do and Mac Scorpio was right. Diego Sanchez was unpredictable and without scruples. He wasn’t about to let Brianne go unprotected.

“That’s a good idea,” she murmured. “Better the devil you know.”

He frowned. “What does that mean?”

“What?” Brianne turned. She shook her head. “I have to go to the courthouse. I have to challenge the bail.” She pulled her arms through her black coat and grabbed her purse.

Lucky continued to frown but followed her through the door. He was beginning to understand that the way a woman’s mind worked would always remain a mystery.

Note: The lyrics snippet at the beginning of the chapter is Avil Lavigne’s Tomorrow.

January 7, 2015

This is by no means an extensive list of all the stories I’ve loved in the more than decade I’ve been reading and writing fanfiction. Unfortunately, many have been lost to board deletions and time, so if for some reason I don’t have a link available, it’s because I personally don’t have one anymore.

And most of these stories are older just because I am horribly out of date with my reading and I’ve been writing so much lately I haven’t had much chance for getting caught up on newer stories.

These are not ranked in any order, just by the way I remembered to put them on the list.

  1. Quagmire by ILETUDRIVE. Stephanie is hands down, one of my favorite GH authors, even though some of her best work remains incomplete. I have fantasies she’ll come back to writing one day, but ha, I may be delusional. This particular entry is set in 2002 and rewrites the stalker storyline in tremendous fashion.
  2. The Right Girl by Huma. My obsession with Johnny and Nadine can be directly traced to this story.  I could never write these characters as well as she does, but I sure try. And her Claudia? Flawless. Just fantastic.
  3. Worlds on Fire by LeaB. An older story that I just read this year, as she mostly finished it after I had disappeared from the fic world. It’s a rewrite of the 2004 storylines that inspired me to write Jason and Elizabeth storyline in The Best Thing as a slow-paced reconnection. Really, anything by Lea is tremendous.
  4. Heartbeats by oyhumbug. I found this at Archive Of Our Own this last year and spent days catching up on this author’s work. This is my favorite of her works–a unique take on Jason’s exit in 2000 and the selfish nature of the people in his life.
  5. The Lone Ranger series by Huma. This is Liason and company in high school. It’s alternate universe and pretty much goes against everything I’ve ever said about writing in character, but my God, it still works for me.
  6. Web of Deceit by ILETUDRIVE. The story that’s inspired my recent return to 2002 and those events. It takes the car accident Courtney, Elizabeth, and Gia were involved in during that spring and does something so amazing with it, I can’t even begin to describe it.
  7. Once Upon a Time by eliza. I no longer have a link for this story, which is literally so damn depressing. It’s set in Regency era England, where debutante Elizabeth finds herself falling for black sheep Jason Morgan.
  8. Whispers by JewelTones. No longer available on the web, but a fantastic supernatural alternate universe I wish I had saved years ago.
  9. Dance With the Devil by Jeweltones. Also not available, but a semi AU story in which Elizabeth and Jason are in Italy.
  10. Not Jake’s Food by SlimWhistler. The only link I have for this is kind of crappy — the conversion from Ezboard to Yuku left it with no punctuation, so it can be hard to follow. That being said, one of the quintessential Liason stories from the good old days.

 

Honestly, I could list everything by Lea, Stephanie, and Huma, so please check out the other stories their links lead to. I just tried to choose my absolute favorites here. If anyone has links to the three stories I don’t have anymore, I’d love to see that. I’m working on overhauling my link section, so maybe as I revisit more sites, I’ll be able to add to this.

storyThe Best Thing has been updated with Chapter Sixteen. I haven’t done nearly as much writing on my in progress stories as I’d like for the last week or so, I’ve had a rotten sinus infection right after a crappy cold.  Story of my life.

I updated the Ebook page with the links to All I Want For Christmas — I aplogize for delaying on that in the last week. Please let me know if any of the formats I post don’t work.

I’ve also revised the release date for The Best Thing as a finished ebook (and as a finished story). By rewriting the ending, I added about, ha, ten chapters.  So rather than finishing up maybe midway through February, it’s more like sometime in March.

I know people might not pay attention to my Coming Soon page, but I mentioned on Monday that I had moved The Sisters to the Fiction Graveyard because I had decided to rewrite it. I had been playing around with some ideas on rewriting some things in 2002 and decided, instead, to combine those ideas with some of the elements I liked from The Sisters. That new story is Bittersweet, which is a massive rewrite of Jason’s return. I’m sure some people might be getting frustrated with my newer stories and not writing some of the previously planned ones, but I go where my muse takes me. I don’t post anything now unless I know I can finish it.

So will Bittersweet show before other, previously planned stories? Not before All We Are, but possibly along with Mad World or Burn in Heaven. The outline is working really well, but I’m only about a third of the way through it. We’ll see 🙂

 

This entry is part 16 of 34 in the The Best Thing

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Brave, Sara Bareilles


Monday, July 11, 2005

Kelly’s: Courtyard

“There’s my brother.” Emily kissed the top of his head as she moved past him to sit across the table. “It feels like ages since I saw you.”

“Two weeks,” Jason said absently as he opened a bag of small cereal puffs and dumped it on the tray of Evie’s booster seat. “We had lunch.”

Emily dismissed that with a wave of her hand. “I meant one on one brother sister time. We’re always around other people. I can’t bug you the way I want to.” She pouted. “You ordered without me.”

Jason looked at her with some impatience. “You’re a half hour late. I was hungry.”

“I practically had to sneak out to take my lunch break. I wish I could skip the intern part and go straight through to the doctoring part.” She perused the lunch menu. “So, how’s things? Where’s Cam and Elizabeth today?”

“Elizabeth’s at her studio, so Steven took Cameron for the day.” Jason shifted. “You don’t like the hospital?”

“It’s fine, just busy, busy.” Emily glanced up and grinned. “Hey, Georgie. I swear, you never leave this place.”

“Don’t I know it,” the teenager complained. She took Emily’s order and then went back inside.

“And I saw how you sidestepped the question,” Emily said. She reached across the table for a fry. “You didn’t tell me how things were.”

“They’re fine.” He shifted again. “Actually—”

Her eyes lit up. “You’re going to ask me for advice? Fantastic. I’ve been waiting for this day my whole life—”

“We’ve only known each other half your life.”

She narrowed her eyes. “It feels like so much longer.” Emily leaned back in her chair. Brothers. “So, actually what? Finish your sentence.”

“It’s…about Elizabeth.” Jason hesitated. “I…want to ask her to move in with me.”

Holy crapola. This was the mother lode. “Into the penthouse?” Emily asked. “Because, I mean, I know the short-term stuff is fine, but…” She sighed. “Elizabeth said things…were getting a bit more tense with Sonny and Carly.”

“Yeah.” Jason rubbed the back of his neck. “Yeah, they are. I…you know I was thinking of moving out a few months ago but decided not to in order to keep the situation from getting worse.”

“But now?” Emily prompted when her brother remained silent.

“Now Carly knows the truth, and I’ve told Sonny I don’t plan to sign away my guardianship until I’m satisfied he’s in a better place. So it’s as a good time as any to find somewhere else to live.”

“Makes complete sense.” Emily waited until Georgie set down her order and refilled Jason’s coffee cup. Once she was gone, she reached for the ketchup to dump on her fries. “So what’s the ish? Elizabeth and Cam are basically living with you as it is. You don’t think she’ll agree until you find a new place?”

“Maybe. I don’t know.” Jason shook his head. “I’ve…I’ve never asked anyone to move in with me before.”

Emily pursed her lips. “No, I guess that’s true. You and Robin just kind of fell into it, and didn’t Courtney start staying with you after Ric kidnapped her?”

“Something like that. This…with Elizabeth, it’s different. I don’t know. You’re right, I should just ask her—”

“No, I get it,” Emily held up a hand. “It’s a deliberate commitment. Plus, you have the kids. Both of them. I mean…” She cast a glance at her niece, who held out a mushy cereal puff. “No, thanks, baby. You finish it.” To Jason, she continued, “Evie’s situation is complicated, but Cameron’s a permanent fixture, no if, ands, or buts. You guys move in together, there’s a logical progression. Who are you going to be to him?”

“I’d adopt him if that’s something Elizabeth would want—”

“Nope.” Emily shook her head. “Not good enough. She’s not going to want that wishy washy kind of thing—if you want it, I’ll do it. Do it because you want it. Because you want Cameron to be part of your life.” Emily leaned forward. “Jase, it’s a big enough step when you’re not a single mother.”

“You’re right.” Jason reached for his coffee. “I want to adopt him, and I want Elizabeth with me.”

She bit into her burger with relish. God, how far they’d come since that day in December. “Have you…considered something permanent between you?” She hoped he wouldn’t close down now. “I’m not trying to nag, I know how much that annoyed you both—”

“I have,” Jason interrupted. “But I can’t ignore that we’ve both been married before. Mine was…” He pushed his half-eaten pastrami sandwich away. “I don’t know. It ended up being a mistake. But Elizabeth’s experience with Ric was so much worse.”

“That’s the truth. Slimy piece of crap. He’s lucky he’s been so good to Alexis and Kristina, or else I would have sicced Nikolas on him ages ago.” Emily sipped her soda. “So bad marriages all around. It’s not like I don’t get that. I married someone because it seemed like a good idea and then I broke his heart in the worst way possible.” She pressed her lips together. “I know what’s it like to be scared of the future because of what came before.”

She sighed and twisted her wedding ring on her finger. “And it’s not something to think about lightly, that’s for sure. But Jason, when it’s right, it’s right.” She closed her eyes, remembering that incredible day six weeks earlier. “There’s something about standing there with each other, in front of the people you love, and making that promise. It means something.” She opened her eyes and focused on Jason. “I know you didn’t always see it that way, that it was just some paperwork—”

“I know it’s more now. I just….it’s only been a few weeks—”

“Time is relative, Jase. Are you going to tell me there’s something about Elizabeth that would change your mind in another six months?” She tilted her head. “Or is it because of the situation with Sonny and Carly that you’re still hesitating?”

“It’s a factor,” Jason admitted. “I don’t know, Emily. I just have to think about it some more.”

“Hey, you’ve been doing something right so far,” Emily told him. “Just follow your instincts.”

Corinthos Penthouse: Bedroom

Carly removed her diamond earrings and placed them in the velvet lined drawer of her jewelry box. Across the room, she watched as Sonny methodically and silently removed his suit and changed into the silk pajamas he wore to bed.

They had not spoken about their argument the week before—he had spent a great deal of time at the warehouse, she at her club. When they had spoken, it had been about the boys.

That ended now.

“Have you spoken to Jason?” she asked.

He glanced over at her, his dark eyes unreadable in the shadows of their bedroom. “Yes.”

She pursed her lips when he said nothing more. Why must everything be so goddamn push and pull? Didn’t he understand she couldn’t fix a goddamn thing if no one ever told her the fucking truth?

“I suppose that means nothing is going to change.” She twisted on the vanity seat to look at him directly. “That he’ll retain custody.”

“For now.”

His short answers were only stoking her ire. Of course he blamed her when she damn well knew the root of the problem was Sonny himself. If he had just trusted her, they could have avoided this.

If he had kept his filthy hands off that whore, none of this would be happening.

She turned back and reached for her cold cream. Another approach was necessary, she could see this now. She had tried to talk to Jason before without any change. If Sonny had been rebuffed in his attempts to regain custody of his daughter, then Jason had no intention of doing the right thing.

And why the hell wasn’t Jason trying to help make this situation go away? He was with that simpering little twit and her bastard. He had a family; he knew keeping Evie was destroying Sonny. What the hell was the hold up?

Didn’t he understand he held the cards?

Or maybe Sonny hadn’t pushed enough. Surely, Jason would relent if Sonny just pushed. How to make that happen?

She applied the cream to her face, slowly massaging the lotion into her skin. “Was it Jason’s idea to change the results of the paternity test or yours?” she asked.

Sonny sighed. “Carly, I don’t—”

“I think we should talk about how it happened,” Carly asked. She dabbed some of the cream into the delicate surface under her eyes. “The only way we’re going to have a fresh start for our marriage or for our boys is if we do this. I don’t want it to fester like it has for a year.”

Her husband sat on the bed, a newspaper in his hands. “I—I didn’t know he was going to do it until he did it.”

As Carly had suspected. She nodded. “Did…you think it might be the truth?”

“I wondered,” Sonny admitted. “Until I realized he and Courtney hadn’t separated at the time it would have happened. He wouldn’t have done that to my sister.” He clenched his hands. “Even though he’s been pretty damn quick to forget her.”

“I…should have dealt with it better, Sonny,” Carly said, though she didn’t think her actions had been nearly as bad as his. She’d been shot in the head—hadn’t she forgiven that? Did no one remember what she’d been through? “I just…I was hurt. I lashed out. I don’t…know if I meant what I said about the boys.”

She’d meant every word of it and had intended to use Alexis’s secret to destroy him in court, but that wasn’t important now.

“Well, I took you for your word.” Sonny stood, crossed to the window that overlooked the city. “I thought…I’d use the summer to figure out how to fix things.”

There was more to this story, but Carly knew he would never tell her and if it reflected badly on Sonny, it was unlikely to come from Jason either.

They were always more loyal to one another than they were to her. Men. They all stuck together.

“And when Sam died?” Carly murmured. She set the tub of cold cream down and slowly began to draw her brush through her blonde hair. “Why didn’t it come out then?”

“Sam…tricked me into terminating my parental rights,” Sonny said through clenched teeth. “I thought I was signing a trust for Evie. Instead, she took them away and created a will that left guardianship to Jason in the event of her death.”

Carly smirked. If she didn’t hate that whore so much, she might admire the tactic. A woman scorned had scorched him right back. Served him right.

It was easy to see this from Sam’s side of it. She’d been used, tossed away, foisted on Jason. Sonny had returned to his family. Why should she make it easy on the bastard who discarded her?

There was a certain poetry, a certain sense of innate justice that Carly respected.

That didn’t change the way of the world.

“I’m surprised Jason upheld it after she was gone.” Carly set her brush down and twisted to the side to look at his dark form at the end of the room. “That he didn’t take the opportunity to walk away from it. I can’t imagine it was easy on him, with what happened to Michael.”

“We believed you’d take the boys and fight me in court.” Sonny shifted and turned to look at her. “He was protecting the boys from that. Protecting Evie from…” His voice faltered, and he just shook his head.

“From being raised by a woman who loathed the woman who bore her.” Carly narrowed her eyes. What a high opinion these men had of her. She would have adapted to the situation. Maybe she never would have loved Evie the way she did Michael and Morgan, but she could separate the daughter from the mother.

And even if she didn’t fully believe that, what gave them the right to decide that for her? To take away her chance to prove herself?

They didn’t trust her, didn’t even give her a damn chance. She was almost tempted to prove them right. Call Alexis, demand Sonny be raked over the coals for his affairs, for his lies.

But that didn’t serve her purpose. Her children deserved their place in life, and if Carly had to sacrifice her self-respect to gain it for them, that’s exactly what she’d do.

“You didn’t give me much choice, Carly—”

“It sounds like Jason didn’t give you much of one either,” Carly said. “Decided to take responsibility, stood aside while Sam tricked you…” She shook her head. “I wonder if the rumors were true. If maybe he fell for her. She probably batted her whore eyes at him, wanted to raise her baby with him. He’s rich, single, and loves children. Perfect target.”

Sonny didn’t say anything for a long moment. “Are you saying you think Jason helped her trick me?”

“No.” But Carly made sure to hesitate.

The only way to get Evie in this penthouse, the only way to assuage Sonny’s guilt was to make him go after Evie.

And if Jason wanted to stop her from fixing all their problems, well then maybe he deserved what he got.

“And even if he did, you know it was just to protect you.” Carly raised an eyebrow. “You know he’d do anything to protect you.” She paused. “Anything he deemed necessary.”

Her stomach twisted as she looked back into her vanity mirror, into her own reflection because she knew the rules of the game she was playing and it didn’t entirely sit right with her.

She was selling Jason down the river in Sonny’s eyes, putting the weight of the blame on him. It couldn’t stay on her, not if she wanted to preserve her marriage.

And really, as much as she loved Jason, as much as she knew his heart had been in the right place, it was his fault. He’d decided he knew what was best without consulting either of them.

Turning Sonny against Jason had not been her first choice, but Jason had set the board; all the moves had been his. Sonny had only reacted to them, leaving Carly entirely out of the equation.

She was done being a pawn. It was time to remind them that somewhere inside Carly Corinthos lurked Caroline Benson.

A woman with a plan.

Morgan Penthouse: Bedroom

She was still trembling when Jason leaned down, brushed his lips against hers, her fingers laced through his hair. “Why does it always seem to get better?” she murmured, trying to get her breath.

“I don’t know.” Jason rolled to his side slightly and tucked her against him. “But it does.”

“I love you.” She closed her eyes, her fingers tracing small patterns on his damp chest. “Not just for your body, though.”

She felt more than heard the laugh roll through him. “Well, that’s good.”

They laid in comfortable silence for a while longer, as they often did on the nights she spent at his penthouse—which, in the last month, had been more often than she was at home.

She knew Cameron and Evie were asleep at the other end of the hall in a room that had easily adapted to another crib, dresser, and several more toys more suited for a growing boy with their nanny in the adjoining room.

“You know what’s freaking me out?” she asked. Before he could respond, she continued. “This is the happiest I can remember being in years.” She lifted her head to rest her chin on his arm so she could look at him. “Everything about this feels right.”

“It does,” he agreed, his fingers sifting through her hair. “And…I’ve been happy, too. I-I love you so much.” And though the words felt slightly stilted, even forced, she knew they weren’t false. He was a man who often found it difficult to express himself.

Which made the moments when he did so much better.

“I just want it to last forever,” she admitted, closing her eyes.

“Maybe—maybe it can.”

Her eyes flew open, and she pulled herself to a sitting position, tugging the sheet over her breasts. “What?”

“I—” Jason cleared his throat and also sat up, his face only partially visible in the moonlight that filtered through the blinds at the window. “I mean…we could…you could be here. Um, more.” He took a deep breath. “All the time.”

“Like…live with you,” Elizabeth clarified, her heart racing. “Jason…I—”

“I know it’s only been a few weeks,” he interrupted. “And maybe it’s too soon, but I just…” He looked around, and even though the room was darkened, she saw his gaze touch on the dresser littered with her jewelry, her makeup. The half-open closet door that housed a few suits, but more of her clothes.

“I mean, I’m already…here most of the time.” Elizabeth shifted. “My grandmother is always…” She licked her lips. “She’s always joking with me that I—I just come in for my mail.”

“I know.” Jason switched on the table lamp. “I don’t want to rush you or move too fast—”

“It’s been almost six years since we met,” she murmured, “I don’t think moving too fast is something we can be accused of.” She dragged one hand through her hair. “Okay. I mean, it’s…one thing for Cam and I to spend the nights, but you know he’s got a ton of stuff at Gram’s. I mean, he’d live here.”

“He kind of already does,” Jason told her. “If—if it’s me you’re worried about with him—”

“No.” God, she was making this more complicated than she had to. “I just…if we live together, Jason, it’s just…a thing to consider. About…our kids.” She twisted her fingers in her lap. “I love you, and I want you to be important to my son. I just…I have…to be cautious.”

“I know.” Jason tilted his head. “But what’s really wrong? Is it really about Cam?”

“I just…I’m just scared,” she admitted. “We’ve been so careful this time, Jason. And we’ve done everything right. And it’s been perfect. I mean, Sonny and Carly are not a factor in this, I promise. Because that problem exists whether we live together or not, so it’s not about that. It’s…about changing things.” She bit her lip to keep it from trembling.

“Sometimes,” she continued, softly, “we don’t always do well with change.”

“Like the last time we sort of lived together,” Jason responded. “When Sonny was going through…something like this, and I chose his well-being over being honest with you.”

“If we’re going to simplify it, maybe. I mean, it’s different now. We…we’re in a different place, and we’re different people, but…” She scrubbed a hand over her face. “I don’t know how to explain it.”

“I want us to be a family,” Jason said. “I-I want to adopt Cameron.”

Her head snapped up at that. “Jason—”

“A-And if I adopt Evie, then I’d want you to adopt her, too.”

Holy crap. “You want to…” Her throat was tight, she pressed a fist to her mouth. “You want to adopt my son. And…you…want me to adopt Evie.”

“We-we could get married, if you’d feel better about it that way—”

The room spun for a moment, and she swallowed hard. “Jason, I don’t want you to say that because you think it’s what I want—”

“I want to be with you,” he interrupted. “To be a family with you.” He paused. “I didn’t…used to think that marriage was part of that. I thought it was just…paperwork. Something people did to make themselves feel better.”

Oh my God, this was really happening to her. “Jason—”

“But I know it’s about more than that.” He glanced away for a moment, then looked back at her. “It’s about making promises to one another. I…want to make them to you.”

Her heart was going to fly right out of her chest, she just knew it. “Jason…” She reached for his hand. “Are—is this a proposal? Are…” A tear slid down her cheek. “Are you asking me to marry you?”

“Maybe I should—it should be a different way. I—I don’t have a ring—”

“That’s not important to me.” She swiped at her tears and crawled into his lap. “Are we getting engaged? Is this what’s happening?”

His lips curved into a slow grin as he brought her clasped hands to his lips. “Yeah. So you’ll marry me?”

She beamed. “Hell yes!” And then proceeded to punctuate a series of yeses with kisses to his cheeks, his lips, and anywhere else she could reach.

Elizabeth Webber was going to marry Jason Morgan, and no one on this planet was going to stop her.

January 5, 2015

Hey! So this week’s update is a bit small. I only updated two stories rather than the customary four.  I’ve bitten the bullet and moved The Sisters to the graveyard.  I’ve disliked it almost since I finished it. It was a lazy rewrite of a badly written first attempt at fanfiction in 2002. I like some of the elements too much to let it languish in nothing. Plus I’ve always wanted to return to the summer of 2002 and rewrite the Luis Alcazar storyline 😛

Not positive about updates for this week just because I’ve been a bit stuck writing The Best Thing, so I don’t have a lot of chapters ready and what I do have isn’t beta’d yet. So I’ll keep you updated.

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This entry is part 6 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don’t they know know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye
Don’t they know know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye

— Vonda Shepard, The End of the World

———————————-

Carly only drank the one glass of vodka. She’d calmly thanked for Luke for his time (which only served to worry her uncle more) and returned to the penthouse.

She fed Mandy, Drew and Michael and then asked her eldest son to take the twins to a movie. Michael could tell something was up with his mother, so he didn’t question it. He took Mandy and Drew out, leaving Carly by herself in the penthouse.

She sat on the couch and waited.

It was nearly midnight when Sonny finally got home. The kids had long returned from the movies and gone to bed. Having seen his mother’s demeanor when they got back, he ushered his younger brother and sister to bed and decided to leave his mother alone.

Carly was napping on the couch when the sound of the penthouse door creeping on startled her awake. She opened her eyes sleepily. “Sonny?”

He closed the door behind him, cloaking the downstairs in darkness again. “What are you still doing up?”

She sat up and pulled the light weight blanked around her waist. “I was waiting for you. You’re late.”

He sat on the couch next to her and turned so he was facing her. She couldn’t make out his facial features–but from the tense set of his shoulders, Carly knew Alexis had told him.

“Yeah…sorry.”

She bit her lip and leaned forward. “Bad day?” she asked cautiously.

He scratched his temple with his forefinger. “You could say that.”

She took a deep breath. You’re doing good so far. You can do this. “Can you talk about it?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know what to think anymore, Carly. Things…things are just…” He stopped and shook his head. “I feel like I’m walking around in a fog–like it’s a dream, y’know?”

“Sonny…what happened?” Carly asked softly, for once thankful for the darkness that swallowed the penthouse. Darkness that would hide her expression should she be unable to hide her knowledge.

“Alexis stopped by the warehouse today.”

“Why?” Carly demanded, injecting an edge into her voice.

“To tell me her daughter is sick,” Sonny replied quietly. “Christina–the eldest.”

Carly frowned. “What does that have to do with you?” she asked.

“Eddie and Alexis aren’t matches,” Sonny continued, as if she hadn’t spoken. “And Alexis tells me that Brooke and Ned won’t match either.” She felt his eyes on her. “And the reason they won’t match is that Christina is not Ned’s daughter.”

Carly did her best to tense her body. “What?” she asked.

“It appears that Alexis has kept the truth from me for ten years.”

“What truth?” Carly demanded. She straightened her back. “Sonny, you can’t mean–”

“Christina is my daughter.”

Carly couldn’t speak for a minute–didn’t know where else to go in her performance. She could rant and rave, but she didn’t think she could pull it off.

“I’m not sure what to think, Carly. I should be consumed with hatred for Alexis for keeping the secret from me, but do you know what I keep thinking of?”

“What?” Carly asked softly.

“Christina is going to die unless they find a match.”

Carly felt her body relax. Sonny was going to concentrate on Christina’s illness and not on the actual secret. “Well, then I guess we should get the twins tested as soon as possible.”

“Yeah,” Sonny agreed. He watched his wife pushed the blanket off her lap and stand. “Carly?”

She turned to him. “Hmm?” she asked, while in the process of folding the blanket.

“You want to tell me what’s going on?”

She froze–she knew it was a bad thing to do–that if there were a light on, he’d be able to read the guilt on her face. “What do you mean?” she asked, forcing herself to continue folding.

“You’re calm about this. You would be normally screaming at the top of your lungs.”

“True,” Carly agreed. “But you said it yourself. Christina will die if they don’t find a match. Don’t you think that’s more important?”

Sonny stood and wrapped his hands around her wrists. “I know you, Carly. I know you better than anyone else in the world. And I know when you’re up to something. Please–tell me.”

She forced a smile onto her face. “I’m not up to anything, Sonny. You’ve had a long day–”

“Don’t lie to me!” he said, raising his voice and tightening his grip.

“Sonny,” Carly began in a calm voice. “Let me go. I haven’t done anything, and you’re not thinking straight.”

Sonny took a deep breath and let her go. “I’m sorry. I just–” he stopped and rubbed a hand over his face. “I’m going to bed.”

Carly watched him climb the stairs and she sighed.

She’d just dodged a very big bullet.

And she didn’t know how much longer she’d able to do it.

—-

Jason knocked briefly on Elizabeth’s hospital door before pushing it open. He stopped dead in his tracks.

The bed was made.

The room was empty.

He turned around, letting the door shut behind him as he headed to the nurse’s desk.

“Elizabeth Morgan,” he barked to the nurse behind the desk. The brunette looked up at him and blinked at the rude tone.

“Excuse me?” she asked.

“Elizabeth Morgan,” Jason repeated. “She’s not in her room.”

The nurse leisurely typed in Elizabeth’s name into the computer and took her time scrolling through things until she finally said, “Miss Morgan checked out about an hour ago.”

Jason frowned. “What do you mean she checked out?”

The nurse raised a perfectly plucked eyebrow. “She checked out, sir. Dr. Quartermaine had her discharged.” She frowned. “If I can remember right, he was arguing with her here by the elevators. Told her she should wait until her husband got here, but Miss Morgan was adamant. She was leaving.” She looked up at him, as if seeing him for the first time. “Are you her husband?”

“Yes,” Jason snapped, trying to figure out what Elizabeth could have gone. She wasn’t at the house–Lu was watching the kids until he got back and she would have called if Elizabeth had been there.”

“Oh, well, Dr. Quartermaine wanted me to tell you that he needed to see you.” The nurse reached towards the phone. “Do you want me to page him?”

Jason hesitated. Alan never did things like this–unless it was important. Alan had kept his distance, and if he’d left a message for Jason like this, he must have meant business. “Yeah. Tell him I’m waiting over here.” He indicated the seating area.

While Jason waited for Alan, he was making calls. Lu hadn’t heard from her and neither had Emily or Luke and Laura. He was calling Carly and Sonny when Alan finally showed up. He shut the phone off and stood. “Alan.”

“Jason.” Alan stuck his clipboard under his arm. “I tried to keep her here until you got here, but she wouldn’t listen. She, um, she seemed upset. She wanted to check out the earliest she could.” He studied his son carefully. “She’s taking the miscarriage very hard, isn’t she?”

Jason rubbed the back of his neck. “Yeah. She is. Thanks for trying, Alan. Do you know where I can find her?”

Alan shook his head. “No. But Amy Vining was at the desk when she called the taxi.” Alan smiled. “You can bet Amy heard something.”

—-

Lucky was going through some contact sheets at the Port Charles Grille while waiting for Emily to meet him for lunch. She’d sounded strange on the phone–had absolutely insisted they meet today. He’d suggested grabbing some take-out at Kelly’s and meeting her at the office, but she’d been adamant.

Somewhere public.

He was absorbed in the sheets and didn’t hear or see Emily’s approach. She stopped just before the table and stared at him for a moment. How did it come to this? She’d been so in love with him–how had she missed that he didn’t feel the same? How had she managed to convince herself that Lucky was over Elizabeth?

Steeling herself for the confrontation, she pulled out the chair across from and sat down. “Hi.”

Lucky looked up then, a smile crossing his face. “Hey, babe. How you feeling?”

“I’m fine.” Emily took a sip of the water and signaled for the waiter. “You ready to order?”

He frowned. “Is everything okay, babe?”

“It’s fine,” Emily said, pasting a smile on her face. She was craving lobster and she needed to satisfy that urge before breaking things off.

Her kid had spoken.

They talked about nonsensical things most of the meal–Emily avoiding the subject of the impending birth and their relationship. Lucky kept trying to bring the conversation around to it, but she kept putting him off.

Finally Lucky pushed his plate back. “Em, what’s going on?”

Having finished her meal, Emily took another sip of the milkshake she’d begged for. This kid was strange–milkshakes and lobster were the sanest cravings she’d had. Others included pistachio ice cream in the middle of the night, and pickle and peanut butter sandwiches.

“We need to talk, Lucky,” Emily began.

Lucky shook his head. “This doesn’t sound good.”

“Please, let me talk, okay?” she said. She sat back in her chair. “Lucky, you’re my best friend. You’ve always been my best friend. But this isn’t going to work. You know that, right?”

Lucky frowned. “What are you talking about? Em, I love you–”

“Don’t,” Emily said, shaking her head. “Please don’t say that. Lucky, I’m not going to marry you. It’s not going to happen.”

“Why?” Lucky demanded. “We’re in love–”

“No.” Emily sighed. “We’re not. You’re still in–”

“Emily, how many times are we going to have this conversation?” Lucky demanded angrily. “I am completely over Elizabeth Webber.”

“Morgan,” Emily corrected softly. “Her name is Elizabeth Morgan.” She met Lucky’s eyes and smiled sadly. “You think I’m stupid, Lucky? I’m the one you confided in when Liz broke up with you. I talked you out of stopping the wedding. You’re still in love with her and I’m been blind to it.” She rubbed her abdomen. “But I can’t stay with you because I’m pregnant. I still want you to be this baby’s father, but you’re not in love with me and I won’t settle.”

“Emily, you’re pregnant. The hormones–”

“Do not blame this on my hormones!” Emily snapped. “I am thinking very clearly. It is not fair to blame this on my pregnancy. I can’t continue ignoring the way your eyes light up when her name is mentioned or how excited you get when you think she and Jason are having problems. Not now. We’re bringing a new life into this world and damn it, I deserve better. This child deserves better.” She tossed her napkin on the table and stood. “I’m sorry it has to be this way, Lucky.”

“Em, we can work this out–” Lucky started, rising out of his chair. But Emily had turned her back and walked away.

Without giving him a second look.

—-

“Why are we at the hospital, Mom?” Amanda asked as Carly led her and her brother off the elevator.

“I told you, sweetie. You and Drew are going to have a few tests run,” Carly replied. “And then you’re going to meet someone.”

“Who?” Drew asked, peering at his mother.

“Her name’s Christina,” Carly said, leading the children towards the oncology ward. Once there, she set them up with the doctor and left the room, unable to watch them get the test taken. She hated seeing them in pain.

She found Ned waiting for her outside. “Hi, Ned.”

“Hello, Carly.” Ned jerked his head towards the door Carly had just exited. “Are they being tested?”

Carly nodded. “Yeah. I’d like for them to meet Christina.” At Ned’s glare, she hurried to explain, “I don’t think they should know the truth or anything, but I thought they should just meet her. You know, in case one of them is a match, they might be more inclined to help if they know who it is.”

Ned hesitated. “I want to run this by Alexis.”

Carly nodded. “Of course.”

“I don’t know if this means anything to you, but thank you for bringing them so soon,” Ned said, shifting his feet. “I know it means a lot to Alexis.”

“I told Alexis and I’ll tell you–I’m not doing this for you. I’m not doing this for Alexis and I’m not doing it for Sonny. I’m doing this for Christina.”

“Fine,” Ned said coldly. “As long as we’ve got that straight.” He was about turn away when he thought twice and turned back to her. “Sonny doesn’t know does he?”

“Know what?” Carly demanded, tired of having this conversation with him.

“That you knew,” Ned said. “You didn’t tell him did you?”

“No!” Carly said, immediately. “As long as you and Alexis keep your mouths shut, he never will.”

“Never will what?”

Carly shut her eyes and counted to ten, desperately hoping that when she looked to her left, her husband would not be there glaring at her.

—-

Jason had never been so thankful for Amy Vining’s eavesdropping. He parked his bike at the parking lot of Vista Point and walked towards the observation deck.

She was standing there, her arms tightly crossed, staring out at the view of Port Charles.

“Elizabeth.”

Elizabeth slowly turned. “How did you find me?”

He stared at her, confused. “Why did you leave the hospital?” he asked, walking towards her.

She gave a little shrug and turned back towards the view. “I just wanted some time.”

He stopped just behind her. “You still thinking about what Dee said?”

She sighed. “A little.”

He brought his hands up to the sides of her shoulders and just rubbed them a little. “She didn’t mean it the way it came out–”

“I know. She’s just a little girl–she didn’t know any better,” Elizabeth replied softly. “But it doesn’t change how I feel.”

“Elizabeth, this wasn’t your fault,” Jason said, forcefully.

“I should have been more careful,” she said, her voice barely above a whisper. “I shouldn’t have been so active–”

“Active? Elizabeth, you did the same things when you pregnant with Dee and Davie–you couldn’t have known–”

“But I should have!” Elizabeth cried suddenly. She jerked away from him and turned around. She spread her arms out at her sides. “I should have known something was wrong and I didn’t! What kind of mother does that make me?”

“Elizabeth, you know you’re a good mother. Things happen for a reason–”

“How can there be a reason in the world for why this happened?” she demanded, glaring at him. “How can there be a legitimate reason for losing my baby?” Her eyes were filled with tears and she clutched her hands to her head, squeezing her eyes shut to keep the tears from spilling onto her cheeks. “God, Jason, we had ultrasounds…I felt this baby kick–it was a real, living and breathing baby! How can there be a reason for having a miscarriage?”

“I don’t know–”

She pushed past him then and gripped the bar by the stairs that led to the second level of the deck. “Do you know what I see when I come up here?”

Thrown by the change in topics, Jason blinked. “What?”

“I see you and me, ten years ago.” Her voice was calmer now–a little hoarse. “I see us sitting on that bench and you telling me you couldn’t be the friend I thought you were.”

“Elizabeth–” He came forward and tried to put a hand on her shoulder. She shrugged away from him.

“I don’t see the time we kissed, or even when you yelled at me for warning you about Alcazar. I just see you breaking my heart again.”

“We both made mistakes,” Jason said, not sure why they were having this conversation. “I should have known I couldn’t push you away–”

She turned around and leaned against the railing. “I couldn’t change your mind then. And you can’t change my mind now.”

“You did change my mind, Elizabeth,” he reminded her gently. “Remember?”

“No, not really,” Elizabeth replied quietly. “Because despite everything, after all these years, I know you still think I’d be better off with someone else and away from you and this life. I haven’t been able to change your mind–I just worked around it.”

“Elizabeth–”

“Can you take me home?” she asked.

Knowing he wasn’t going to be able to get through to her–not today anyway–he just nodded. She walked ahead of him towards the parking lot.

—-

Emily pushed open her office door, ignoring her assistant calling after her. She was worn out from the confrontation with Lucky and just needed a few minutes to herself.

“Miss Quartermaine!”

At the sound of her assistant’s urgent voice, Emily turned and sighed. “What is it, Calla?”

“You have messages,” she said, handing the sheaf of papers towards her. “They sounded important.”

“Thanks,” Emily said, taking them and entering her office. She closed the door behind her. As she walked towards her desk, she leafed through them. A contact in Jakarta, one in Japan…Emily frowned. Nikolas had called. She shoved all other thoughts aside in order to call her friend.

She checked her watch, and decided that while it was late in Greece, she didn’t want to wait. She dialed his number and leaned against the side of the desk.

“Hello?”

“Nik? It’s Emily.”

Nikolas Cassadine leaned back in his chair in his ornately decorated office and breathed a sigh of relief. “I was hoping you’d call tonight.”

“Well, it’s been a while since I’ve heard from you. Is anything wrong?” she asked.

“Actually, yeah.” Nikolas sighed again and scratched at his temple. “I need your help.”

“What’s wrong?” Emily asked, concerned. She straightened and crossed around the desk to sit down.

“It’s Gia.”

Emily frowned at the mention of her former nemesis. Gia and Nikolas had moved to Greece only a year after Emily returned to Port Charles, but they’d been in the same town long enough to annoy each other. “What’s wrong with Gia?”

“Well, she’s…she’s sick.”

“Oh.” Emily felt bad for thinking badly of her friend’s wife. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s, ah, breast cancer. We were going to have doctors flown in, but the best one is at the Sloan-Kettering Center in New York. We’re coming to Port Charles to stay on Spoon Island while she’s there for treatment.”

“Nikolas, I’m sorry. What can I do?”

“Well, I just wanted to know if you could help get Wyndemere open. Just hire an agency to get it cleaned and everything. I know you’re pregnant and if it’s too much–”

“No, no,” Emily insisted. “It’s fine. I’ll make a few calls.” She laughed a little. “I’m actually glad to have a distraction.”

“Still having problems with Lucky?” Nikolas asked.

“Yeah. Actually, we broke up today,” Emily said.

“Oh. I’m sorry, Em.”

“It’s been a long time in coming,” Emily said. “Is there anything else I can do?”

“No. Thanks so much, Em. I’d better call my mother.”

“All right. I’ll see you when you get into town.”

This entry is part 5 of 13 in the Fiction Graveyard: True To Your Heart

You see time, time is our friend
For you and me there is no end
And all you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your strength is enough
So have a little faith in me 

— Jewel, Have Little Faith In Me 

——————–

It was early afternoon when Carly pushed open the door to Luke’s Club. She knew she’d find her wayward uncle somewhere in here. She wasn’t sure why she was here—other than knowing Alexis would be paying Sonny a visit today and the urge to get good and drunk was more overwhelming than ever.

“Luke?” she called. Hearing nothing, she raised her voice. “LUKE!”

Luke emerged from the back of the club, wiping his hands on a dish towel. “You bellowed my dear?”

“Yeah.” Carly shifted, uncomfortably. “I need to get drunk and I don’t want it getting back to Sonny.”

Luke grinned. “Pull up a stool, Caroline and we’ll see what we can do.”

—-

Ned watched as Alexis sipped her coffee in the hospital cafeteria. “Are you going to do it?”

She glared at him over the brim of the Styrofoam cup. “You can’t let me have five seconds of peace, can you?”

“Alexis.”

She sighed and set the cup down. “I’m going to do it. I told Carly I was going to do it today. I can’t put it off anymore—Christie can’t afford it.”

“Are you going to the warehouse or the penthouse?” Ned asked.

Alexis pursed her lips. “Warehouse. I don’t want the kids to overhear the conversation.”

“Good.”

They sat in silence for a few minutes. Ned leaned forward. “Alexis, you might want to go before he leaves for the day.”

Alexis shoved her chair back and stood. She took a deep breath and picked up her purse. “I can do this. I can do this.”

“Honey, just remember to breathe, all right?”

She shot him a nasty look before leaving the table and heading for the double doors.

—-

Elizabeth was lying in the dark room, trying to bore herself to sleep when a streak of light appeared in the room. She blinked and raised herself up in the bed.

“I think Mama’s sleepin,” she heard a girl’s voice whisper.

“Nah, she’s just resting her eyes.”

The light flicked on and Elizabeth was confronted with the sight of her husband and two children.

“Mama!” Delilah said, letting go of Jason’s hands and rushing forward. She was too small to climb on the bed by herself, but it didn’t stop her from trying.

“Whoa there,” Jason laughed. He set Davie on the end of Elizabeth’s bed and lifted Dee up to her mother.

Dee immediately latched her tiny arms around Elizabeth’s neck and Davie was busy hugging her legs. Elizabeth wrapped her arms around her daughter’s small body and looked at Jason over Dee’s blonde hair.

“I missed you Mama,” Dee whispered into Elizabeth’s neck.

She closed her eyes and breathed in Dee’s powdery scent. “I missed you, too, baby.”

—-

Emily entered the Quartermaine mansion and breathed a sigh of relief when she realized that Lucky wasn’t waiting for her. She’d ducked his calls all day, but she wouldn’t put it past him to just show up at the house.

“Emily?”

Emily closed her eyes briefly before turning around. “Hi, Mom.”

Monica Quartermaine finished coming down the steps. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m fine,” Emily replied. “Really,” she added when she realized her mother didn’t believe her.

“Is everything all right?” Monica asked, concerned.

“Everything’s fine,” Emily lied. She set her briefcase down next to a table in the entry and made an attempt to pass her mother. Emily wanted nothing more than to lie down and put her feet up.

Monica caught her arm as Emily passed her. “Darling, please. Something’s wrong.”

Emily sighed. The urge to confide in her mother was becoming overwhelming. She needed someone who would tell her what she should do—she couldn’t keep dumping her problems on AJ, it wasn’t fair.

Monica could sense Emily’s will to keep her out was weakening and pushed a little further. “I love you so much. I wish we were closer.”

Emily rubbed her eyes and gave her mother a weary smile. Things were difficult in the Quartermaine house these days. What had once been a home filled with people who loved each other enough to fight over every detail had been reduced to a house with three people and a few servants. She missed the days when she thought Monica and Alan could solve her problems. “Tell you what,” Emily began. “You bring me a carton of ice cream, two spoons and we’ll talk in my room. I need to put my feet up—they’re killing me.”

Monica smiled and nodded. “I’ll be right up.”

—-

Carly stared at her shot of vodka. “It sucks.”

Luke sighed in relief. His niece had been staring at the untouched shot for ten minutes without speaking and he was about ready to shake her. Something had happened and he felt duty bound as the only relation that acknowledged Carly to try and help.

“You know, Caroline,” Luke began, “Me and you…we’re not close but we’re still family. You can talk to me.”

Carly rested her elbow on the bar and rested her head in her hand. “Have you ever made a decision to protect someone you loved—but it wasn’t exactly your decision and in retrospect, you should have stayed the hell out of it?”

Luke eyed her. “When I told Barbara Jean you were dead.”

Carly’s head shot up. “What?”

Luke shifted and poured himself a drink. “Barbara had just found you in bed with the good doctor and I figured it wasn’t a good time to tell her that you were her daughter. She found out and it was a good long time before our relationship returned to normal.”

“I’m gonna lose Sonny,” Carly whispered, her eyes fixed on the shot glass. “I’m gonna lose him and it’s gonna be my fault.”

“Darlin’, what happened?” Luke asked, becoming concerned.

“I kept something from him and he’s gonna find out what it is and I just know he’s gonna find out I knew and you know Sonny and secrets—he’s gonna kick me out of his life.”

Luke nodded. “He’s got a bad habit, I’ll admit. What did you keep from him?”

Carly shook her head. “No, I can’t…I wouldn’t tell Liz and I’m not telling you. I don’t…I can’t trust anyone.”

Luke folded his arms on the bar and leaned forward. “You can trust me.”

“You hate me,” Carly said.

“Nah, you’re family. I can’t hate family. I can dislike them, but when it comes down to it, you were born a Spencer and I don’t care if your last name is Corinthos, you’re Barbara’s daughter.”

“You’d never know it,” Carly muttered. “She never calls. Never writes.”

Luke shrugged. “Mid-life crisis. Only explanation why she’d remarry the nut. Or maybe it’s because Felicia remarried her ex-husband and Barbara was feeling nostalgic. I don’t know.”

“Is it wrong to not want Sonny to know I knew?” Carly asked quietly, letting her finger slide around the rim of the glass. “I mean, I know I should probably tell him—preemptive damage control. But there’s really only three people in the world who know that I know, and I’m one of them.”

“Darlin’, you’re makin’ my head spin,” Luke said. “Why don’t you tell me what’s goin’ on and maybe I can help.”

Carly shook her head. “Wasn’t gonna tell Liz and I ain’t gonna tell you. Not before Sonny knows the truth.”

“Fair enough. So you just want a place to down your sorrows while…?”

“Sonny finds out the truth,” Carly supplied. “He’s gonna be told and I just don’t want to be there when he does. I don’t know if I could act shocked enough for him. I need time.” She snorted. “Not that I haven’t had ten years or anything.”

—-

Alexis had stopped on the docks—reluctant to go any further. Her irritation at Ned had spurred her this far—but shed’ stopped only a few feet from the warehouse. She was having her doubts again.

She wanted to be absolutely sure that there was no other way—that this secret could be avoided. If maybe there was a way Carly could sneak Mandy and Drew into the hospital to be tested. There was every indication that they wouldn’t match but the slim chance that they would wasn’t lost on Alexis.

Alexis felt so guilty—she had everything to gain from the revelation of this secret and Carly stood to lose everything.

Because Alexis knew exactly how Sonny would react if he ever found Carly had known all along.

And adding to the problem that Michael could potentially discover his own paternity—

Alexis was surprised Carly was so agreeable.

She took a deep breath and continued her trek to the warehouse. The time had come – and quite frankly, she was sick of the secret.

—-

Delilah was still attached to Elizabeth’s side, her arms still looped around her neck. Davie had moved up and was on her other side. Elizabeth’s hands were stroking each one of their heads—Dee’s blonde hair and Davie’s brown hair.

“Why are you here, Mama?” Dee asked, snuggling into her mother’s side. Elizabeth shot a look at Jason, who looked at her apologetically.

“I didn’t know how to explain it.”

She frowned. Well, she didn’t particularly want to explain it. Sighing, she looked back down at the children. “Do you remember when we talked about you getting a little brother or sister?”

Dee raised her head and nodded solemnly. “And I tole you I wanted a brother so I could keep my room.”

Elizabeth gave her a small smile. “Right. Well, you’re not getting one anymore.”

Davie looked up then. “Why?” he asked.

“Well…” Elizabeth sighed. “The baby died.”

Dee’s blue eyes widened. “But I never seen the baby—how did it die?”

Jason and Elizabeth locked eyes. How to explain this to a four-year-old and a two-year-old was completely lost on them. Elizabeth briefly wondered how Carly had explained it to Michael all those years ago.

Elizabeth bit her lip and thought for a few minutes. “Well, the baby was inside me.”

“How did it get there?” Davie asked, his eyes wide with wonder.

“That’s a conversation for another day,” Jason said, unwilling to elaborate on that particular subject.

“Why did the baby die?” Dee asked.

Elizabeth twisted some strands of Dee’s silky blonde hair in her fingers. “I don’t know,” she said in a soft voice.

“Sometimes, things happen,” Jason said, not wanting to leave this part of the explanation on Elizabeth’s shoulder. “And we don’t know why.”

Dee met her mother’s eyes and said very seriously, “Did you do something wrong, Mama?”

—-

Monica watched Emily practically inhale the chocolate marshmallow ice cream and sighed. “I had no idea.”

Emily shrugged—trying to be casual. “Well it’s my fault. I let myself believe he loved me and not Liz. I never should have done that.”

“Honey, sometimes we can’t control things like that,” Monica said, patting her daughter’s hand. She shifted on Emily’s bed, trying to find a comfortable position. “And yes, sometimes we see what we want to see.”

“So do you understand why I can’t marry him?” Emily asked softly.

Monica nodded, a regretful smile on her face. “I understand. But I think the real question is…does he understand?”

Emily let the spoon drop into the carton and rested it on top of her abdomen. “No. I don’t think he sees it. He thinks he’s over her—I know it. But I can’t ignore the way his eyes lit up when I told him Elizabeth was pushing Jason away.”

“So you haven’t said anything to him about it?”

“I’ve tried,” Emily admitted. “But it’s a difficult subject to broach and he never wants to talk about it.” She snorted. “He thinks it’s my hormones, picking up on things that aren’t there.”

“I know people think you should marry him because you’re pregnant, but sweetheart, that’s never a reason to marry anyone,” Monica said.

Emily gave her mother a sudden smile. “Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For telling me exactly what I needed to hear.”

—-

“You really shouldn’t get yourself worked up over this,” Luke said. Carly had yet to touch her shot glass and he was getting worried. His niece had never been stable to begin with, but he was having serious doubts about her sanity.

“How am I not supposed to?” Carly asked, irritated. “Sonny is my husband—what the hell am I going to do when he kicks me out?”

“You don’t know that he will,” Luke said.

Carly gave him a humorless smile. “Come on, Luke. You know Sonny almost as much as I do. You know how he sees secrets.”

“You’re right, I do,” Luke nodded. “But you’re his wife. I’m sure that—” Luke stopped. “You know, darlin’, you’ll always have a place at my house.”

Carly smirked. “I’m sure Laura would love that offer.”

“Well, there are some rooms above the club,” Luke said. “Don’t worry about it. Let’s wait this out and see how everything plays out, all right?”

“Yeah, probably a good idea,” Carly replied.

“You gonna drink that or stare at it all day?” Luke said.

“I feel like I’m losing everything,” Carly said softly. “I’ve worked so hard to keep it all together and it’s all been one big fat lie.”

“Oh, now it’s not all lies,” Luke said. “You’ve got three beautiful children who adore you.”

“Do you know that somehow we’ve managed to keep Michael’s paternity a secret?” Carly asked him. “He has no idea he’s not Sonny’s biological son.”

Luke frowned. “You never told him?”

Carly shook her head. “No. And Michael’s going to find out one day—with everyone that knows the truth—it’s impossible.”

“Okay, well you’ve two beautiful children who adore you,” Luke replied.

Carly smiled and brought the shot glass to her lips. “You’re becoming soft in your old age,” she said and downed the shot.

—-

Elizabeth stared at her daughter in horror. “What?” she managed to choke out.

“Okay, I think Mama needs a rest,” Jason said, coming to her rescue. He lifted Delilah and put her on the floor. “Come on, Davie.”

“No!” Davie said, wrapping his arms around Elizabeth’s arm tightly. “I don’t wanna go!”

“Visiting hours are over anyway,” Jason said.

“I’ll be home tomorrow,” Elizabeth said, trying to her tone neutral. She kissed the top of his head. “Go home, sweetie.”

“I miss you, Mama,” Davie whispered.

“I miss you, too baby, but I’ll be home before you know it.” She started to pry Davie’s hands off. “Go with Daddy.”

“Come on,” Jason said. He lifted Davie up. “I’m going to leave them with Amy real quick and I’ll be back in.”

Elizabeth shook her head. “No, go home, Jason. They…they need to eat.”

“I’ll be right back,” Jason repeated. “Come on, guys.”

Once they had left, Elizabeth rolled over in her bed and closed her eyes tightly to keep the tears in.

—-

“You know you need to speak with him,” Monica said.

“Yeah, I know,” Emily replied. She licked the tip of her spoon. “And I need to do it before the baby is born. I’m probably…” She sighed. “I’m probably going to have to break up with him, you know that right?”

“I know,” Monica said. “I’m sorry you have to go through this, honey.”

“I wish Grandmother were still here,” Emily said quietly. “I think we could all use her help, you know?” Her smile was wistful. “She had such a way of cutting through the bullshit.”

Monica nodded. “I think that’s where Jason gets it from.”

“Yeah, probably,” Emily replied. “I feel so bad for him, you know? And for Liz. We were both looking forward to having the babies together.” She rubbed her protruding abdomen. “She was going to have an Audrey and I was going to have a Lila and they were going to be best friends forever.”

“How is your friendship with Elizabeth?” Monica asked.

Emily looked away, feeling guilty. “It’s fine, but it’s hard keeping my irritation for Lucky’s feelings out of it.” She looked back to her mother. “I know that’s unfair, but I can’t help it. If she hadn’t led him on, let him believe—”

“Honey, that’s not really fair,” Monica cut in. She sighed. “You can’t place the blame on Elizabeth entirely.”

Emily smiled ruefully. “I know. But it takes a lot of it off of me.”

—-

Sonny barely looked up from the pile of paperwork when someone announced Alexis Davis-Ashton was there to see him. He mumbled a response and returned his attention to work. He’d told Jason that if he came near the warehouse at all this week, Sonny would fire him. Elizabeth and the kids needed him more.

Alexis entered and stood quietly for a few moments watching him work. Finally, Sonny realized she was there and looked up. A smirk crossed his face. “I sincerely hope you’re not here with an arrest warrant.”

“No. That’s not it at all,” Alexis said. She clasped her hands in front of her, nervously. “I’m not quite sure how to put this.”

“Well, just say what you have to say and go,” Sonny murmured, flipping a paper over. “I have a lot to do.”

“I suppose the best way to begin is tell you that my daughter has leukemia,” Alexis said.

Sonny looked up then and she could see sincere regret in his eyes. “I’m sorry to hear that, Alexis. I hope she’ll be okay.” He set the papers down and sat back in his chair. “But I don’t see what that has to do with me.”
Alexis looked over his head and to the window behind him. She could see the entire marina from here. Christina loved the boats and she loved swimming. She wondered if her daughter would ever be able to do the things she loved again.

“She needs bone marrow,” Alexis continued. “And Eddie and I don’t match.”

Sonny nodded. “That’s too bad, Alexis. Losing a child can be difficult. But like I said, I’m not sure—”

“She needs all of her siblings to be tested,” Alexis pressed on. Sonny frowned.

“I thought Eddie was her only sibling,” Sonny replied.

Alexis shook her head. “He’s not.”

“Oh…what about Brooke?” Sonny asked, remembering Ned’s other daughter.

“I know she won’t match,” Alexis said, breathlessly. “She’s not Christina’s sister.”

—–

Elizabeth felt Jason’s weight pressing into the mattress and she buried her head into the pillow.

“Hey, you okay?” he asked.

“I’m fine,” she said.

“You’re lying,” he replied, running a hand over her brown hair. “You know Dee didn’t mean anything by what she said. She loves you.”

“I know,” Elizabeth whispered.

“She’s young,” Jason went on. “She doesn’t really understand what’s going on—”

“I know,” Elizabeth repeated. “But it doesn’t change the truth.”

He frowned and leaned closer. “What do you mean?”

She rolled over and met his eyes. “That somehow, I know this is my fault.”

—-

“She’s not?” Sonny repeated. “I don’t understand. Brooke—”

“Because Christina’s not Ned’s daughter!” Alexis said in a rush.

Sonny clenched his fists. “What are you trying to tell to me, Alexis?”

“Christina’s your daughter.”